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RuneScapin' [28 Nov 2004|05:04pm]
Mm.. been playing RuneScape again, lately... I love it. n__n

But sometimes it goes slow. :o! Like. It seems like it takes for-fucking-evar to level up.. but other times, it's like "Whee! Sofun! :D!!!" so, yeah. :D

I'm working on.. quests, right now.

Uhm... not much to really update on... at all.... my dad leaves in a week.



Mmm, mouth [12 Nov 2004|06:23am]
[ mood | calm ]
[ music | Bush 'Mouth' ]

I just found my 'Deconstructed' CD and it made me happy, because "Mouth" is one of my favorite songs by Bush. I dunno if these lyrics are totally correct, but here ya go.

Bush 'Mouth'

You gave me this
Made me give

Your silver grin
Still sticking it in
You have
Some machine
Soul machine

The longest kiss
Feeling furniture days
Drift madly to you
Pollute my heart, drain
You have
Broken in me
Broken me

All your mental armour drags me down
Nothing hurts like your mouth, mouth, mouth

Your loaded smiles
And pretty just deserts
Wish it all for you
So much it never hurts
You have
Soul machine
Stolen me

All your mental armour drags me down
We can't breathe when we come around
All your mental armour drags me down
Nothing hurts like your mouth, mouth, mouth
Your mouth, mouth, mouth
Your mouth, mouth, mouth

We'd been missing long before
Never found our way home
We'd been missing long before
We will found our way

You gave me this
Made me give
You have
Soul machine
Broken free

All your mental armour drags me down
We can't breathe when we come around
All your mental armour drags me down
Nothing hurts like your mouth, mouth, mouth
Your mouth, mouth, mouth
Your mouth, mouth, mouth
All your mental armour
All your mental armour
And your
Mouth (x15)

The part in italics... I dunno. I don't hear that at all in the song, everything else is there.. but that part is like. Just not in this song. :: shrug :: Maybe it's a different version... the link I clicked to get those lyrics said "Mouth (stingray version)" and that's exactly what it says on the CD... so I dunno. Awesome song, though. I love the movie, too, where I first heard it.. An American Werewolf in Paris.


Who ever thought... [06 Nov 2004|07:50am]
[ mood | horny ]
[ music | Saturday morning cartoons and my tummy growling ]

... that undead Nazi's could be so fucking sexy?

.. YUM.

I have a new obsession with Karl Ruprecht Kroenen. .... I've also discovered new fetishes of mine. :: sighs :: I am such a freeaak. Trench coats, boots, gas masks, nazi ss uniforms...... it's all so yummeh.


xD! [02 Nov 2004|07:57pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | TV... stuff ]

"Yo, yo, yo, Jennifer! Phil, from Rock the Vote, calling you to get you to Rock that Vote! You got about a half hour, rock it! Thanks."

.. that was a messege left on my voice mail. Now.. I know this whole voting thing is supposed to be serious, but I'm sorry - I just about DIED when I heard that! xD I can't imagine what I would have said if I had actually answered the phone, and he opened with "Yo, yo, yo!"... xD!!!

In other news. Hope everyone voted!

And in more other news, Lisa, Roxanne, and all them - if you see this, great! If not .. well, it isn't important, just a suggestion.

A simple fix to your friendslist problem: Go to a different journaling site. If you ask around on DeadJournal or LiveJournal, someone is sure to give you an invitation.. I'm sure you could get enough invites for all your friends. There's also uJournal, I don't know if that needs an invite or not. There are a lot of journal sites that are free and aren't as restrictive as blurty. Some need invites, some don't. Look around.

I got my LJ invite by looking around at random websites. Sometimes paid users will take invitation codes and throw them on a website - first come, first serve.

I'd give you guys invites, myself, but I'm still too damned cheap to pay LJ. Har.


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News from the gamer world: [02 Nov 2004|03:03am]
[ mood | sad ]
[ music | Tool 'Eulogy' ]

Nobuo Uematsu has left Square Enix.

