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[15 Dec 2005|11:19am] |
Soooo yeah...I totally forgot I had a blurty journal. It's been what...a year? Longer than that?
Blame waitin4myruca for my return.
And I really don't know what to say. Things are much different than they were the last time I posted here...
While I try to come up with something meaningful to write, have a survey:
( Weeeeeee )
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[09 Jul 2004|06:29pm] |
I spent the last two days at Old Dominion University for my freshman PREVIEW. It was quite possibly the most boring thing in the world.
I sat in a million seminars about study skills and financial aid. Then I got harassed by sororities. Then I got to stay in a lovely dormroom with the three dumbest girls alive. They talked (and kept me awake) ALL NIGHT saying shit like "No my boyfriend's cuter" "No MY boyfriend's cuter" "Well my boyfriend plays baseball" "Well MY boyfriend plays soccer". Finally I just looked at them and said "Well my boyfriend could kick all of their asses, so shut the hell up and let me sleep."
I met some cool people too though. Well, not necessarily cool, but fun to talk to. By the end of the first night, I was hanging out with a gay boy, a gamer geek, and a mexican immigrant. Go me.
Today I registered for classes. Although I'm officially an English major, I'm not taking any sort of English classes because they were all full. Sucky.
My first semester classes are Math 102 (algebra), Physics 101, Psychology 201, and German 101. The second half of the semester I'm also taking a Kendo class. I get to play with Japanese swords!!
Now I'm sunburnt and tired. The end.
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| Jesus is my home boy |
[06 Jul 2004|12:29am] |
A couple nights ago, I went out for Chinese food. I got two fortunes in my fortune cookie. Both of them were happy fortunes too. I can only assume that this means I've got hardcore amounts of good kharma and I'll spend the rest of my life rolling around in cash with gorgeous Australian sex slaves. Oh, and I'll drive a Cadillac...
WITH SPINNAS!
Speaking of good kharma, I bought a new buddha. It's now my "computer buddha" so as to assure that my internet connection will be as fast as possible and my computer won't freeze in the middle of something important (like gaming or talking to my boyfriend).
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[01 Jul 2004|05:34pm] |
Yesterday was awesome.
I went up to Matt's house and met his family. His mom is the sweetest woman in the world. As soon as I walked in and introduced myself, she said "Oh Matt she is really cute!" which made me blush a whole lot. I also met his dog, Pippin, who is the hugest german shepard I have ever seen.
Matt and I walked to Starbucks and hung out with his friend Justin, who I met last time I visited. It was fun times. A bunch of his random friends kept coming up and introducing themselves. They all knew who I was, which was a little scary. I was bouncing off the walls by the time we left because I had drank waaaay too much coffee.
We walked back to his house, and watched Donnie Darko. Very cool movie. Then we hung out (and made out...bwahahaha) on his back porch for a while.
I was planning on leaving around 1 am, so he took me up to his room because he had a bunch of books he wanted me to borrow. We got, um, distracted, and I didn't end up leaving until 2:30.
I got lost on the way home. I ended up on a toll bridge, and I didn't have any toll money. It was frightening.
I didn't get home until 5 am. I stayed up until 8 or so, then crashed out and didn't wake up until 3pm. Gooo me!
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[29 Jun 2004|12:04am] |
NOBODY READS THIS SHIT ANYMORE.
www.livejournal.com/users/_pollution_
add me and I'll add you. it's friends only just like this one.
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[13 Jun 2004|01:50am] |
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--original post deleted due to the fact that i was excessively inebriated--
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[07 Jun 2004|05:25pm] |
Booooored.
:x: name = Nicole
:x: piercings = 8
:x: tattoos = none
:x: height = 5'2"
:x: shoe size = 6
:x: hair color = Red
:x: siblings = Little brother and little sister.
LAST...
:x: movie you rented = "Rodger Dodger".
:x: movie you bought = "Sublime".
:x: song you listened to = I believe it was "Float On" by Modest Mouse.
:x: song that was stuck in your head = See above.
:x: cd you bought = Sublime "40 oz to freedom".
:x: cd you listened to = Punk O Rama.
:x: person you've called = Ma mere.
:x: person that's called you = Ma mere.
:x: tv show you've watched = Haha. Roomraiders on MTV.
:x: person you were thinking of = Matt.
DO...
:x: you have a crush on someone = I suppose so.
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = Yes.
:x: you think about suicide = Yes, but not recently.
:x: you believe in online dating = No.
:x: others find you attractive = I guess so.
:x: you want more piercings = Always.
:x: you drink = Yeah, probably a little too much.
:x: you do drugs = Yeah.
:x: you smoke = Yeah.
