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GOODBYE D [17 Mar 2006|06:57am]
[ mood | gloomy ]
[ music | Love's Divine ~ Seal ]

Last Monday, an old friend whom I haven't talked to for the longest time suddenly messaged me in YM. I wasn't really sure if I should reply because we didn't really part well. I was thinking, his girlfriend might start harassing me again. After contemplating on it... I finally decided what the heck? We just chatted for a while to catch up a lil... He was asking for my number but I didn't wanna give him coz his skanky girlfriend might start texting me again... I just don't want trouble. I had to sleep so we said bye... He said; "Hope to see you soon! Miss you!" I didn't bother replying anymore coz I don't wanna encourage him. Little did I know... that'll be the last time I'll ever talk to him.

Wednesday morning, Gracie called me to tell me the bad news. D had car accident Tuesday night. He died before he reached the hospital.

I'll never see him again... I feel bad for shutting him out for such a long time. I never would have thought, he would leave us too soon.

In a way, I do feel glad I was able to talk to him before he went away. I know I would be banging my head now if I hadn't replied at all. I guess that was God's simplest way of showing me that I should always forgive & forget. I have this habit of shutting out people in my life that has wronged me.

I never would have thought... I still can't believe it. My heart goes to those he left especially his lil girls. So many things I wanna say to him but for now... It is indeed goodbye.

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Counting Bodies Like Sheep to the Rhythm of War Drums [30 Nov 2005|01:56am]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | Pet ~ APC ]


Video code provided by Music Video Codes

Part 2 of the song Pet. Another WOW for APC! Ü

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THE SWEETEST KISS [29 Aug 2005|04:52pm]
[ mood | loved ]
[ music | A Message ~ Coldplay ]

Kids have a way with moms. I dunno if it's because they know how much we love them & know how to manipulate us or simply because they're just the sweetest thing in the world.

Last night, while I was sleeping, Nate woke me with a kiss on my cheek. I asked him what was that for & he just said; La lang, I love you..."

Then I said; "Awwww... Why are you so sweet hmmm?"

He said; "Coz you're the best mom."

Now that is the sweetest, most rewarding words I've ever heard. Ain't he the best kid?

Thanks to those Yugioh cards... I'm gonna buy him more next week. LOL

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PURPLE HAZE [28 Aug 2005|11:16am]
[ mood | numb ]
[ music | G-Unit - Wanna Get To Know You (4:25) ]

Purple Haze... it may seem like the perfect name. On the night this picture was taken, a very dear friend of mine almost lost his life...yes, on this very night. It was a dark night for the eight of us in the room. My friend marth quickly gobbled down two scrumptious, chewy, chocolate brownies...little did he know, that it would almost cost him his life.

I'm brought back to reality after being lost in the light of its purple haze...hearing the belching from the depths of marth's bowels bouncing off the four walls of the 5 sq metered-bathroom... Don't follow the light Marth....don't follow the light... His screaming and belching echoed in my ears...oh my, I said to myself... is it his time, little bird? Dear little bird.. flap your wings... fly... Marth, oh Marth. I felt it...a heavy pull on my consciousness... feeling the drowsiness. I decided to stand up and make sure the little bird was still doing fine... I should not have done this,you see. I, in my state of consciousness, was not prepared for the intense and horrific scene I was about to bear witness... there lay on the floor,was the little bird drenched in his own vomit, beads of cold sweat dripping from his forehead... Puddles of what seemed to be Marth's dinner gathered on the summer yellow tiles of the floor.

No brownies for me... not anymore.

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BEST LOOKING GUY IN THE WORLD? [09 Aug 2005|05:28pm]
[ mood | energetic ]
[ music | Long Walk ~ Jill Scott ]



I just got this thru email saying he's from India & the title holder for the Best Looking Guy In The World and damn... He is H-O-T!!! Damn... I wonder what's wrong with him? Hehehehe!
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3 THINGS II [22 Jul 2005|05:06pm]
[ mood | thankful ]
[ music | Call Me A Dog ~ Temple Of The Dog ]