Final Fantasy composer Nobuo Uematsu has left Square Enix and is set to found his own company. Reflecting on his busy recent schedule, which included a Final Fantasy concert tour throughout Japan this year, activities related to his rock band The Black Mages as well as composer duties for last year's Hanjuku Eiyuu Tai 3D and the upcoming Final Fantasy XII, Uematsu mentioned, it might be best for him to become a freelance composer. However, he mentioned that there is still a possibility his relationship with his former employer will continue. Looking back Uematsu said he really liked his compositions for Final Fantasy VI, VII and VIII and will never forget Final Fantasy VIII's main theme Eyes on Me.

Full article: RPGfan news


Time to bring it down again... [28 Oct 2004|10:48pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]
[ music | Tool 'Aenema' ]

Ah, I found out the baby's name! Finally!.. While I was at Nanas taking care of Dustin, today, I had her call Daniel's mom, Tammy, to find out the baby's name. She is Cara Cameron Kintner ... yay! n__n;

Uhm... my dad still pisses me off with the brutal killing of mice in my house... and.. my cat is pissed at me because he has a purple flea collar... But my mom's the one who bought it and put it on him. So I must have done something else to make him mad. :: shrug ::

.. Uhm.. my Nana is doing horribly... and she absolutely refuses to be tested for alzheimers... and now she's even begun imagining things worse than she was before.. and no one in this damn family will take steps to -fix- it. As her granddaughter, I want to help - but as her caretaker, the only thing I'm allowed to do is write down her behaviour every day for a week or two, and then hand it in to Dave so he can see for himself that she isn't right in the head.. and then maybe he'll contact her doctors. :: sighs :: This is one thing I really hate about having a client who's family.

And.. yeah.. can't think of anything more.

:: humsings ::
Some say the end is near, some say we'll see armaggeddon soon! I certainly hope we will, I sure could use a vacation from this bullshit 3-ring circus sideshow of freaks here in this hopeless fucking hole we call L.A., the only way to fix it is to flush it all away! Any fucking time, any fucking day, learn to swim I'll see you down in Arizona bay...

LOVE this song >D


These are the faces [28 Oct 2004|02:12pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | 'Faces' by Orgy ]

Mmm.. I love me some Orgy. n_n!

'Faces' by Orgy

Did you think I'd play these games with you?
Did you think I couldn't help it?
I'm strong enough
I'm good enough
Step down step down, you're the big mistake
I'm losing all control and this is my face
From here on out you can always count on me
count on me to be your enemy, count on me

These are the faces
(faces of time)
That's what you're living through
This is all about you

You're slipping in and out of time, who are you to decide
which one of us winds up broken for a lifetime
and still you'll never be satified until one of us falls apart
I've had enough of this
And these are the faces

You've lost your golden reigns, you've failed to read the signs
you'll find out there's no answers to your stupid ass questions
you can try and tell yourself that everythings all right

When someone is taking all your fame
Thats what youre living through these are the faces
And I think that theyre all coming after you!

When you're slipping in and out of time, who are you to decide
which one of us winds up broken for a lifetime
and no you'll never be satified until one of us falls apart
I've had enough of this
And these are the faces

And nothing can go away (the way you do) and nothing can go away
two faced and pretentious!


Oh, panic. [27 Oct 2004|07:45pm]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | Cradle of Filth 'Nymphetamine' ]

So.. for.. the first time in what seems liek forEVAR, LJ is actually -down- for a few minutes.. and Blurty is actually -not down-. The world is all turned upside down! :o! But since I am in the mood to update.. I shall do it here. Since.. I ignore this damn blurty too much as it is, it needs some lovins'.


... I had a dream last night.. uhm, I won't go into the details because it's pretty damn disgusting, but I beat the living shit out of Curtis and Jaylene for being bad parents. ... The thing is, they aren't "bad parents", really.. I mean, yeah - they do a lot of things that makes me want to slap the bloody shit out of them.. but when it's all said and done, they're awesome parents. So... I dunno. :: shrug :: That dream was a little odd... but it did help, in a way, to vent some frustration so.. hooray for that.

