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| 07:18am 28/04/2004 |
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Well yesterday i had a great day at work and I have had a great morning because history club went well! I have to send out an email to tell of next weeks topic. It is sad i have three meetings left then it is the end of school! oh well life goes on i have all next year! I have to think of new ideas. Well Miguel just let us watch his video and it is so great! Today i have law for three hours today yippie |
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| 10:10pm 27/04/2004 |
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Ok for the mother fucker who left the fuckin message on my thing u need to Grow up and learn that being un named makes u a pussy no matter what ur career choice is. Do not tell me to grow up when i am working four days a week soccer three and school 5. and if u really thrive on someone's sadness then i am sorry for you because that makes u a very bitter person. I love my life to i don't have to tell the whole world that you are happy over someone's grief. I am very sorry for you because you are shallow and have not feelings for someome else! Problem Kiss my ass |
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| 10:10pm 27/04/2004 |
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Ok for the mother fucker who left the fuckin message on my thing u need to Grow up and learn that being un named makes u a pussy no matter what ur career choice is. Do not tell me to grow up when i am working four days a week soccer three and school 5. and if u really thrive on someone's sadness then i am sorry for you because that makes u a very bitter person. I love my life to i don't have to tell the whole world that you are happy over someone's grief. I am very sorry for you because you are shallow and have not feelings for someome else! Problem Kiss my ass |
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| 06:30pm 26/04/2004 |
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There is so much shit to be dealing with right now. I have school, work and then some. I no some ppl still read this site and they have become very critical of me so u no what kiss off and don't tell me my screw ups because they have made me into the person i am now. You may think you really know what is going on in my life but the fuck u don't. U may think irony is sweet but u have no clue, I am happy at the current relationship status and u are probally rolling your eyes @ me, but things work out the way they are suppose to. Well school sucks right now because of end of course tests and finals are coming up and i really want the hell out of high school because i am sick and tired of the bullshit high school drama that everyone seems to be carrying on. In ten years it won't matter who u dated or what the hell u did. So i figure u should i give a flyin flip what anyone but my friends think. The ones i hold dear to me is who i am going to care about. There is also another important issue i am currently dealing that i am not sayin but it is hard to watch someone i really love be so stressed and worried. I love you with all my heart and i wish u so much luck. Well my feet are bruised and balck and blue because genius here played soccer bare foot and loved every minute of it. I crave soccer and i am going to start playing it year round. it is a play were no one can judge me and it is a place i can be free to play how i want and be mean without any one screwing with me. I have to relieve work shit there because i am hard to work with and a bitch, but oh well life goes on they have the problem not me. I am Michelle Holland a 17 year old teenager who wants to attend law school in the north and have a successful practice and a happy life. I want to be my own person and not fit into the rush life that soceity tells us to have. i also don't listen to ppl who tell me i can;t make it or i will not be good at it, so kiss off to that person too. i just want to do something where i no my stomach is goig to rush into my throat and my breath will be taken away. i want to escape this world and create my own. When i go to Alaska this summer i will be out of the rush life of my own and take a step into a college students. Well my dinner almost ready so i am outtie and Fuck those who are sacarstsi arrogant Sons of Bitchs!! |
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| 07:10am 23/03/2004 |
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Another say at CHHS and i am okay. I just finished my chicken biscut and i am half way done with my vanilla coke. It is skirt day! I have a lavander skirt and a cute black shirt. Well i am chillen in my usually hang out just chillen and listen to the toime go by. I have to figure out what is important to me and figure out how to handle this stuff. After spring break i am going to be fine. Well i have to get rid of some this shit to deal with everything i have graduation testing again lata for now! |
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| 03:47pm 22/03/2004 |
