New blurty.   
11:52am 19/09/2003
  I have created a new journal..My username is gutterpixie..So, make sure that you add me to your friends list...  
     break my wings...
01:40am 18/09/2003
mood: sleepy
music: Odor eaters commercial
Damn it all to hell...I found this really beautiful picture to put as my background image, but because of the colors in the picture I cannot find a text color that is readable, I was trying to make the text boxes sorta transparent while still being able to see the picture and my text at the same time..If anyone can help me with this it would be greatly appreciated, I tried to follow the instructions on Livejournal, but I couldn't get it to work right..SOMEONE HELP ME PLEASE!! Well, I think I am going to go to bed now before I get too bitchy about this...

     break my wings...
No place to hide.   
11:31am 17/09/2003
mood: cold
music: The Ataris-Beautiful Mistake
I haven't updated in a few days, so I figured that I would do so now..Not that I really want to because nobody reads this shit anymore, but for my own good, to remember what has happened the last couple of days, I figure that I should do it..

Anyway..Hmm..I've been talking to Kendall pretty much everyday since Sunday, which is a nice and refreshing change from the once a month that it used to be, but it comes with a sad event, but I won't go into that because it is none of my business to post her business for everyone to read...Anyway, I miss her sooo much, I can't wait to get back to Florida so that we can hang out and be crazy together once again! It is going to be sooo much fun! Woo!!

Anyway, umm..Wow! I think that is pretty much all that has happened in my life in the last couple of days...Oh, Marisa finally came over and get her stuff from my house, it took me pissing her off for her to come get them, but she did...Before she came over she called my house and was like "Listen here you fat bitch, stay out of my relationships, I will beat your ass" and then she hung up, so overall it was a pretty amusing phone conversation..I love when people try and make other people feel like shit, because she knows what I have told John is true...Anyway, I don't have room on my blurty to talk about stupid, pathetic, whores so I will end this paragraph with that.

I think that I am gonna go to the gun range on Sunday, I somehow got rooked into going, I don't want to be out in the wilderness with snakes and spiders, shooting a gun.. I made one simple comment about "I wanna shoot a gun" and somehow it turned into Caleb calling his grandfather to see if I could go to the gun range on Sunday with them..Grrr! I don't want to do it, maybe I will just "Be sick" on Sunday, yeah wouldn't that be convient..

Hm..I don't think that anything else has happened this week, well anything that should be posted anyway..For the sake of people's privacy..But anyway, I think I am going to go find something to eat now..I just woke up and I am starving...Grr..And it's cold in here...Grr..Well anyway, until I update more...

     1 broken wing -  break my wings...
He he he...   
08:55pm 15/09/2003
  Kendall, this is soooo you..

What will your Funeral be like? by rashock
You will die by:Your mother warned you not to run around with scissors in your hand. You die by some freak accident. Most likely getting hit by a bus.Can't really say it was pretty, your Funeral is a closed casket.
Death Date:February 17, 2010
Number attending your funeral?138
How much will you leave to friends and family?$4,682,637
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Kendall, I love you..I miss you...   
01:04am 15/09/2003
mood: determined
music: Hanson-A minute without you
Okay I know this is originally a love song, but I am using it as a song to my best friend whom I love more than anything...

Well I woke up this morning
And the night had been so long
Seems that I had had my mind on you
Well the day, it has begun, and I can't get a minute, can't get a
Minute without you
You're always on my mind, you're always in my head
And I can't live, I can't live another day without you

'Cause when the minutes seem like hours and the hours seem like days
Then a week goes by you know it takes my breath away
All the minutes in the world could never take your place
There's one-thousand-four-hundred-forty hours in my day

I've been trying to call you all day, 'cause I got so many things
that I want to say
I'm going crazy, 'cause all my thoughts are filled with you
There's got to be some way I can get through to you ohh

I can't keep myself from thinking about you
It's because I love you, and I know that it's true, whoooa
I'll call it desperation, can't you see it in my eyes?
That I want be with you until the sun falls from the sky
     break my wings...
The wang...   
12:59am 15/09/2003
mood: worried
music: Hanson-With you in your dreams
Hmm, well I figured that I would do some updating before I went to bed for the night...

I just got done talking to Ran, telling him about my seduction plan..He seems to be completly okay with it!! Yay!! He called a friend of mine a goddess tonight, he's never said anything like that to me, but she is, so what can I say? Actually I said that she was a goddess first and he agreed with me, but that is okay...She is...But anyway, it was certainly an interesting conversation...

But anyway, other than that and talking to the most beautiful, wonderfullest person in the entire world today, that being Kendall for all of you people that have no clue what I am talking about nothing interesting really happened today..I slept a lot because I was soo tired from yesterday..Oh, yesterday, I should update about that too..

