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So last night I went to see The Lord of the Rings again..such a good movie..I wanna go again! haha. I cried again, I'm so gay.
So it's Christmas Eve. Whee. Exciting. Hehe.
I am so sick of the bull shit..
So this morning Kristin IMed me and she was like "We need to talk." Okay I've been saying that for a week now, and you kept telling me to fuck off. I'm not gonna just do everything when it's convenient for you and succumb to you guys and your bull shit. So she was like "The song isn't about you." And I was like "Whatever, I don't care, it's really gay and immature." So anyway I'm not mad at Kristin, I never really was, just upset. So I mean whatever, I'm done apologizing to all of them but if she decides she wants to be friends again, cool, I'm ready. If she doesn't, that's cool too. I'm indifferent right now. And as for Ilyssa-beth.. it's fucking over. Haha now I see why everyone in Cali hated you, and everyone at Branchburg..look at you, you're pathetic. I don't owe you a fucking thing. I take back every apology and every note I wrote you since last Thursday. I want to set your greasy red hair on fire and watch you burn. It's what you deserve. Have a nice day. =]
"Is that what you call a getaway? Tell me what you got away with 'cause I've seen more spine in jellyfish, I've seen more guts in eleven year old kids. So have another drink and drive yourself home, I hope there's ice on all the roads. And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt, and again when your head goes through the windshield."
Anyway, I called Jovi last night and we talked for a while. You're so sweet, I heart you Jovi. I'm sorry you have to be in the middle of all this shit. Ha.."All my friends hate eachother.." So we are most definetely hanging out over break. *hug*
I think I might want to get a livejournal..but I don't know, I love my Blurty. Hehe. I hate starting new journals and having to deal with all the html and only having like 2 entries. But livejournal is cooool. I opened a present from my aunt today..I wasn't supposed to open it until tomorrow. Shh! Hehe..it was this cute pair of earrings that you can change around. Oh I got my third holes and my cartilage pierced on Sunday. Cooool. Tonight Sara and I are going to be really cool and go to midnight mass. Here is our plan! Sara is wearing white tights with black fishnets over them, with a black skirt, black tank top and white sweater. I am wearing black tights with white fishnets, a white skirt and white tak top, with a black sweater. We are such awesome kids. Hmph..it's raining. What's up with that? It's supposed to SNOW on christmas. Does anyone read this thing anymore? I haven't been updating like, at all this year. Ha. I've been so busy. Leave comments!! Please?? Go to wwwaddictinggames.com and make a snowflake. Fun. =]
"I can't imagine all the people that you know, and the places that you go when the lights are turned down low. And I don't understand all the things you've seen, but i'm slipping in between you and your big dreams. It's always you in my big dreams. And you tell me that it's over, I wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clover. And your restless, and I'm naked, you've gotta get out, you can't stand to see me shaking. Could you let me go? I didn't think so. And you don't wanna be here in the future so you say the present's just a pleasent interruption to the past and you don't wanna look much closer 'cause your afraid to find out all this hope you had sent into the sky by now had crashed. And it did, because of me. And then you bring me home. afraid to find out that you're alone, and i'm sleeping in your living room. We don't have much room to live.I had these dreams that i learned to play guitar, maybe cross the country, become a rock star. And there was hope in me that I could take you there. But dammit you're so young. Well I don't think I care. And if i hurt you, then I'm sorry. Please don't think that this was easy. Then you bring me home, 'cause we both know what it's like to be alone. And I'm dreaming in your living room. We don't have much room to live. And konstantine is walking down the stairs. Doesn't she look good standing in her underwear? And I was thinking what I was thinking, we've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere. My Konstantine came walking down the stairs and all that I could do is touch her long blonde hair. And I've been thinking, it hurts me thinking that these nights when we were drinking,they never got us anywhere. This is because I can spell konfusion with a k, and I like it. It's to dying in another's arms and why I had to try it, it's to Jimmy Eat World and those nights in my car, when the first star you see may not be a star. I'm not your star. Isn't that what you said you thought this song meant? And if this is what it takes, just to lie in my mistakes and live with what I did to you and all the hell I put you through. I always catch the clock, it's 11:11 and now you want to talk. It's not hard to dream, you'll always be my Konstantine. Konstantine, they'll never hurt you like I do. No, they'll never hurt you like I do. This is to a girl who got into my head with all the pretty things she did. Hey you know, you keep me up in bed. This is to a girl who got into my head with all the fucked up things I did. Hey maybe, baby, you could keep me up in bed. My Konstantine spin around me like a dream we played out on this movie screen and i said "did you know I missed you?" Oh God I miss you. And then you bring me home and we'll go to sleep, but this time, not alone, and you'll kiss me in your living room. I know you'll miss me in your living room, 'cause these nights I think maybe that I'll miss you in my living room. We don't have much room. I said "does anybody need that room?" Because we all need a little more room to live. My Konstantine..."
That song is so pretty. Ilyssa is no longer my Konstantine. I have a new one. I heart my Konstantine.
I miss my cellular phone. *sigh* Maybe I'll get it back for Christmas! Probabaly not though. Alright I have to go shower and get dressed to go to my aunt's house. I get to see my cousin Rachel! Yes. She better be wearing the Hello Kitty ring I gave her. Bye bye.
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