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[20 Aug 2005|02:44pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | Tortured Soul Asylum » Cradle of Filth ]

i have a new blurty here

for my friends on here, add me there if you wish...

i shall be deleting this one within the next week or 2....

farewell sweet mortals..

"Sing your praises"

[05 Aug 2005|06:24pm]
[ mood | geeky ]
[ music | Man that you fear - Marilyn Manson ]

My Schedule for this trimester (9th grade)

1st Period:Business Tech A - Mrs.Hanback
2nd Period:English - Mrs.Killen (bestest teacher ever! lol)
3rd Period:World History - Coach Tate
4th Period:Biology - Mr.Philips
5th period:Band - Ms.Casson

so yea....for those of you that care what my schedule for the first of my three trimesters there ya go lol


i was born into this, everything turns to shit, the boy that loved is the man that you fear
"Sing your praises"

[23 Jul 2005|06:39am]
[ mood | angry ]
[ music | Iris - Goo Goo Dolls ]

I've realized recently who my real friends are....i do have friends of course....but out of all my friends...i only trust two of them and feel that i can tell them anything without feeling stupid. And whats sad is one of them doesnt even live in this state...and the other one i've only known since sometime last year...the one that lives in a different state, i've known for almost 2 years...i hate feeling like i'm annoying my friends all the time....i hate it....i hate it so fucking much....i know i do annoy them....even though they say i'm not i know they are lying...i can tell....i know what people say about me....i'm not stupid...i know people think i'm a freak...maybe i am i dont care...i'm comfortable with who i am and if your not comfortable with the way i am FUCK you....i dont care....if anyone thats reading this is offended by what i'm saying get over it...i dont care if i'm hurting your feelings....i'm tired of caring about every fucking person and thing that walks past me.....no more.....no longer am i going to take peoples shit and be walked all over...from now on if you piss me off or hurt me your going to know it.....

When everything feels like the movies, yea you bleed just to know your alive

1 got shot"Sing your praises"

[10 Jul 2005|08:31am]
[ music | Reinventing your Exit » UnderOATH ]

Katie and I's Conversation on AIM

Katie THANK YOU!@!!!@!@!
Yours truly welcome sweetie
Katie *pokes*
Yours truly *giggles*
Katie lol
Katie i love you
Yours truly i love you too

i wonder sometimes if she really means it when she says "i love you". Not because i think she doesnt just out of curiosity...she has a boyfriend now, even after she said she was never going to date a guy again, which is cool, I have no problem with her going out with someone, but, if this one does the same thing Simon did i'm hunting him down...
So...basically...what Katie has told me about her new boyfriend (which she says its just a little fun lol) is this
1.)he's emo (teehee...we like the emo kids)
2.)he's in a band and a damn good singer(more points for him
3.)his name is Koti (yes that is how its spelled...cool is it not?)
and thats it...so...so far i'm liking him lol....he's on good terms with me and i havent even met him lol.

this is the way i, would have done things,up against the wall up against the wall, you got me up against your wall

3 got shot"Sing your praises"

[09 Jul 2005|03:43am]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | Frame by Frame | The Honorary Title ]

well...i have a new favorite band...they are called The Honorary Title i downloaded there debut (came out in 2004) c.d Anything Else but the truth yesterday...i love it...its wonderful...they arent heavy at all really...there music is like the killers or hot hot heat...which is quite weird because i'm normally listening to alot of dark heavy shit...but there songs are awesome...lovely band.

anyone heard anything from The Dresden Dolls? they look like an interesting band but i cant really download anything cause i'm over at my dads right now.

I watched diary of a mad black woman last night...it was pretty good, not as good as i thought it would have been but it was good. It was really funny...but i'm gonna get to watch Hide and Seek tonight! wooooooooot! lol...i'm hoping its going to be scary..it sure as hell looks scary.

