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[06 Feb 2004|10:28pm] |
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Heeeeeey. Schooool was alllright. Took the MEAPS at 8:00am, left at 10:30am with Kelsey. Went to Taco Bell at 11:30, took some back to Mrs. Matson. Came back here with Kelsey, recorded some stuff on the computer. Was fun, except the fact that i about pissed my pants 4383247348327483284324 times. We had a good time, then she went home. I had pizza and talked online, fell asleep for like 15 minutes, it was weird... i wasn't really asleeep, but i wasn't awake. Then the phone rings and i'm thinking who the fuck is calling me, yeah.. Kelsey is. I answer the phone and we talk about some stuff that she was trying to tell me online.. i forgot to put up my away message so she probably thought i was dead or something. Anyway, then i talked to Aimee. Then i went to Target... got the Hilary Duff CD.... hmm. I hear "Come Clean" every morning while i'm laying in bed trying to get up. That music video is always on. I like that song, so i thought maybe i should just go and buy it. So i did. Yay.
I've been very paranoid, with the whole Adam deal. I don't know.... how i feel anymore, if he asked me back out, i would NOT say yes. Adam is doing shit that is digging his grave deeper and deeper each day. I don't know what to think... should i care? should i not? should i help him? should i let him go? He let me go, why should i not let him go? Because he let me go.. for a reason that i didn't realize until tonight. He let me go, because he knew it was the best thing to do. He knew i would eventually be happy again, and if he wouldn't have broken up with me, i would be extremely miserable. -Thanks-
Now i'm tired.... yeah i'll probably stay up a lot longer though. blah. good night.
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