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    Saturday, December 6th, 2003
    11:24 am
    funny!!!!!!!!
    sry thought this was WICKED funy, had to do it!

    If I were a [feminine] gay man... by 38886
    Your name
    Your Gay Man NamePeter
    Your Gay Man OccupationPop Icon
    Your Stereotypical Gay Man TraitA heavily emphasized "Omigod!"
    Your Gay Man Music of ChoiceMest
    Your Gay Man Cause of DeathAccident with cock ring
    Created with quill18's MemeGen!
    Sunday, November 30th, 2003
    10:04 am
    random stuff...
    okay so we're gonna start with the fact that mike invited me to a party then told jenna that he diddn't like me and that he was only nice to me because he's in college now, and thats what you do at a college party. hate to clue u mike, but i think there were more highschool kids there than college kids. there may not have been, but there was a very close ratio and that CERTAINLY does not seem like a college party. and just because u think u have to be all cool cause u said u didn't like me to jenna but ur gonna act all gay and giddy when i'm around, thats fine, i'm not to worried about it. i have friends that like me whyo are in college, i dont need u to like me, cuz i'm pretty sure EVERYONE knows..the feeling is mutual.

    Lenny i have a boyfriend! hahahahah just thought i'd throw that in!

    sarah...i love you babe, u have always been there tellin me i would findsomeone i just needed to give it time, and i was never sure, but u ALWAYS were. thank you sooo much for stickin by my all this time!

    don't worry matt i haven't forgot you. i love you too and i could never live without you. it'd be too weird not havin u around! hehe love ya babe.


    and obviously, ken, my knight in shining armor, okay well not armor, but the fleecey sweatshirts **mmmmm** i love ya babe! no one can tear us apart. not even...her.... (dun dun dun!) lol. there are no words to describe what you do to me. but trust me, its good1 :-D i love you don't forget!

    Current Mood: accomplished
    Current Music: bad techno..lol!!
    Friday, November 28th, 2003
    5:00 pm
    just for YOU
    just thought of something to dedicate 8-)

    Since the moment I spotted you
    Like walkin round with little wings on my shoes
    My stomach's filled with the butterflies...ooo and it's alright
    Bouncin round from cloud to cloud
    I got the feelin like I'm never gona come down
    If I said I didn't like it then you know I'd lie ooooo

    And every time I try to talk to you
    I get tongue-tied
    turns out that everything I say to you
    Comes out wrong and never comes out right

    So I'll say why don't you and I get togehter and take on the world
    and be together forever
    Heads we will and tails we'll try again
    So I say why don't you and I hold each other and fly to the moon
    and straight on to heaven
    Cause without you they're never going to let me in

    When's this feaver gona break?
    I think I've handled more than any man can take
    I'm like a love-sick puppy chasin you around.... ooo And it's alright
    Bouncin round from cloud to cloud
    I got the feeling like I'm never gona come down
    If said I didn't like it then you know I'd lie oooo

    And every time I try to talk to you
    I get tongue-tied
    turns out that everything I say to you
    Comes out wrong and never comes out right

    So I'll say why don't you and I get togehter and take on the world
    and be together forever
    Heads we will and tails we'll try again
    So I'd say why don't you and I get together and fly to the moon
    and straight on to heaven
    Cause without you they're never going to let me in

    slowly I begin to realize this is never going to end
    Right about the same you walk by
    And I say 'Oh here we go again oh'

    Every time I try to talk to you
    I get tongue-tied
    turns out that everything I say to you
    Comes out wrong and never comes out right

    So I'll say why don't you and I get togehter and take on the world and be together forever
    Heads we will and tails we'll try again
    So I say why don't you and I get together and fly to the moon
    and straight on to heaven
    Cause without you they're never going to let me in

    So I'll say why don't you and I get togehter and take on the world
    and be together forever
    Heads we will and tails we'll try again
    So I say why don't you and I get together and fly to the moon
    and straight on to heaven
    Cause without you they're never going to let me in


    just lettin my honey know ;-) love ya babe!
    11:24 am
    : )
    i don't know when the last time i was this happy was. : ) i don't even know what to say...lol...its been 5 days and already i'm sooo happy. sarah n ryan both like him and he likes them so i'm soooo all set!!! oh and thanks jenna for the messages sayin how ur happy for me. i really appreciate it!!! i don't really know what else to say. we have spent a lot of time together, not a whole lot said while we're together ;) no i'm kidding. we have talked a lot and i think thats why we're compatible. *sigh* everything's good! : )

