2:30PM - One year, one relationship, one life has passed!
So its been so long since I've written. Like it says almost a year. I'm no longer with Travis. I'm with Derek now and enjoying every day I can get with him. Which isn't much right now because he's in jail. Yea don't give me that look you judgemental freak!!! haha He has only 29 days left. I write to him all the time and see him almost every weekend. I couldn't this weekend because his friend justin took the one and only visit he was allowed this weekend. WHAT A POO HEAD!!! lol naw its all good I don't mind. Justin has a right to see him too. And its good for Derek to know that people haven't forgotten about him. I just want him out of there and with me.
So we're losing our house...ok so we actually lost it but now we're packing up and leaving. I don't know where to but I know that Derek will help me. I told him that I want to get an appartment. He wants to get one too but just needs a job.
Stephanie bought me a plane ticket to fly out to Colorado! I'm so excited and I think I'll get lost or die from having a panic attack. hahahahaha
OK I'M GETTING HAND CRAMPS FROM TYPING AND ALL THAT HAPPY SHIT!!! I'M OUT!
Current mood: 
energetic
Current music: AfroMan: Because I got high
10:25PM - Poetry can help
So I haven't written in a long time but that doesn't make any difference. Travis and I broke up a couple of months ago and now I'm going out with Josh. Trav said he was with me for the wrong reasons which I think is he was only with me for the sex. OH well it was fun. The way he broke up with me was shitty though. OH I was also hospitalized for suicidial ideation. That was the worst week of my life!!! I got with Josh a few days before that and didn't tell him that I was in the hospital. We are doing ok I guess. He has a little kid and he uses her as an excuse for not seeing me at all. He also lives with the babies mom and still sleeps with her "to keep her quiet." Whatever that means...I'm so sick of being jerked around. I wish I could find the one guy that doesn't treat me like crap. I bet that it will never happen so I'll keep trying until I turn into a lesbian or kill myself. I'm so positive huh? lol yea. I think I'm bisexual. It's weird to actually say that but we'll see how that turns out. I seem to be looking a girls a little more these days and.........I just gave myself the jitters. lol
Current mood: 
weird
Current music: Blink 182: Down