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Treacly [29 Jun 2004|11:24am]
[ mood | pleased ]

I'm almost over my cold :) Feeling much better. Today was my first driving lesson. At 9am!!!! But it was all good. My first reverse park ever was perfect! Muahahaharrr. But I still have to work on blah blah blah. :)

I'm on holidays now, from uni. Thank god! I'm completely over it. Uni that is... I'm so tired. Last night we had hockey.. it was one of the shittest games we have ever played. And the ref! I was swearing sooooooooo badly.

I've forgotten what I was going to say.. I went to Sprocket last monday... Stanmore Galleries tuesday.. thursday night I worked... And then I took the whole weekend off. Which was crap because apparantly on Sat I was in charge of everything. First day of 'promotion' and I wasnt there :( Crap!

.. I've pulled a muscle in my neck.. I reeeeeeeeaaaalllly want a massage... Any offers? :D hahaha.

I've been invited to the movies tomorrow.. but I dont know if I can afford it. And I dont know if work is going to ring up. AAAAAAAnd I was going to go movies tomorrow anyway. To see 'Eternal Sunshine...' Dammit I still havent seen it! ... hmmm.

I found out that 'treacly' means overly-sensitive, which is what I've been all week... :S I cried watching muriel's wedding... MURIELS WEDDING!!!!! its bad.

but yeah.. FOOD!

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Ranting [24 Jun 2004|05:12am]
[ mood | sore ]

So tonight we had special training for hockey.. here i am expecting a little gym circuit etc etc. But no. "Today, we are going to start off with some running [because in hockey you run a lot blah blah blah] so start with a warm up run two laps around" ... Two laps around the oplympic park training track.. Thats two 400m laps for warm up... 800m WARM UP!!!
See where Im going with this. We were timed doing each lap of jogging around the 400m track for four laps. we did sprints, and push ups and AARRRRRGGGHHHH.

It sucked. Most people though it was good. But I hate running. It showed.. I was last. The last person around the track, sprinting. doing push ups doing everything I was last. And I'm not the fattest, I'm not the oldest, I'm not the shortest or the youngest.. why the f**k am I the last stupid person. Geez. I run all friggin game! Yet I'm the most unfit. The goalie was way ahead of me! ... Its a little upsetting.

Anywhos. I'm sick as. I'm angry coz I had to go out sick n stuff.. Coughing like crazy. I'm still coughing now. I'm so sick. I should go to bed..My nose hurts.. My back hurts too dammit! But .. I knew about that one in advance. I have to work tomorrow night. :( I'm not sure if I should call up sick.

All I've been doing is playing stupid neopets. wtf am i doing awake.. [as I glance at the time] ... holy cow its 5:06 AM!!! *cries* I think. Its time for me to sleep now...
I have to pack the dishwasher.. but I dont want to wake people up.. Mum will go ape if she realises I was up this late doing nothing important.. And then didnt pack the dishwasher.. :( this sucks.

Anywhos. I wil go to bed.. aww.. and sleep lots.Hmmm
Good night? Or good morning?

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Survey [22 Jun 2004|12:35pm]
[ mood | listless ]
[ music | muse; hullabaloo ]

1. Who did you last get angry with? Umm.. the taxi driver who almost ran me over, my dad, deanne.
2. What is your weapon of choice? I'm not sure.. it depends what situation I was in.. Maybe a knife.
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? Yep
4. How about of the same sex? Yeah.. but probally wouldnt be a punch to the face.. :S
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? *shrugs* mum i think
6. What is your pet peeve? lots of stuff...
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? Usually keep them buried somewhere

1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? .. i .. dont know. well not sposed to daily..
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? *shrugs* I get up at all different hours.
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't: nope, dont care about anyone
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? but i didnt know!
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through? yeah i think so
6. When was the last time you got a good workout in? .. i play hockey every weekend
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? today? I didnt. I got woken up before my alarm clock was set to go off... by .. 2 and a half hrs... grrr

