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[20 Jul 2004|08:00pm] Ok, I'd like some comments/constructive criticism/anything (not mean) about the stuff I'm about to show you. ( lemme know what you think ) 3 comments|post comment

[20 Jul 2004|05:32pm] I love Dylan post comment

Move your body girl.....make the fellas go OO! [20 Jul 2004|02:48pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | dance stuff in my head ] Yes, I'm back, oh you must have missed me terribly! ...not :) I was grounded from the computer for 2 days, not fun. Oh well, it's all good right? I had a long-awaited breakdown on Saturday night, cried myself to sleep, wrote a lot, it wasn't very fun but I'm better now and I'm glad I let it all out. I pushed Dylan away because of it, I mean everything is fine, but that night I just couldn't be helped. I have this thing, I love talking to people and helping people, I think I'm an understanding person, I care about everyone and everything. But when it comes to my own feelings and problems, I freeze, I just shut down. I don't stand for whining when things are good, or complaining about dumb things, therefore I hate discussing my feelings if something IS wrong. I feel like I'm trying to make the person feel bad for me, and that's unacceptable. Dylan told me it wasn't unacceptable, and that everyone needs to talk sometimes, and I know he's right...but it's just how I am. And I've just realized that throughout my entire blurty, I've contradicted everything I just said, mostly in part that this is in fact a journal where I can dump my feelings, but yea, I complain too much, that's going to stop. I'm at a wonderful place in my life surrounded my wonderful people, and I have so much to look forward too. I love everyone :) post comment

[17 Jul 2004|10:02pm] [((And I'm standing in the pouring rain with one boxing glove on wondering, does it still count as fighting if you lose before the first round?))] 5 comments|post comment

[15 Jul 2004|10:32pm] Worked 11-6 today, but Linda let us clock out at 5:30...though that didn't help since I was staying around til the 7:15 showing of The Notebook, which by the way, was AMAZING, I've been in the best mood for 3 weeks, I needed to cry for a little while, lol, 2 hours. It was so good though. I'm so in love :) Love is such a wonderful thing. Yea, it makes you feel terrible most of the time, but on the other hand it makes you feel so amazing, like you're on top of the world. It takes work to make it work, you fight, you scream, you push...but then you make up, and kiss, and hug, and suddenly the world is right again. Even if you don't have the love you want, we are all loved and love others, it's a matter of whether or not we embrace the love that's around us to help us survive, and thrive off of. Once we do, the little things we trip over make us laugh, when we forget things we smile, because we were thinking of them, and when we see that one person, everything glows, including ourselves. It's a part of everything we were, everything we are, and everything we ever will be. We can't ever forget that. Wow....I don't know where the hell that came from...but I love it :) Ciao 1 comment|post comment

[12 Jul 2004|03:46pm] yes yes, some more quizzes...( if you can possibly bear it... ) 1 comment|post comment

[12 Jul 2004|11:18am] ( another one...if you've read every other one you already know everything about me...that's sad.... ) 2 comments|post comment

[11 Jul 2004|11:13pm] I hate spilling soda on the door/carpet/chair/keyboard/monitor/myself...it sucks, now I'm all sticky and I taste like bad cherry coke...blec Just got back from Dylan/Bill's with my Kris. *sigh* I don't ever wanna leave when I'm with him. Woot for being our own circle :) Man I love him so much, I get so girly...ewwww Had work today from 11-6, can we say boring? LoriAnn decided to make little tiny oragami boats and float them, but Jason put seltzer in the thing to the bubbles drowned the boat, lol. Oi, they're a lot of fun there, but Sunday's are just so boring, when I get my schedule ppl should come visit me, it's funny because I'll make you want to buy stuff :) But yeaaa, I'm bored, hey Dylan you know you can leave comments on here? just anonymous though since you don't have a name, I just thought I'd let you know :) Ciao Loves post comment

