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i donno about all you people but my life is going nowhere right now. i like a guy but i cant tell if he likes me.... i am in love with someone....at least i think i am and he just gave me the most vivid details of who he was just making out with. i dont think im in love with him anymore....he's changed to much i think. well whatever. im leaving for iowa soon...on monday. i donno when im coming back, or if i do come back if im going to live with my mom or my dad. with the way things are going in IL i think i might move to IA. i donno though. fuck life right now......it sucks cassi |
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bordom thanksgiving is tomorrow. im going to go to steak and shake tonight! i love steak and shake. then tomorrow i have work and i need to end up and jessica and jacob's house some point tomorrow. only because they both want me to come overe, and so do their families :) any who jessica and i have both noticed something quite odd today. for the past 2 months we have been hanging out with eachother if only a day apart. we are doing ever thing together. some people are upset by this only because they think we are ditching our real friends. well all i have to say is go fuck yourself if you think that. jessica and i are real friends and the reason i started hanging out with her is because she asked me too! none of my other friends ask me to do something. i ALWAYS call them. they dont put in any effort. and yes there needs to be effort on both parts of a friendship...or it dies. just like when you are going out with someone. talking about going out. i havent had a b/f for a very very VERY LONG TIME. I NEED ONE. that sounds to desperate. i mean i want one. i want someone to cuddle with :(...... boy hunting isnt working very well. oh but i did talk with joe... eheh i love my friends from iowa. he still likes me i talked with his mom about it...hehe she is so cute! well anywho i still cant wait to go back to iowa! i really really really want it to be summer so i can leave right now. but it wont be june for a couple months. what really sucks is i have work tomorrow, fri, and sat. now that sucks... i really dont like work..but hey it's money! i need a lot more than i have right now. well yeah i need a new muffler on my car. plus i need to pay my cell bill. i think that my mom is lying to me about how many minutes i am using so that she can just take more of my money.... evil evil evil. well erica my sister is back. i love her so much! now almost the whole family is here. well i g2g do the dishes ttyl cassi |
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A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness. A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance. Sexual passion. Sexual intercourse. A love affair. An intense emotional attachment, as for a pet or treasured object. A person who is the object of deep or intense affection or attraction; beloved. Often used as a term of endearment. An expression of one's affection: Send him my love. A strong predilection or enthusiasm: a love of language. The object of such an enthusiasm: The outdoors is her greatest love. that's all bullshit. i hate it. i was working last night...i guess, well friday night which was a couple hours ago. i have found out that i am going out with matt simcocks' younger brother....his name is sammy. he is adorable! well im not actually going out with him...but we hold hands during skating, and if any other boys talk with me he skates up really fast and yells and them. then takes my hand, and makes me skate faster with him. (he's only 10)....hehe cradle robber....thats me! anywho i really want to go to iowa soon. i just want to say hi to all my old friends, and get out of this shithole people like to call home. my mom is acting really nice, which worries me b/c she is never this nice. well then after she is nice for a little while she gets really mad and yells at me a lot. she has mood swings way to much.... yeah.... i just want to leave. i want to go somewhere that isn't here. i am getting really tired, and bored of this place. in iowa everyone would be different and everything would be new. well not new but just different than this. my mom is camping with toshi, which prob. means that she will come home and yell a lot. she gets angry after being with toshi. i think im going to go for the night....everybody have a good night sleep i know that i might not... but sweet dreams! cassi |
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oh yeah and im going to go to my dads house for a month out of the summer. or three weeks or something. its gonna be "rad" ahhaa. i think that jessica is gonna come with me. it would be awsome it is such a small town. everyone is christian and dutch. they all have blonde or light brown hair and blue or green eyes....like me! hehe. well yeah so that is one thing that i am looking forward to. i really need to learn how to drive my car too. it sucks it is stick shift so i always peel out when i go into first gear. year but it is cool cause when my step dad made me drive home i peeled out at every light and all the other cars stayed as far away from me as possible. but any who i saw finding nemo last night at jessica's house. and then we went to the pet shop this morning. they have really cute sugar glidders there. i really want one but since they are babies they wont sell them for another month or two. they are like flying squirelles. but cooler... and their from ausi...hehe kangaroos...yum. well yeah. i think that i need a b/f or play soon... its been like two weeks and im going out of my mind... i guess i have to call jake. or someone. ttyl cassi |