1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? Red Bull
2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat?/Vegetarians: White.
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? omg about 12 shots - cocksucking cowboys, 4-5 vodka and cokes, 3-4 vodka and oranges, a midori and a woodstock bourbon and coke. I have never bee so completely plastered in my life.
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? nope
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? .. like everyone else. not so much weight, more so physique.
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? sweets!
7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, "LUNCH"? .. haha "I eat babies!" .. I convince some bimbo I eat babies for breakfast hahaha

1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? One or two
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? NO ONE!!! Muaahahaarrrr ever!
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? ... maaaaaaybe
4. Have you "done it"? .. it? no
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? necks, backs... chests hahaha
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? nope
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? nope

1. How many credit cards do you own? .. one debit card hehehe
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? ummm... i havent got one per se.
3. If you had one million dollars, what would you do with it? move out. buy everything hahaha
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? rich. damn filthy rich!
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? yep. then once i made my megabucks i could do whatever i wanted to do
6. Have you ever stolen anything? .. i'm sure I've stolen a kitkat or something in my life
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? none

1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? ... umm.... err... hmmm..
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? *shrugs* they're not very pleased with my life choices thus far.
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? to be rich
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? yep
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? yep
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? yeah once or twice. not that it made much difference.
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? ... i got up earlyish. I helped push a car!!! .... *cries* .. what a dumb question

1. What item (or person) of your friends' would you most want to have for your own? ... stuff
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? ... ?
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? Johnny Depps lover :D
4. Have you ever been cheated on? ... maybe...
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? hell yeah
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? ambition, motivation
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? no! It took me hrs coz i'm unfocussed!

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Turmoil [21 Jun 2004|03:03am]
[ mood | determined ]
[ music | VAST.. flames just finished *cries* ]

*sigh* Here I am at the conclusion of a busy week. Up at this absurd time because.. I dont want to sleep. Though I am tired. So I did end up going to the Hackenbush gig and it was good. They didnt play enough songs though. And afterwards Fec, Rob and I walked from Tempe to Newtown and had Oportos lol.
I cant remember sunday... maybe that was the day I was service. I think so. I went up in the food chain at work, and became the second service supervisor for the day. Go me!

Anywhos... Monday was the Jazz Festival.. which I saw for a bit, and then met Rob and Dani. HUng out for the rest of the after noon. It was good.
And then Tuesday.. I had an arguement with Dad coz he wanted me to go look after the hockey club, which had been broken into I how I reaaaaaally should help him. But I didnt. I normally would, but I had especially cleared my monday calender to study for the 3 exams I had in the proceeding two days.
I had anatomy. Which was stupid.. grr. I had all this information glued in my head that I didnt even remotely need, because the style of question was completely not what I had expected. I should have thought of that...

And then after that I had biology, which I feel ok about.. though last time I felt ok about an exam i got 6 out of 30.. so I dont really think I should be feeling how I'm feeling. However it was 50 multiple choice, ad like 5 shortish answer.. and I answered all the questions..

And then i had a few hours to learn the entire syllabus for chem.. which I didnt even bother doing. I knew I was going to fail that exam from the start. I ended up sleeping in... carrying my stupid text book for nothing. I expected to look at it.. but no. Instead I bought myself a new coat.. which is sooo nice, and paid off a layby :)

And I completely failed the exam. Reading time started at 2:45pm for 10 mins and I was done.. except the rules are you have to remain for the first 30mins. It happened to be a 3 hour exam. As the clock ticked over to 3:25 I wondered if I could wait 5 mins to see if someone would walk out before me.... by 3:26 I had raised my hand, and by 3:28 I was outside outting my stuff in my bag. The dynamics of exams are funny. Everyone who is done.. or sucks coz they cant continue wait to see if anyone else leaves first... and the instant that the first person stands up and walks out is the instant it becomes ok for you to follow, because hey, 'at least you weren't the first' or so we all try to justify it...
And I was first.. I was so nervous, but I was the first person out that door... followed by an aquaintance, quickly rushed past by a girl in tears.. rushed after by a supervisor. The exam really sucked.