Stole this from slate

Three names you go by:
· Cyndie
· Cynds
· Soto

Three screen names you've had:
· goofy_gurl
· silly_gurl
· blake

Three physical things you like about yourself:
· Hair
· Neck
· Skin color

Three physical things you don't like about yourself:
· Tummy
· Boobies
· Teeth

Three parts of your heritage:
· Yellow skin
· Headstrong
· Eyes

Three things you are wearing right now:
· Adidas
· Jeans
· Red bomber jacket

Three favorite bands / musical artists:
Depends on my mood... Right now...
· Audioslave
· Coldplay
· Erykah Badu

Three favorite songs:
· Heaven's Dead
· Bag Lady 2
· Swallowed In The Sea

Three things you want in a relationship:
· True friendship
· Everlasting love
· Great sex

In other words, to live happily ever after…That’s why I’ll always be single!

Three physical things about the preferred sex that appeals to you:
· Nice body
· Nice smile
· Dark skin

Three of your interests:
· Nate
· Music
· Organics

Three things you want to do really badly right now:
· Sleep
· Shop for new clothes, shoes, bags
· Notebook

Three things that scare you:
· Death of a loved one
· Be stuck here in the Philippines forever!
· Nate growing up. :(

Three of your everyday essentials:
· Water bottle
· Jacket
· My bag

Three careers you have considered / are considering:
· Flight attendant
· Trainer
· Study nursing

Three places you want to go on vacation:
· The whole Europe!
· Africa
· Ibiza

Three kids' names you like:
· Nathan
· Gabrielle
· Kasey

Three things you want to do before you die:
· Kiss Nate & tell him how much I love him.
· Sky diving
· Pray

Three ways you are stereotypically a boy:
· Boys are the weaker sex
· Men are all the same
· Boys have penis, girls have vagina.

Three ways you are stereotypically a girl:
· Girls have vagina, boys have penis
· Women are the stronger sex
· Women are rational creatures.
Three celeb crushes:
· Chris Cornell
· Colin Farrell
· Hayden Christensen

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KUYA NATE [15 Jul 2005|06:14pm]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | Stay With You ~ John Legend ]


Aren't they the cutest?


Kissy Kissy


Nate's such a sweet kid. He's always playing with baby Kenneth my cousin. So he's techincally Nate's uncle. Hehehe...

He'd always tell me he wants a little brother... But I don't think I'll ever be ready for another baby! I just can't imagine myself doing it again. LOL
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BIRTHDAY PICS [13 Jul 2005|12:34pm]
[ mood | busy ]
[ music | Heaven's Dead ~ Audioslave ]

Late post from my 27th birthday. Damn I'm ancient!!! Hardly have time to do anything else. I had fun that night. Most of my closest friends made it except for my bastard sista. It was just inuman & food trip at my mom's. My mother cooked Japanese super yummy!



27th Beerday Pics )
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GETTING OLDER [17 Jun 2005|01:19pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]
[ music | Be Yourself ~ Audioslave ]

I turned 27 today! Hehehehe! Well, what can I say, I'm almost 30 & I still feel like I'm the same person I was when I was 17! LOL

I'm very happy today although I'm currently working right now on my big day. I just spent the day at my mom's. Tomorrow we're just gonna have dinner at home with a few bunch of people. My mom offerred to cook Sukiyaki my favorite! And Yakiniko! Yummmm! Then prolly alcohol & KARAOKE! Hahahaha! Yeah, definitely for oldies!

My gosh, I still can't believe 10 years of my life just passed me by! Nate is turning 10 this year. MY GAS! Next is what? Puberty?

Anyway... I'm applying in another call center. I'm really really not happy with the way they run things here. I don't wanna start with it anymore coz it's gonna ruin my beautiful day! I thought I was gonna be depressed onmy big day but surprisingly I'm happy. Everyone remembered, even the ones I didn't want to. LOL But I'm very grateful. A lot of people love me & that's what matters.

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A WARNING SIGN [07 Jun 2005|06:53pm]
[ mood | weird ]
[ music | Warning Sign ~ Coldplay ]

A warning sign
I missed the good part then I realized
I started looking and the bubble burst
I started looking for excuses

Come on in
I’ve gotta tell you what a state I’m in
I’ve gotta tell you in my loudest tones
I started looking for a warning sign

When the truth is, I miss you
Yeah the truth is, that I miss you, so

A warning sign
You came back to haunt me and I realized
That you were an island and I passed you by
And you were an island to discover

Come on in
I’ve gotta tell you what a state I’m in
I’ve gotta tell you in my loudest tones
That I started looking for a warning sign

When the truth is, I miss you
Yeah the truth is, that I miss you so
And I’m tired I should not have let you go

Ooooooooooooooooo

So I crawl back into your open arms
Yes I crawl back into your open arms
And I crawl back into your open arms
Yes I crawl back into your open arms


This says it all!