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kuwakalaka!!!!!!!!!!! only two people in the tribe sorry you will have to kill my sister to be in it. Rilee your such a funny little thing. cassi |
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so yes i just got back from work i donno whats going on with alex and i it is really quite weird. i donno ive been working a lot. and now im hanging out with jessica, breida, and jennifer a lot. it is all quite wierd. kaffie ROOLS!!!!!!you all drool. my life sucks though.. only cause i am grounded. cassi but i am off grounding on the 1st :) |
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so it is sat. morning and i have work tonight with alex. jacob and i got to talking about some pretty personal stuff. oh yeah and ross murray asked me to homecoming last night. it was great he walked in the the ice rink with a whole bunch of balloons and a huge sign that said "Homcoming Cassi?" with a whole lotta stickers on it. it was mad fun. then a whole bunch of the 5th and 6th graders asked me questions like if he was my b/f or not and if i liked him. it was awsome. oh yeah and justin was there to. i made a lot of new little friends. heheh. oh yeah and im going out with this little 6th grader named sammy it was fun. anywho i donno what else to write about. oh but that im still grounded. oh yeah GO CUBS!!!!!!!!!!!! love always cassi |
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i donno what it is but numbers have been going through my head all day. i have 5 peoples #'s written on my arm and i donno whats going on. im having one of the wierdest days ever. so i got shawn's # he droped me off at home and said wait let me see your hand. so i gave him my hand and told me to call him whenever. its cool. he is an awsome guy he said that he wanted to chill with me sometime soon. yeah so i think right after this im gonna call him. i think. for those of you who think that you might know him but arent sure. he is the kid that already graduated, and has sharpie all over his face all the time. at first when i met him i thought he was going to be cold hearted and mean. let me warn you first impressions can be deciving. sp? well yeah im tired. jake called me again today. he wont leave me alone.(sorry jake if your reading this) but seriously dude i mean we had a fling thats it. i dont like you like that. i do however have a very special something for someone else. only one person knows though. lets leave it at that. i think that i am goin to switch my geoscience teachers. i hate miss druger. (i know that andrew, bill, and mich mich mich will agree with me.) i think a lot of people are trying to switch. i hate her. she is a bitch! yeah school was cool today and i donno what else to type. whatever if anyone wants to talk call my cell. if i dont answer leave a message. if i dont call you back i prob. dont want to talk to you. hehe oh yeah and by the way HAPPY BIRTHDAY BILL! cassi |
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| 08:53am 06/10/2003 | |||
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well today is my free day and i have work twice today. the good thing is that im working with julie and ross. im working from 9:45 to 11:00 with julie and from 3:45 to 5:30 with ross. i was talking with ross last night and he told me he was going to ask me to homecoming in a way that i cant refuse him. haha well i donno how hes gonna do it but i know him and that means he's gonna make a scene. he's a wierd fellow that ross. cassi |
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1. My name: TJ 2. Where did we meet?: Pool 3.Take a stab at my middle name: Beernink 4. How long have you known me?: last summer 5. How well do you know me?: ok i geuss 6. Do I smoke?: Sometimes 7. Do I believe in God?: I think so 8. When you first saw me, what was your impression?: I GOD YES!! lol 9. What color is my NATURAL hair color?: Dark lol 10. My birthday?: Its Sept. 7th i think 11. Hair color now?: Dark lol 12. Am I tall or short or average?: Average, taller than me 13. Do I have any siblings?: 2 sisters, maybe one. 14. Who do I like?: Elvis lol 15. What is one of my favorite things to do?: no clue 16. Do you remember one of the first things I said to you?: Hi 17. What's your funniest memory of me?: Rose LOL 18. Do i have a g/f of b/f?: not anymore more 19. Do you look up or down on me...as a person?: well im shorter...so up 20. What is my best feature??: you're nice 21. What is my worst feature?: You could beat my ass 22. Am I shy or outgoing?: kinda both 23. Can you picture me dancing?: yes 24. Can you picture me smiling?: yes 25. Would you say I am funny?: sure 26. Am I a rebel or do I follow all the rules?: Kinda both again 27. Do I have any special talents?: dont know 28. What's my best accomplishment?: dont know 29. Would you consider me a friend?: ya 30. Would you call me preppy, slutty, average, dirty, friendly, hippie, glam,nerdy, or something else?: hippie lol ever seen me cry?: nope 32. What's my nickname now?: Cassi 33. What's another nickname I should have?: Bitch....lol...jk 34. What is your favorite thing to do with me?: havent seen ya in a while(think about it) 35. Do I do drugs/Alcohol?: Drugs, not anymore....Alcohol heck yes....lol 36. Have I ever been there for you?: not really 37. Have you ever told me any personal