So I met Rob in Newtown and we had dinner together. We were going to watch a movie, but decided we were too poor. Umm.. Friday.. friday night Rob and I went goth clubbing. First watching a fashion parade [well not I, for I was much too short] and then sitting around mostly. It wasnt a heavy dancing night.
I arrived home at the delightful morning time o 8:30 sat morning... slept til 12 and then played hockey... It was friggin freezing! It was blowing a gale outside, and it even rained for a bit! grrr...

Saturday night I was going to go to Tammy's party... but didnt because I couldnt really get there. An issue which makes me extremely angry... much to do with Deanne... but we'll leave that for now.
Saturday night was shit. The afternoon was ok.. i played 'cubby house' with all my sisters until it started getting late [for them] and Dad was out and mum was still asleep. So I decided it was time to feed their children. Being the chef I am I made fish fingers with mixed vegies.. it was actually good. I made the vegies well :)

And today sarah and I had a lazy day at home watching tv.. until mum came home with Chris, Jess and Nat, and it was, once again, turmoil. I played hockey.. we won 2 - 1... I went a little schitz at the ref. stupid friggin *mumble profanity mumble* ... and then had another aguement with my guardians upon arriving home, and have since had a revolution to defer uni for a year, next year, and move out. .. but we're still in early stages... I want to do it in 6 months.. which is plenty time for my to laspe in my phasing mood. But I've wanted to move out for 3 years now and its about time I did! dammit. Grr.. I have to keep my motivation and sight set on this almighty goal.. or I'll cry.

And I think I have more to type. I cant really stop myself, but this post in ages in length already. So .. for this particular moment anyway, I say goodnight. Or rather, good morning.

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stuff [10 Jun 2004|11:12pm]
[ mood | Pleasant.. theres no pleasant! ]
[ music | Tea Party; the edges of twilight ]

Today has been pretty good. I've been in quite a pleasant mood all day [almost]. I woke up early [hahaha like 11:30am] and got on the net for a bit... I'm becoming a major net.. geek or something. I'm not sure if its such a terrible thing either, because even though I'm on the net all the time now, I still have quite the hectic social life.

I'm still working... but I've had to cut my shifts down in these last couple of weeks, because if I earn $1 more than.. 8,314... [i think] in this financial year, then I have to pay the government about $1,500 back... Which is heaps crap. So next week I'm only working 3 hours, which means I'll be incredibly poor for the holidays... *cries* but it should allll be ooooooookkkkkkkkaaaaaaaaaay.

I also discovered today on a letter posted "to all staff" that I MUST [underlined too!!!] be available for work on stocktake from 1pm to 12am... wtf?!?! That's so outrageous. .. the permanents have to be from 9am to 12am... how shit. Its in.. 3 weeks? but i have to give them a good reason why i cant [if i cant] by next week or i get fired! .. geez. people so suck.

Anyways.. I've forgotten the original point. *scanning above*
Ah Yes, today. So yeah. I got up and agreed to meet Rob in the City to buy tickets to "Sprocket" Which is a play type thing on at the Opera House... so I dressed up a bit ... :D .. I was feeling ugly, and haven't gothed up for a while. And we had afternoon tea at the opera bar.. chatted for a while. It was quite enjoyable. Then I had to go to work. I chatted to my manager about theatre for a while :). I think he likes me... which is good.. because he lets me swap lunches :D hahaha.

And yeah. There was another point... *shrugs* .. I'm having and asterisks [?] phase...

Umm... SO. I'm probably going to the Hackenbush gig on Saturday night.. there's talk of it being their last :S and I was going to go clubbing afterwards but we're poor... :( which sucks. I'm also going to a goth fashion show and clubbing next week.. going to the theatre, got a party to go to... to buy a present for her.. I just remembered :) .. :( ...

