|
[19 Oct 2003|09:39pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 cynical |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
my chemical romance - drowning lessons |
] |
im too damn tired to put anything in here for all you people who dont care ...
=- D
good night
SINCERELY,
turtle
|
|
| *sigh* |
[16 Oct 2003|09:44pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 drained |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
the get up kids-overdue |
] |
today was rather uneventful... i worked my ass off during videotech to get my report finished and STILL didnt finish it... i need MORE broll of people making out ... how much fucking footage of two kids dry humping in public do you need !?!?!
so i edited most of it and ...yea... i worked my ass off all of 1st period... came in third period and stayed thru my lunch... stayed after school until 5 o'clock...and STILL didnt get the fucking shit done... oh well
went to the theatre guild meeting ...i dont know why ... but i did... and then i played with wes and we wrote some stuff for "pish posh poppycock" with kyle and... yea... my day blew ass...
OH WAIT !! i went and visited jen ! that was cool ! .....................................................
SINCERELY,
turtle
|
|
| "need you like water in my lungs" |
[14 Oct 2003|09:45pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 devious |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
brand new |
] |
im dying my hair black tonight...
so much more to say ... but i dont feel like fucking up the perfection...
|
|
| cooooooool |
[13 Oct 2003|11:31pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 accomplished |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
bright eyes-bowl of oranges |
] |
so i figured something out ... i DONT want a girlfriend ... too much effort... too much comitment... too much hurt... i just want someone to hold and kiss ... but no comitment ... it makes sense right ? ... no comitment=no cry, right ? right... but i dont want to be an asshole and trick a girl into thinking that i want a girlfriend... so i need to like ... talk this out ... or something ... oh well ...
|
|
| what you say ? *in high pitch arabic voice* |
[13 Oct 2003|11:07am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 cheerful |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
saves the day - in reverie |
] |
IM HAPPY !!!???!!! besides... losing half my primary friends ... but other than that ... life is COOL !
i really do miss the girls... and i think tommy is coming around .. he imed me last night and we chatted about stuff so... yea... but i dont know if im EVER going to be friends with amy again ... and a new thing popped up ... melanie is umm.. not pissed off but "sick of my shit" along with amanda and amy and tommy(?) not quite sure ... but yea ! im just a bad friend. ....................................................................................................................i'm done
SINCERELY,
turtle
|
|
| ajdsf |
[11 Oct 2003|04:26pm] |
last night ROCKED ! thats all you need to know =- D
SINCERELY,
turtle
|
|
| aesdf;ljkj |
[10 Oct 2003|02:15pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
chipper |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
northstar-cinderella |
] |
so yesterday i go to work ... its raing...HARD... they tell me to o on carts. i end up out there for two hours... in the pouring rain... i see tommy, colton, melanie, and amanda. the only one who says ANYTHING to me is melanie... and all she did was laugh at me ... what a greeeeeat feeling... so ... me and ryan start talking ... i always thought he never really liked me or whatever but hes a really cool kid... so ... i get off work ... call jen ask if she wants to hang out... she says she has plans with tommy so i say thats cool. so i call kyle up than hang out with him and jen calls and ask if i wanna go over to her house and i tell her i already made plans... sorry baby you missed yo chance! so we go to wal-mart, buy a disposable black and white camera and document the whole night ... which is a good idea for anything... so we went to all these random places and just took pictures of us doing random shit... it was AWESOME !!! mucho fun night, we hit up randalls, heb, blockbuster, exxon, gatti town and raided a church !
and after all that we stole a big orange tube thing with a light on top and threw it off the kingwood bridge... as a warning ... this is wat you get when you mess with us ! thrown off the bridge in a ...big..orange...tube..........thing...with a light on top ! than we came home..tiiiiiiiiiiiiired... im done !