    Current Mood: enthralled
    Current Music: *savage garden
    Monday, November 17th, 2003
    6:49 am
    ....and so on....
    so everything is wicked messed up right now, check out harry's journal for more details but its mating season in drama. its so sickening. everyone is pairing off but me. is there something wrong with me?i can't help but feel that way. i wanna be myself, but i feel like i need to hold myself back in order for people to like me. but then i would be fake and i HATE fake people. ugh, what to do now? who knows, i'm just not gonna have a boyfriend this year (not by choice OBVIOUSLY) and i'll go to college probably just to find out that no one there wants me either. eh, my life seems to be a downward spiral. i find more and more fake people everyday. people who incessantly change themselves. i am soooo disappointed in some of the people i've been or become so close to in drama and otherwise. whatever, gtg to school. peace.

    Current Mood: depressed
    Current Music: milkshake~kellis
    Wednesday, November 12th, 2003
    1:40 pm
    hey hey hey
    so apparently matt has been waiting for me to update so her eia mupdating..lol. not much has been going on..still lonely...in MAJOR need of a boyfriend, or sex-pal.....jk, but seriously, i am so like deoressed all the time about the fact that everyone says that 'm pretty but no one wants to date me, eww what is that?! and like, EVERYONe is gay, and the ones who aren't gay are freshmen.....ughh....not fun, not fun. i wanna crawl away and die. this show i can already tell is not gonna go the way we all want. everyone is gonna keep blaming everyone else, but peopl,e seriously get a grip...

    good news...saw FOCS in NH on saturday night!!! omg they STILL rock.. i love them so much!!! there's a new guy fillig in for mike's sopt until they breakup at the end of the year, his anme is caleb and he's awesome! so nice and fits right in! the show was so much fun!! :) fun fun!! :-D lots of pictures i'm gonna be putting up on my site, lie right after i finish writing this, mad fun! look for the page, cool cool! : ) http://stega86.tripod.com

    mad fun/and not so much fun, anyways, gonna update the site now! love me! :):):):)

    Current Mood: busy
    Current Music: anything by FOCS!! : )
    Sunday, October 26th, 2003
    10:45 am
    upset...
    so i went to see Texas Chainsaw Massacre last night and it was soooo scary....but idk, it was a good movie otherwise.. then me n kelly n ames went Olive Garden...first time in a LONg time....it was weird.....

    so today i got my SAT scores back.....850......i feel soooo stupid and i'm like crying because i'm never gonna get into college. i hate myself.

    Current Mood: depressed
    Current Music: A Capella~Breakfast at Tiffany's
    Thursday, October 23rd, 2003
    9:41 pm
    :'(
    we put my baby girl to sleep tongiht. it was about 7:30, i miss her already. sitting in my bedroom, where she slept right next to me is so hard. i don't really know what to do other than cry. its hard to keep it in. everyone else is out playing with sammy like nothing happened not two hours ago. i'm dying inside. i've been reliving when we lost my cat, and now my baby girl is gone. now thinking about both of them gone, it kills me. i had a bad day as it was, and then this happened. i don't wanna go to school tomrrow but i have to...its not gonna be easy at all. i really wanna jsut not wake up...ever....i hate this.....make everything okay again, anyone, please..

    *Pongo..i miss u baby...i love you... :-(

    Current Mood: crushed
    Current Music: the barking i can only now remember
    Tuesday, October 21st, 2003
    11:23 pm
    PARTY!! woot!!!! ( hehe )
    hey okay so i went to Corey Betts' house tonight!...sucked!! lol. it was the worst party ever. it wasn't even a party. whatever! Kristin McTernan showed up as me n Jackie were leaving, and she's like to come to this other party, so we went to this other party and it was okay, this kid in my 3rd period Media class was sooooo trashed and he goes "hey, ur in my media and society clas.....crystal" but he said it like a MILLION times!! lol it was wicked funny. then we kept telling him he was gay and that if you sat on the fire it was cold. he didn't do it so it wasn't as funny as it could have been. oh well. cameron was there and i haven't seen him in like a million years!!! funny stuff!! : ) oh well, gonna go watch tv, that code for turn tv on and fall asleep! love ya! ; )

