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"Can I get my punk ass off the street I've been living on for so long" [Thu Jun 24 2004|10:09pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | "Graduate" Three Doors Down ] haha weird moment of the day. I was on the phone with Bree (_ilovenirvana27) and suddenly this random puppy comes running up to me and starts snuggling with me. I hung up with Bree so I could find where the random puppy came from. He was running around my yard chasing fireflys... because puppies are cute like that... and I picked him up and walked up and down the neighborhood and one of my neighbors comes running down the street like "YOU FOUND MY DOG!!!" all happy and excited-like which made ME happy because I did a good deed and now I have karma. Then I heard him telling his son (who was helping him look for the pup) that had I not found him he would have just taken off and they wouldn't have any clue where to look or what to do. Apparently one of the kids had left the gate open and the little pup was all "OMG I MUST EXPLORE!!!!!!11111oneone" and so he took off. I was freaking out when I first found him because he had a collar but no tag attatched so I was like ...what do I do about this dog, I know it's not safe for him to be on the streets because we're on the woods and in my neighborhood there are a few cases of foxes and other animals going after the pets when they're loose. And like no one was on the street at first so I was freaking out and like "oh my bob what do I do I'm so not leaving him alone out here!" but then I found the owner and he was all thankful and happeh so yay. The moral of the story: I rock. The puppy was so cute!!! He was a black and white spaniel of some sort, and he was all fuzzy and pretty <3 Sometimes all you need is a puppy to lick you like crazy and suddenly you're not depressed anymore. /fin Congradulations you have won

[Wed Jun 23 2004|12:51am] [ mood | pissed off ] Why can't people just say they like nirvana without saying "...and kurt" Because like Nirvana included Kurt so that goes without saying. I mean why say you like a band and then specifically point out one of the members. Seriously, if you like the band you like all the members and you look stupid if you only point out one. I'm snarky tonight and you're going to have to fucking deal with it. I'm just like... really sick of childish fangirls. No one specific, just in general. It's like... goddamn appreciate the fucking music PLEASE. I know kurt is so pretty, but okay he was a musician. Shut the fuck up. He wasn't a model or a teen idol or a pop star, he was a fucking musician. But then again few people today know what music really is. Everyone is so fucking shallow I sincerely want to destroy everyone. And the journals... I'm sorry but like everyone's all "I read them and I feel like I know him better" bull you obviously don't know him because you just did the one fucking thing that disgusted him the most, invading his privacy. Or, worse, people are all "I read them and I feel bad" yea well you still read them and feeling bad doesn't change that. If some stranger read your diary (not online diary, but something personal of yours) and was like "yea I read it but I feel bad about it now" would that change anything? You may accept their apology but the point is they still read your fucking diary and that's wrong and it's rape. But then again it's fashionable to rape the legacy of a dead rockstar. If Kurt didn't die Nirvana would have faded like all the other Seattle bands. They were breaking up anyway. Kurt achieved the status of a legand because of his looks and his death and that's fucking that. All you cobainites are leeches. Pure grade-a LEECHES. It's disgusting and sad and it makes me want to blow you the fuck up. He was a real fucking person okay, not someone who wanted to be ogled by prepubescant children with overactive libidos. I'm not saying all young fans are like that, but I'm just sick of the same shit and I'm sick of being called a bitch because I fucking tell it how it is. Nirvana was a fucking amazing and brilliant band because of all the members in every different stage. Nirvana wasn't just kurt. So when people say things like "I love nirvana and kurt" or "Kurt is my god" or "I read his journals and I feel like I know him" and so on down the line of teenage fangirl bullshit it makes me want to fucking go ballistic on them. Fucking assholes. Open mouth, insert shotgun, pull trigger, do it for kurt *snark* they're all such media whores anyway they probably believe the suicide bullshit. /fin 1 bad pun| Congradulations you have won

[Sun Jun 20 2004|4:02am] Congradulations you have won

[Wed Jun 16 2004|12:16am] [ mood | creative ] Obligatory public "I'M LEAVING" post. I'm heading for the beach at 7:30 tomorrow morning. All drama, backstabbing and other such bullshit can wait until I return on Saturday, as I'm sure it won't be as fun if you can't see my reaction. Sorry kids, gotta find a new toy. /fin 2 bad puns| Congradulations you have won