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Well it is almost summer again, thats how long it has been since i have posted. Well the school year has been okay and i am ready to get the hell out of CHHS! Well my classes are hard, but a good challenge for me. I amm really excited because we are doing a mock trail in law. Well i have graduation testing this week and it kinda of bites. I am being pulled in a million different directions, but i guess i am kinda of doing okay. I work now at Party City and i am the supervisor. This summer is so going to kick major ass. My mom just sent in my stuff for Alaska and then for WAshington DC. So in DC i am going to go and be a brain and study Law. It is for the National Student Leadership Convenction and i am so totally excited. Then i have a week to recoup and i am going to Alaska for a campus visit to Alaska Pacific Uviversty. I would love to go there but it is to far away from home. i am thinking about UGA Valdosta and Cloumbus State University the last two have really pretty campus im going to look more ito those later this week. I am playing soccer again finally after a year of injury. I am sweeper and i play the whole game. Prom is in three weeks and we r going to have so much fun! SPring Break 2 weeks and i am going to work my ass off to earn like lots of money. Aerosmith is coming soon to and i am going to the force game with matt. id think anyone but me will read this so i figured it would be a good place to think aloud and talk to someone or at least let out my feelings but if u do read this let me know |
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| 10:22am 10/06/2003 |
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Well this week has been ok i guess and it is only tuesday. Eric has try outs 2nite for soccer and i think i am going to contiune on being bumed b/c the summer is not what i hoped to be. 2 friends r moving one to a far away place and another to a closer one. New hopes r dashed by a phone call and a young heart in love is slashed by a day. The summer b/t our sophmore and jr. year is one of hope, love and loss. This summer will try true love and friendships. What can one do? Nothing at all except provide comfort when needed and stay strong when one is pushed away. Even though we have only been out for like 2 weeks. It already has been hard and trying yet i hope soon the sun will dry the rivers of tears and bring back together old friends, 4 this i wish for this i hope! |
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| 03:06pm 07/06/2003 |
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Hey what's up its been a while since i have posted, well a good amount has happen since that last post. School is out and thank goodness for that! i have started my summer reading and it is ok i guess. Soon i will be reading Novels by dante and hemingway. Yes i actually enjoy these type of books. i am a weird bird o well i am who i am and there is nothing anyone can do about it. Anyways, the last two weeks of school were really hard b/t finals and other personal stuff that happen, i found out one of my close friends is moving to Hall county and it is a known fact Wil, my best friends Boy toy is moving to D.C. but i don't no when exactly, and i my relationship w/ Michael ended. That is a story all in its self that is not going to be told. I went higher in the ranks, but oh well i will bust my ass next year. This summer i have sent half of it @ or w/ Lorraine. We found our homecoming and prom dresses for next year. Lorraines is blue 4 homecoming and balck for prom, mine is orange for homecoming and pink for prom. Well Happy B-day to Anna and congrats on an awsome party and happy b-day for my lil bro Eric, who is now taller then me and on his way to high School next year. I am finally able to be a little less scared about going to College b/c i have found my room mate, Lorriane and i r going to the same college and we r going to room 2gether! it is going to be so awsome to and yea it is 2 years away and it is still very very scary! WEll that's all 4 now!!! |
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| 03:06pm 07/06/2003 |
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Hey what's up its been a while since i have posted, well a good amount has happen since that last post. School is out and thank goodness for that! i have started my summer reading and it is ok i guess. Soon i will be reading Novels by dante and hemingway. Yes i actually enjoy these type of books. i am a weird bird o well i am who i am and there is nothing anyone can do about it. Anyways, the last two weeks of school were really hard b/t finals and other personal stuff that happen, i found out one of my close friends is moving to Hall county and it is a known fact Wil, my best friends Boy toy is moving to D.C. but i don't no when exactly, and i my relationship w/ Michael ended. That is a story all in its self that is not going to be told. I went higher in the ranks, but oh well i will bust my ass next year. This summer i have sent half of it @ or w/ Lorraine. We found our homecoming and prom dresses for next year. Lorraines is blue 4 homecoming and balck for prom, mine is orange for homecoming and pink for prom. Well Happy B-day to Anna and congrats on an awsome party and happy b-day for my lil bro Eric, who is now taller then me and on his way to high School next year. I am finally able to be a little less scared about going to College b/c i have found my room mate, Lorriane and i r going to the same college and we r going to room 2gether! it is going to be so awsome to and yea it is 2 years away and it is still very very scary! WEll that's all 4 now!!! |
