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[09/07/09] |
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I just wanna be happy..
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[07/01/09] |
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I really think you are the one... and I'm happy we finally made it to this point
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[05/16/09] |
And here's the rant:
Girls, we need to start standing up for ourselves. Stop making excuses for guys bad behaviors. Stop taking their bullshit. Seriously, we don't need them. They need us! I'm sick of hearing about all these stories about girls that want to take back assholes after they've done them wrong. If they do it once, they are most likely going to do it again. Stop defending them.
Also, girls, learn to respect one another. If you know a guy is taken, back off! If girls start smartening up, guys wouldn't have anyone to cheat on their girls with. Obviously, there's going to be cases where hes a creep and a liar, but that is why you get to know some one before you sleep with him* Girls complain about guys behaviors, but it's the girls that are allowing the behavior.
Yea, yea, yea. You love him, you think you can get him to love you. But why would you want to waste your time trying to gain some one's affection, when there is a guy out there that will love you for who you are not what you have to offer? Love is not that complicated. If you are right for eachother, it will come naturally. I said naturally, I didn't say perfectly. Life's not perfect, and no relationship worth having comes too easily.
Maybe the nice guys are right. We do overlook them. Maybe we should start by giving them a chance. There's nothing wrong with a guy that has been taught how to treat a woman. You never know, he might be your prince charming. It's a win-win situation. Even if there's no attraction, you get an evening where you are treated like a princess.
Learn to love yourself. You are hot, my dear. You don't need attention from guys to feel better about yourself. Enjoy life and be confident. "Happy girls are the prettiest girls." And guys are attracted to pretty girls <333 *
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[05/01/09] |
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I'm starting to realize that Americans do not have minds to think for themselves. Damn media. This swine flu (not just a pig strain by the way) has only killed 1 person in the US (and it happened to be a baby that was sick previously). I'm not that great with numbers, but that does not seem like a pandemic to me... If you are sick, just stay home, rest, and cured. Blah.
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[11/21/08] |
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god, you mean the world to me and i dont know why. you are all sorts of wrong, but i care about you more than you could ever imagine. i know it would never work out between us. i guess im just not the girl that will change your mind about things, but i really hope that someday some girl makes you as happy as you once were, even if i cant be her. if we never talk again, i just hope you leave with the understanding that i really cared about you. it wasnt some superficial kinda thing. i truly want the best for you. you have so much potential.
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[10/29/08] |
Remember this, this is important.
You can't change some one. A person has to want to change in order to be changed. Complicated? I think not. So before you go falling in love with that guy that treats you like dirt, remember that you will most likely always be treated like dirt. If that is how you want to spend your days, then by all means, go for it, but please don't complain every two minutes about how you've been done wrong. Most likely, you will defend him anyways. Because in your eyes, his bad actions are worth justifying for the sake of the bad relationship.
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[10/01/08] |
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So I skipped class today, and drove around aimlessly for pretty much the whole day. You know what, I dont care. I needed a break from class and my life. It seems to be an endless pattern of the same daily trials and tribulations. I'm sick of having to figure people out, and over-analyzing everything because of something that I may have done to offend some one. I'm sorry that I'm not perfect. I'm only human. I make mistakes. But I do try. I try to make everyone happy. I try to see the best in people. I try to always be right, and I do admit that I hate being wrong. Who doesn't? And sometimes I have to realize that things aren't always meant to work out. Sometimes I am wrong about people. And sometimes I get hurt. Often I get hurt. I'm one of those people that others can take advantage of. I'm a people pleaser. I will overbook myself because i try to make room for everyone, and then it bites me in the ass. I somtimes gossip. Admit it, so do you. That bites me in the ass as well. I have a best friend. I actually have had more best friends than most people in a lifetime. I'm one of those people that always has a best friend. Never the same one, though. Something always happens. It's never my fault though, I swear it's not me. Ok, maybe it's me. Maybe it's because I can only take people's shit for so long, until shit hits the fan. Whatever. Maybe I'm the problem and I'm in denial. It's all in the past now anyway. I'm going to start being a better person. Maybe go to church once in a while and join a charity or something. I wish I had more goals. I float my way through life. I don't know how i ever made it to college. I've never been the kind of person to use a planner, I always have one though. I make it seem like I'm organized but I never have a clue what's going on. I'm a clueless blonde at heart. I think my purpose in life is to make others smile. That's all I'm really good at. Blah. I need sleep. Peace
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[09/27/08] |
dear self,
listen, we all know you like him. but you cant keep doing this to yourself. hes driving you crazy. You gotta realize that you havent done anything wrong. Stop apologizing, stop texting, and stop calling him. He's not worth your time. Everyone tells you that you are so much better than him. He treats you like shit and you let him get away with it. You have to move on. Pleasee do everyone a favor and stop talking to him. Don't take his calls, he couldn't care less about you. He loves the game, and he loves knowing you are waiting for him. Let him think he won this one. So what? You liked him and he turned into a complete ass, but there a billion other guys out there. Please cheer up, and let yourself be happy again.
love,
your smart side
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[07/24/08] |
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don't ask me why i still hang on...
