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|Tuesday, October 30th, 2007|
i am so confused about what happen last night. Tim and i made love, no let me correct that. Tim fucked me last night. Sure we have had quickies in the past where he would fuck me hard fast and furious then cum inside of me before i had the chance to orgasm but those times were different as usually we were time restricted. But they were always filled with such passion that it was alright. Last night was so so different. Tim has always been such a caring lover. Always taking the time to worship my nipples (wish he would do more than roll them with his fingers or just suck on them) , teasing my clit until it was burning so wonderfully and covering me in kisses until i would be begging him to enter me.
i was still in such a horny mood when last night after a few (almost like they were mandatory ) kisses he jammed his hand between my legs to see if i was wet then he climbed on top of me. While i was heating up to what i thought was just getting started i was not prepared nor ready for him so when he pushed his cock into me it was painful. Now i love rough sex but this isnt what i had in mind. He was fucking me so fast ,like he wanted to get it over with as soon as possible. Again this is so not like him as usually he moves in and out of me slow, taking long strokes letting us both enjoy my inner muscles gripping his shaft. Just as my pussy was slicking up to accept his thrusts and i was getting use to his tempo he came . He kissed me telling me how great that was then again like he couldnt wait to get away from me, rolled out of me onto his side and went to sleep.
It made me feel so cheap like a whore that was paid to be fucked. I havent felt like this since college when after a few (or more) margaritas i would meet some cute guy at a bar and we would go and try to fuck each others brains out. He would always promise to call me and of course i would never hear from him again until we saw each other again in some bar. Then of course he would make some lame excuse that he had been trying to find me but couldnt. They always expected me to buy their line and jump right back into bed with them which sometimes i did hating myself whenever i sobered up.
i do not know what to think about last night,,was this a one time thing or is this going to happen more and more often. i love Tim and i have enjoyed the sex we shared but i do not know if i can take another night like last night. Maybe this is how a slut should feel, fucked, used , dirty and abandoned!
Current Mood: confused
|Monday, October 29th, 2007|
so so horny
Oh me, whenever my period passes i feel so dang horny for the next few days. My inner sluttiness comes out showing my true inner self i guess. This weekend while we were in Auburn,Alabama (i am so tired of football,,no i am so tired of losing!) i couldnt keep my hands off of Tim almost begging him to make love to me. The poor dear i might have worn him out *wicked grin*.
Today when he layed down to take a nap before work i climbed in bed with him and wouldnt let him go to sleep as i took his cock into my mouth and sucked and sucked until he was about to explode. Then he quickly climbed on top of me and entered my dripping pussy. While it as exciting to suck him , feeling his cock grow and throb in my mouth it did leave me flustered and still horny. Climbing out of bed so he could finally go to sleep, i could feel his cum seeping out of me, i wasnt angry just HORNY !
Grabbing a pair of dark sweatpants and a gray sweatshirt i tip-toed from the room. Now this is unusual for me for after sex i need to shower unless i am going to sleep. i dont know what came over me but i put on the clothes, some socks and my running shoes, knowing full and well i needed my bar and panties but refused to get them. i think i knew what i was going to do even before i realized it so before i could change my mind or think about it i headed out the door.
i could feel my smallish breasts bouncing each jog i took and my nipples harden as they rubbed agianst the coarse material but it was the puffy still damp lips of my pussy that i was thinking most about. Still not fully realizing what i was doing as i jogged down the road my mind wandering to what my Master would if He was here with me. i could feel the stickiness begin to coat my inner thigh and hoped no one passing could tell what a slut i was.
When i got to a long stretch of road where there are no houses and i could see any cars coming from a distance i stepped off the road. While they would be able to see me i could react hopefully before they could tell what i was doing. i leaned against a tree and slipped my right hand underneath the waistband of my pants. As i listend to the birds and squirrels running in the woods i slowing began to rub along my slick slit. Wondering if i could get myself respectable before a coming car saw me i started rubbing faster and faster now teasing my burning clit until my knees buckled and i bit my lower lip to keep from crying out as the needed orgasm rushed over me.
Then before my breathing slowed i started back up the road on shaky legs. Feeling nasty and naughty as now not only Tim's cum but my juices as well ran from my pussy. It wasnt long before a neighbor came by and smiled as he passed me. Oh if only.... what would i have done...