Well yeah.. My forum isn't opening :*( so I'm missing out on my chocolate vs marmite war :(

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Bank Day :) [10 Jun 2004|12:10am]
[ mood | good ]
[ music | Corrs; forgiven not forgotten ]

Hullo. So today I got up at 11AM..!!!! wow. I'm getting up earlier everyday. From 2, to 12:40, to 11am! *cries* I'm going well! Wel yeah. I bummed around for a bit.. washed my hair [it reaaallly needed it] and went into Bankstown to be a big girl and sort out my own affairs.

What I actually did was open an account by myself AND put $20 as a start... *sigh* I'm so proud :) And I changed my details at work.. I just hope it all goes to plan and I dont lose a weeks pay :S.... maybe I should've done it next week.... :S .... Now I'm paranoid about it... *cries* .. No I'm ok..

So yeah. I was also going to get myself a Health Care card today as well... but decided not to push it... It was a BIIIIIG day for Em :) And then I have to close 2 of my other accounts *sigh* and transfer the money to one of the old savings ones... :S...

But yeah. Lost my train of thought ... *shrugs*
until later I guess.

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Singing [08 Jun 2004|09:06pm]
[ mood | Detached ]
[ music | Corrs; forgiven not forgotten ]

Ok, so I've decided to continue with blurty as well as live journal because I have history here :)

So, there's been quite a bizarre development with the Geoff situation. I recal being so enraged no too long ago with him because he was being completely jerky. Since then I've told him he's still a jerk :) hahaha and a manwhore, but we're all good. We are chatting much like the old days. Flirting and what not. That's heaps better than how it was. I'm still not 100% sure whats going on, but I'm dealing quite well. :)

Did I update about Kate's party. It was quite good. I didn't know people to begin with, met some people. Then Marijana and Corinne [and Kemi, Corinne's boyfriend] from work came. Ohmygosh they are so funny. Marijana just kills me with laughter. I'm meet Sully again. I met him on new years too. He's ok. Very flirtatious. *shrugs* nothing to me. Dr Paul is gorgeous :P but my hands are completely off. He's apparently much sought after and I dont want to deal with other peoples stuff.... The floyd guy [real name rob] was really entertaining. good to talk to. I should of got his email or something to keep in touch. oh well...

And I've decided I'm damn well getting my ps these holidays. If not I'll go mental :P
I'm also in the middle of changing banks. Reading all these terms and conditions is driving me nuts. I have to read all that shit now that I'm 18.. Grr. And nobody is helping me :( dammit. I'm more worried about the work aspect of my account... I have to change all those details and stuff.

I went to my primary school today to pick up Nat. I came to the horrifying realistion that I was there 7 years ago. Seven!!!! I felt so old.


I just lost my train of thought.. was singing.... am singing....
The corrs is my singing album, as embarrassing as it is.

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hahaha, of course [08 Jun 2004|01:25am]
[ music | nin; downward spiral ]

You are The Merovingian-
You are The Merovingian, from "The
Matrix." Wit and danger, with a French
twist. You are adamant about the slightly
materialistic things- power, wealth, posession.
Dominating, aren't we?

What Matrix Persona Are You?
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you like? oui? hawhawhaw. lol.
oui, je 'aime. [?]

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hamlet [08 Jun 2004|12:30am]
[ mood | discontent ]
[ music | perfect circle; mer de noms ]

To be, or not to be--that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles
And by opposing end them. To die, to sleep--
No more--and by a sleep to say we end
The heartache, and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to. 'Tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wished. To die, to sleep--
To sleep--perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub,
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause. There's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life.
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
Th' oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely
The pangs of despised love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office, and the spurns
That patient merit of th' unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? Who would fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscovered country, from whose bourn
No traveller returns, puzzles the will,
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscience does make cowards of us all,
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprise of great pitch and moment
With this regard their currents turn awry
And lose the name of action. -- Soft you now,
The fair Ophelia! -- Nymph, in thy orisons
Be all my sins remembered.