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[06/27/08] |
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3 strikes, and you're out. have a good life, fucker =)
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[06/24/08] |
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I know this shouldn't be bothering me as much as it is. I just can't help feeling this way. I don't understand why it's so hard for us to be friends again. We were never really anything more than that anyway. We didn't want it to end this way- the all or nothing way. Well, then, why are we nothing now? Why would you feel awkward seeing me around? I guess I get it. You are seeing another girl. But, I'm seeing some one else as well. It's not awkward, it's life. I wish you could see this the way I do. I don't want hard feelings between us. I just want things to go back to normal. I want us to be friends again.
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[06/05/08] |
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Just once I want to feel like something more than just an oject to a guy. I don't understand why I can't find a guy that is boyfriend material. Maybe I'm only attracted to assholes? Eh. Maybe they all are assholes right now. Oh well. I just gotta be patient and have some fun*
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[05/23/08] |
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Thank you for everything. You always know how to make a girl smile
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[05/20/08] |
Last night, we were talking and in the middle of our conversation I acted as if it were the beginning. You laughed, and said "What is this, a reverse conversation?"
It's about time you realize that every conversation we have is a reverse conversation. It's the same thing over and over again. We can't get past the flirting stage, even though we'd like to.When I have a boyfriend, you come on so strong. Yet, when we're both available and there is a chance we can have something, you distance yourself from me. I don't get it. And, I'm pretty much sick of it. I'd like you to make up your mind, please. No more trying to get me to cheat on my boyfriends with you, no more flirting meaninglessly. It's about time we start fresh, instead of rehashing old feelings. Obviously, neither one of us is bold enough to make the first move, so we have to stop driving eachother crazy.
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[05/11/08] |
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I think it's been a month since we stopped seeing eachother completely. I have to admit, it's taken me a while to get used to not seeing you every day. Some days I barely even think about you. But when I am reminded of you, or when you do happen to say hello to me on campus... I wish things could have been different. I wish we just went on dates, and had fun together instead of getting so serious when neither of us wanted a relationship. I miss our friendship more than anything. I wish we were honest with eachother from the beginning * we messed up a great friendship for nothing *
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[04/16/08] |
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Every day, I miss you less and less.
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[04/06/08] |
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I'm letting go... There's nothing you can say or do that will make me stay.
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[04/04/08] |
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I can't believe you would think I'd even want to help you after blowing me off last night. Are you trying to get back at me for somthing? Did I hurt you in any way? Did I pretend to care about you then break your heart? No, I'm pretty sure that was you. Thank you for proving to me once again you are a jerk. I don't want you in my life anymore. I don't want to think about you anymore. And I sure as hell don't want to help you pass another class. Thanks for using me for my body and my mind. I appreciate it. I hope you had a good time while it lasted, but the ride is over. I didn't want things to end on a bad note, but I'm not going to deal with your bullshit anymore. I'm done being that girl that is always there for you, always makes you smile, always makes you feel good about yourself when you give nothing in return.
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[04/03/08] |
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Talk about an emotional rollercoaster ride! I just don't feel like trying to figure you out anymore. One minute we are perfectly fine being friends, then you make things ten times worse. I just want to be friends with you. How is that all or nothing? Obviously, my friendship means nothing to you. Honestly, you make everything so difficult. Why can't we just be friends? Why is that so hard for you to understand? If I can handle being around you without trying something, I'm pretty sure you can handle the same pressure. It will get easier with time. Please, try harder. I don't want to lose this friendship, and I'm not going to let this turn into something else.
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[03/17/08] |
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It's not that I think I'm better than anyone else- that's not it at all. I just think before I act, speak, etc. It makes life that much less complicated. I never regret the things I say or do because, at that moment, I am fully in control of myself. Yes, I make bad decisions, but I am aware of the consequences and I weigh the pros and cons. I don't act on every impluse. I am sure of myself. I respect myself. And most importantly, I don't care what others think about me. If I choose to do something, it is my choice. I'm allowed to my own opinions, and you most certainly don't have to agree. I am my own person, and so are you.
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