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.x.o.x. If you push them down first it's not helping .x.o.x. [13 Aug 2006|11:12am] [ mood | bitchy ] Here are some pics I put together for some games I play. (http://www.popomundo.com and http://www.horseland.com) If you play either of these games or are gonna join cause I make them sound so cool let me know. ( Newer horseland and popomundo pics ) Wanna break a heart?

...o.o.o.x...Icons...o.o.o.x... [12 Feb 2006|09:42am] [ mood | awake ] [ music | For the Band - Relient K - "those days are gone" ] Woot, I made icons... They're behind the cut, let me know if you like them... ( First Ever Set of Icons - Pink & Blue ) 1 Broken heart| Wanna break a heart?

[12 Feb 2006|03:18am] [ mood | cold ] [ music | Hollaback Girl - Gwen Stefani ] I feel broken... 1 Broken heart| Wanna break a heart?

...x.x.o...Waiting...x.x.o... [12 Feb 2006|02:23am] [ mood | Screaming inside; outside ok ] [ music | Numb piano - Linkin Park ] .....I miss Jared. I hate leaving him every night the way we have to. When I'm in class; drawing chairs with striped fabric on them, making shapes with foamcore, talking about stuff that no one cares about with a teacher that has worn the same outfit to every class, making slide shows with Jared's pictures, or talking about monkeys and the way different people live...I'm thinking of him. I can't wait to go visit him. .....I dreamt of him last night. I dreamt he asked me to marry him. It was odd... I fell don't, started crying, and said no I can't. Thats when I fire drill happened.... .....I've been trying to keep busy with class homework, Return To Laughter, or games... doesn't work very well, but oh well. I have a Jared playlist... songs he sing...If you don't get it I MISS HIM.... I'm ok without Luke (my kitty, which is now making me feel worse cause I haven't thought about him and now I want him too). I'm ok without my parents, they hate me anyways. And I'm ok without Danielle and my friends cause I never saw them anyways. But it's different without Jared, I'm not ok cause he's not ok. .....He said he'd wait as long as it takes, but idk. Wanna break a heart?

...x.o.x.o... Arts come by the dozen ...x.o.x.o... [10 Feb 2006|06:45am] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | Panic! At the disco ] ( Graphix ) 1 Broken heart| Wanna break a heart?

...x.o.x.o...Home to blurty...x.o.x.o... [10 Feb 2006|05:00am] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | The Rest Is Up To You - Relient K ] .....It's late, I'm not tired. I told Jared I'd go to sleep before four but gosh darn it time flies when you're having ever so much fun. Ah, there's no fun here. I've got a lot on my mind. A lot about Jared and I just wanted to go on my beautiful livejournal and vent about it. Well livejournals done some changes and it messed up my layout, *cries* I poured all my heart into that layout and now it's gone. Gone like other things. I'm not sure if Jared and I gotta make it anymore. I love him; I can't think of life without him; it just hurts too much. Anyways I came back here, home to blurty, home of my first online journal, the first one I let my sister read and comment on (Danielle knows what I means). .....I don't know, I just feel like it's over with Jared, as much as hurts to say thats how it feels. I still love him, I KNOW that much for sure. If I didn't I would just walk away, but I'm staying for now, hoping for the best, hoping things with get better. Me being away is really getting to Jared, I wish he was here, he wishes I was there. I'm going to school here, his school is there and so is his family. I don't know it just doesn't work, and I just don't wanna lose him. .....I tried to plan my classes so I wouldn't have classes Thursday or Friday so I could go home Wednesday. Then I'd have more time with Jared and time with my mom, to make her happy. Well, I got it so that I can leave Thursday afternoon. Only thing is my mom's made at me because I'm "replacing her with Jared." Yea, w/e I don't care. On my birthday you'd think she'd want me to be happy. Neither of my parents said happy birthday to me, I don't think my dad knew. Doesn't matter I didn't think they'd care, but I didn't think my mom would get upset over me trying to be happy. If they didn't sleep and hang out in the shop the whole time I am there, or better yet if they didn't talk about Jared the way they do maybe I'd want to be around them. I love him, and my parents won't even get to know him. I wish we could run away.... Wanna break a heart?

[10 Feb 2006|04:24am] I hate livejournal Wanna break a heart?

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