You have no idea how incredibly bored i am right now...no one (and i seriously mean no one) is on...everyone dissapeared. now i'm all lonely haha...

talk to you fuckers later <3333

cause soon baby your lies will soon come to an end

"Sing your praises"

[07 Jul 2005|03:44am]
[ mood | dorky ]
[ music | 197666 » Murderdolls ]

hmm...not much has happened lately...my life's been pretty boring. aw hell its always boring lol. i wish something would happen to make it more exciting lol

well...i have 5 more days til my first band practice. This shall be interesting...we're playing swing music this year for our half time show. fun fun. We got a new drum major as well. i think he'll do pretty good.

vividxtouch(saby):i think his name is pablo franscisco..
everxaftr(me): yea thats his name
vividxtouch:YES! i got it right! WOOOOT!
everxaftr: yea he hosts Latino Laugh Festival on Si tv
vividxtouch: lol Si tv?
everxaftr:haha yea...i have to get in touch with my hispanic side....lol
vividxtouch: :0 i'm all the hispanic you need!!
everxaftr: lol

*sigh* i have the weirdest friends haha j/k.

Now you've got something to die for

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[02 Jul 2005|04:31am]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | Helena | My Chemical Romance ]

well...its looking like i wont be using this blurty anymore(boo-hoo i'm sure you so sad.. *rolls eyes)...i've been preoccupied with my xanga for the past few days. www.xanga.com/no_salvation_no_forgiveness <-- thats the link just incase you want to go there...
I will be on every now and then to post, if i get the chance but for now i'm just gonna use my xanga (sorry saby! lol i'll still come and comment you :D) talk to you bitches later

Whats the worst that i could say? Things are better if i stay, so long and good night, so long and good night

1 got shot"Sing your praises"

[29 Jun 2005|09:28am]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | Bedroom Talk | The Starting Line ]

my sister had her baby! yay...i'm happy...she's so pretty...i tried getting a picture of her on here but it didnt work lol. Oh well. :D. I'm tired though..i went to bed at 12:00 and my mom woke me up about 2:30 in the morning telling me to get up cause we were going to the hospital. I was at the hospital from 2:45 this morning til about 3:00 this afternoon. I took about a 15-30 minute nap earlier and thats about it. i've had a little over two hours sleep this whole day lol. but i've had caffiene so i'll survive. well..i just thought i'd tell you people i'm an AUNT haha i'll write later once i think of something....

I'm gonna tear your ass up like we just got married and your all mine now, tonight is the night we've been waiting for all our lives, or maybe for just mine

2 got shot"Sing your praises"

[24 Jun 2005|12:16pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]
[ music | Organ Grinder - Marilyn Manson ]

its looking like my sister most likely wont make it to next week with her baby. I talked to my mom yesterday while i was down by the pool and she said my sister has a doctors appointment monday and the doctor said that they're gonna check her out and see how shes doing and they might just go ahead and send her to the hospital.

My dad called my mom the other day to make sure he wasnt supposed to pick me up...i e-mailed him and told him specifically "i'm not gonna be there this weekend....i'm going to my cousins in NASHVILLE" lol. Then he goes and asks my mom why i didnt want to come over to his house this weekend.

On the phone with my Mom
Me:What the heck? did i say i didnt want to come over to his house? i e-mailed him, since i couldnt call him and told him that i wasnt going to be there cause i was going to spend the week with my cousin, how in gods name did he get i dont want to come over to his house in his head?
my Mom:I dont know...your dads a dumbass you know that...
Me:*laughs* yea i know..
my mom:i told him that i think one of the reasons why you dont want to come is that all your friend are over here. and the fact that he drives you insane but i didnt mention that...
Me: yea...your right...i hate all the people over there. especially the people at his church. i have no one over there to hang out with. I have Amuraby, Yareli and Maria but they are all younger than me. Its no fun. Its boring over there. Not to mention the fact he never leaves me alone....

so yea....even my mom hates him lol. Thats pretty much the reason she divorced him was that he was driving her insane like he's driving me insane. I never understood why she divorced him when i was younger but i do now, and to be completely honest i'm glad they're divorced...i couldnt live with that man.

All i want, all i want is just your children..