To my so-called friends irl [Mon Jun 14 2004|4:39pm] [ mood | indifferent ] "Fear" Disturbed He's on it again Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha He's on it again Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha He's on it again Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha He's on it again Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha Reject Are you no one Feel you nothing You know I'll bet you think you have a good reason To be living In the limelight Of the fortunate ones You're too weakened By the poison That they feed you In the living lie They don't believe you Call to no one Trust in nothing Little impotent one [chorus]: I don't wanna be (x3) I don't wanna be innocent, you know I don't wanna be (x3) I don't wanna let them hypnotize me Punk ass Are you listening Can you hear me? Or are you deaf and dumb to my language Do the real words Seem to hurt you? Well put em' up motherfucker Gonna feel it When I stamp it On your forehead So you will never forget That you're a reject And you're no one And you're nothing Little impotent one [chorus] Fear awaken Go with it now And let it overcome you Fear awaken Your mind is racing I don't understand Why you don't like me Why don't you like me? Am I so different from you? Now does it scare you That I'm able to discern What to love and what to burn? I'll make you fuel to the fire Now stand back Brother take your hand back Leave it and I might crack More than a smile or two you see You don't judge what you don't understand You can't deny what has been given to me [chorus] Fear awaken Go with it now And let it overcome you Fear awaken Go with it now Go with it now Your fear awaken Go with it now And let it overcome you Fear awaken Your mind is racing Erasing no Hey reject Are you no one Feel you nothing You know I'll bet you think you have a good reason To be living In the limelight Of the fortunate ones You know Congradulations you have won

[Fri Jun 11 2004|2:08am] [ mood | determined ] READ the facts before commenting. Don't argue until you read. ( Dead men don't pull triggers ) ( Reasons the case should be reopened ) These are the main reasons why this case should be reopened and looked into again. For more information, check out the Frequently Asked Questions section, and the detailed Timeline of Events. Info on Love & Death A few more questions. 1- Courtney claims she never got word from Kurt when he left rehab. Funny story, Kurt let her know not only exactly where he was staying, but where he could be reached. (From Grant's tapes, written down in Love & Death) 2- Look at these two images: ( suicide note ) ( Paper found in Courtney's backpack by her lawyer ) Suspicious? I don't post this for anything but to make you look at the evidence, the FACTS. There is not only a motive but substantial PROOF, medical and otherwise, that it was literally IMPOSSIBLE for Kurt Cobain to take his own life. I care because there are too many kids that believe that it was a suicide. I care because the SPD's incompetence affects Seattle citizens today as well. I care because a murderer is walking the streets free. I care because Kurt has a child who believes her daddy killed himself and left her when she was barely two. I care because the genious and talent of a brilliant man is shadowed by one word; suicide. Rest in peace Kurt, one day justice will be served. /fin 5 bad puns| Congradulations you have won

[Thu Jun 10 2004|12:43am] [ mood | weird ] Everything is so weird lately. The me from a year ago doesn't recognise who I have become. 3 bad puns| Congradulations you have won

"You got everything you need under your thick skin" [Tue Jun 08 2004|9:14pm] [ mood | numb ] [ music | "C'mon C'mon" Sheryl Crow ] Dear Sheryl Crow, Stop writing lyrics that define EXACTLY how I feel because then I get completely addicted to the same song and listen to it on repeat for an hour Sincerely Cobain This song describes last night with Lydia better than I ever could. "C'Mon C'Mon" -Sheryl Crow C'mon, c'mon C'mon, c'mon c'mon You lay down with angels To feel yourself again You've got everything you need Under your thick skin I know where you're going I know where you've been When it comes to playin' games You will always win [CHORUS:] C'mon, c'mon c'mon Break my heart again For old times sake C'mon, c'mon c'mon Break my heart again For old times sake You can't see your shadow Reaching for the sky Lay your head down on my bed Please don't ask me why Why am I leaving Why don't I know Something deep inside me Is forcing me to go You say you need me But you can't tell me no When I ask you to stop me baby You just let me go [CHORUS] You took the best of me And threw it away Too bad the rest of me Still wants you to stay Want you to stay You say you need me But you can't tell me no When I ask you to stop me baby You just let me go You just let me go [CHORUS] 3 bad puns| Congradulations you have won

