| is this what it feels like when depression hits? i thought it'd be better, somehow. |
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October 14th, 2005 16:00] |
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Dancing in the Dark---- Bruce Springsteen |
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read a whole book today.
not so much an accomplishment as proof there's nothing left to do anymore.
it was about 80's LA desensitized and disaffected youth.
it wasn't that great.
god i feel like time is moving too fast.
i just want to freeze everything
so it gives me time to catch up.
im only gonna say this once.
i miss you monica.
oh shut up.
.... and one by one they all fell down......
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October 13th, 2005 21:57] |
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mood |
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contemplative |
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the who theme song from csi |
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saw proof at the esquire tonight with the usual suspects.
made me want to go crazy, buy a bunch of composition books and get into math.
sadly, very few of these things have any probability of happening.
went to the mall.
ran into doug.
the awkwardness was astounding.
awkward. awkward.
i was astounded, let me tell you.
monica on the plane now.
she's convinced it's going to crash.
she seems set on the fact that she's that one in a million.
i promised i'd pray for her.
for whatever that's worth.
but here it is.
my mouth hurts from the salty popcorn at the movie.
perhaps i overdid it.
watching csi.
yes.
dead bodies and little bits of fluff that are the deciding factors in the cases.
it's all very exciting.
i think i'm going to look at the stars tonight.
::love::
kathryn.
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October 12th, 2005 20:26] |
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chipper |
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And She Was-------Talking Heads |
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this will be the first entry. as was repeatedly, incessantly, annoyingly requested by monica. so here it is. don't be disappointed, i'll blame it all on the fact that im incredibly tired.
monica leaving tomorrow.
very sad.
dont know why she doesn't think so, but i certainly do.
eating lukewarm spaghetti o's and flipping through the channels so quickly you can't see what any of the shows are, it's all just a blur of color.
reading Anna Karenina. quite an undertaking, i realize. 30 pages down. 800 to go. making progress, slowly but surely.
cut today.
3 times.
so much for a new start.
maybe we really can't change.
we are who we are.
fuck. fuck. fuck.
bored.
....less than that, it's a trundle.....
love
kathryn
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October 3rd, 2005 21:32] |
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It reminds me of legos...
It's cute now, what do you think Collopy?
Let us see how it looks with a lot of writing.
I felt like an elephant, you know, all the peanuts. I felt like an elephant, you know, all the peanuts. I felt like an elephant, you know, all the peanuts. I felt like an elephant, you know, all the peanuts. I felt like an elephant, you know, all the peanuts. I felt like an elephant, you know, all the peanuts. I felt like an elephant, you know, all the peanuts. I felt like an elephant, you know, all the peanuts. I felt like an elephant, you know, all the peanuts. I felt like an elephant, you know, all the peanuts. I felt like an elephant, you know, all the peanuts. I felt like an elephant, you know, all the peanuts. I felt like an elephant, you know, all the peanuts. I felt like an elephant, you know, all the peanuts. I felt like an elephant, you know, all the peanuts. I felt like an elephant, you know, all the peanuts. I felt like an elephant, you know, all the peanuts. I felt like an elephant, you know, all the peanuts. I felt like an elephant, you know, all the peanuts. I felt like an elephant, you know, all the peanuts.
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