SINCERELY,
turtle
|
|
| interesting |
[08 Oct 2003|04:55pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 giggly |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
coca-favor house atlantic(holyshit.. why is it so poppy !?) |
] |
well today...
i go to school aaaaaaaaand
1st period-video tech. and soden keeps hinting around me being producer for the news show and he asks steven "who do you think should be the new news producer ?" and steven says "not me" than soden gives me a look... than he smiles... and i say "why dont you get graig to do it ? hees good at that shit" and he says "ok everyone... turtle is your new producer" and i say "shit".
its gonna be soooooo much pressure... im gonna have to liek ... stay after school and shit... damn ... oh well... its gonna be kinda cool being in charge of everyone tho... i just dont want everyone to call me an asshole as soon as i tell them to do some fucking work, and i know thats exactly whats gonna happen... damn... oh well ... like i said ... it should be kinda cool still. so ...
2nd period-9th grade campus cuz im a computer intern there and ...yea... nothing important happened there.. helped a bunch of kids do their problems... blah blah
3rd period-our teacher doesnt show up for half the class period... its a sub... he then decided to STILL give us a test after were half way into the rookie... that dirty bastard... so we took the test ... blah... easy... im really hyper... so i turn to lauren and start writing mean things about the sub... like "he smells bad" and all this other immature stuff because thats me ... immature and annoying and blah blah ... she bursts into laughs and the sub gets ultra pissed and just stares at me the rest of the period. i then persist to put my head down and chuckle upon myself. then he wouldnt stop staring at lauren so i write this note and at the top it says "from the sub" and under it says "do you like me ? yes or no" ... again ... she bursts into laughter and i throw my head on the desk and try not to look suspicious... which im quite bad at mind you. aaaaaaaaand yea... thats about it ...
4th period-english was pretty cool. we read sir gawain and the green knight which was soooooo easy and everyone was like ... braindead... and while we were doing our worksheet he put in "streetlight manifesto" so that was cool and then ...yea... travis threw this big humka paper and keylas face and it was REALLY funny ... so keyla slapped him in the face and it was the greatest thing EVER...and i turned in my bullshit story that took me a good hmm.... 20 minutes to write... it was sooooooooo bad... it was about ninjas and a nuclear impulsed puppy ninja dog... funny how i can bullshit anything off the top of my head. than after that we uhh.... yea... thats about it ...
highlight = promotion to producer
which is gonna RULE ! im gonna get a letter jacket and everything !
gonna kick ass !...k ... im done
SINCERELY,
turtle
|
|
| just sigh |
[07 Oct 2003|09:14pm] |
i feel like a romeo in a world filled with dead juliets
with rose slit wrists
and a touch of love pressed lips
drive your drenched dagger of decay in my back and hear me say
"lead me to the krooked edge
make me jump watch me fall"
laugh aloud
while i just scream these words out and stay proud
the words never mended, they only manifested
because i feel as though im ended
you hit this bleeding heart that beats within this wounded chest
but its still pumping, im still kicking
im no longer attatched to you,
im just a lifeless, broken puppet
so why do you haunt my dreams of happiness ?
why are your eyes still tattooed to my thoughts ?
i want to forget you so bad
but i was just a fad
just another boy, im just another boy
add me to your collection of toys
make me think im useful for joy
im only a scar
how far do you think youll get
before you lose it all
before you take to much to end in a fall
and think of how your life went by so fast
how long until you start to regret your past
so heres the letters i never sent
with all the words i never meant
you ended up that bitch in this song
even though we didnt last that long
just take my hand and close my eyes
and pray to god that i dont die
|
|
|
[07 Oct 2003|05:22pm] |
Googlism for: turtle
turtle is on a journey
turtle is welcomed to new home at the
turtle is the most frequent visitor to north carolina
turtle is my roll dawg
turtle is this?
turtle is this? please answer asap
turtle is increasing
turtle is small and very
turtle is named shelly
turtle is on a journey
turtle is welcomed to new home at the
turtle is the most frequent visitor to north carolina
turtle is my roll dawg
turtle is this?
turtle is this? please answer asap
turtle is increasing
turtle is small and very
turtle is named shelly
turtle is so slow" native american
turtle is no slowpoke
turtle is colored green
turtle is shown to
turtle is too sensitive
turtle is a boy or girl??