[Sun Jun 06 2004|11:01pm] [ mood | crushed ] Listening to extremely loud Green Day makes things happier for a moment. I can almost pretend that everything's great and I'm not really being betrayed and mocked by people I considered friends. I can almost pretend they didn't demand that I denounce the only thing I believe in. Just crank up the stereo and it all goes away... "Walking Contradiction" Green Day Do as I say not as I do because The shit so deep you can’t run away I beg to differ on the contrary I agree with every word that you say Talk is cheap and lies are expensive My wallet’s fat and so is my head Hit and run and then I’ll hit you again I’m a smart ass but I’m playing dumb Standards set and broken all the time Control the chaos behind a gun Call it as I see it even if I was born deaf, blind and dumb Losers winning big on the lottery Rehab rejects still sniffing glue Constant refutation with myself I’m a vicitm of a catch 22 I have no belief But I believe I’m a walking contradiction And I ain’t got no right /fin Congradulations you have won

[Sat Jun 05 2004|5:16pm] [ mood | hungry ] Reagan Died Why oh why didn't you take Dubya? Stupid Grim reaper you got the wrong republican! /fin 1 bad pun| Congradulations you have won

[Fri Jun 04 2004|8:24pm] More than a decade after the death of Nirvana frontman Kurt Cobain, residents in Aberdeen, Washington, have finally decided to commemorate the life and accomplishments of the most famous musician to surface from their tiny city. On May 13, the eight members of the Kurt Cobain Memorial Committee held a meeting at Aberdeen City Hall to discuss how to best pay tribute to Cobain. About 25 members of the public showed up to throw around ideas, which included erecting a sign on the bluff of East Aberdeen that pointed out Cobain was born in Aberdeen; building a commemorative park in or near the downtown area that would include a graffiti wall; and creating a Cobain youth center focusing on music and art. Members of the committee and the Aberdeen City Council are looking at two privately owned parks that could be developed into a memorial. Earlier this year, they considered changing the name of North Aberdeen Park near the Wishkah River to Kurt Cobain Memorial Park. The river was immortalized in the 1996 live Nirvana album, From the Muddy Banks of the Wishkah. Committee projects to pay tribute to Cobain will be funded through private donations. Donations to the Kurt Cobain Memorial Project are presently being accepted at all branches of the Bank of the Pacific. Members of the Kurt Cobain Memorial Committee include Cobain's grandfather Leland Cobain, Aberdeen City Council member Paul Fritts and the arts and entertainment editor of the local paper The Daily World, Jeff Burlingame. The population of Aberdeen is around 16,500, according to the 2000 U.S. Census. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Thoughts? Congradulations you have won

[Wed Jun 02 2004|2:21am] The only Bush I'd trust, is my own. Congradulations you have won