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hehehehehehehe [07 Jun 2004|08:11pm]
[ mood | hyper ]
[ music | .. i just realised the cd ended... ]

hehehehehehehe. i'm feeling really muahahaarrrrr. well yeah *squeals* ..... breathe... calm down....

hehehehehehehe. im going to go.. hahaha.

*sigh* popular starts soon.. hahaha.

*breathes out "woooooo"* i'm ok


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surveying the prospects [07 Jun 2004|08:03pm]
[ mood | horny ]
[ music | nin; things falling apart ]

Birth time: maybe 8:30pm.... mums not sure which one i was :S
Last place you traveled: like far? melbourne hehehe the memories
Eye Color: boring brown
Nail Color: normal...
Height: 168cm
Zodiac Sign: taurus and gemini

Your heritage: ahh australian... and then
The shoes you wore today: i didnt wear any. this little piggy stayed home
Your hair: is a mess. it was dyed black with red streaks, but since has faded into this.. i'm not sure. brown redish blonde thing
Your weakness: being an emotional instable freeeeeek [like dazz and rob muhahahahaarrrrr
Your fears: invincibility. and... being nobody
Your perfect pizza: hawiian. mmm i love that pizza
One thing you'd like to achieve: "world peace" ahahaha no. i like to achive.. a lasting empire... of em... where i'm really really rich... and i have influence :)

Your most overused phrase on aim: ... <--lol that ellipse
Your thoughts first waking up: "omg sleeeeepp" or "shit i'm late!!!! crapcrapcrapcrap!"
Your current worry: everything.. failing uni. boy stuff
Your plans tomorrow: .. sleep.. maybe clean my room.. study?
Your best physical feature: i have none :( [i've realised i have man elbows!!!!] .. well.. maybe my tongue :D
Your greatest accomplishment: making 18

Sunrise or sunset: sunset. the sky is beautiful, and afterwards you're rewarded with the pleasure of night
Gore or horror: .. neither really.. comedy :)
Eastsiiiide or wessssside: ...
Stripes or poki dots: strips :)
Money or fame: money money money
Planes or trains: ahh i haven't been on a plane... but i want to.. so trains it is
Metal or hardcore: .. ahh if i had to choose then metal. but industrial mmm
Boxers or briefs: for me? hahaha cheeky undies lol for guys? umm. boxers. but only sometimes.. other times [like hockey games!] definitely not!
Your life is: boring ... how does this come under i prefer. i prefer my life to be amazing
Pools or hot tubs: pools

Cuss: all the friggin time
Do you think you've been in love: i had thought so, but i shall say no
Want to get married: not particularly
Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: well i'm typing aren't i?
without your fingers on the right keys? <--- like that?
Like to take baths: spa baths at home... sometimes with others hehehe
Get motion sickness: if i read while moving [like on buses or in the car] but otherwise not so much
Like talking on the phone: to certain people yes
Like thunderstorms: hehe yeah! love them
Play an instrument: keyboard :S ... :(
Workout: i play hockey once a week. and train...
Like reading: yep. dont have as much time to do it these days though

Kind of fruit: oranges! mmm... and watermelon. strawberries, cherries.. mmmm
Music to fall asleep to: nin the fragile does that to me... its relaxing.
Time of the day: ummm.. i'm not sure ... night time..
Feature in the opposite sex: mmmm lots of stuff. [i'm on heat dammmit!] umm.. the neck.. broad shoulders.. smooth back, toned.. mmm
Car: one that roars *roooooar*
Number: i used to like 7.. but i'm kinda over numbers. now i want to have infinity :P
Thing to do right before bed: music... and sifting through my thoughts.
Thing to say when you're mad: when i'm really mad i cry.. :S and i get a lost for words. ... i say "ARGGGGH!" and roar a lot
Era: *shrugs* never really thought about it. really doubt i'll start now
Horror movie: i dunno. *shrugs* i dont particularly like horror
Colors: blue, red and black

Age you hope to be married: ahhh IF i were ever to get married it would be.. around 30
Numbers & Names of Children: children... who said anything about kids?
Describe your Dream Wedding: ... i have none.
How do you want to die: ... someway completely painless
Where you want to go to college: ahhh. nida hahaha
What do you want to be when you grow up: rich .. actress
What country would you most like to visit: europe.. iknow thats a continent. but i love those countries... maybe france..

