| in love with love and lousey poetry |
[19 Jun 2008|07:53pm] |
i keep leaving you with these short one-and-two liner thoughts because i feel obligated to write something, but being in the computer lab 22 hours a week is very uninspiring. to make up for it, this'll be a long 'un. asses comfy? good. let's begin our wandering through the past few days of Cat.
so i bought a $20 bag on Monday and went through it in two days. this lead me to the conclusion that i need to cut it out for a while. i would instill my "no buying for a week" rule that i use when i think i'm getting in too deep, but the concert's next Wednesday, so that kinda puts a damper on things. also, might be coming into some other stuff soon, but it'll have to be limited due to a lack of funds and a fear of addiction.
concert's gonna be bangin', though. i already have a confirmed plan and three definite companions. they are all amazing, and we will all go insane at this concert. rock on.
let's see... hung out with Ben on Wednesday for the first time in... since we broke up. it was nice, actually. not even awkward. we walked through the Bog Gardens and talked and bullshitted like no one got hurt. i guess it helped that he has a new girlfriend now, and she's super chill? from what i can tell, anyway. i've only hung out with her once before, and that was back when we were still dating.
moving right along, i have all these bug bites that itch like crazy, but they're only on my shoulders. wtf? other than that, though, today's been great. i've had all this energy and chipperness and i was practically giddy earlier. i don't know if it's my system flushing or just the feeling of being loved, but it's awesome. hell, i felt inspired to write. i probably would've, too, except i ended up talking with Jan and Ciji (coworkers) and reading comics and watching silly videos on Youtube. yep, my job is most taxing.
and it's not over! we're heading to Jan's house tonight to watch The Secretary. YES! I FINALLY FOUND PEOPLE TO WATCH IT WITH ME!!! E! hrt. that almost sounds like i'm stilly giddy, but i'm actually feeling a lot calmer now. just content, possibly happy. it's nice. it's really nice. i want to treasure this properly so i can pull it out and remember it when i start to feel bad again. it's really hard during those times. i can remember being happy, but i can't really remember what it felt like.. but i don't want to think about that.
last night was a night for A's. mainly, Adam, alcohol, anger, aggression... oh. i don't want to think about that either. even if it ended well, and probably was for the best.
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