| that old familiar feeling... |
[14 Mar 2009|03:30pm] |
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oh dear, it's been like 4 months since i last cut...
i havent had anything like that on my mind since then
which is great... but... not so good now...
its been on my mind, in and out it would pop in my my head
i've been able to shake it off... but not recently
i hate when this happens
things where doing good
but now.. not so much...
i just cant slip again...
i dont want to fail myself
and everyone whos been with me through this struggle
ive been trying to get off my meds and if i slip
gosh knows whats gonna happen
ive been active doing all sorts of different things
but its soo hard not to go to the razor i have hidden
i should throw that away.
but i'm afraid if i get up and throw it away
i'd just cut instead.
"For he will rescue you from every trap.
And protect you from the fatal plague.
He will shield you with his wings.
He will shelter you with his feathers.
His faithful promises are your armor and protection."
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