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Wow in 4 days I should have been experiencing the miracle of life. The only one thing that has ever made me TRULY happy was knowing that I was gonna have a baby. I would give anything to have my baby back. Instad I sit here miserable as ever if not more. I have turned right back into what i was before. Only this time maybe worst. I cant stand this feeling. And as far as him? Wow what do you know he is headed back to prison. Why couldnt i just have my baby? Why would you take the one thing that truly made me happy?? Please help me to understand. How can I have faith when the one thing I loved wa ripped from me. Yet I still have to put on this fake smile and pretend everything is ok. Knowing that its far from ok....
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