On the return trip back home as i pased the spot i had to glance over and smile. My evil mind when to work in overtime and i wondered what Master would make me do in this woods. Would He lead me naked on a leash, my ankles in a spreader bar making it so so difficult to step over downed trees,,would He make me squat and pee like the animal i am for Him, would He tie me to a tree and leave me knowing now is hunting season and anyone might come along..what would He do,,oh that is a fanasty for another day... *grins*
Current Mood: horny
|Friday, October 19th, 2007|
"a little taste for you report"
Master came home in a bad mood today. i don't know is someone made Him mad, He had a bad day at work or if He just wanted to hurt me but i have never seen Him this way before.
i was standing at the sink just starting to fix supper and didn't hear Him come in. i was probably thinking about the hard fucking He had given me the night before and how my pussy still ached and the wonderful soreness i had felt all day between my thighs. Wearing an old Ole Miss jersey that had been cut off leaving my lower stomach bare, a pair of cut off denim shorts and white panties i know he hates and only wear when He isn't supposed to be home. i was bare foot as usual when i felt His hand twist in my hair forcing me to turn as He pulled me to hard kitchen floor.
Screaming before i realized it was Him i tried to twist away from His tight grip when i heard His voice in a way that even now sends a cold shiver all thru me. "CUNT" He almost spat the word out, "dont you dare try and fight Me!". He knows i hate that word and only uses it when He wishes to humilate me and normally it thrills me but this time it scared me into remaining silent as He reached around me. While i knelt on the cold hardwood floor He unfasten my shorts and roughtly pulled them over my up-raised hips and down to my bend kneels. When He saw the underwear i had on He growled and before i knew it His hand came down so hard on my denfenseless behind making me cry out in shock and sudden pain. i felt Him grab the crotch of the offensive material and pull it quickly to the side baring my pussy to Him. With His left hand back twisting my hair and pressing my face to the hard floor i heard Him fumbling with His clothes behind me. Usually when He takes me roughtly it exites me and makes me so wet but this time the sudden attack and the soreness i already felt i was unprepared when He slammed His Cock into me.
Being dry and sore i screamed in real pain when His hard Cock forced It's way into my tight helpless pussy. He held still for a second as i heard this wicked laugh then felt Him slowly redraw His Cock until just the head was inside of me. Moving His hands to my hips He whispered just loud enough for me to hear Him " Did you like that,CUNT!" . When He said "cunt" He slammed back into me so forcefully He pushed me arcoss the floor and i know i would have scooted away from Him if He had not been holding my hips. I screamed again but the brutal thrust forced a grunt out of me at the same time and the sound was something like i had never heard before. Each time He pushed into me He would hold still for a second like He was savoring the hurt and abuse He was giving my small body before slowly dragging His Cock back out only to pound into me again.
He reached over my shoulder and grabbed the hem of my shirt and pulled over my head and placed it at my neck. Now each time He slammed into me my bare breasts were rubbed across the hard floor making the nipples harden and start to ache as well,,not that the thin material of the shirt provided much protection before.
"you like having your tits (another word i dislike) on the floor whore?" He laughed . He had started to pick up His fucking motion and each time He pushed into me He forced a grunt out of me Then He would slow down, never letting me get use to rythmn and my grunt turned into a low moan.
He was causing so many sensitions to shoot thru me. He was doing things to me He had never done before when He fucked me. He pinched and pulled my nipples until i cried out, He slapped and spanked my up-turned behind as He called me the most vile names, He pushed His thumb in my anus as laughed, He reached under me and pulled my pubic hair as His Cock invaded me, so many feelings going thru me but all i know was that suddenly i was not resisting Him but pushing back to meet His hard thrusts. My abused pussy was now so wet and reach time He withdrew my inner muscles were gribbing at the long hard shaft.
When He realized i was now enjoying the treatment He gave me almost with disgust He started His verbal assault again. "What a real slut you are. You can not get enough cock can you. I should take you down the the worse part of town and make YOU pay everyone to fuck you, you would like that wouldnt you cumslut?" i just whimpered in reply. "I never knew a woman could be such a total cockslut. I should make you take an ad in the paper begging me to fuck you and make you cum like the cumhole you are!"