[11 Jul 2004|12:17am] I just watched A Walk To Remember, omg, wow, I'm still teary, I was crying like a baby, and this was based on a book by Nicholas Sparks, so I can only imagine what The Notebook will be like Wow, I'm like touched, it was amazing. :) I need to go listen to hellogoodbye and probably dl the ep AGAIN, lol Ciao my lovelys dylan my dear, I love you soooo post comment

long days and drunken nights haunted by brown eyes that stare right through me [10 Jul 2004|09:17pm] ( here are some surveys cuz I'm SO FREAKIN BORED!!! ) post comment

[10 Jul 2004|08:25pm] Valerie my love, check your comments, I found somebody in emolyrics who had it :) *sigh* Parents are having ppl over, and Dylan hasn't called yet, so I'm guessing that means he's not coming :( I miss him so much and I want to see him so bad. grrrr Sean invited me to a party w/him and this girl Michelle and her friends, he told me he was getting drunk then proceeded to tell me he'd drive me home...ummm I'd rather not die, and you shouldn't drive if you're drunk anyway. Seriously, think about it man. I want my baby right now, *hmpf* aha, how childish did that sound, I don't really care though, he's mine, and I should have him all the time. Good god I love that boy :) Ok, before I get myself upset, I need to find something to do, pray he can come Ciao loves 4 comments|post comment

[08 Jul 2004|10:23pm] Talking about the future with the person you love is completely amazing, especially when you know they'll be there :) post comment

[08 Jul 2004|09:42pm] Goin to the beach tomorrow Hopefully I'll be meeting Dylan there too Start work tomorrow, starts at 5-10, wooot, Bill's working too, so it won't be that bad, everyone seemed nice when I went in to do paperwork today. I need to know if I'm sleeping over Kristina's on Saturday, rawr You know what's really retarded? When your computer deletes the hellogoodbye ep you downloaded just last night...grrr, now I gotta do it allll over again, oh well, I'll get to listen to it. Wow, that was like an entire mood change in one sentence, haha, awesome. I love Dylan soooo much It's officially one week! :) post comment

hellogoodbye -- dear jamie....sincerely me [08 Jul 2004|11:41am] dear jamie, i've got a letter i would like to send its lacking strings of words with punctuation at the end but should i trust this dialect to convey the right effect? dear jamie, i've got some things i'd like to set in pen i would have used a pencil but leads just not permanent but should i trust my printer's ink to express the things i think? every page i tried my best to think of something to contest with inside jokes and other folks who've got much more to say dear jamie, this envelope will represent my heart i'll seal it send it off and wish it luck with its depart and this stamp will be every action that carried my affection across the air and land and sea but should i trust the postage due to deliver my heart to you? every page i tried my best to think of something to contest with inside jokes and other folks who've got much more to say every page i tried my best to fill with something to contest with inside jokes and other folks who've got much more to say i'll give you all i can a flower and a hand i hope this helps you see signed, sincerely me post comment

[07 Jul 2004|12:45am] Kristina is the best person to stay up late talking about ghosts and god with I love this girl so much, she's the best. Thanks for listening to my nonsense :) post comment

[06 Jul 2004|04:08pm] *Start Complaining:* I can't go to Kristen's today, I haven't seen her in weeks (or one...it feels like forever) I can't see Dylan, my mom won't drive all the way over there again I can't go out, and no one's going to be home and I doubt people can come here.grrrr maybe I should ask, but she'll say no I'm mad *End Complaining* That was my negativity for the day, :) I get to go shopping in a little bit, so that should help some. post comment

[06 Jul 2004|11:05am] ( sooo bored ) 2 comments|post comment

[06 Jul 2004|12:25am] Went to Dylan's soccer game today(yesterday?), his mom thought I distracted him, lol oh well Then we chilled out with Bill and the guys for the rest of the night, but my parents picked me up early :( I love this kid so much :) I hung with him yesterday too, and if I didn't have to babysit bubba tomorrow, I'd be going to the beach with him, oh well, it all happens for better reasons. :) La la, I'm bored, but since I'm talking to him it's great, heres a quiz ( tadaa ) post comment

[05 Jul 2004|01:46pm] ( some surveysss :) ) post comment

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