    * Crystal

    oh p.s. matt called my house while i was at Corey's and told my om he wanted to see what happened with us, whatever, just one more time he calls when i'm already at a party!!! :-D
    6:12 pm
    my last and final for YOU
    matt,

    i guess i wanted to make up with you for everything, but now that you've decided to go the route i KNEw you would, i'm not gonna even bother. all we ever do is fight so maybe this is good. and its so harsh and untrue to tell me that i'm "leaveing you behind again", whatever. just because you call me after i've made plans, or at like 8 on a friday or saturday night, doesn't mean i'm leaving you out, it means that people who wanna hang out with me ask me in advance or call me early. u wait til the last minute when u know sean and ian don't wanna hang out with you that night. u do the exact same thing yu accuse me of. it makes me sick that you;'re making me the bad person. i don't believe that i was only a small part of the conversation because i haven't talked to sean and i just don't and won't believe anything you ever say anymore because you're a liar. you lied to me ad said that i wans't in the convo at all, then you told me i was, then you made ur ohone ring and pretended like u didn't know where it was. i was not going to sit on the phone and listen to you bullshit ur way thru a conversation you probably have with yourself everynight. and, another thing is that you are so sick to make up something about ur cousin or whatever matt is to you. i worried about him almost as much as you did for the longest time because i cared about ur feelings. i don't anymore. ur a liar and a crazy person, u shouold be analyzed becaus ei honestly don't know what ur thinking sometimes. its, i know i'm over using the word, but its sickening o think that you are making up all this stuff to cover urself. oh my god, i'm so frustrated right now that i can't even see straight. i'm going to a party tongiht so DON'T CALL not that u were gonna, and if u were you would wait til u knew i was out so u could sulk in ur rom and be the "gay kid" that you are while you watch "how to lose a guy in 10 days" and eat ice cream. thats what you do, i know it is because u told me that when matt dumped you thats what you did. was there a matt? was i just getting to close to ur lie that you had to "be dumped" by a kid that doesn't even exist. GOD!!! ughh, and just so u knowm, the Mr. K comment is so hurful. u know how much i love and miss him and ur throwing his name in the conversation like u can claim that you like him half as much as i did. u make me wanna be physically ill. harsh? too bad. u deserve every moment of thins and if its not bad enough that its here, but i'm putting the link in my profile so that nayone who has my screen name can open this up and read it to make u feel worse than you do. i'm not hiding it, this is to make you see what all ur crap has put me thru. i do not and will not regret this in the future. get ready for some more silent treatment because there is no way that you will ever get to talk face to face with me again

    one more thing. my "new and better" friends as you so rightceuosly (sp?) called them, are not in my eyes better than you....they are new friends yes, but daid isn't. david and i have been best friends longer than we've even been aquaintences. so, when you say that ur #1 fag, ur wrong, he will always b. thats just how it is. i hope you don't think that by making keogh and kait look bad in this is gonna change people's minds about this whole ordeal. they are my friends because they are wicked cool to hang out with and understand me im every way. u pretended to undersatnd, they just do. i hate that you think ur better than me or this situation, ur not. ur not better than anyone, i'm not better than anyone, no one is better than anyone else. we walk thru life feeling around for something to grasp, stop trying to grab everything, take ur time to find urself, life isn't about rushing, its about enjoying. live ur life as if u were to live forever, things can wait, keep urself happy, don't look to others. its really annoying....