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*cries* em suckky feeling [07 Jun 2004|06:30pm]
[ mood | crazy ]
[ music | matrix soundtrack ]

Helloooo. Actualmally on Thursday I went Party Monster with Rob at dendy NEWtown. Which was very good. A lIttle scary.. coz of drug addictions and my friends.. associations and relationmaships that is. with. yes.
Then I ended up late for library. 5 mins after library closed. grr. so now they massively overdue. by almost one 12th of a yr... *shrugs*
and then friday my exams. i was up on time but then got late coz I forgot my lab coat and sprinted back to my house
... it was damp.

and then friday went to city with rob... after exams.. deanne and me argued about arguing. so i left ... pft.
and i met tom and damo and vivien and jack? with rob, but they left when i got there. then videoing we went n stuff. ROB owes me money for expensive dvd tape thingy $13.
And sat day i worked all day.. so tired. then changed at home and went kates house .. parrrrrrrrtaaaaaaaaaeyyyyyy. was good. met lots of interesting people. some stupid people too. her house is noice! very noice. .... and yeah slept over and then in morning went staight there to work.. and then at midday afetr lunch i ate and suddenly got ill. almost threw up all day... now i got digestive issues. and then after work got changed and played hockey .. 1 -1 draw. swearing lots bout it. grr. we shouldve won by lots stupid lesbo refs nstuff grrr

and then pick mum up from airport. grr dad being bitchy all night and stuffs. matt went home too...
i missed a clockwork orange. on sbs last night damn! grrr.
sleeped 14hrs last night woke up at 2pm today.
i feel strange parents still jerky. mum just death stared em.... grr. she's not happy with ne for some probbabbbly stupoid reason.
signing of now befoar i go mental.. blah

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[03 Jun 2004|12:51pm]
muahahahahaaarrrr. it took a while, but no more linky things :) ... and i got my washing done without an explosion. yay
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[03 Jun 2004|11:34am]
... whats with some of the words being highlighted as links?...
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[03 Jun 2004|11:32am]
[ mood | hungry ]

Hahahaha, I'm doing my washing now. I rthink we all remember the last washing machine 'episode'. lol. Well so far it hasn't gone psycho. Today I'm supposed to be studying... but now I'm hungry, and I have yet to shower, And I'm going out tonight [only to see kate at work and return books] and my room is messy [since i tried to clean it :D] and I have to keep an eye on my washing -_- ...... and.... study... me?
I'll try... later :P

And last night I thought Dad had left for work.. you know when i was saying how I was the oldest person in the house?... well He came back. And while I was violently bitching to Rob on the phone, thinking it was ok, coz Dad wasn't home... yeah, you've guessed it. He slowly took two steps into the room and gave me the most bizarre look.... :( I went bright red and asked for more wine. I didn't deal with it very well, but what was I supposed to say?!?! *cries*
Apparently he just went for a meeting and then took the next 3 days off work to take care of family stuff. *sigh*

Well I haven't been awake long, so I'm gonna sign off, and perhaps do half hte things I said I would :)

*** omg I thought that was just the sound of the machine going psycho again... but it was a plane ... opps :P

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The printer is driving me MAAAAAAAAAAAAADDDDD! *muahahahaaarrrr* [02 Jun 2004|10:42pm]
[ mood | lonely ]
[ music | Incubus; crow left of the Murder ]

My printer wont work. Its being so stupid!... grrr.