My buddy, Rae (I referred to him as "Meth" before because he generally goes by "Methusselah", but now I call him Rae... yeah, it's best not to ask. o.O) send me a -wonderful- song by Cradle of Filth, called 'Nymphetamine'... and it is an absolutely gorgeous song. Parts are very heavy.. and parts are very soft.. it's really cool. Like some Theatre of Tragedy songs.. I like songs like that, they're teh spiff.

Anywho.. the version I have is the "Fix" version and it's a bit shorter than the other version (the "Overdose" version).. by about 3 or 4 verses. So, yeah..

Nymphetamine )

Interesting news story: Hobbits are real!... read the story here. Very interesting, yes...


BABY! [25 Oct 2004|09:44pm]
[ music | Tool 'Eulogy' ]

n___n October 25 at 7:30 pm, 'Cameron' Kintner was welcomed into the world at 8 lbs (exactly) and 21 inches long. n________n BABY.

.. I say 'Cameron' because I don't know if that's her first name or her middle name... because no one has bothered to pass the information through Coconut Wireless. :: sniffs :: But I am so happy for Daniel, he's a papa! And while I was utterly disappointed the other day.. I'm okay, now. I know he's going to be a wonderful father.

:: wiggles :: n____n!

.. and in other news, my buddy Steve has been pushing me aside for Sabbage (a mutual friend of ours) and it hurts.. and he's being an ass about it. So y'know what? Fuck him. I don't need him, or her. >/ Dickwads.

but omgtehhappy! There's a new baaaaby in the family!! n______n And if Memorial puts up the information on the baby info website (I know what I'm talking about, but I just don't know the name of the site!) then I will link to it so everyone can seeee the new member. Hee.


... take two! [25 Oct 2004|12:36am]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | Green Day 'American Idiot' ]

Okay. I just had this update ALL done.. and Blurty decided to be a bitch and be all "OMGNO!".. so.. yeah, trying this AGAIN.

Since I repeatedly forget I have a blurty.. e__e;


I am very disappointed in my cousin... and because I don't want to write this whole long story again, I'll make it short: 3 months ago he broke up with his girlfriend and this disappoints me because tomorrow she is giving birth to their child. Honestly: I don't know why they broke up.. could be a very good reason! But as it stands right now, I am disappointed.. and will continue to be, until Daniel explains himself to me.

.. and if he abandons this child, I will beat the fuck out of him repeatedly. With blunt objects.

More news!

My dress for halloween is almost done.. my mom finally got around to starting it, tonight. Of course.. after she started it, she had a whole new idea that involved using my shawl to wrap around the dress to hold it up (.. it's hard to explain, so I won't try) instead of sewing an elastic band into the dress to hold it up.. (I need it to be held up because I made it strapless.. and apparently I've lost a lot of weight since I bought the dress, because it just falls off of me.)

Other more news!

Ted's phone number has been found. I rejoice! Because I no longer have to run to EVERY TATTOO SHOP IN TOWN bugging them to see if Ted works there, or has worked there, and where the hell did he go!? I have him in my sights now! >D And this means.. that.. either in December or January.. more of my back will be done. (I have to wait until then because I only get $100 a month.. and I need to use my next 2 checks for christmas shopping, but in December I'll be getting $300.. so.. yay!)

And now! I will tell you how my back shall look when it is done.. because I am set in what I want..

Across the top half of my back, along with my phoenix, will be a night sky.. stars, clouds - maybe a few more fire bursts, a full moon. Symbolism here: the night sky because I am nocturnal, the phoenix for immortality.

The bottom, tying in to the top of course, will be the ground.. with a dragon, a large tree, and a koi (I do NOT know how I'm going to go about getting the koi.. but I think he will be jumping out of the pond.. with a waterfall nearby... because I think looking into a pond would look horribly.) Symbolism here: The dragon for strength, the tree for my roots ( a sort of.. family-tree, it will be.), and a koi for perserverance in adversity and strength of purpose.

And so people better understand the koi:
In Japanese symbolism the koi represents perserverance in adversity and strength of purpose. This has made it one of the most popular of their tattoos. The strongest koi swims upstream until it reaches the final waterfall, where it vaults into the mists and becomes a water dragon.

