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[06/27/08] |
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3 strikes, and you're out. have a good life, fucker =)
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[06/24/08] |
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I know this shouldn't be bothering me as much as it is. I just can't help feeling this way. I don't understand why it's so hard for us to be friends again. We were never really anything more than that anyway. We didn't want it to end this way- the all or nothing way. Well, then, why are we nothing now? Why would you feel awkward seeing me around? I guess I get it. You are seeing another girl. But, I'm seeing some one else as well. It's not awkward, it's life. I wish you could see this the way I do. I don't want hard feelings between us. I just want things to go back to normal. I want us to be friends again.
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[06/05/08] |
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Just once I want to feel like something more than just an oject to a guy. I don't understand why I can't find a guy that is boyfriend material. Maybe I'm only attracted to assholes? Eh. Maybe they all are assholes right now. Oh well. I just gotta be patient and have some fun*
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[05/23/08] |
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Thank you for everything. You always know how to make a girl smile
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[05/20/08] |
Last night, we were talking and in the middle of our conversation I acted as if it were the beginning. You laughed, and said "What is this, a reverse conversation?"
It's about time you realize that every conversation we have is a reverse conversation. It's the same thing over and over again. We can't get past the flirting stage, even though we'd like to.When I have a boyfriend, you come on so strong. Yet, when we're both available and there is a chance we can have something, you distance yourself from me. I don't get it. And, I'm pretty much sick of it. I'd like you to make up your mind, please. No more trying to get me to cheat on my boyfriends with you, no more flirting meaninglessly. It's about time we start fresh, instead of rehashing old feelings. Obviously, neither one of us is bold enough to make the first move, so we have to stop driving eachother crazy.
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[05/11/08] |
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I think it's been a month since we stopped seeing eachother completely. I have to admit, it's taken me a while to get used to not seeing you every day. Some days I barely even think about you. But when I am reminded of you, or when you do happen to say hello to me on campus... I wish things could have been different. I wish we just went on dates, and had fun together instead of getting so serious when neither of us wanted a relationship. I miss our friendship more than anything. I wish we were honest with eachother from the beginning * we messed up a great friendship for nothing *
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[04/16/08] |
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Every day, I miss you less and less.
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[04/06/08] |
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I'm letting go... There's nothing you can say or do that will make me stay.
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[04/04/08] |
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I can't believe you would think I'd even want to help you after blowing me off last night. Are you trying to get back at me for somthing? Did I hurt you in any way? Did I pretend to care about you then break your heart? No, I'm pretty sure that was you. Thank you for proving to me once again you are a jerk. I don't want you in my life anymore. I don't want to think about you anymore. And I sure as hell don't want to help you pass another class. Thanks for using me for my body and my mind. I appreciate it. I hope you had a good time while it lasted, but the ride is over. I didn't want things to end on a bad note, but I'm not going to deal with your bullshit anymore. I'm done being that girl that is always there for you, always makes you smile, always makes you feel good about yourself when you give nothing in return.
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[04/03/08] |
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Talk about an emotional rollercoaster ride! I just don't feel like trying to figure you out anymore. One minute we are perfectly fine being friends, then you make things ten times worse. I just want to be friends with you. How is that all or nothing? Obviously, my friendship means nothing to you. Honestly, you make everything so difficult. Why can't we just be friends? Why is that so hard for you to understand? If I can handle being around you without trying something, I'm pretty sure you can handle the same pressure. It will get easier with time. Please, try harder. I don't want to lose this friendship, and I'm not going to let this turn into something else.
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[03/17/08] |
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It's not that I think I'm better than anyone else- that's not it at all. I just think before I act, speak, etc. It makes life that much less complicated. I never regret the things I say or do because, at that moment, I am fully in control of myself. Yes, I make bad decisions, but I am aware of the consequences and I weigh the pros and cons. I don't act on every impluse. I am sure of myself. I respect myself. And most importantly, I don't care what others think about me. If I choose to do something, it is my choice. I'm allowed to my own opinions, and you most certainly don't have to agree. I am my own person, and so are you.
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[01/12/08] |
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I am completely disappointed in you. When did my best friend disappear and become replaced with some robot? Do not think that you can call me, proceed to tell me you are unsure if he would hurt you, and expect me to sit there and do nothing. I am your best friend. If he laid one finger on you, I would drive 16 hours and kill the kid. I know you are in an abusive relationship, and right now you may be able to ignore it... but I won't. I refuse to sit back and let another one of my best friend's destroy her life over something so WORTHLESS. We both know you are in way over your head. Stop pretending that you are 25 years old. You are a stupid 18 year old girl dating some one too old for you, too controlling, and too problematic. I know you think I was wrong in what I did, and you probably will never confide in me again. But, I am not sorry. I did not want to wake up tomorow and find out that my best friend was found in some ditch. I am not sorry for being your best friend. I'm sorry that your dad thinks he can call my mom at midnight and yell at her for being concerned over you. I'm sorry you have a parent that does not understand how much your best friend cares about you. Hopefullly, you won't let something like this EVER happen again.
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[02/01/07] |
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I still love you but, I have to let you go.
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[01/15/07] |
Dear Self,
YOU ARE AMAZING. Thank god you finally had the strength to tell him off. From now on, you won't be thinking about getting back together with him. Thank god for FACEBOOK for showing you what a fucking jerk he really is!
Stop shaking now, and go to bed. Do amazing on your exams tomorrow, knowing that you can face anything because you faced your worst fear of letting him go forever.
Love,
Me
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[01/01/07] |
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yayyy for new years! mmm and some really hot guys
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[09/03/06] |
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Friends? We're friends now? How did this happen!? I should hate you! I should never want to speak your name again, yet I waste my time talking to you. I should be forgetting about you! Ugh. I should block you, or something. Delete you off my facebook. I should... why don't I? I know you lied to me. You are scum. You aren't worth my time. You have a girlfriend, and you still talk to every one of your ex-girlfriends. For what? For the "just incase" instances... well screw you. I need to move on, and you keep pushing me back to square one. I don't believe anything you say, and you will never gain my trust back. Never. So i suggest you go away, and try to fool some one else with all your lies. Oh, and your definition of a "friend" is ridiculous. If I knew you had such "friends" when we were dating, i would have dumped your ass a long time ago. I feel sorry for your girlfriend.
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