hahaha using this for once   
12:40am 14/04/2004
  sex )  
09:34pm 17/01/2004
  stereotypes )  
04:38am 06/01/2004
mood: aggravated
music: none
Marysia )
08:48pm 04/01/2004
  stolen from Al )  
08:44pm 04/01/2004
  2003 )  
school tomorrow   
08:34pm 04/01/2004
  5 )  
I let it ring...   
12:00am 02/01/2004
mood: pensive
music: Linkin Park
Finished Acid House. A really amazing book. Irvine Welsh writes so amazingly. His stories aren't all happily ever after. It's real life actions. I love the Scottish dialect and all that. But I think I'm going to take a break before I start on Ecstasy, cuz his books are hard reads. Good books, but take awhile to get through.

I think a combination of Irvine Welsh, Requiem for a Dream, and Rent has made me completely adverse to heroin. Never ever going to touch that shit. Read way too much about all that skag.
why am i up at 5:14?   
05:14am 30/12/2003
mood: bored
music: VGS
bored )
you get me closer to god   
06:28pm 29/12/2003
mood: mellow
music: Mudvayne
Closer has to be the sexiest song ever, for 3 reasons, at least.

1. Lyrics and music, the music is perfect for how Reznor sings it, with his amazingly sexy voice.

2. The video. I have to be fucked up in the head, but I find that awesome. Trent is a perfect little sexy boy.

2. Al. Heh, Al helped me realize how beautiful the song is.
07:42pm 21/12/2003
mood: bored
music: MSI
stealing from rude boys )
The Ring   
12:50am 13/12/2003
mood: nostalgic
music: KMK
Last year for Marysia's birthday. It was me, her and Amanda watching The Ring. Amanda tried to steal the blankie. That bitch went down! Rolled up like a burrito. Wedgies! Goodtimes.
Viva la Bam   
12:41am 07/12/2003
mood: amused
Bam Margera

1. I love his mom, April. She is the coolest lady. She never really gets mad at him and she takes part in some of the jokes. She is a hip lady.

2. I saw the episode with Vile Vallo, it made my night. I was 1/2 watching it and I was like hey he looks like someone, then I was like, hey it's the guy from HIM!!!!!! Mmmmmm...
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not another year   
12:47pm 03/12/2003
mood: content
music: Name Taken-Safety of Routine
First time suspended. Woo hoo. All the screaming of the morning has left me with quite a bit of energy and I can't sleep. I feel all productive and shit going around like this was a normal day. And since no one else is home, it doesn't matter right now that I can't go out. I just feel the need to do stuff and run around and take care of things. I've cleaned my damn house. I should get suspended more often, I get more done that way. Music makes me happy. Keeps me upbeat and shit. I'm actually quite content right now. I'm not tired and this is the first time I've been around sunlight in awhile. I'm usually in school or asleep around this time. Mmm I like it. I wish it was warmer so I could go running around outside.
I see some children crossing the bridge   
10:08pm 01/12/2003
mood: nauseated
music: ICP
how come everytime I watch the parts of Trainspotting when shit is involved (which is slightly often) I seem to be eating? I almost made myself sick today. Ewan McGregor and Jonny Lee Miller looked quite good in that movie though. Mmmm.
booty call   
01:41am 29/11/2003
mood: amused
music: TATU
words )
lagoona beach   
07:59pm 27/11/2003
mood: contemplative
music: OLP-Clumsy
I remember this time, years ago, when I was in Utah and I saw a guy propose to his girlfriend. I was like 12 or something and I was with my cousins at Lagoona Beach (an amusement park) and we were waiting for our dads to come pick us up. We watched this kid drive up in a tux and place a bouquet of roses and a small black box on the passenger seat. His girlfriend came out from work and he opened the door for her and she screamed. He hugged her and gave us a thumbs up. For some reason I've been thinking about that and how sweet it was. It wasn't on some date or anywhere special, he asked her after she came out of work, surprising her and making her feel better after work. I like that kid. Sometimes guys can really amaze you.
Joshy Woshy Woo   
12:23am 25/11/2003
mood: scared
Why are guy so infuriatingly...poop? I'm getting sick of trying to stop myself from liking guys, then finding someone who seems like he's not an asshole and has interest in me, and then getting stepped on. Which is why I am beyond scared with Josh. I've adored this kid since last February. He has always been wicked sweet to me and I've only seen him be really mad once or twice. We're friends. We joke around, we do stupid shit together, we're awesome. I didn't see him for 2 months. I 1/2 forgot about him cuz there was nothing to remind me of him. I saw him again and I didn't want to let him go. I just wanted to hug and hold him forever. He's a sweetheart, pure and simple. I know I've called alot of kids sweethearts in the past and they've all turned out to be assholes, but I've known Josh for 10 months and I've never witnessed him ever say unwarranted shit about anyone. So I don't want to get to know him and find out that wow, maye he really is an asshole and I just can't see it. I'm afraid to like him cuz I'm afraid that yet again I'm going to get treated like shit. I'm so terrified of liking anyone cuz it hurts too much to be let down, but I'm already friends with Josh and we do great as friends and I don't want to find out he's a jerk and then never be able to hang out with him again. If I had just met him I would be going on about how he's cute and shit and how I really like him. But since I know him I don't want to jinx myself and screw myself over with this one. He's too perfect for me to sully with a crush on him. He's too good for a crush. He'll be a kid who I will always adore and probably never be able to touch. He's amazing.

'Tis the season for self-pity and wishes for guys in my life.
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What's full of holes but still holds water? A sponge   
05:41pm 24/11/2003
mood: nauseated
music: TATU
Why do I always get sick during the shortest weeks? Honestly. I left school today after 1st period. I did not feel well at all. My sickness has only gotten worse and it sucks dude. Came home and slept until 5. I think I've decided that I only feel well if I don't eat. Everytime I eat I get sick. I can't be sick for the rest of the week. I have to do all sorts of shit before Thanksgiving. At least I get a break from school. I must do something fun and exciting on Friday. I can't be a lameass. People be fun with me.
turkey lurkey   
02:23pm 23/11/2003
  I got really bored and decided to create a blurty so I could be cool like everyone else and have billions of journals. Today has been a boring day. I woke up at 2 and have done absolutely nothing since then. This week shall be easy in school. 2 and 1/2 days. Sweet deal. Wednesday going with Kayla into Downtown Crossing to go Christmas shopping. Buying someone the bestest present ever. Oh yea, kick ass. OK this is a ridiculously stupid entry.