Umm okay, so the thing was pretty kewl, they had stuff like jousting, sheep throwing, and javelin throw, so it was all pretty interesting, but needless to say by the time we left I was glad to be on the road, mostly because I was uncomfortable in the garb that I had on, it would have been a lot more fun if I had been comfortable..But it was overall a pretty good day, except for the fact that when we were eating feast bugs, mostly beatles kept falling in our food, so that pretty much ruined my appeitite for the evening and then Domie found a tick in her lasagna, so yeah that really turned my stomach, but it was outside so what can I say..But that is pretty much all about yesterday...

Umm, I think that I am going to go try and sleep now, I am kinda tired, plus I have some thinking to do about some stuff that was said to me tonight, by several people...Actually only 2 people, but still..Until then...

     break my wings...
And now he's just 6 pounds of mince meat...   
12:31am 13/09/2003
mood: amused
music: AFI-God called in sick today
Well, I really should be going to bed instead of updating seeings how I have to get up at six in the morning..But I figured that I would update about my day tomorrow a little bit..

Hmm...Well, I am going to this SCA event thing with Lara and Domi and some other people tomorrow..It is kinda like a Renissance thing, but different..It is all kinds of things from back in the day, I will actually know more about it tomorrow once I get back, but yeah..It should deffinatly be fun..All kinds of hot guys dressed up in garb!! Woo hoo!! But other than that I have no clue what is going on with it, because it starts at 8:30 and ends at 7:00 in the evening, so it is pretty much an all day event...I just hope that I have fun...

Well, I will update more tomorrow when I get home from it, if I have enough energy, I am hoping that this will wear me out enough that I might just be able to come home and pass out...That would be a good thing, but I am going to try and go to sleep now because I am already going to be the world's biggest bitch tomorrow on only 5 and a half hours of sleep, I shouldn't cut it down any more than that...

Well, I hope that everyone is having fun this weekend..Talk to everyone later..LOVES!
     2 broken wings -  break my wings...
Gutter, gutter, gutter..Falling down the gutter...   
08:11pm 12/09/2003
mood: bored
music: Vanilla Ice-Ice ice baby
Well, I figured that I would do some updating since I am bored out of my mind right now, there is absolutly NOTHING to do..I can't wait until I get back to Florida and I will actually have something to do, and people to hang out with...Yay!! It is going to be sooo much fun!!

But umm..Yeah, I don't really have anything else to update about..Umm...Tonya stopped by for a little bit tonight to see me before I left...

Um..Oh, I found out that Marisa has been telling everyone at school that I burnt her stuff that she left over here, how pathetic is that?? What the hell? Like I give a damn what people at Angleton High School think about me...HA HA HA..Stupid, pathetic losers...God damn, what the fuck..It is kind of sad when people have nothing better to do with their lives than tell lies about someone...

Anyway, I guess that is all for now..I think I am going to go play a game or something like that...Talk to everyone later...

Kendall, Kristen, Carol, Skye, Angela, Camille: I love you guys!! I can't wait to be back so that we can all hang out!! Woo!! No more being passed around on the phone!!
     break my wings...
HA HA HA!! Yeah, right...   
12:06am 09/09/2003
mood: giggly
music: Placebo-My sweet prince
HA HA HA!! Marry Curtis?? Okay, how about NO on that one!! But it was fun anyway...

You will live in Apartment.
You will drive a black Mustang.
You will marry Curtis and have 2 kids.
You will be a Interior designer in Hawaii.
     break my wings...
I'm coming back!!!   
11:49pm 08/09/2003
mood: scared
music: Green Day-Good riddence (Time of your life)
Well, I guess that I could say that today has been an overall pretty good day...Kinda scary though..I dunno what I am getting myself into...Or if I can handle what I am getting myself into..Hopefully with the help of friends and family I can deal with it and all the new experiences that are going to come with it...

Maybe I should explain a little more...I have been planning on moving back to Florida for sometime now, but I didn't think that it was going to happen any time soon, since I haven't had any luck with a job here or anything like that...But, I figured things out today..I sat down and had a long talk with my dad and Angela, and they pretty much told me that it was my decision as to what I wanted to do, and if moving back to Florida was going to get me out of the slump that I am in that they were all for it...So, this is the plan that has been worked out: I am going to be coming back to Florida probably a couple days to a week after my birthday, I am not sure exactly when yet, it just depends on how the whole money situation goes..But anyway, I have a place to stay, Kristen told me that I could stay with her as long as I needed too...But, I also have other options too because Kendall's dad said that I could stay there, but that I probably wouldn't like his rules...But if I had to I am sure that I could put up with them..But anyway, so I am going to be staying with Kristen until I can save up enough money to move out on my own, and she said that she would take me so that I could do some job hunting and stuff like that, plus there is an Eckards and a 7-11 right down the street from her house, pretty much on the end of the street from what I am told..But, and if I can't find anything there, or for some reason things don't work out as they are planned, I will end up back in good ol' Texas..I am praying and wishing that I get out there and am able to find a job rather quickly..