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| 03:06pm 07/06/2003 |
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Hey what's up its been a while since i have posted, well a good amount has happen since that last post. School is out and thank goodness for that! i have started my summer reading and it is ok i guess. Soon i will be reading Novels by dante and hemingway. Yes i actually enjoy these type of books. i am a weird bird o well i am who i am and there is nothing anyone can do about it. Anyways, the last two weeks of school were really hard b/t finals and other personal stuff that happen, i found out one of my close friends is moving to Hall county and it is a known fact Wil, my best friends Boy toy is moving to D.C. but i don't no when exactly, and i my relationship w/ Michael ended. That is a story all in its self that is not going to be told. I went higher in the ranks, but oh well i will bust my ass next year. This summer i have sent half of it @ or w/ Lorraine. We found our homecoming and prom dresses for next year. Lorraines is blue 4 homecoming and balck for prom, mine is orange for homecoming and pink for prom. Well Happy B-day to Anna and congrats on an awsome party and happy b-day for my lil bro Eric, who is now taller then me and on his way to high School next year. I am finally able to be a little less scared about going to College b/c i have found my room mate, Lorriane and i r going to the same college and we r going to room 2gether! it is going to be so awsome to and yea it is 2 years away and it is still very very scary! WEll that's all 4 now!!! |
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| 04:18pm 12/05/2003 |
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Well 2day was okay to begin with, I took a test in history and thenin chem. I think i did bad on both but i didn't care either way. Then i checked out and went to the doctor to see about my leg. Things went down hill from there. I get in there so i start my work and i get called in. He is really nice guy, but he said the words that will rip any jocks heart out and rip it to shreads. He said i mite not be able to compete in sports anymore. Also i have to lay off my leg and do everything or i mite be permaitally disbalied by the time i finsh college. They have no clue what is wrong with my leg. It is very werid and they just can't figure it out. So i have to get an MRI done and go from there. The only way i can have surgry is if it is ripped off the bone or something like that. They think i tore 2 to 3 mucsle in the hamstring. Yup so i basically cried the whole way to school. I have been playing soccer for 10 years and to loss it all when i am suppose to be hitting my prime is hard. I lost my place now in the Jill group and now i don;t no where i belong or if i really want to belong anywhere else. I was born to play sports and now it seems like i have no reason to want to go to school or any hope. They say maybe it is only minor and that it can be healed easly, but i am not really believing them at this point in time. If it was minor i would be running and training for a soccer try outs not in pain from just walking around six flags or running like half a mile. Oh well things happen for a reason and i have not figured out mine, maybe i will maybe i won't until 20 years down the line.
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| 04:15pm 11/05/2003 |
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Saturday was so awsome!! I went to 6 flags w/ Tony Jesse Michael, Ally and Jackie!! From the Tropical Breezes to Brittany Spears it was awsome |
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| 01:19am 04/05/2003 |
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Tonite was fucking insane!! It kicked ass so much!! i was in mosh pits and all that crap. I ran into petey and wil and then the four of us walked around and just goofed off. Well then we went and got good seats. All i have to say i have never seen so many wasted, trashedm high and boobs ever in my life it was fuckin crazy! lata
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| 11:30pm 02/05/2003 |
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Sunday- went to six flags and blew out my hamstring walking around going to the rides. I was suppose to be cleared the next day, but i am kinda not. Came home and felt like crap.
Monday- No school iwas home sickw/ messed up leg and god nos what else.
Tuesday- No school missed gateway
Wed. BBBBBBBLLLLLLLLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHh I hate our gay ass school system, i miss the gateway and i have to take it next year. i don't understand them and i don't give a damn anymore
Thursday- Track meet @ North.