turtle is chewing on it
turtle is welcomed to new home at the national aquarium in baltimore
turtle is the most frequent visitor to north carolina's coast? 30 march 1998
turtle is my roll dawg by min lee july 2
turtle is heard in our land”
turtle is divided into two parts
turtle is a screen saver for windows 95
turtle is increasing due to the growing impact of tourism on important nesting beaches both in greece and in
turtle is shedding
turtle is a little slow getting the joke
turtle is small and very light as the desert varnish turns the petroglyph to the same color as the granite of grapevine canyon
turtle is named shelly she is silly she likes strawberry jelly staci tambourine my dog sat on a log and then a frog jumped on the log
turtle is so slow
turtle is found in warm waters around the world
turtle is acting funny
turtle is too fat
turtle is sick take it to a veterinarian immediately
turtle is so shy
turtle is 2
turtle is a marine animal
turtle is down
turtle is colored green = kura
turtle is resting comfortably in a tank until the results are in and treatment is begun
turtle is still eating well
turtle is cool
turtle is one of six species of turtles native to western north carolina and one of the most common
turtle is listed as a threatened species in minnesota
turtle is dead
turtle is shown to neighbours in a bangkok slum
turtle is considered an endangered species throughout its worldwide range
turtle is one of nature?s most timid and gentle creatures
turtle is medium
turtle is then cleaned
turtle is the source of the term "tortoise shell" because of the pattern of markings on its shell
turtle is listed as endangered by the international union for the conservation of nature
turtle is probably too fat
turtle is smaller in overall size than the common sliders and painted turtles
turtle is now an endangered species
turtle is brought to the lab it is assigned a three letter code and its measurements
turtle is endangered and faces a very high risk of extinction in the wild in the near future
turtle is also called the
turtle is the smallest of the sea turtles
turtle is this??
turtle is dying
turtle is most at home in streams
turtle is an inclusive word that refers to all species of water turtle
turtle is very rare in iowa and throughout most of its range
turtle is a shy but active inland turtle found in eastern australia its scientific name is chelodina
turtle is a shore creature
turtle is in the tradition of the
turtle is similar in appearance
turtle is the perfect pet for someone who is looking for a turtle and has large amounts of space to spare
turtle is the tennessee state reptile
turtle is no longer on a wanted poster
turtle is found in warm waters
turtle is the largest living turtle in the world
turtle is safely removed from the net
turtle is immersed in water
turtle is called the box turtle because it is able to raise up both the front and rear of its shell for protection
turtle is
turtle is what we need
turtle is a medium sized turtle with an average shell length of approximately seven to nine inches and a maximum length of 10 inches
turtle is unknown
turtle is locked
turtle is one of two turtle species on the great plains that are terrestrial
turtle is the largest turtle in minnesota
turtle is hidden
turtle is hunting
turtle is the most important aspect of logo
turtle is recovering at the audubon aquarium of the americas after being rescued in a bayou near lake charles
turtle is known for the striking yellow and red stripes on its head and neck and the red pattern on its marginal scutes
turtle is 0 degree
turtle is said to be the most valuable of all sea turtles
turtle is even slow for a turtle
turtle is more of a forest species
turtle is more than its shell from turtles by anita baskin
turtle is the only safety device that protects your children from water accidents by sounding an alarm the instant he or she falls or ventures into the
turtle is a sea turtle so unique that it has its own family
turtle is officially listed as endangered
turtle is one of the most common species
turtle is born a poor swimmer
turtle is the only alarm that sounds a piercing siren the instant a child falls into the water
|
|
|
[06 Oct 2003|04:18pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
accomplished |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
streetlight manifesto |
] |
i think i should just start copy and pasting all my old entries in my journal so that i dont have to even type it again because the same shit keeps happeneing ... soooooo next time im not going to give a shit and just throw it out the window... or atleast pretend like i dont care. oh well... but im forgetting about everything and im not going backwards anymore and ...yea...
SINCERELY,
turtle
|
|
| WHY !! |
[04 Oct 2003|01:16am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 confused |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
bright eyes/my chemical romance |
] |
you know how sometimes you just need someone... like ... just to hold hands with... or hug... not just when coming and going... and sometimes you just need someone to kiss you... its kind of like when your a kid and you need someone to hold and nurture you. its like that ... but at a higher level just to drown out the lonely feelings for a little bit, just a little intimacy to make you temporarilly forget about all your problems and just concentrate on who you are with... and no im not talking about just a random make out or whatever... just something to tithe you over til you get the permanent thing...
why dont these feelings go away... i mean.. really ... it wasnt even that long of a relationship... but for some reason i am SO hung up over this ... it makes me sick... sick and sad... its rediculous... ill fix it somehow... not today... just a while ...