So yeah, that is the plan...I really don't want to have to move back here, I am an independent kind of person..I want to be able to support myself and things of that nature...But I know that no matter what I can always come back and I will always have a place to stay...

Okay, now let me get to the real jist of things...I am scared to death about this whole situation...What happens if Kristen and I get in a fight and she wants me out? What if I end up with no money? I am sooo scared...I know that we are all going to have a kick ass time, but I am just worried because I am going into a situation where I have no clue what the outcome will be, but I guess that is half of the fun..I just really hope that everything turns out for the best..I want to be in Florida right now, I believe in my mind that it will be the best thing for me...It will give me a new start..I mean, everyone there knows me, but I haven't been there in a while, and all of the grudges that I had when I left are no longer there..So yeah..I am hoping for the best of things...

But, anyway..I think that is enough updating for right now...Kristen and Kendall, thank you guys sooo much for doing what you are doing!! I know that you guys don't have to do it..And I love you guys sooo much...

     2 broken wings -  break my wings...
He he he..Yay!!   
11:41am 08/09/2003
mood: drunk
music: Ms.Jane-It's a fine day
Okay people..I am not really drunk...I just wanted to see what it looked like, because I thought maybe it would have a kewl little bouncy dude on it..So yeah, don't everyone start posting and being like what the fuck, you fucking drunk bitch and all that nonsense..I AM NOT DRUNK! He he he...

Sweet Dreams
"Sweet Dreams" (by Eurythmics)
Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?
Travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused

Which 80's Song Fits You?
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Oh dear leaping jesus....   
12:51am 08/09/2003
mood: amused
music: Silverchair-Freak
Lol..I just had to post this, because well, I thought that it was funny!! This is the conversation that Ryan and I had about mermaids in the water! How great is that??

LollirotDownfall: Dude, have you seen the new Brita water filter commercial?
MildXpsychosis: nope
LollirotDownfall: It's like "Brita filters out lots of stuff in your water, including mermaids."
MildXpsychosis: sweet
MildXpsychosis: I need to get one of those
LollirotDownfall: Do you normally have mermaids in your water?
MildXpsychosis: no...but brita ensures that i never will
     break my wings...
Death of seasons...   
12:47am 07/09/2003
mood: discontent
music: AFI-Paper airplanes (Makeshift wings)
Well, I just figured that I would do some updating, since I haven't actually updated in a while..Just a bunch of pictures and stuff like that...But umm..I guess I will start out with what happened tonight...

Anthony and Alicia were pulling out of the apartment parking lot and she thought that she was going to get sick, so she told Anthony to pull over so that she could get out..Well, she got out and a bunch of black guys started trying to grab her and they were like "Hey bitch come here" and all of this stupid bullshit, and telling Anthony they weren't scared of him and shit like that, so they came back up to the apartment and my dad called the cops and I guess they came out and broke up the party that was going on or whatever..But yeah, that was REALLY scary, because I never thought that would happen where I live..These are nice apartments, and they are in a pretty good area of Angleton, but yeah..It was just kinda creepy.

But anyway...Yesterday was Kristen's birthday..Well actually since it is 12:40 I guess it would be two days ago, but yeah...I was hoping to try and get ahold of her yesterday, but I never did..I guess that she didn't feel like answering her cell phone, because everyone tried to get ahold of her all day..So yeah..Kristen I hope that you had a good birthday, and I hope that you had fun with Garrison..

But yeah, nothing else has really happened since I updated last..OH! I did get to talk to Kendall for like two hours the other day!! That was soo awesome and then later that night I talked to her for another 45 minutes, so yeah that is the most that I have gotten to talk to her in a long time, it was wonderfulness!!! He he he!! Woo!! I love getting to talk to her!! I miss her soooooooooo much!! It is unimaginable how much I miss her, but hopefully I will get to see her for my birthday present..Being back in Florida, even for a short amount of time would be the best birthday present ever!! I miss it sooo much...

Well, I think that is about all of the updating I am going to do tonight..I am gonna go finish talking to Ryan and some other people...Everyone should go to Ryan's journal and check out the cartoon that he drew, it is fucking kick ass, and he drew that shit on the computer too!! That boy's got some talent!! Well, I guess that I will talk to everyone later...LOVES!!

Awww, I really like this one...It reminds me of Kendall a lot though...

thoughtful fairy
you are a thoughtful fairy. you listen to your
friends problems and you make sure everyone
around you is satisfied. you write in your
diary and listen to music just to get away from
it all. you are beautiful inside and outside.