Friday- Track meet @ North cancelled, met some fun people hopefully i recieve the phone call soon that will make the lovely rain all worth it.
Ok i am bout ready to explode this week has been one of total thinking and worring. O well its all over.
More @ a lata date!
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| 03:48pm 26/04/2003 |
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The weekend is finally here. Last nite i went w/ Michael to see abger mangment! very good movie. Well then it was really bad weather and he had to leave really fast. Also on fridfay moring i got my license w/ a 99% on the test! well that's all 4 no lata
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| 08:19pm 23/04/2003 |
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This week has been so long. it just needs to end. Yea alot has happen since the last time i posted. two track meets, and i have no clue!! i am los t in my own little world of michelle. it may be crazy sometimes i want to ball other times i am all hyper. i think i need tome to myself to figure out who the hell i am and the what in the world am i going to do w/ my lfe so that it is not anyother waste of space on earth. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh. yep i am losing my mind. i need to vent to someone in person and i think see what they say, but i think i already no what their responce will be. im so sick of the state of georgia i want to move and see how people will respond to me in a new setting and see how i will respond to them. I want to change schools and then come back to chhs and see how the people change and mostly how i changed. i am really seriously thinking about becoming a hermit when i gradute and just corspond with the lab and getting supplies. no one to worry about, no society judging me or any of that other crap. i probaly will be kicked out of the us by the time i am 40 for my poltical views, but it don't matter. i no we really have it good here w/ the government, but still,. the more laws they be passen the less and less freedom we be enjoying. I want to make sure my rites and freedoms don't become a thing of the past and that if and that is a big it i have kids they will have the same freedoms our founding fathers had. i no iu need to shut up but it really is a bug in my ass to have people telling me that i don't have the freedom of speech. this fact is proven in class everyday. I am not suppose to question the teacher. society can kiss my ass becuase it has no balls of its own. Oh well i am only 16 and what i have to say doesn't matter. Well time 4 dinner!!
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| 06:57pm 21/04/2003 |
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This weekend was so awsome!! Friday i went and say Chicgo( i can't spell) w/ Allison. It was alot of fun to go and hang out w/ her. On Saturday i drove some, went to my brother's soccer game and then came home and ran some. I talked to Michael then i went with him and his parents to his birthday dinner. It was so much fun!!! Then we went back to his house and watched American pie. That movie i have no comment on on. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHAEL!!! Then on sunday i went to mu grandparents house and we ate out. Then today we had no teacher 1st persiod and i was bouncing off the walls! heheheh Well lata all
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| 11:32am 18/04/2003 |
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Well i just woke up like an hour ago and i have been talking to my brother. He is going out with a group of friends in just a little bit. There is no school because it is a snow make up day. We placed 3rd at the track meet last nite. Michael's b-day on Sunday and he gets his license on tuesday. I get my soon very soon. I don't want to scare the world by telling them the exact date. Britt is in AL. and Lorrianne will have a car wash 2morrow. Blah i want to do sumthin. I think i am going put w/ Ally 2day. well more lata.
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| 09:27pm 17/04/2003 |
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Hey sup? Well i guess i tell little bout myself. I go to school @ Collins Hill High and am counting down the days till i can leave there and move out onto my own and party in college. I am always in my own little world just to escape the lovely one we live in now. I am atlhetic. Rite now though i am the boy's track manger and the reason behind that is that i killed my hamstring and now i am out for this year. i will be back to soccer for the fall and winter. Next year i will be pole vaulting again. hehe.
Well 2day was so much fun and so easy. It was pointless for me to even go to school because i did nothing. !st packet(already did) 2nd-lab 3rd usual nuttin 4th outside 5th nuttin 6th notes. Well i busted blood vessels in my foot playing soccer outside go me
then i went to parkview for a freshman meet and that was fun in the rain.
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