I could get the tattoo as the koi turning into the dragon.. but where's the fun in that? I haven't completed my journey, yet.. so... I see it as kind of.. this is me, on my quest..

:: shrug :: Maybe I'm putting too much into this? ... but I think that a tattoo should be yours and yours alone.. something that means a great deal to you. :: firm nod ::

Aaannnnddd... I'm done rambling! Go me.



OoOoOoOoOoOo [15 Oct 2004|09:16pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

Mnnghh.... e___x;

I got pissy at people, today... and I should apologize, but I'm not going to. Why? Because I warned Bri that I had not had any sleep in a long time and I was pissy, and he continued to toss argumentative comments in my direction.

Oh, well. Another friendship gone down the proverbial shithole.

BUT. Regardless, I am happy.

.. Angry because I fell asleep at 1 and my mom didn't wake me up to go to the courthouse with her (I had business there).. instead she let me sleep. Which is good, but also bad.. I'll just have to go tomorrow, I guess.

I am still happy. Why? My secret!

-flees to play runescape-

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OMG, let's be a DORK. [14 Oct 2004|04:37pm]
[ mood | groggy ]
[ music | KoRn 'Thoughtless' ]

[cheap shot]
Hoyeah. I'm so going to be a fucking dork. Wow, lookit me! Posting the stats of a GAME CHARACTER. Wow, just fucking WOW. It's so impressive, isn't it? I know!.. :: rolls her eyes ::

No, I'm not really going to post stats. What the fuck is the point? "Oh, look, look! I can kill a stone golem all by myself! I r such teh speshul!!11oneone11!one" .. I mean. Seriously.

Yeah, games -rawk-. Yeah, they're fun to play. Buuuut... nobody gives a flying fuck about your character, they're all more interested in their own characters.
[/cheap shot]

I had a weird, weird dream last.. uh.. today. I dreamt that my cat.. was like... my baby. :: blink :: Seriously, my -child-. But.. it was a cat.... o_____O; I have -got- to stop watching be--- .. I mean. Nevermind. xD!!

Hooo, I'm naughty. And now I am off to go play RuneScape, because I've been neglecting it.


Whee! [13 Oct 2004|07:32pm]
[ mood | calm ]
[ music | Marilyn Manson 'Personal Jesus' ]

Ooh. John is -so- awesome. :D I'm thinking... I might just take a trip to Mississipi and give him a visit. ;D

Gods know we both need it, ugh. e__e

So, update update... I'm so used to updating in my LJ, sometimes I forget I have a blurty. Um..

I had a weird dream last night about swimming in my Uncle's pool, with the boys and some other kids.. well, there were the boys - Dustin, Hunter, Sawyer.. and then two little girls, who I don't know. Also some of my friends / family. I'm thinking Dusti and Krystina... anyways! We were swimming in the pool and my sharks were in the pool, very big (Makes sense, Rum, Coke, and Alina will get rather big) and they kept hitting my legs and hurting me. Well, Rum did. I got out of the pool and my knee was all bruised and swollen from where he kept running into me (apparently he was the retarded shark).. so.. I got out of the pool and went into the house and had cake. :D!

That's all I remember. I kept waking up with leg pains again. Bwuh.



A little concerned... [06 Oct 2004|09:16pm]
[ mood | drained ]
[ music | Diary of Dreams 'Chemicals' ]

So, I joined this free online dating service with one of my friends from Scotland... He joined because he's lonely, I joined for shits and giggles - and to find new friends (Really, that's one of the options you can choose "I am looking for.. friends / pen pals").. because, lets face it... I love my friends. :D

Anyways. Yesterday, someone messeged me... and I must admit, he's pretty damn hot! I talked to him for... gods, probably like 3 - 4 hours last night. We talked about a lot of things, but mainly he just kept making comments on how gorgeous he thinks I am (I let him watch my cam, heh).. :: shrug :: He was really fun to talk to (C'mon, everyone loves ego boosts!)... but by looking at his profile, he seems like quite the party animal. What's concerning me, though..