:x: you like cleaning = Oh hell no.
:x: you like roller coasters = Yep.
:x: you write in cursive or print = Print.
FOR OR AGAINST...
:x: long distance relationships = I'm in one, and it's working out fine for me.
:x: using someone = Very much against.
:x: suicide = That's hard to say.
:x: killing people = FOR!
:x: teenage smoking = Considering I'm a teenage smoker...FOR.
:x: doing drugs = FORFORFORFORFOR.
:x: driving drunk = Sometimes it's necessary.
:x: gay/lesbian relationships = For. Do what you want.
:x: soap operas = Against.
HAVE YOU..
:x: ever cried over a girl = Yes.
:x: ever cried over a boy = Oh god yes.
:x: ever lied to someone = Yes.
:x: ever been in a fist fight = Yes.
:x: ever been arrested = Yes.
WHAT...
:x: shampoo do you use = Right now I believe it's Suave. Coconut scented O.o
:x: shoes do you wear = Either Chucks, Vans, or sandals.
:x: are you scared of = TURKEYS.
NUMBER...
:x: of times I have been in love? = Thrice.
:x: of times I have had my heart broken? = More than thrice.
:x: of hearts I have broken? = I really don't want to go there.
:x: of girls I have kissed? = 1.
:x: of boys I have kissed? = Err...Let's just say I couldn't count on my fingers...
:x: of girls I've slept with? = None.
:x: of boys I've slept with? = Tres.
:x: of drugs taken illegally? = At least 8, maybe more.
:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = Maybe 2.
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? I don't know, probably four or five.
:x: of scars on my body? = I don't know, I haven't counted.
:x: of things in my past that I regret? = Lots.
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
:x: pretty- Sortof.
:x: funny - Yesh.
:x: hot - Nah.
:x: friendly - When I want to be.
:x: amusing - Depends on what you find amusing.
:x: ugly - Nah.
:x: loveable - Depends on who you are
:x: caring - I try to be
:x: sweet - Sometimes.
:x: dorky - HELL YEAH!
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[23 May 2004|12:36am] |
My blurty is dead, all of my blurty friends are dead, and I can never think of anything to write in here.
My boyfriend bought a motorcycle.
That's probably the most exciting news from my life.
I graduate soon. REEEALLY soon. I can't fucking wait. If I cry during the commencement ceremony, it'll be because I'm so goddamn happy to be getting out of Stafford.
When we watched the Video Yearbook in one of my classes, people were openly sobbing because they're SAD about leaving. I don't understand it. Maybe that's because I have no friends and I'm a bitter human being. *shrug*
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[16 May 2004|04:03pm] |
My life is so bland right now. There's no excitement in it.
I haven't done anything cool for a while now. Haven't really hung out with my friends in over a week. I've called everyone over the week trying to see what's up. Didn't get in touch with anybody. I just find it a little strange, since normally I have people calling for me every half an hour.
I think Ricky may be a little pissed that I didn't go to his show on Friday. But it's not my fault. My parents had my car, and I couldn't find Amanda in time to get a ride. I mean, it's not like I was terribly excited about hanging out with the "punk" assholes from my school, but I still wanted to support him. Even though he's been an asshole to me lately.
I don't know, whatever. I know Ricky told Justin and Squirrliey that I have a boyfriend, so that's quite possibly the reason why I haven't heard from them lately. Jealousy issues. It's not like any of them ever stepped up to the plate, so I don't think they have a justifiable reason to be pissed and ignore me. If that is the case.
But I am a girl, and girls habitually over-analyze situations like this.
Whatever is going on, I've been bored out of my fucking mind.
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[04 May 2004|10:11pm] |
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I HAVE A BOYFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I had to get that out of my system. I'm so happy. He's funny and smart and hot and an amazing kisser. And I've been waiting for so fucking long, but now I finally get to be with him.
And this Friday we're going to DC to see Stephen Lynch. Awesomeness.
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[30 Apr 2004|02:23am] |
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So it's officially been Matt's birthday for about 2 and a half hours.
I get to go to his birthday party on Saturday. I'm really excited. Although I still can't think of a fuckin' present to buy him! *twitch*
He's not helping either. Telling me "I don't want a present, you being there is good enough". Pssh, yeah right.
Tonight was one of those nights where I passed out at 8:30pm and woke up at 1:30am.
Yeah. I won't be sleeping for a while.
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[22 Apr 2004|11:32am] |
i hate the dentist so much and i'm never going back there again even if it's a matter of life and death.
*shudder*
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[17 Mar 2004|11:29pm] |
i'm really bored and restless, so i stole this unneccessarily long survey from amanda.