[Mon May 31 2004|7:52pm] [ mood | artistic ] I wanted to philosophise about A Brave New World but I don't know it hasn't all sunk in yet. Reading a book like that in three and a half hours your brain needs time to process it all. Some things that stuck out most for me: -In a world where happiness is the only thought in the people's mind, people become very self centred. All the times Lenina was out with a guy and he was distant her first thought was that she was getting fat or that he wasn't attracted to her. Isn't that so like today? You're out with your friends and if you're down they assume you're mad at THEM. Everything is so "me me me" centred. -Look at our world, what is the foremost thing on people's mind? Satisfaction. Commercials for everything promise satisfaction. "try this razor and you'll find paradise" (irony), "this weight loss pill will make you happier than you've ever been" etc. Can anyone else see where we're headed here? I'm not saying NOT to seek satisfaction but we're looking for it in all the wrong places. And everything is requiring less and less brainpower (such as our movies, mindless). Our world is becoming so devoid of thought or anything aside from "me me me how can I feel happy..." The only thing we're missing is a controlling force bent on seeing to our every demand so that we don't have to feel one ounce of anything but bliss. I found happiness in love, and this happiness is something no drug or no amount of casual sex could vanquish. Unconventional and "weird" love perhaps but it is there all the same. -Girls like being looked at like meat (just like in the book). If a (good looking) guy checks out a girl she is flattered. Why? WHY is that flattering? Do you like being viewed as an object, a piece of meat, a thing made for the pleasure of men. Girls LOVE to flaunt it for the guys because they want that one moment because we're being conditioned to look good for them. so horribly prophetic. Granted I don't see our government getting too bent out of shape about making everyone "happy" and free (granted they probably want just the opposite, CHASTITY BELTS FOR EVERYONE). I do see the social norm headed that way if we're not already there. "me me me what will be that little thing to make me happy? Pills? sex? being eyed by a guy? Me me me fill my senses make my day me me me" I'm not saying pleasure is bad, it's natural but SO. IS. PAIN. A world without pain is not worth living in. Without pain who can understand art. When John was talking about Shakespeare to some of the people they didn't get it. What was a tragedy to them? A world without pain sounds happy and wonderful and yes sometimes I wish I felt no pain but.... what existance would that be? Something I got from the book that perhaps the author didn't intentionally put in there, a place like heaven would be so horrific. No pain? Pain creates art. Tragedy creates beauty. I fall in love with the ones that have sad eyes because pain is beauty. If there was no pain, beauty would die. Yes if either existed and I had to choose I'd choose hell. /fin Congradulations you have won

[Sun May 30 2004|12:17am] [ mood | amused ] "If you think Kurt Cobain killed himself I bloody hate you, I don't care if you're a good person I still hate you. No I will not commit any violent crimes against you, you're comining crimes against yourself for being such a raving idiot" -from an entry I wrote last year. I'm priceless. (and by the way yes I do still feel that way) /fin Congradulations you have won

[Sat May 29 2004|2:41am] [ mood | geeky ] Added more icons to Nothing Icons All Nirvana/K icons though (I can't find the rest of my pictures that are icon sized). You know the drill: Save to your own hard drive then upload it (don't waste bandwidth on my site) Let me know which one/s you're taking CREDIT CREDIT CREDIT ( spoilers ) enjoy /fin Congradulations you have won

"I found a reason for me to change who I used to be, a reason to start over new, the reason is you" [Thu May 27 2004|7:18am] [ mood | loved ] [ music | "The Reason" Hoobastank (colour me mushy haha) ] "To have some wonderful person look you in the eyes and kiss you, represents all the reality you need to have in your world." -givzerhead One sentance never so completely defined my life and the relationship I am in (and will be in forever) *nod* I'm getting beyond the need to justify this. This is all the reality I need because I am happier than I have ever been in my life. Little things get to me yes because I am still human but at the end of the day I lay down smiling and I wake up smiling and who could ever ask me to justify that. A lesbian married to a male spirit. Who'da thunk it? /fin Congradulations you have won