I can't wait to have the new album... I was listening to some of the tracks from X&Y and they're still as good as ever!
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MOMENTS WITH NATE [29 May 2005|12:38pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | Ibulong Mo Sa Dilim ~ Brainsalad ]

Nate & I were shopping for school stuff yesterday... He chooses his shoes now unlike before I buy what I think is nice.

While we were looking for school bags, I was showing him different bags to help him pick. I showed him this really cute bag from The Incredibles. You know what he said?

"Incredibles?!? What do you think of me? A baby?"

My jaw literally dropped. How the hell should I react to that? I shut up for a while, then when I regained my composure, I said;

"You know what? I'm so proud of you... You're a big boy now. Pick whatever you like."

He just smiled at me... Haaaaay... Growing up & growing old. Hehehehe... I wonder what he'd say next?

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UPDATE! [21 May 2005|10:45am]
[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | H ~ Tool ]

Wow! It's been a while since the last time I posted something here. I did miss my LJ but I've been so busy with work I don't even have the time to do anything else. By the time I get home I'd be so damn tired. Haaaaay...

Anyways... Last night, while Nate & I were talking, he said; "Alam mo Ma, I'm so excited to go to school. Grade four nako! Pants nako" I'm like.... Errr... OMG! Yeah, he's gonna start wearing pants! I can't believe he's in 4th grade already. What happened? I thought he was just my baby. :(

I'm not being selfish but somehow it makes me sad seeing him grow up & have a life of his own. But the bigger part of me makes me so proud of him especially when he acts so mature at times. Like he understands me. I can't be any luckier. :)

We watched Episode III the other day. Nate & I loved it! The best of all Episodes. I'm so in love with Hayden Christiensen. He has the sexiest lazy voice & nice intense eyes although in the movie, he looked like he had a bad day all throughout the movie. Hehehe... My cousin in law brought his lightsaber toy. It's so nice i wanna buy one if it weren't so damn expensive. LOL But it looks so real in the dark.

I'm so glad Nate & I have somewhat the same interest. We're thinking of collecting the DVD or the action figures but it's too many.

YAWNS... Getting sleepy. Better go now. Zzzzzzz...

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GEMINI WOMAN [24 Apr 2005|12:49pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | She Is A Wave ~ Brainsalad ]

A good looking woman with brains, a very interesting person. She has a fast movement and she could not sit still or stand still long. She is able to do many things at the same time and do it fast. If you date her, you will feel like dating many women at the same time. You cannot tie her down with the word "Love" because she cares about love but is it not a major factor of her life. You have to be able to adjust yourself to get along with her many different characters.
She is a dreamer and has many dreams. She’s eager to learn something new all the time. Even she is the 2 in 1 mixed character type, she is quite lucky in love. You have to put all your efforts to win her affection. Even when she likes you and wonder about your wit, she will also see and inspect your bad side at the same time, because it is in her nature.
She able to keep all kinds of mixed emotions without annoying you or letting you know at all. She can cheer you up by acting like a free little bird. Her conversation will not bore you. She’s able to talk to you in any subjects. She can make you feel like you are the luckiest man alive. She can make you feel like she needs all your care, but once she needs to stand alone, she can stand alone firmly an comfortably.
She can be your best buddy and talk to you about anything. She can join all your activities with the same energy that you have. She is a quick wit person and learns new things very fast. She can see your projects and she can give you good advice. If she thinks you are not sure that you want her for yourself, she will act like your best friend only, a cool woman.
She can easily make a guy fall in love with her. Her multiple changes and many moods is a "Charm" for many men. She can be laughing for 2 minutes and later suddenly quiet. She wants to find only 1 true love and she wants to meet her dream guy. She expects a lot and nearly too much. She is constantly waiting for her knight shinning armor even she is with a steady boy friend. She can fall in love or fond of someone else while she is with you. If you break up with her, she will forget you quite fast, because change is in her nature. The Gemini woman breaks more heart than woman in other Zodiac. Because she is a dreamer and always waiting for her knight shinning armor ,so her love life can be complex or a mess.
She hates to write a long letter, so if you write her a letter and expect a prompt reply, forget it. Because she has a multiple personality and multiple ideas, so she hates to put them down in written proof. Because she knows what she belief today can be different tomorrow.
She could communication with more than 1 language, a real gifted linguistic. If she wants to tell you any bad comments, she won't say it straight away, but she will talk to you about many other things and accidentally come to that subject without offending you. Normally she will not lie.
She will work hard and once a while takes a long rest. She can get bored and tired with her own surrounding more than at work. She never feel content with her present work, money, or reputations, she will drive to have more. Don't ask her what is her ultimate contentment for she will not have an answer.
Once you get to know her, she will be a supportive person and always be beside you. She has a beautiful dream and she loves to have someone walk side by side with her, together and equally.


