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First Time [28 Jun 2006|01:20am]
[ mood | mellow ]

It is late at night here and i am playing on my computer while the other is sleeping, he must have had a long day. i am new to this, I tend to be a quiet type of person. He is my second long-term relationship, my first was my failed marriage. I had tried a sub lifestyle with my ex-hubby, which turned into a major power trip for him and an unsafe situation for me. Since then i have been content to keep my kinkier side as a occassional, once in a while, playtime. But i find myself wanting more......

i know he wants the same, he has admitted to it. Last year we came close to taking the plunge, making this an actual dom/sub relationship. but i will admit, i got scared. i was scared to love him that much, to trust him that much. Everyone i have ever known has left me, why not him? And i was afraid to completely lose my heart and soul to him. Ok, that happened awhile ago, but i wasnt sure i wanted him to know about it.

i made a mistake by backing out, now i am trying to convince him i really do want this. And i know he is afraid i will back out again, or that my past will come back to haunt us. But i know he wont hurt me, i trust him to take care of me.

i want to be able to let completely go for once in my life with someone, and i want that person to be him.

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[25 Nov 2004|11:23pm]

[ mood | relaxed ]

i haven't the slightest clue as to when this community was last written in but i just joined...well yesterday. i don't have much to say at the moment other than a little about myself i suppose. i wear the collar of Dark Lord Master Chris and i hope to never wear another. i worship and obey Him and will forever. i'm not very experienced in the bdsm D/s scene but He is teaching me. other than that unless no one else writes, i will probably write often because i've a very small and slow social life, and when bored, i spend time on the net. anyway, hopefully i wont be cast out by this community.

Owned by Dark Lord Master Chris

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Introduction from Portia! [26 Oct 2004|04:35pm]

I am many things: I am submissive. I am bisexual. I am
polyamorous. I am polygendered. I am transvestite. I am in
my late 20s. I am devoted to my beautiful Mistress, the
amazing mistress_true. She makes me into the bad girl I truly
am. She punishes me so well when I misbehave, she treats me
strictly. Yet, I love her. She is all things to me. I am
her devoted little softshadow, I will do whatever she
commands of me.
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hello.. [03 Oct 2004|03:50pm]

[ mood | amused ]

my name is amanda, ofcourse.. and i own this Community.

i discovered my like, erm, need for BDSM when i was at the tender age of 14. yes, i know. young! wow! .. now, once you've went and had your heart checked out, and don't think your having any kind of attack, please read on...

i was brought into this World by a Man MUCHMUCH older then me, who, in turn caused some very serious problems. emotional abuse, mostly... and i still have periods where i think i'm just the ugliest, fattest thing around. but, i gathered up my courage.. and left that behind in search of what BDSM really and truelly is. i'm glad i found the chat place i did. without it, i wouldn't of met all the wonderful people i have. i'm still in contact with quite a few, even though it has literally been years since i've just started out.

this Community is for those of you, like myself longlong ago, who need a place to feel normal (unless, ofcourse, your like me and enjoy feeling like a freak. heh). this is for everyone.

just keep your negativity in check. i don't care for it, or want it here in my Community. thanks!

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New Mistress [28 Sep 2004|10:28pm]

[ mood | horny ]
[ music | Nine Inch Nails - Fuck You Like an Animal ]

Hello all, i'm new to the community, I already have myself a pet, which is still in the process of being trained. I'm also in the middle of going back to being a Mistress, i've been out of the scene for a few years until recently and theres a few new things i must learn.

I was wondering if anyone had any good links or ideas on how i could train my pet, i have some ideas but they don't seem to work very well.

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