Mum left for Darwin today. I'm.. a little worried about the week ahead. Everyone at home [not matt or mum of course] and dad controlling everything. Combined with my temper, and the responsibities and stresses of single parenting .. I dont think it'll be pretty. However, in the .. hmm. 5 and a half hours that she's been gone, it seems to be ok. He's only been shitty at me once, and it left when he went to bed. :) Now he's at work.

Mmmm I'm drinking wine... Its so good. Dad came to the rumpus [?] room holding a tall glass, and said, "Do you want any wine?" OOOOOhh baby hell yes! ... So I'm sitting here typing this with a glass of chardonnay which I sip from at irregular intervals :D.

... my printer's still not working...

So I skipped uni today. Its almost religion to, on Wednesday's anyway. Nothing interesting. Only 2 maths lectures. *sigh* I'm not working tomorrow night, but perhaps go there anyway to chat to Kate. And I have to return library books *gasp! She reads books!?!?!* I have to see Party Monster before it ends screening.. we have a week. I want to go monday, but rob suggested tomorrow. Which would be fine, but....

So I have 2 exams Friday morning. 1 Anatomy one [which I haven't studied for, and really must] and a histology one [Which is only worth 5% so not much stress going on here] Did my bio presentation. Wasnt too pleased with my explanation of what was going on. I dont think he was much either [the lecturer]... :(

And I failed to hand in another Chem assignment. I think it's pretty definite that I'm repeating next year.. *sigh*
Its disappointing. I disappoint myself.

.... Its STILL NOT WORKING!!!!! .... Its been 15mins trying to do this, fix the friggin printer and chat... but my printer is just not doing anything now. The light is on, its not flashing, the ink cartridge inside isn't moving, there's no noise .... its just not working.... I'm getting quite frustrated by now...

... i'm gonna cry... *sigh* ... I'm the oldest person in the house right now.. It makes me feel quite bizarre. I'm not sure whether its good or not.
.. The Power!... hahahaha.
.. The insecurity... :S I hope nothing bad happens... damnn! I just made myself paranoid. I'm gonna eat chocolate ice cream.... I usually feel better when I'm stuffing my face :)

I think that's all. Pretty uneventful. I was running heaps at training tonight though. Apparantly they had Geoff Williams last week... I wasn't there, but he was... forceful? I think should be the right word :)


**** I was just filling in the current mood. And this is a general feeling. On the weekend, however, I felt this overwhelming sense of lonleyness [?] It was so bad. I feel like nobody wants me anymore. Like... in the b.f/g.f sense. Once more I feel my personality is unattractive... :( Sure, some people want to .. screw, but.. no one wants anything to do with my... emotional instability. But I'm not always unstable.. just most the time... i feel like crying now.. What have I done?!****

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[02 Jun 2004|01:22pm]
[ mood | full ]
[ music | :) nin the downward spiral ]

Which Angel would you be?

.. i just had pasta for breakfast..
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dark... [02 Jun 2004|01:12pm]
[ mood | groggy ]
[ music | .... illl just put some on now... ]

Your a Dark Angel...and hey, you probably knew it.
Dark angel are in truth, very malicious, but a
sign of one also is very sad. Dark Angel all
used to be pure angels, but something went very
wrong with their life. Either it was the
sudden, murder of a loved one, betrayl, or pure
torture to them, dark angels have commited
their life to Satan himself. They are silent,
and their wings are dark black feathers, or
blood red. Dark Angels appear when there is
someone dying, or a murder. If you see one, it
means the death of a loved one is expected.
Dark Angels cannot actually harm a human, but
they love to see the suffering of one.

What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
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interesting :P [01 Jun 2004|10:47pm]
[ mood | cold ]
[ music | nin the fragile left ]

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Extreme
Level 7 (Violent)Extreme
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Extreme

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

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hmm [01 Jun 2004|10:16pm]
this is my adopted blob.... :)

Adopt your own useless blob!
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