"so im just a medicine
you take when youre sick
you get well and thats it
than put back on the shelf in your mirror
and it isnt exceptional
the course of our fate
cuz people love and they hate
and i guess its just all turned to hate
yea you were just a song i wrote
a poem on a page
a sculpture i made
out of clay
desire was the flame"
"yea i still kiss you
but its just on the cheek
yea i still kiss you
now its just on the cheek
yea i still kiss you sometimes
but its just on the cheek
you pull away
so easy...
and i still call you
but i get your machine
yea i still call you
but i get your machine
and if im lucky ill get
your maid answering
youre at the church
we go to dinner
but you wont hold my hand
we sit at the same table
but we dont play with our feet
yea we still go to dinner sometimes
yea we still watch movies
but we dont share the couch
yea we still watch movies
but we dont share the couch
yea we still watch movies sometimes
but you dont lay in my lap
plot is slow
take a nap
and you even stay over
but we stay in our clothes
yea you even sleep over
but we stay in our clothes
im only there so that youre not alone
you say that i hurt you
in a voice like a prayer
yea you say taht ive hurt you
and your voice is like a prayer
yea well maybe i hurt you some
lets contrast and compare
lift up your shirt
the wound isnt there
i guess that your truth
is just the ghost of your lies
i see thru them all the time
so im pouring some whiskey
im gonna get drunk
im pouring some whiskey right now
im gonna get so drunk that i pass out and forget your face by the time i wake up"
~*bright eyes*~
SINCERELY,
turtle
P.S. i wrote a new song today but im not gonna put it in... well...not today anyway....
|
|
| today ... |
[03 Oct 2003|05:18pm] |
so far nothing exciting has happened... but who knows, its friday and im going to the movies with the girls and tommy...
i didnt go to PE today because i decided to sleep today instead... but i didnt have my shirt so i couldnt have gone anyways... as it turns out. they didnt even dress out or do ANYTHING today because of homecoming... oh cruel irony how you mock me so ... damn you irony ... damn you... i finally got new pictures on my ftj ... but they are being "checked" by the ftj staff... *sigh* i think im done here
SINCERELY,
turtle
|
|
| haha !!! my dreams ROCK ! |
[01 Oct 2003|09:56pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
pleased |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
bright eyes |
] |
so i had a dream... yes... every now and then it happens ...
so im at the cate center for my class... i look at the clock and its all floopy like and none of the computers are working. so i dont go on them ... and i look outside and notice a strange looking cloud.. i look at it a bit longer and it starts to morph... slowly it forms this funnel shape... and then it sucks up a tree... about that time i realize "hey... this is no ordinary tornado... its purple" so i think back to what the principal said about tornados and remembered him saying that the safest place in the world against any tornado would be the janitors closet in the cate center... so since im already in the cate center i figure "hey, ill just run to the closet" so i do and a bunch of people follow me and i realize that there isnt enough room in the closet for all of us so i pick out all the people that i dont like and kick them out... and me and the people in the closet are the only ones that survive... in the whole world... so we all reproduce and form a new land and i am the ruler of the world !!!
happilly ever after
SINCERELY,
turtle
|
|
|
[01 Oct 2003|04:55pm] |
Turtle is out of the group.
replacement needed.
Truly, Madly, Deeply,
Amanda
"and then there were explosions everywhere"*
*and Amanada was killed.
|
|
| hooray ! |
[30 Sep 2003|01:09pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 indifferent |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
resevoir dogs |
] |
oh wow ... i had so much fun over in chicago ... SO AWESOME !!! i think it was a very good thing for me to go to chicago at this time ... straighten some things out ... aaaaaaand get my head on straight about all these problems
|
|
| WHY ! |
[23 Sep 2003|10:35pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 frustrated |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
lock, stock and two smoking barrels |
] |
why do i do this if i know it wont work ?
why do i try if it wont end with perk ?
what if i could take back all the times ?
what if i could just retrace all the lies ?
cant i just live without all the cries
i need a big chair to sit down and sigh
a sigh of relief a sigh to enjoy life
a sigh to forget and a sigh to resign
why would i kick myself for the moment of laughter
and leave me a happy yet bitter disaster
tell me who to be
tell me how to be
i just need to know
when to uncover my eyes and see
and look at my problems and not flee
.......DAMNIT!!!!!.......