When He said that i started begging Him to let me cum. "Please Master let Your slut cum. i need it so badly! Please please let me cum as You fill me with Your hot seed. Please coat my throat, fill my belly, my whore's cunt, cum on me anything just let me cum! Take me to Your friends, make me pay Them but pleaseeeeeeeee i need to cum now so much. You are my Master and i only want to please You but i neeeeeeeeeeeeed to cum now pleaseeeeeeee"
Pulling out of my hungry pussy making me whimper a long nooooooooo He quickly moved around in front of me,grabbed my hair and pulled me up to a sitting position. As He plunged His slick Cock into my already sucking lips He exploded into me sending His hot cum straight down my throat and into my belly. As His cum shot down i had the most intense orgasm in my 35 yrs. As my thighs clamped tightly together riding another unbelievable orgasm He pushed me away, cum stretching from the tip of His Cock to my lips He said to me "God what a pathetic cumcunt!" . He pushed me back down to the floor, turned as He picked up His clothes and left me laying there on the kitchen floor.
As i think back on what He did to me, and how He made me feel,all i can say is
THANK YOU MASTER !!!
Current Mood: sore
Master has sent me to a place to learn slave positions in Gor! Oh me, i once "lived" in Gor and relearning how a girl is to present herself brought back some forgotten memories,,most of them bad. Gor and i were not made for each other. i never felt my serves were a beautiful as the other Kajirae . Plus i have too much of a temper to meekly let just anyone use and rape me and never put up a fight. Its the subbie in me,,i had rather give myself to One (and to Those He chooses) than be a slave and no say at all. While it is exciting to think of strange me taking me for Their pleasures ! Also and i know this shows my true inner slut, i like resisting time to time and having Him "make and tame" me!
i dont know what Master has in mind, if He wants to take me back to Gor to show me off to His Friends , maybe give me to Them for a spell or what,,,,but i will of course go with Him and try to please Him and make Him proud of His cuntling.
Current Mood: uncomfortable
|Wednesday, October 17th, 2007|
my right nipple still at the most unexpected moment starts tingling!! It doesn't hurt just without warning start throbbing! Today in the store as i was checking out BOOM ! It was almost like He was standing behind me and pinched my nipple there with everyone watching ! Instant arousal and wet pussy!! i am so ashamed to admit,,,
I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!
Current Mood: giddy
i was hoping He would make some comment good or bad about the new journal. He is the one that send me here and yet He said He read it and approved but why no public comment??? oh well it isnt a big thing...
Last night He came to me in my dreams. He took me outside on our deck and by the pool in the darkness spanked my naked behind over and over until i was crying. i couldnt cry out as the nieghbors might have heard and having to remain quiet made the ordeal even harder. After i had thanked Him for the punishment i so deserved i begged Him to let me suck His wonderful Cock that i love so much. i needed to feel Him fucking my face like He did the other night, bruising my lips and making my jaw ache from the way His Cock stretches it. He refused and only laughed at me as i begged Him over and over to let me taste Him as i needed to feel His sweet cum shooting down my throat and coating my insides. Finally He relented and gave me His amazing Cock , fucking my mouth filling my throat as He ordered me to abuse my "slut cunt" knowing i hate that word. Over and over He pounded into my gagging mouth until He and i both exploded in an almost numbing orgasm, then sending me to bed for a sound sound sleep.
Oh today He has ordered me to visit a Gor site. i didnt like Gor a long time ago, as i am a subbie and not a slave but for Him i will go there and relearn some forgotten lessons. i would even go and live there again if it would please Him.
Hubby will be home soon so i better get my naked behind dressed or at else some panties on and back to bed.
huggs and wet smooches
Current Mood: disappointed
|Tuesday, October 16th, 2007|
Master ordered me to start keeping a journal and here is where He chose for me to start. i don't kow what i am to write in here but i will try to make it interesting for Him.
Last night He used me again,,,i needed that so so much! W/we had to restart as just as i was so very close to coming for His delight i got this awful cramp in the back of my thigh from wearing the spreader bar He had placed around my ankles. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr That was SO embarrassing and a real mood changer. But He is so caring and good to me He started all over again fucking my mouth with His hard long Cock . Every time He does that it sends spasms directly to my pussy making me instantly wet for Him. This time He added something at the end ...when He had finished coming in my mouth coating my throat with His wonderful Man-juice He wouldnt release His strong grip on my head! He held me tightly to His groin smiling wicked down at me as i struggled for air. Tears started flowing from my green eyes and i was trying to beg Him to let me go . Fighting for a little breath of air thru my nose i thought i was going to pass out when He finally released me ,, i gulped the sweet air down as i coughed and gasped! Hearing Him laugh and while He said something i couldn't make out what He said only nodded yes as i tried to regain my breath. He would never hurt me on purpose and i know He knew i would love this treatment,,,,which i did!
i better go as i need to write Him and He has given me other tasks to do today,,FOUR wonderful tasks!!!