"Your insults and your curses make me feel like I'm not a person" [Thu May 27 2004|12:00am] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | "For You" Staind ] This following paragraph is from the introduction of The Encyclopedia Of The Unsolved; Past and Present (which I just found while moving out of my dorm a few weeks ago and began reading it, 600 pages long) .......... It is not simply a question of whether ESP or telepathy deserve to be taken seriously, but wether - as Martin Gardner would like to believe - the universe is ultimately as rational and "normal" as a novel by Jane Austin or Anthony Trollope. This is an easy belief to maintain because the universe that confronts us when we open our eyes in the morning looks perfectly "normal" and it is unlikely that we shall encounter any event during the day that contradicts this assumption. But then the universe looks unquestionable to a cow for the same kind of reason.We know that the minuet we begin to use our intelligence to ask questions the universe becomes a far more strange and mysterious place. Most scientists would agree wholeheartedly with this sentiment for science begins with a sense of mystery. But a certain type of scientist - and they are, unfortunately, in the majority - would also like to believe that the mysteries could be solved by the simple kind of deductive logic employed by Sherlock Holmes. And the problem presented by these time slips or precognitions or synchronicities or by poltergeists and out-of-body-experiances make it clear that this is wishful thinking. We can only keep science within comfortable logical bounderies by refusing to acknowledge the existance of anything outside those bounderies. .......... Interesting thought. In laymans terms it basically says that we generally see the world one way because we've never HAD to see it any other way in our day to day lives. We wake up to the same world we've always known. It starts to become questionable and alien when we begin inquiring in to what is unseen and abnormal (esp, ghosts, aliens, etc) things outside of our day to day lives make us begin to question our lives as they are. The problem with science and the "paranormal" comes in because science has always had a way of rationalizing things and putting them in certain categories and anything outside of the preset bounderies is not worth a second thought. I judge my beliefs on intuition and experiance. Not science, not religion, not one book or many books. I'm old fashioned that way. My beliefs and spirituality comes from waking up every day, seeing the world as I see it and interpreting that in my own way without outside aid from religious dogma or scientific dogma. Maybe that's a "less educated" path but it's definately more enlightened in my opinion. It's not like I put no emphasis on science or philisophy etc because obviously science DOES hold many answers but somehow I don't think the meaning of life is in a lab or a science book. *nod* /fin 3 bad puns| Congradulations you have won

[Wed May 26 2004|7:35am] [ mood | enthralled ] Your Dream Vampire Boyfriend(Girls only) by Cainesgirl101 Nickname Zodiac sign Your dream vampire-guy Long black hair and ice blue eyes. Dark clothes and tall statue- described as seductive. How you met He'd seen you once before, and stood outside your window at night hoping to get another glance. The first thing you said to him Um....hi... Where you two ended up He visits you regularly for a small amount of blood, and to spend some time with you. His favorite thing to do to you He loves making out with you- simple as that. Will you end up as a vampire Maybe- you remain undecided for a LONG time Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen! Okay that described Draven (distorted_eyes) and I to a T except for he isn't a vampire in the sense of being immortal (seeing as how he is dead). That is creepeh. /fin Congradulations you have won

thoughts for the day... [Tue May 25 2004|4:26pm] [ mood | amused ] (forwarded to me from mum) I used to eat a lot of natural foods until I learned that most people die of natural causes. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Gardening Rule: When weeding, the best way to make sure you are removing a weed and not a valuable plant is to pull on it. If it comes out of the ground easily, it is a valuable plant. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The easiest way to find something lost around the house is to buy a replacement. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyway. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ There are two kinds of pedestrians: the quick and the dead. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Life is sexually transmitted. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ An unbreakable toy is useful for breaking other toys. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ If quitters never win, and winners never quit, then who is the fool who said, "Quit while you're ahead?" ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Health is merely the slowest possible rate at which one can die. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The only difference between a rut and a grave is the depth. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Give a person a fish and you feed them for a day; teach that person to use the Internet and they won't bother you for weeks. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Some people are like Slinkies . . . not really good for anything, but you still can't help but smile when you see one tumble down the stairs. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Health nuts are going to feel stupid someday, lying in hospitals dying of nothing. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Have you noticed since everyone has a camcorder these days no one talks about seeing UFOs like they used to? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Whenever I feel blue, I start breathing again. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ All of us could take a lesson from the weather. It pays no attention to criticism. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Why does a slight tax increase cost you two hundred dollars and a substantial tax cut saves you thirty cents? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ In the 60's, people took acid to make the world weird. Now the world is weird and people take Prozac to make it normal. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Politics is supposed to be the second oldest profession. I have come to realize that it bears a very close resemblance to the first. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ How is it one careless match can start a forest fire, but it takes a whole box to start a campfire? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ AND THE # 1 THOUGHT FOR THE DAY: You read about all these terrorists -- most of them came here legally, but they hung around on these expired visas, some for as long as 10 -15 years. Now, compare that to Blockbuster; you are two days late with a video and those people are all over you. I say we should put Blockbuster in charge of immigration... Congradulations you have won

[Mon May 24 2004|12:58am] [ mood | disappointed ] The draft I think that speaks for itself. We're fucked. /fin Congradulations you have won

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