    ____________________________________________________________________________________________

    everyone else, don't think me belittling or indecent, i just have avery strong and negative outl;ook on this.
    Sunday, October 19th, 2003
    10:07 am
    date with daddy!
    so my dad and i were supposed to go out to dinner and a movie last night, but we didn't get to the theater in time, so we went to Picadilly Pub nd then to Blockbuster!! we rented Anger Managment and it was SOOOOOO funny!!!! omg "i feel pretty, oh so pretty!" WICKED FUNNY!!!!!!! anyways....

    yeah so it was fun. thoguht i should tell everyone ya know, the ususal!!

    okay gona bounce out now! peace baby, peace! :-P

    Current Mood: tired
    Current Music: i feel pretty, oh so pretty!
    Saturday, October 18th, 2003
    2:48 pm
    chill chillin
    so i'm around. things are different they used to be. i don't know whats going on with dave and keogh, i have ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA whats going on with matt. he's like freaking out telling me i don't spend time with him when i always used to say "hey what are you douing today?" then he would always tell me that he was busy with someone else or church or work or something so when he asked me what i was doing and i said oh i'm going out with kate and dave and keogh, he like freaked out!! i was like "okay.....". he was wicked stupid about it. then strarted spreading crap about me to people i am friends with and like being stupid cause he was mad at david. fine whatever, but when i asked him about it, he lied to me about ti saying i was never part of the conversation, then made up this stupid phone conversation i know he was having by himself because I HEARD THE BEEPING OF THE PHONE WHREN YOU WERE TRYING TO MAKE IT RING!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!! i am so mad and he had the audacity to tell me that when i wanted to let him back in my life to call him! whatever, i need time to think about it, he accused me of "leaving him behind" "AGAIN"!!!! whatever, because i wanted to go out and it wasn't with him everyday he got mad, i'm sorry, but its ur fault matt, it just is. u know and so does everone else, so when u were trying to be cool and sleek in group guidance, u were acting retarded. i don't know if you thought you were acting cool or not, but u weren't, cause everyone around you was talking to me.

    Current Mood: frustrated
    Current Music: Meatloaf ~ paradise by the dashboard light
    Tuesday, October 14th, 2003
    5:59 pm
    i hate everything
    so earlier when i said everything was good. . . . i lied. i just found out that its gonna cost $10,000 for college, my dog's tail might have to be amputated and i'm pissed off at matt, not oly for saying shit to sean about me but mostly for the fact that he lied to me about saying it and said he only said something about david. i hate that everything is soooo retarded right now. the only good thing that's going on in my life, i can't even talk about. why do i hate my life so much? think about it. .

    Current Mood: depressed
    Current Music: the sound of my own tears falling onto my pillows
    5:59 pm
    i hate everything
    so earlier when i said everything was good. . . . i lied. i just found out that its gonna cost $10,000 for college, my dog's tail might have to be amputated and i'm pissed off at matt, not oly for saying shit to sean about me but mostly for the fact that he lied to me about saying it and said he only said something about david. i hate that everything is soooo retarded right now. the only good thing that's going on in my life, i can't even talk about. why do i hate my life so much? think about it. .

    Current Mood: depressed
    Current Music: the sound of my own tears falling onto my pillows
    5:59 pm
    i hate everything
    so earlier when i said everything was good. . . . i lied. i just found out that its gonna cost $10,000 for college, my dog's tail might have to be amputated and i'm pissed off at matt, not oly for saying shit to sean about me but mostly for the fact that he lied to me about saying it and said he only said something about david. i hate that everything is soooo retarded right now. the only good thing that's going on in my life, i can't even talk about. why do i hate my life so much? think about it. .

    Current Mood: depressed
    Current Music: the sound of my own tears falling onto my pillows
    1:12 am
    updating!
    everything right now is pretty okay. . . weird. . . but okay. having mad good times with Kate, David and Keogh! Its crazy how many weird and stupid things we do that just seem to be wicked lots of fun! (wicked lots of fun??!! lol) okay so really not much is going on, ummm, so in my theater class, david is having a one act that he is directing within our class. its called "cinderella wore combat boots" and its gonna be awesome, guess who's gonna play cinderella!!! thats right!!! ME!!!! :-D i'm so excited!!!! i think its gonna rock!!! omg i'm so excited. okay i'm done with that.

    umm, skipping forward, Dance-A-Thon was yesterday, it was so much fun! we danced and danced and ate and danced and it was just so much fun! i went outside with kate and keogh to smoke and Mrs. Scott came outside to paint a sign, and we came around the corner as they finished and she goes, "go inside and dance, cigarettes are too expensive anyways!" it was so funny!!!!! we were laughing so hard that they didn't even get in trouble. oh my oh my!

    i took SAT's on saturday. i think i did pretty okay. i came up with answers and i think i got a decent score. I HOPE!!! :-/

    wow i'm really sick. ughh i think i have strep throught and that sucks. i'm going to the doctor at 2:45 so it shouldn't be all bad. i don't know i hope he says to just get some throught losanges and i should be better in a few days, i really can't handle strep right now. ehhh. okay watching Rocky Horror Picture Show, so i'm outtie!