secrets?: kinda 38. Am I fun to be with?: ya 39. Am I smart?: somewhat lol 40. Am I conservative or unconservative?: no clue 41. Do ya love me?: ummm....yup 42. Am I a virgin?: Hope so 43. Name one way I have changed your life or made an impact in it: dont know 44. What's my favorite song(s)?: You like Green Day, ur answering machine lol 45. What famous celebertiy am i most like or remind u of?: thats hard 46. Would you.....hug me? kiss me? be there for me if i cried?: all the above 47. What are my favortie colors?: pink lol 48. Were u ever jealous of me?: not really 49. What is my favorite movie or TV show?: dont know 50. What are some sports I play?: Rollerblade 51. What is your impression on me now?: i dont know 52. Do I dress.....stylish, slutty, gothic, glam, funky, sexy or weird?: sexy 53. Why am I your friend (if I am)?: your nice 54. Why am I your enemy (if i am)?: you arent 55. Am I daring?: sure 56. Do I flirt?: kinda 57. Do i stick out or blend in?: stick out 58. Am i pretty or ugly?: Hot as hell 60. What's my favorite food?: OJ 61. What is my favorite saying?: You owe me a buck 62. Am i myself?: yes *********OPPOSITE SEX ONLY********* 63. Do you think I am pretty?: sure 64. Do you think I am hot?: yup 65. Would you ever date me?: hell yes 66. Would you ever kiss me?: hell yes 67. Do you think about me?: all the time 68. Do you think we would make a cute couple?: maybe well c ya hope whatever your doin is making you happy. oh yeah and with the whole dan and ashley thing i told everyone that they would break up and everyone got pissed at me! god dont you guys all know that i know everything! naw im just playin i am sorry you two broke up though. you were great together. oh god my sister just came in with a towel on and flashed me it was nasty. yeah she does that....rilee that is. well she said anyone can comeover and see whenever they want. c ya lataz cassi |
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ok hey everyone its about 2 am and i am doing my report for english on a book called A Slipping Down Life by Anne Tyler. i thinks its a really great book it drags out in the middle but it is good. it made me think about love and all for awhile. whatever....it was pretty good. on the note of love and all and what is and isnt in love.....tj if you arent going to write good things in my journals dont write them. i really dont apriciate it at all. im sorry that whatever happend but it did and we cant change that. get over it and dont read my journals ever again. well good bye to you too. i am really happy right now i read what you wrote tj and it does make a lot of sence but to tell you the truth the only thing that made me upset was that you were right. i was a bitch. i am trying to be different but hey i am who i am. i can olny improve who i am and what i do with myself, but it takes time.... a lot of time. i cant change over night. Everybody hope to see you on sat!!!!!!!!!! cant wait. well i think that even though i did get upset tonight tomorrow is another day, dont worry about the past keep on livin the way that you wanna and dont let others get you down......you are your own rainbow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hehe cassi |
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well first off last night i spent the night at jessie's house with becky, and jessie. when i woke up at seven o'clock in the morning i was awakened by someone blindfolding me....hmh...it was jessie and becky. they dressed me up and then put a lot of make up on me and a spice girls shirt for fun....yes spice girls hahaha. well then they took me to the best place on earth krispy kreme doughnuts. after that i went home and slept for 2 hours and then went to work at the ice rink. after that i went to a movie (uptown girls) with my sister and my mom. it was a really cute movie, but kinda depressing. after the movie i went to jessie's again and saw the lord of the rings two towers for the 1,000,000,000 time. Well then my mom took me to outback....drool drool. then i came home and it turns out that about 30 people called me to wish me a happy b-day. it is really cool...i am 16!!!!!!!!! i get my license this coming sat. if nothing goes wrong...which it wont. it was funny though cause i saw jacob and ray's cousins at outback. it was wierd. so now im getting tired so ill talk to ya'll later. love always, cassi nichols (who is now 16 years old) hahhaha |
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so yeah i cant wait my b-day is on Sept. 7th and that is in 11 days!!!! i cant wait...i donno i might have a party or something...well jake called me and said that his parent are out of town...he is having this bigass party with fire and shit...hahaha fun stuff...i think that i might be "together" with him or something or at least he thinks so...i dont know how it would work between us though. he is really fine though he has a tonuge pierce and tatoos all over his back... he is 19. He is soooo fine though. i met him at Navy Pier with becky, jessie, court, and eliza. well today was my first day of school for the year. it sucked so much. i wanted to leave so badly... the suprising thing is that i saw ashley and dan...but i really didnt care. it was really cool of me on my part. i saw a whole bunch of people that i havent seen for a really long time too! plus my classes are fuckin awsome! i have at least one friend in each of my classes! its great! well c all of you later...suka call me! cassi |
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