GEMINI MAN
A man in this Zodiac has a thin long and proportional face. He has a high forehead and very cleaver. He looks like he can not stand or sit still, a very fast person. His nose is just right in size, thin lips, talk fast and very talkative. He can think faster than he talks, but once he start talking, he will talk non stop as if god has gifted him with that special talk machine mouth. He likes to cut his hair short and he is very athletic. He is a tall, slim and every movement of his is "Fast" or nearly call "Hyperactive".
He has a long fingers and always tapping on table or moving his finger as if he is trying to grab something. He is the type who will write or scribble on paper, he never stay still. His hair always well comb or neat. He will spent a long time to comb his hair. He will keep his manicure and pedicure clean. He is a well dress and clean guy, so if you like cleanliness, you will love him.
He will keep all his cloth in big closet, and never throw away even shirts he never wear any more, but yet he still keep buying new cloths and make sure he is in style. He knows how to dress well even with a low budget. He get bored easily with his favorite cloths , cologne. He is very picky, so soap and his cologne even have to be in the same trend or same scent.
If you date this kind of guy, you might think you are dating 2 guys, you will have to guess his feeling and emotion. Is he doing thing because it is a duty, or is it because he wants to? He change his mind as fast as he change a new pairs of shoes. He can pick up a book and roughly read through and understand it's contents, so if you see a Gemini man who reads the whole book, then he must be influenced by other Zodiac.
He hate to set fix schedule, and dislike a boring same routine job. He could hardly be on time, and can only keep time if it is complete important and necessary. He does not come late because he forgets, but because he always find other attractions along the way. He likes to act opposite to what he wants to do. He is a very good speaker and make a very good politician. He can easily persuade other people and well presented himself in public, a real charmer. If he is a writer, he will write the best seller.
He always search for truth and constantly study himself. He never satisfy about his fame, his reputation or money, because he thinks he deserved more. He will keep searching even he is not sure what is his ultimate satisfaction.
Woman in love normally wants to feel secure and stable, but if you fall in love with this guy be prepare to be alone. He will come to see you when he feels like it. He won't even know how he spent his days everyday, so adjust yourself if you love him.
Dating him is like dating 2 guys, so today he can tell you how much he loves you, but tomorrow he might call you to cancel your date. When he upsets, he could tell you he hate your dress, even it is the same dress he used to tell you make you look very sexy. Do not ask him why he is that's way for he won't have any explanations too. When he is back to normal mood, he will take you out again and forget what just happened.
You can not expect him to be the same person now, and forever. His changes will depend on you, for better or for worst. If you like to take risk and dare for challenges, you will get along with him fine. He keeps his emotional secretly as if hiding it, so you will not be able to see if he crazy in love with you, or does not give a damn at all, but be calm and patient. He will never leave you if he thinks you are a puzzle, then he will spent times solving this puzzle.

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MOMMY DEAREST [28 Feb 2005|01:41pm]
[ mood | distressed ]
[ music | Tones Of Home ~ Blind Melon ]

I'm staying at my mom's for a couple of days. She doesn't have a maid & she just had an operation so I'm helping around. I haven't lived with her for years! & I know how it would feel like again...