    Current Mood: sick
    Current Music: Time Warp!!!!
    Monday, September 29th, 2003
    5:25 pm
    here. . . with the door open. . .
    matt said i should open the door to what i know may be out there. i'm scared but i'm trying, starting with a friend. we're trying again, but we're gonna start by talking. i will never speak to jenna again, and i don't know what i'm gonna do about ryan, but i will try things with sarah. no one will talk me out of it, and i don't care what you say. we're gonna try.

    well i'm gonna g ocause i needa think about things for tonight more before picking up matt k.

    Current Mood: contemplative
    Current Music: stacy's mom
    Sunday, September 28th, 2003
    2:28 pm
    i'm loved!
    okay so i'm gonna just put in all the reply's i got to my last post. . . .

    ** where si the love??? j/k. you know i will alwyas be here for you! cuz I LOVE YOU!!!! hahahha... ill be waiting for you... here inside your car... im the one who wants to love you more!!!! ttyl babe!! mucho love... ~yer fave gay boy... (no not dave... matt)! **

    ** What?! I thoughted I was ur bestest friend! And plus, I'm right here silly. Holla at chur boy! (For all u un-ghetto ppl. . . *cough*Kent Pigeon*cough*. . . that was ghetto talk.) Hugz and other shit like that. . .. .

    The black dude! Duh! **

    ** stega i love u so much lol....dont know who this? is heres a hint "i'll be thinkin bout u in the bubble tub" lol...u should know by now...i dont know whats been wrong with u lately cuz i havent talked to u in like a year but i love u and thats all that matters!!!...lol jk... **

    i feel so loved!!! i've heard that a lot of pople that i think like me are talking about me behind my back. but ya know what, you never like everyone, and if you can be nice to them and get thru the day, then your fine, and i am like that and thats all i ask of people. so thanks for the insight, but its not nreally abig deal to me, because i know people don't like me. but don't like everyone either so if i can be nice and they can be nice, then its really very okay for just about everyone. i am comfortable in my life and i'm very happy with the way my senior year is going.


    i wouold like to say thank you to sarah n ryan for all the good times we've had, i'm sorry for all the bad times we've had, but mostly thanks for the experience and the things you taught me in the time we were all friends.

    Current Mood: okay
    Current Music: headstrong ~ trapt
    Tuesday, September 23rd, 2003
    2:45 pm
    whatever. . .
    so events as of late have not been "fun" per say. yes one of the greatest relationships i have ever had with another person has been kicked to the ground and trampled on. i am still sad, but i am getting over it faster than i thought i would only because i have people supporting me and keeping my mind off of it. most of the reason, in my own mind, for this newly deceased relationship is not her fault, nor my own. i believe it was the work of another person. an evil girl who shall remain nameless and i don't ever want to be in contact with this perosn in any way shape or form. it makes me ill to think that anything like this could happen, so all those out there, cherish ur best friend, because they could be gone tomorrow.

    anyways....off of that hideous note. i'm gonna talk about drama, no i'm not, i'm leaving. sory ya'll i'll update later!!! :-D tooodoollllsssss
    2:45 pm
    whatever. . .
    so events as of late have not been "fun" per say. yes one of the greatest relationships i have ever had with another person has been kicked to the ground and trampled on. i am still sad, but i am getting over it faster than i thought i would only because i have people supporting me and keeping my mind off of it. most of the reason, in my own mind, for this newly deceased relationship is not her fault, nor my own. i believe it was the work of another person. an evil girl who shall remain nameless and i don't ever want to be in contact with this perosn in any way shape or form. it makes me ill to think that anything like this could happen, so all those out there, cherish ur best friend, because they could be gone tomorrow.

    anyways....off of that hideous note. i'm gonna talk about drama, no i'm not, i'm leaving. sory ya'll i'll update later!!! :-D tooodoollllsssss

    Current Mood: blank
    Current Music: GC ~ Bloody Valentine
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