Is the fact that I've been hurt a lot recently, everyone who's seemed interested in me really did nothing but toy with my emotions.. how can I be sure this guy isn't doing the same thing? (We talked about that, too.. he says he's a good guy.. I believe him.) Anyway. I showed his profile to 4 of my good friends, and out of those 4... only one liked him. The other 3 think he's out for nothing but a "quick fuck". Of course.. it makes no sense that he'd messege ME for a "quick fuck" seeing as how I'm nearly 2000 miles away from him. :: squint ::

I dunno. He seems like an awesome guy, and I think we'd make good friends. :D I'm happy. Going to not let it get past anything more than friendship ... at least for now, LOL. Gods know I don't need to be attached to someone so far away, again.

Anyway! He's hot and nice. ;D And I love a good ego boost, so it's awesome.



I BROKE IT! ;_____; [05 Oct 2004|02:01am]
[ mood | angry ]
[ music | KMFDM 'Urban Monkey Warfare' ]

I am such a dipshit. :: sigh :: ... I dunno. Usually, I can tear electronics apart, fix them, and put them back together perfectly.. with no need for instructions. Well.

My PS2 decided to give me DRE's on every damn disc I own. So.... I looked up online, how to fix it.. found a useful article on G4TechTV's website. Followed the instructions -directly- ... and it continued to give me DRE's, no matter how much I tweaked the little white gear...

.... so.... I decided to be a doubledipshit.. and try to tweak with -other- things. I pulled a piece off, and looked inside.. and saw a dead bug. So I knocked him out of the ps2 with a pencil. That's ALL I did!

... now my PS2 doesn't turn on. At all. T____________T I am going to die without it! :: cry ::

I have two options... no, three. I can send it back to Sony and see if they'll fix it (I bet they'd charge up the ass, though!), or.. there's a guy I always see ads for, who repairs consoles - he might be able to fix it (and maybe cheaper than sony?) OR. I... can try and repair it myself.. again... e____x;;

I think I'll call the dude tomorrow... and... yeah. I dunno. This fuckin' SUCKS, though.


Taken from a friend on LJ... [04 Oct 2004|12:40am]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | Silvertide "Ain't Comin' Home" ]

Okay.. I know at least TWO people see my Blurty, so... >__> DO IT, DAMN IT. :: cough :: Please? :D??

(x) the ones you would, (-) the ones you wouldn't.
Would you:

() go out with me?
() give me your number?
() have sex with me?
() let me kiss you?
() watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
() let me take you out to dinner?
() drive me somewhere/anywhere? (I can't drive... legally)
() take a shower with me? (I still can't do that in gym...)
() be my gf/bf?
() have a fling with me?
() listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
() buy me a drink if i didn't have money?
() take me home for the night?
() let me sleep in your bed?
() sing car karaoke w/ me? (I do that with ANYONE)
() sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
() re-post this for me to answer your questions?
() let me give you a piggyback ride?
() come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?


Eruption [03 Oct 2004|09:59pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | String Cheese Incident 'No Woman, No Cry' ]

Oh, yeah... for anyone who hasn't heard (do you live under a rock? ¬_¬) Mt. St. Helens "burped" the other day... and now they're warning of a bigger eruption. The Volcano Alert is now at level 3. This is the latest report about it...

Mount St. Helens Update, October 3, 2004, 7:40 P.M.

Current status is Volcano Alert (Alert Level 3); aviation color code RED

At 2 pm yesterday, we increased the alert level to Volcano Alert due to a change in the character of seismic signals (50 minute long tremor) that occurred immediately after a steam emission at 12:16 P.M., recognition of ongoing uplift of the crater floor, and reports of sulfur gas odor. In addition, we believe that there is a significantly increased probability that gas-rich magma is moving toward the surface. After another period of tremor starting at 2:57 A.M. this morning, seismicity returned to discrete earthquakes. Seismic activity decreased gradually until about 2:00 P.M. then increased again, reaching levels comparable to those prior to steam and ash eruptions. M3 earthquakes are occurring at a rate of about one every 5 minutes. All earthquake locations remain shallow.