My mother & I can never live in the same roof. I've accepted that a long time ago. & she hasn't changed in years. LOL She still as cranky as I remembered. Plus the pain. Imagine that! She'll nag about every little thing... Arrrrgggh!!!

I was there for a day & I can't stand it anymore! Haaaay... I love my mom, I really do. It's just that I can't live with her.

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QA NIGHT OWT [24 Feb 2005|04:03am]
[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | Orestes ~ A Perfect Circle ]

Went out with my colleagues last Sat to celebrate our long awaited retro. It was fun as usual. The after Absinth we went to Underground formerly known as Kalye Bar. All of a sudden I lost my interests in clubs. Rock is what we crave for nowadays.


US!!!

@ Absinth )
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WHAT DO YOU REMEMBER ABOUT ME? [18 Feb 2005|03:36pm]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | Brenna ~ A Perfect Circle ]

If you read this journal,
even if I don't speak to you often,
post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want.
It can be good or bad,
just so long as it happened. :)


Then post this to your journal.
See what people remember about you...

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NO INTERNET [11 Feb 2005|02:52am]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | Mayonaise ~ Smashing Pumpkins ]

Grrrrrr! No more internet at work? Damn! They blocked all sites! Can't surf anymore while working. Huhuhu... I'm absolutely gonna die of boredom! Haaaaay... So I'm just trippin on MP3s & Photoshop. :(

Good news is, after the loooooooong wait. We're finally gonna get our increases this 15th. Thank God! At least I don't have to worry where I'm gonna get the money for Nate's school this year. As if I can count on Sperm Donor to help me out. Sometimes I'm really really tempted to sue his ass but then again, I'm very lucky to have such great Half-Bakes. I don't wanna strain our relationship just because of their loser brother. Haaaaay... I guess you really can't have it all. LOL

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LAUGH TRIP [04 Feb 2005|04:18am]
[ mood | dorky ]
[ music | Brown Sugar ~ D'Angelo ]



Now those are called TITS! HAHAHAHA!

La lang I just saw this from someone's photoblog. Hehehehe...


I had the funniest morning... I was lighting my friend's cigarette just to taste it. I really missed smoking. Anyways... I forgot that the lighter's flame is in full blast. Damn! I burnt my freaking eyelashes! HAHAHAHA!

Now I have uneven eyelashes... :P

I remember when we were in college... Back in our stoned days... I was lighting this roach coz I wanted to smoke some more. Imagine, I was lighting it & accidentally inhaled the flame... I felt the heat inside my nose. I told Donna; "I think I burnt my nose hair!" HAHAHAHAHAHA! She was laughing like hell she said; "DORK!"

I saw the ashes fell from my nose hole & I could really smell burnt hair. LOL

Now my eyelashes! :(

Hay naku... I guess that means I should stay away from smoking. Ü
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GLOOMY SUNDAY [26 Jan 2005|02:02am]
[ mood | lazy ]
[ music | Must Be Dreaming ~ Frou Frou ]

This is one of the nicest foreign films I've seen. It's a strange love story but beautiful as well. I wish I was in her shoes. Hehehehe...

Gloomy Sunday

Sunday is gloomy, my hours are slumberless. Dearest, the shadows I live with are numberless. Little white flowers will never awaken you, not where the black coach of sorrow has taken you. Angels have no thought of ever returning you. Would they be angry if I thought of joining you?

Gloomy Sunday.

Gloomy is Sunday, with shadows I spend it all. My heart and I have decided to end it all. Soon there'll be candles and prayers that are sad, I know. But let them not weep, let them know that I'm glad to go. Death is no dream, for in death I'm caressing you. With the last breath of my soul I'll be blessing you.

Gloomy Sunday.

Dreaming, I was only dreaming. I wake and I find you asleep in the deep of my heart, dear. Darling, I hope that my dream never haunted you. My heart is telling you how much I wanted you.

Gloomy Sunday.
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HAPPY CHRISTMAS [24 Dec 2004|03:22pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]
[ music | I'll Be Home For Christmas ~ Frank Sinatra ]

It's almost Christmas again & I just can't help but notice how time flies. Seems like only yesterday. Hehehe... It has been a good year & I can't ask for anything more.

So I'd like to greet ya all my LJ friends a Merry Merry Christmas! May you be blessed as I am. Mwah! :)

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