(has pretty pictures) what kind of fairy are you? (for gurls)
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He he he..Stole this from Holly...Just thought that is was nifty....

What Is Your Battle Cry?

Yea, verily: Who is that, running through the steppes! It is Crypticlies, hands clutching a bladed baseball bat! And with a gutteral grunt, her voice cometh:

"I'm going to brutalize you all the way to Boring, Oregon!!!"

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     break my wings...
12:39pm 06/09/2003
mood: amused
music: Sympathy-Goo goo dolls
Here Kendall, this one is for you! I hate pictures of myself, but since you wanted one of me on here I did it...So yeah...

     break my wings...
Stole this quiz from various people's journals   
12:21pm 06/09/2003
mood: blank
music: Hanson-Wake up
You are Ann.

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07:18pm 04/09/2003
  Woo hoo!! Thanks to Samantha I figured out how to put pictures on my blurty!! He he he...Kick ass!! Now I can put pictures on here!! Woo!! I figured that I would post these...

This is Ran..Woo hoo!! He he he..He is sooo hot!!


This is Camille and Jessica!! You guys rock!


This is Kendall and Kristen! I love you guys! They are soo beautiful!


This is my favorite picture of Ran! Once again, he is so hot!


This would be Ryan...He's Kendall's man, so back off bitches!! He he he..

     3 broken wings -  break my wings...
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     break my wings...
Just a spoonful of sugar helps the medicaine go down   
11:14pm 03/09/2003
mood: weird
music: Hanson-Weird
Yeah, I don't feel like updating right now..I am sooo sick..So I just figured that I would post a song...I will update tomorrow if I am well enough..Kendall, I hope that you feel better soon, and I love you...


Isn't it weird.
Isn't it strange.
Even though we're just two strangers on this runaway train
We're both trying to find a place in the sun
We've lived in the shadows, but doesn't everyone
Isn't it strange how we all feel a little bit weird sometimes

Isn't it hard.
Standing in the rain.
You're on the verge of going crazy and your heart's in pain
No one can hear though you're screaming so loud
You feel all alone in a faceless crowd
Isn't it strange how we all get a little bit weird sometimes.

Sitting on the side.
Waiting for a sign.
Hoping that my luck will change.
Reaching for a hand that can understand, someone who feels the same.
When you live in a cookie cutter world being different is a sin.
So you don't stand out.
And you don't fit in.

Sitting on the side
Waiting for a sign.
Hoping that my luck will change.
Reaching for a hand that can understand, someone who feels the same.
When you live in a cookie cutter world if you're different you can't win.
So you don't stand out and you don't fit in.

Isn't it strange how we all feel a little bit weird
Strange, how we all get a little bit.
Strange, 'cause we're all just a little bit weird sometimes.
     break my wings...
Just a little updating...   
12:04am 02/09/2003
mood: relaxed
music: Queen of the damned-Redeemer
Well, yeah..Once again, I don't really have much to update about, but I do it anyway..

All I did today was hang out with Anthony and Alicia and my parents, for some reason this family gets together on weird ass holidays like Labor Day..What the hell is that shit? Normal people get together on X-mas and Thanksgiving, but NO, not us..We get together on Labor day...Well, I never claimed that any of us were normal, and for those of you that know either my dad or Angela this shouldn't suprise you in the least..Lol..
Anyway, all we did was bbq some hamburgers and hot dogs and then ate and then sat around and watched bio-dome..Sounds incredibly eventful huh? Yeah, how about no on that one...

Anyway, then I pretty much sat around the house for the rest of the day, watching movies and commenting on various peoples journals, then my dad FINALLY burnt my c.d. for me that I have been asking him to burn for 6 months, and that is only because he felt bad because he burnt Caleb a c.d. of Flogging Molly, some really crappy Irish punk band...God..It is horrible..Anyway, so here I sit sorta watching Queen of the damned and updating this thing..I am about to go to bed, because I have to get up at like 9:30 in the morning to go turn in that application for Buc-ees and see if I have to go take a piss test or not...So, yeah..That was my uneventfully day...

But anyway, I hope that everyone in Winter Haven is doing good, and things like that...So yeah, I will post tomorrow if I hear anything about the job at Buc-ees...

Until Then,
     break my wings...
For you Ryan..   
11:58pm 01/09/2003
mood: cheerful
music: Mindless self indulgence x Bed of roses
There ya go Ryan, I made this one just for you!! He he he..I hope that you actually like this one...You can keep your straightnessosity...Lol...

Who will you have a threesome with? by i_rape_sporks
DateSeptember 3, 2003
WhereA bedroom
First PersonKendall Reasoner
Second PersonKendall Reasoner
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     1 broken wing -  break my wings...