Do you drink [alcohol]?: Yeah
Do you party a lot? How often?: Yes. As often as possible
Do you use drugs for recreational purposes?: What, as opposed to medicinal purposes? Oh hell yeah.
How often do you use the word like in an average hour?: A lot. I don't count.
Do you skip classes? How often?: Yes. Not as often as I used to, because now I have people on the lookout for me.
Do you have casual sex? Protected?: Hmm. One out of the two times it was casual I guess, since he wasn't my boyfriend. And I refuse to ever have sex without protection.
Do you steal?: I shoplift, yes.
Do you wear inappropriate clothing?: Eh, by some people's standards, but I'm by no means skanky.
Do you drool over celebrities?: Certain celebrities, but not that much.
Do you watch a lot of TV?: I usually only watch late night tv.
Do you ever watch the News?: Yes.
Do you even care about world issues?: Yes.
Do you read books often?: Obsessively.
Are you failing a lot of your classes?: I'm not failing any of my classes.
Do you spend most of your time with your friends?: I'm pretty much constantly with them.
Do you smoke cigarettes?: Like a chimney.
Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens?: I hang out a lot of different places a lot.
Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?: I haven't had a crush on somebody in a looooooooong time. It's always either a mutual thing, or they have the crush on me. I'm way too picky.
Do you cuss a lot?: Yes.
Are you desperate to fit in?: I fit in perfectly with my group of friends without trying. So, no.
Are you intelligent?: Yes.
The Goth Stereotype
Black lipstick?: No.
Black eyeliner?: Yes.
Black eyeshadow?: Sometimes.
Black trenchcoat?: No.
Black boots?: Not very often, but yes.
Black fishnets?: Oh hell yeah.
Black nail polish?: Sometimes.
Cigarettes?: Yes.
Heavy metal music?: Sometimes.
Marilyn Manson?: Yes.
Kittie?: Eh, not really.
Cradle of Filth?: *Drools* yes.
Constant frown and perpetual angst?: I probably look that way to a lot of people at school, but I'm really not that angsty.
Do you like to be seen as: As what?
Are you an intellectual?: Not neccessarily....I'm intelligent and articulate, and I can hold my own with an intellectual, but my maturity level falls drastically when I'm with most of my friends.
An atheist?: No. I'm actually thinking about converting to buddhism. No shit.
Horrible home life?: It's wacked out and stressful, but not horrible.
Hopelessly depressed?: No.
Suffering with suicidal idealations?: Not lately.
Self-mutilation?: Not lately.
The Punk Stereotype
Plaid?: Yesh.
Big black boots?: See above.
Mohawk?: They're the sexiest fucking thing in the world on the right guy, but I'd look so damn weird.
Excessive piercings? [Especially facial]: Sexy as shit, and I've got 8 so far.
Loud, confident and opinionated?: At times.
Wild hair colors?: Ohhhh yeah.
NOFX?: YES.
Rancid?: YEEEEEEEAH.
Well versed on political scandals and outrages?: Yep.
A: Hm.
The Jock Sterotype
What's your IQ?: According to Emode (which I don't trust as being accurate) it's 127.
Do you watch a lot of sports?: No.
Play a lot of sports?: No.
Talk a lot about sports?: No.
Do you do anything, really, but think about sports?: Yes.
Are you arrogant?: Not really.
Are you a male or female whore?: No.
Are you homophobic?: No.
Do you tease other people a lot because you want to seem confident?: No.
But really you're a quivering mass of insecurity?: No.
Boobs = yes?: Well...yeah.
Parties = yes?: Yes.
Dropping out of high school and flipping burgers = yes?: No.
The Girl Stereotype
Do you spend a lot of time on your appearence?: No, but I always make it seem like I do.
Have you ever been on a diet?: No.
How much did you lose?: Nothing.
Was it not so much a diet as it was an eating disorder?: No.
Make yourself throw up?: No.
Make-up?: Pretty much every day.
Low-cut tops?: Yeah.
How big are your boobies? [Cup size]: C.
Do you flip your hair when you talk, even if you don't realize it?: No, but I push it behind my ears a lot.
Giggle a lot?: When I'm stoned.
What's the deal with boys?: They have penises and I don't.
Thongs?: I have quite a few...though that really wasn't my intention, it just happened somehow.
Pretty bras?: Not really.
YM, Teen, Cosmo, et al?: Nooo.
Who's the weaker sex?: By far it's males. Trust me - I have many of them under my control. Damn I'm evil.
Are you a feminist?: No, I just think we should be equal.
Do you think Brad Pitt is hot?: I'm straight. FUUUUUCK YEEAAAAAAAAH.