"Sing your praises"

[20 Jun 2005|02:05am]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | Faggot | Mindless Self Indulgence ]

Mindless Self Indulgence is becoming one of my favorite bands. I've only heard 3 of there songs lol (Faggot,Masterbates,andI hate Jimmy Page) Faggot is my favorite though haha...very funny song...

I'm staying with my cousin,Chelsea, til Saturday (she lives in Nashville Tennesee). She invited me to stay and my mom said i could so...naturally i went. Its been fun so far but Jackson(my 6 year old cousin, Chelseas little brother) is driving me insane. He's a whiny little brat and he cries if he doesnt get his way. He wanted to go swimming but we dont have the key to the apartments swimming pool and so he's in here crying and asking me why we cant go and i told him to leave me alone and stop whining. Its mean, yes, but trust me...you'd do the same thing....haha...

dig me now and fuck me later and sing to the tune of "faggot faggot faggot"

2 got shot"Sing your praises"

[16 Jun 2005|08:02am]
[ mood | artistic ]
[ music | Trashed and Scattered | A7X ]

Keep on writing you're just raping yourself (nothing can take my mind away from them)
Don't you ask about me, ask 'bout somebody else (Once I've fallen there's many stories to tell)
I can feel it, won't embrace it, it's overwhelming how far you take it (Stuck in a state of questioning)
And don't you tell me you know we're destined, you won't convince me, I won't listen (Resentment building, you've put our lives on hold)

Trashed and scattered again, I'm feelin' so low
You waste your breath while fuckin' with me, my blood is so cold
My destination always unknown, I'll find my way there
But you Goddamn Motherfuckers always wasting my time

I won't be the victim, but the first to cast a stone
Sedated nights to the bar room fights as metropolis takes its toll
And don't you try to stop me, it's a place you'll never know
Don't try to judge or take shots at me, I'll never let you seize control

Play your game you better walk away cause your integrity don't mean shit
Crawl on me you fucking parasite, but I'm gonna take you out

Label me, that's fine, I'll be somebody else (Nothing in front of me but holes ahead)
Lie about my life, have a story to tell (Lights went down, was on the edge and I fell)
Oh you're so insightful, let me remind you to twist and break me, should make you worried (Long way to go and you're right there)
Two-faced liar, don't try and know me, deceit brings fire, makes sure you can't breathe (Pick at pieces of my body below)

I never bothered with all the rumors, too much garbage (all the same)
(I know my destination)
I'll stand right here, come on you falsehood deceitful liar (There's no shame)
Don't ever take my side, I know you're never right, I'll justify the means (Nothing's what it seems)
I'll stand around and fight, but there's no point tonight, been chained to this machine

Trashed and scattered again, I'm feelin' so low
You waste your breath while fuckin' with me, my blood is so cold
My destination's always unknown, I'll find my way there
but Goddamn Imposter are you out of your mind?

I walk down these roads alone and now you're seen here
My feelings that I'm having towards you are perfectly clear (I control this ride)
My devils appetite is tonight and now I'm alright
But you Goddamn Motherfuckers always wasting my time

Play your game you better walk away cause your integrity don't mean shit
Crawl on me you fucking parasite, but I'm gonna take you out

I won't be the victim, but the first to cast a stone
Sedated nights to the bar room fights as metropolis takes its toll
And don't you try to stop me, it's a place you'll never know
Don't try to judge or take shots at me, I'll never let you seize control

Don't try and get the best of me (No one can help but your own self)
City makes my body ache (Lonely, don't try and prey on me)
I feel your world dying, no more use in tryin'
And my body's trashed and low, but to you I'll never show myself or what's inside

And you've seen it all before and that makes me hate you more, I'll never join your side

Avenged Sevenfold | Trashed and Scattered

Yea....i know..i put more lyrics then entries up lol. But i get bored and music is a big chunk of my life so why not? lol. Anyways this song is called Trashed and Scattered...its off of the new Avenged Sevenfold c.d City of Evil. I love the lyrics...i hope you do too :D

Keep on writing your just raping yourself...