Yesterday’s gas sensing flights detected significant concentrations of carbon dioxide north and west of the dome. No significant levels of sulfur gasses were detected. Hydrogen sulfide odors detected by helicopter crews are attributed to steam emissions. These low levels of hydrogen sulfide are likely the result of boiling of the hydrothermal system.

Results from GPS measurements indicate no significant deformation of the outer flanks of the volcano. However, visual observations and photographic analysis show large-scale uplift (10’s of meters) of part of the glacier and a nearby segment of the south flank of the lava dome. This suggests rise of magma to shallow levels. Additional steam and ash eruptions could occur at any time. There is also an increased probability of larger magnitude and more ash-rich eruptions.

Today field crews took additional thermal images of the dome and crater and conducted gas sensing, infrared and geologic observation flights. Deformation crews retrieved data from GPS instruments and lowered a new GPS station from a helicopter onto the dome. In addition, two telemetered microphones are now operating to detect explosions.

Wind forecasts from the National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration (NOAA), combined with eruption models, show winds this evening will be from the east and southeast and any ash clouds would drift to the west and northwest.

We continue to monitor the situation closely and will issue additional updates and Alert Level changes as warranted.

Press conferences will continue to be held at the Headquarters office of the Gifford Pinchot National Forest. The morning press conference is at 9:30 AM.

--taken from http://vulcan.wr.usgs.gov/Volcanoes/Cascades/CurrentActivity/current_updates.html

.. I am going to laugh my ass off... if she (Helens) causes Rainier to blow. Oh, what a fucking day that would be. :: snortlaugh ::... okay, it would be horrible for lots of people. But I would love to see it, really... :: shrug ::

X-posted to my LJ


Gay Pride! [03 Oct 2004|06:01pm]
[ mood | hungry ]
[ music | TV show about ghosts ]

Wow.. I realized, last night... that I have a LOT of Gay Pride... y'know, for not being gay. (Does bi count as gay? Half-gay, maybe?).. I mean. Let's count it down.

- Rainbow Feather Boa
- Rainbow-flashing pacifier
- Rainbow-flashing spikey ball
- Rainbow leighs
- Rainbow Sharks (xD! Well, they -are- called that..)
- I love gay men. I just do.
- My two nicknames (Pia and Jemmy) are written down the sides of my monitor... in rainbow colours
- I took the white parts of my shoes, and coloured them. Rainbow-style.
- Fishnet? <3!!!
- Rainbow-smiley toe socks.

LoL. Okay, I'm gonna stop there. xD

... I'm kidding, of course. Not about those things (I really do own those things.. ) but about them being all for Gay Pride. I just happen to like rainbows. Wheeeeeee!

.. I love my pirate flag. I do! Oh.. and here, have this snazzy picture..

The 4 people who are not labeled.. I don't know who they are. I mean - I just met them, about 15 minutes before we got the button picture done. The girls are co-workers of Jaylene's, and the men are their husbands. :: nod :: It was a fun night. :D


OMFG! I FOUND THE FAWKING SONG! -spazz- [29 Sep 2004|09:54pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | Silvertide 'Ain't Comin' Home' ]

:: fucking spazz :: I FOUND IT. O___O;;;; Fucking -finally-.

... what am I talking about? That fucking song, that I woke up to.. the other day. The one that made me dance in my sleep. I fucking -found- it. Uh! I'm so damn good, haha.

..I think these lyrics are wrong, but they're what I found for the song.. so... :: shrug :: Enjoy, haha.

Silvertide "Ain't Comin' Home"

Turning back,
It's my time to fly
Too many decisions
And not enough time

My only sinful thrill livin'
is unnerved
So back up mama
Cause I ain't comin' home

Ain't comin' home
Ain't comin' home
No no no
Ain't comin' home

Just sittin' here sneezin'
It's my time to fly
I always thought the devil
gave me nine full lives
And I
I take this with ____
Cause nothin' ___

And turnin' back
It's my time to fly
Too many decisions
And not enough time

[edit] Okay, the lyrics above were taken from a website. The lyrics below are what he says.. at least, when I listen to it. O__O;;

1, 2, here we go!