How often do you shave your legs?: As often as I feel like staying in the shower for longer than normal.
How about your armpits?: Every other day.
Are you emotional?: Yeah, but I keep it hidden from most people.
Especially when on your period?: Oh yeah.
This Or That [Oh, that old coconut.]
Originality or Acceptance?: Originality.
Independence or Companionship?: Independence.
Stability or Freedom?: Freedom.
Personal or Interpersonal?: Personal.
Introvert or Extrovert?: Introvert.
Popularity or Isolation?: Popularity. I can't be alone for too long or I go crazy.
Unique or Loved?: Damn. I can't choose.
Understood or Individual?: Individual.
You or Them?: Me.
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[08 Mar 2004|12:00pm] |
so i'm about to get busted for skipping...AGAIN.
i got a pass to see ms jacobs (my alpha principal). i gave her a bunch of shit so she made me leave and said i'd have to go back up there in seventh period.
i'm trying to decide what to do.
i could leave right after this class and deal with it tomorrow. the upside of this is that i don't have to deal with it today, and i won't have to face both ms jacobs AND the teacher who's class i skipped. the downside is that i'll get busted for skipping twice.
i could just stay in school and wait for my punishment. i'll probably get in less trouble, but i'll be up against two people. not to mention, i have ms russ NEXT PERIOD and she's the teacher who wrote me up. that'll be more than a little awkward.
also, i'm sure i can forge some kind of pass to get away with missing 6th and 7th period today. ricky gave me a bunch of those yellow passes that only the teachers are supposed to have. all i have to say is that i was with another teacher.
i don't know. i'm so close to being out of highschool, yet graduation seems so far away.
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[25 Feb 2004|11:33am] |
before i have to change classes i wanted to share my epiphany with you.
if ricky and zack were members of blink-182...zack would be mark and ricky would be tom.
so rad.
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[24 Feb 2004|06:00pm] |
what do you do when someone is so in love with you, that they obsess over you even though you're not his girlfriend? all they want is for you to love them back, but something inside you knows that you could never make a relationship work with this person. what do you say to them, when the reasoning is almost all superficial, because you could never date someone who's overweight and ugly? how do you explain to someone who loves you that dating them would ruin your reputation? is there a nice way to say that you could never be with them because your friends would make fun of you for ages?
i don't like breaking people's hearts. the last thing i ever want to do is hurt someone. but in this kind of situation, is there any way to spare the feelings of anyone involved?
my sociology teacher once said "beautiful people are cursed by their good looks." i'm not saying that i'm beautiful, but to most of my friends (who are all male except one) i am the only decently attractive, single person whom they come in contact with on a regular basis. because of this, i am constantly walking on eggshells trying not to hurt them. all of my best friends (except the two who are dating each other) have crushes on me. it's emotionally exhausting to deal with them every single day of my life.
i don't think beauty's a curse, i just think i need to meet someone who is...different. somebody who isn't like my friends. the only problem with having multiple people persuing me is that none of my friends are people i could date. none of them. that's why they're all my friends, and not my boyfriend.
this is shallow. but it's my life. my highschool career has been one long, bad teen movie. only instead of attractive, ambitious actors, i'm stuck with obsessive, fuck up, punkass teenagers.
to add on to everything, prom is on april 3rd and i am dateless. this is one of those reoccurring themes in my epic highschool drama. it adds an element of suspense. will i find a date in time for prom? or will i spend what is supposed to be the romantic climax of my young life sitting in my basement getting drunk off of my dad's lite beer?
this is pathetic.
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| fucken a |
[19 Dec 2003|12:51am] |
Republicans
Circle I Limbo Hipsters, George Bush
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind NAMBLA Members
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow General asshats
Circle IV Rolling Weights Riceboys
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled River Styx Goths
Circle VI Buried for Eternity River Phlegyas Bill Gates
Circle VII Burning Sands DMV Employees
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement Rednecks
Circle IX Frozen in Ice Design your own hell |
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[14 Oct 2003|11:39am] |
so i'm back again...not for good though.
for right now, i'll be using this journal for FRIENDS ONLY posts, and my other journal,  xwrong_wayx, for public posts and community posts.
why am i changing my mind?
+ i can't stand not having an early adopter account.
+ i'm a sentimental bitch.
so basically this will just being happening until i get a paid account for my other journal.
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| This is the end. |
[08 Oct 2003|11:26am] |
I have to delete this journal. For the safety of me and my friends.
I can't say what my new name will be on here...but I'm going to add most of you to my new friends list.
So, for my final post, what do I have to say?
Nothing. I'm ending this journal exactly how I started it...with a pointless entry.
xoxo
Nicole aka coldturkey
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