3 got shot"Sing your praises"

[14 Jun 2005|07:26am]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | Trashed and Scattered | Avenged Sevenfold ]

todays the birthday...woo-hoo? lol i'm not really all that excited lol...i'm 14 today so i guess that stands for something......i guess the really good thing about my birthday has been i've gotten money,DDR(PS2) and a hair straightener...i'm still getting more stuf from other family members...(i also got Avenged Sevenfolds "City of Evil" so i'm happy :D)

Keep on writing, your just raping yourself

1 got shot"Sing your praises"

bored out of my fucking mind [11 Jun 2005|07:54pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | Speed of Pain | Marilyn Manson ]

i think you can get a prettygood idea about how i am just by looking at the subject haha. Nobodys on AIM and i cant do shit on this computer so...so if you happen to come across this blurty entry and feel like you wanna talk please IM me at everxaftr...

i got 75 dollars today for an early birthday present. WOOOOOOOOOOOT haha....i can finally get those bondage pants at Hot Topic lol. Those motherfuckers are expensive lol.

I'm so glad i'm going home tomorrow....i never thought i'd say this but i miss my family haha....dont get me wrong i love my family to death its just sometimes i want to strangle them and watch them die....haha...but again i love them...they mean alot to me....

When you want it...it goes away to fast...times you hate it...always seem to last...just remember....when you think your free...the crack inside your fucking heart is me....

4 got shot"Sing your praises"

fuck it... [09 Jun 2005|03:18am]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | 1996 | Marilyn Manson ]

i'm getting really tired of being here....i have 2 and a half days left (yes i'm counting...)so thats good....

i miss listening to Manson....my dads an ass and banned his music from the house so whenever he's here i cant listen to him...i've been able to listen to him once the entire two weeks i've been here and i'm about to go insane.
I'm excited about next weekend...me and Katie are going to Huntsville for my birthday...(my birthday is this tuesday but she has summer school soo...) i'm excited because i havent seen her in over two weeks...i miss her alot.

Nothing new has really happened...so i'm sorry if this journal entry is boring...i dont expect many people to read it anyways lol.

todays Johnny Depps birthday! WOOOOOOOOOT! lol..he's my all time favorite actor...he's so brilliant...everything he does is wonderful and the best part is he makes up his characters...hedecides what kind of person the character is and how he's gonna dress for the part. brilliant man Johnny Depp....i have loads of respect for him....

light a candle for the sinners...set the world on fire

2 got shot"Sing your praises"

[07 Jun 2005|03:02pm]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | The best of you | Foo Fighters ]

Last night was interesting...i stayed up til about 12:30 last night talking to Chance. Most of the time we talked about our sexualities and the fact that we are both comfortable the way we are (i'm bi, he's gay...) and we talked about our views on the world. Then we started talking about our friendship

Me:You know what? During the time that we were really good friends...i dont think we every really got to know each other...i think we just found out each others names ans sexualities and hung out lol
Chance: lol you know? i've been thinking about that alot lately and i've been thinking the exact same thing...i dont regret many things...but not getting to know you and audrey better is one of my biggest regrets. I feel like such a damn ass-hole now....and i dont want you telling me its okay...because its not. This may sound weird but i believe people are pure in something...whatever it may be...like i think Tara Faust is purely the sweetest person in the world, and i think Lauren Bradford is pure in her religion....but you are pure in your friendships...You were never once mean to me...until i started being mean to you...

okay so by this time i'm crying like a little bitch lol...i couldnt help it...it was hard not to...Chance is my friend and our friendship sort of got really fucked up and hearing him say that he actually cares meant alot....

2 got shot"Sing your praises"

[06 Jun 2005|11:46am]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | Remedy | Seether ]

My mom and my stepdad got home last night from there Cruise. She told me my grades from my report card and they were good. My semester grade in matth was a 67 but she never said anything about me being grounded since my other grade was an 81 (get ya some motherfuckers) so no more being grounded. Hopefully i wont have to be grounded the ,WHOLE year next year in 9thgrade, like i was in 8th lol.