Bright Eyes
close your eyes
the dark outside cant hurt you
and ill never desert your bad side
so close them tight
the stars are so glad that they've found you
and on the blankets taht surround you
they shine their light
they shine their light
so rest your head
and ill be watching from the doorway
as you slip into a perfect peaceful sleep
and morning will come
in all its simple glory
and you will find
the light
and i will be there
standing in your shadow
knowing that you once were mine
all mine
my baby, my baby, my girl
*sigh*
on a happier note ! i have a super hot homecoming date ! WOOT WOOT ! ; )
SINCERELY (kicking myself in the ass),
turtle
P.S.
and im leaving for chicago tomorrow at 5 am .. so leave me many messages telling me of how you will be missing me/already miss me so that i wont feel like jumping out of the plane with my lunch pack instead of a parachute
|
|
| gee golly bum wow |
[23 Sep 2003|09:32pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
poo |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
poo |
] |
Hi I'm Turtle I'm 17 and I've been sucking at life for about........17 years.
you see this (pulls at a teddy bear, that has a heart connected by string.)
this is me seizure bear, with it's heart pulled out by a string that is still connected to me.
(blahblahblahblahblah)
tis all for now, why i go cry my emo heart out.
Truly, Madly, Deeply,
Amanda
(Turtle told me what to write)
"and then there were explosions everywhere"*
*and Amanda was killed
|
|
|
[21 Sep 2003|08:08pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 guilty |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
nelly |
] |
people make me feel better ... leave comments... =- (
pleeeeeeaaaaaase...
|
|
| theres hope for me after all !!! |
[17 Sep 2003|08:02pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 thankful |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
office space (not music... movie) |
] |
so graig just took a picture of me with my super accurate i-zone camera fortune telling apparatus and it said
"there is hope for you yet"
im happy ... maybe i wont be destined to die a horrible lonely death =- )
thats a good thing
today was a good day !!
i hung out with amy and nyle ... for like an hour.
we went to ihop ... thats about it ... and visited tommy, that was cool
than i came home went with k80 to get graigs present which i cant say cuz he'll see cuz im on his buddy list ... thing. and then went to go get him and now were here playing soul ca. two ... which IS the shit... STILL... aaaaaaaand im still mourning ... yea... its pathetic ... oh well ... my friends will get me thru this ... i love YOU guys and girls sooooo much ! ... i have the best freinds ever ... you guys are helping me so much ... with everything youre like ... my motivation to live ... yes ... im so happy !! thank you so much for being there for me !!! <333333333 to all you guys ... (including aly for correcting my mistakes) =) THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR SUPPORT !!
SINCERELY,
turtle
Train Hopping In Dixieland
Watching your eyelashes close and twist
Shooting those sparks from her fingertips
I'm star-crossed and stark
I'm waiting for you to talk
And I radiate on the tip of your tongue
My eyes are easily bandaged from falling over best friends
Smiling in a photograph
Again and again
Caught these sparks
Now they're burning my hands
I'm trying my best to show you everything
That I can skyrocket
You to where you need to be
I'll miss you in my sleep
And hey green eyes I'm going blind
These summer trains always run on time
And I can't wait forever for you
And I can't wait forever for you
And I can't wait
So why am I losing?
Why did I lose you?
The best thing that's ever happened to me
My ticket is one way and yours is not for today
Telling all the secrets that lie on dusty shelves
And killed each other with our made up spells
I'm trying my best to show you everything
That I can skyrocket
You to where you need to be
I'll miss you in my sleep
I'm so sorry I do this to you
And hey ladybug I'm sorry
These trains run on time
And I can't wait forever for you
|
|