Ain't turning back,
It's my time to fly
Too many decisions
And not enough time

I always did like the thrill
Of livin' in the unknown
So back up mama
Cause I ain't comin' home

Ain't comin' home
Ain't comin' home
No no no
Ain't comin' home

Don't hold me back
It's my time to fly
And the devil
gave me nine full lives
And I -
I say this with a full grin
Cause nothin' is better than
Livin' in sin

And turnin' back
It's my time to fly
Too many decisions
And not enough time

I always did like the thrill
Of livin' in the unknown
So back up mama
Cause I ain't comin' home

Ain't comin' home
Ain't comin' home
No no no
Ain't comin' home

(--something I can't quite understand, he's mumbling--)

Turnin' back
It's my time to fly
Too many decisions
Not enough time

I always did like the thrill
Of livin' in the unknown
So back up mama
Cause I ain't comin' home

Ain't comin' home
Ain't comin' home
No no no
Ain't comin' home


AOL Radio [28 Sep 2004|12:40pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | Terminal Choice 'Pull the Trigger' ]

I just recently started listening to AOL Radio.. curious, of course, as to what kind of stations they had... I'm pleasently surprised. Gothic, Industrial, Metal, Hard Rock... My, oh my! The wonders that I've heard. :: smirk :: Have some lyrics, my dears.

Pig - 'Shit for Brains'
Sitting in my box, waiting for you
I peep through the slits and I feel myself
Breathing tight, I'm getting hard
But it's nice and dark for the things that I do
I sweat in my cassock
When I hear you words
Tell your sins to me I will absolve thee
I run a peep show beat
Where I can beat my meat
When I see your dressing
I get to messing

Shit for brains, piss in my pants
I rape and contain the whole human race
I'm your heavenly host, the Holy Ghost
The hand of god and the stick of saints
I'm a man who's sick but I got class
I'm going to heaven with my lickin' ass
Shit for brains, piss in my pants
I rape and contain my catholic domain

Sticks and stones break my bones
Your words just crucify me
Heaven up above has a glorious god
I'd really rather have you right where I want
Right on the front full of my gunk
I slide up behind heaven in my mind
In my dreams I always whipped you
Then I stripped you

I ripped you down to my scripture

.. and because they've become my most recent musical obsession, I'm going to share some Atreyu lyrics. Thanks to my babe for introducing me to the sound! :D

Love is Illness
My soul it screams for you
can you not here it
my arms reach out for you
why cant you take them
my heart burns only for you
can you extinguish it
i love only to be loved by you
why cant you love me too

i long only to be held and care for
why cant it be
am i to die alone and bitter
what the hell is wrong with me
my face is blackened and my eyes are sewn shut
with fear and sorrow
i no longer wish to love anything
just cut the heart right out of me

sometimes i choke on all the false love
that infects me
sometimes everything is not enough to cure
the sickness inside of me

i did it all cried black tears for you
why cant you see see
like a vampire biting my heart
suck the love right out of me
dont even care as my blood stains the floor
cannot be cleaned
you cut me out and tore me through
six feet unders the place for me

i feel it all as it sickens me
it feels like im dying inside
because of the love i gave that cant be returned
my longing for instability is a personality flaw

i trust you with respect
and you tear me down

A Vampire's Lament

I am the walking dead heartbreaker, my apologies,
I'm happy you'll never understand what
It's like to be trapped under six feet of solid glass,
I can see out, but no one gets in
Screaming at this prison, I've locked myself into,
I'm sorry that I'm still breathing and that I'll
Kill again. But the loneliness is too much for me to handle.
But the taste for fresh blood, pushes me on.
The fear of romance
The pain of living
The joy of sorrow
The strength of forgiving
I told myself the constant pain would ease the tension burning inside
But the nights were cold and the days dragged to weeks,
I will die here alone I will die
God help me, I'm so tired,
but in my dreams the wolves eat out my soul
God help me, I'm so frightened,
but in my dreams wolves tear out my heart
I used to be golden, a saint in a time of sorrow,
but then the turning came and I kissed
The sun goodbye, don't you get it,
it's always darker in my eyes, the screams of my brothers
Egging me on


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