Throw your dollar bills and leave your thrills all here with me. Speak but dont pretend i wont defend you any more you see. It aches in every bone, i'll die alone, but not for you. My eyes dont need to see that ugly thing, i know its me you fear. if you want me hold me back Thrill, the skin is drying pail. The pain will never fail and so it goes back to the Remedy. Clip the wings that get you high just leave the where they lie and tell yourself "you'll be the death of me". I dont need a friend, i need to mend so far away. So come sit by the fire, and play a while, but you cant stay too long. It aches in every bone, i'll die alone,but not for pleasure. I see my heart explode, its been eroded by the weather here. If you want me hold me back.. Thrill, the skin is drying pail. The pain will never fail and so it goes back to the Remedy. Clip the wings that get you high just leave the where they lie and tell yourself "you'll be the death of me". Hold your eyes closed take me in,Hold your eyes closed take me in,Hold your eyes closed take me in

"Sing your praises"

[04 Jun 2005|07:57pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]
[ music | 2112 | RUSH ]

8 more days til i go HOME!

"Sing your praises"

[02 Jun 2005|11:50am]
[ mood | numb ]
[ music | Hello | Evanescence ]

i wish i would stop having these motherfucking headaches... i've had one everyday since Sunday. I've stopped taking medicine because they dont work. I've become immune to that shit cause i've had so many headaches in my lifetime, but the reason i have so many headaches is i have something in my brain that causes them (its not a tumor lol) its some sort of polyp thing. I had a c.a.t. scan a few years back and they told me thats what it was.

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory is coming out soon...YAY i'm excited. I've been waiting for this for FOREVER. Johnny Depp is going to play Willy Wonka which makes me even more excited. I was told they're supposed to be making a human version of Alice in Wonderland thats supposed to be coming out late next year or so. I imagine that will be brilliant as well. I'm hoping its going to be directed by Tim Burton like Charlie and the Chocolate Factory but if it isnt, it'll be okay. Tim Burton is also making another claymation called The Corpse Bride. Which Johnny Depp is ALSO gonna be in. He's gonna be the voice for one of the main characters. I'm gonna have some fun at the movies for the next year or so haha...

I'm amazed i found something to write about....i'm guess i'm more chatty today than usual. I have 10 more days here at my dads and then i get to go home..YAY!!!!!!!! i havent even been here a week and i'm already going insane. I'm glad my dad has been working most of the time i've been here...10 more days here and 12 more days til my birthday....better than last year...i had to stay HERE for my birthday which was wretched. but i still got to see my mom which made me happy. i seriously do love my mom even though she can drive me crazy sometimes...but lately i've been questioning if i really do love my dad or not. i know that sounds horrible but its the truth...

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[01 Jun 2005|11:11am]
[ mood | aggravated ]
[ music | The Wall | Pink Floyd ]

i dont have much to say these days...probably because i dont do anything worth writing about so i cant promise that i'll be updating much(for those of you who care) but once in a blue moon i'll have something to talk about...so until then farewell...i wish everyone sweet dreams and erotic nightmares

...Happy Hauntings...

"Sing your praises"

[30 May 2005|09:31am]
[ mood | nerdy ]
[ music | Goodnight Goodnight | Hot Hot Heat ]

got a new stephen king book today...Skeleton Crew...my dad bought it for me today and i didnt even ask which was weird but hey i got free shit so no one is complaining haha.

I went to see The Longest Yard today. I've seen 3 movies within the past few days which is weird because i've never even seen three movies in one month much less one week. So far i've seen
House of Wax
Star Wars Episode 3: Revenge of the Sith
The Longest Yard

all three of them are awesome movies...money well spent lol. well i hate to leave you...(i'm sure your so depressed that i'm leaving *rolls eyes* lol) but some people in this god forsaken country need sleep (even though its early..i went to bed rather late last night people dont question me dammit!) so goodnight! i wish everyone sweet dreams and erotic nightmares....

...Happy Hauntings...

"Sing your praises"

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