| The bastard plays on these insecurities. |
[20 Jun 2004|04:01pm] |
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Does anyone read this shit anymore? Is blurty dead? Yeah.
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| I miss you less with each day you're gone. |
[14 Apr 2004|03:36pm] |
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Why doesn't anyone update anymore? You suck. I guess i don't either so whatever. Umm hmm. Jon Zoeller asked me to go to a movie with him and another couple. He said "I'd like to get to know you better" Ugh. He'll probably think i'm extremely stuck up and mean. Bleh. I guess i am, so whatever. Haha. Simeon's advice "Don't be too opinionated, and don't take him seriously". The second part won't be too hard but if opinions are brought up, don't think i'm not saying anything. That's one thing i don't like about me. Can i help it? No, so i should just shut up. Good idea. I still don't know what movie we are seeing, but i'm still looking forward to "getting to know him". My mom is now letting him drive me. Weird, but good for me. Fuuuun. Willy, Rachel, Luke, and I were supposed to go out to EL on Friday, but Willy had some other plans, so BLAH Willy. :( Hmm anyway.
I skipped school today. I felt like throwing up. Aww yeah, you so wanted to know that. :) So my mom and I went to Arbys! Haha, Speaking of Jon, and Arbys... Jon works at Arbys. too bad i went during school, or else he might have been working! Then my mom and I drove out to Dunhams, and then through the car wash in Waverly. So we were pretty much all over the place.
When i got home, i just watched the Osbournes. Fuuuuun.
Mmm well i hope you enjoyed my update!!!!!!! :D haha.
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| The way things go, it's not my fault. |
[09 Apr 2004|06:53pm] |
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Wow, the livejournal deal SUCKED extremely large cock. Too much fooking drama over some stupid shit like one guy. BLAH. Well i'm coming back to blurty, yeah that's right. Actually, no. I'll still update in Livejournal, i guess just miss Blurty. *burp* I guess the whole journal thing all together is dumb. Why do i update then? Because i'm dumb as well. Ah yes. So umm, hmm. Sunday should be fun.. yeah, maybe? Jon Zoeller invited me to his youth group thing on Sunday. Since Simeon goes to the same youth group, he offered to give me a ride. Aww how sweet. Zoeller works at Arby's! Free curly fries!! haha. I wiiiiiiiiiiishhh... Well i guess i'm out! See-ya at the Van Erman show tonight! ;-) I'll hang out with Ian i think. Or atleast say hi, since he really really really wants me tooooo. haha. yeah okay bye!
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| I've got to tell you something. |
[09 Mar 2004|09:57pm] |
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| Please don't leave me, without saying goodbye. |
[07 Mar 2004|11:10am] |
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Show last night... Was it good? Not really. I hung out with Kerry while T.A.S. played. Kerry is cool. Everyone thought i was a junior. Hmm.. I guess i do get that a lot. But at the towards the end of the night i was left alone. Hmm. Yeah.. great friends i have. :-\ Kerry should have stayed. Nobody updates their journal anymore... Hm.. I'll delete mine after a while.
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| Honestly, if I waited by the phone, would you still leave me on my own? |
[29 Feb 2004|03:16pm] |
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Yeah, i went to the show at Van Java on Friday. Hm.. Enhanced sucked really bad. Their bass player was really scary and yeah.. i wanted to hit him over the head or something :-\. He made scary faces and i couldn't stop laughing. Yeah, i had nightmares :-\. Roy did good, i got his CD. I fell asleep listening to it. I cried. I sat by Elise a lot during the show. That was fun. She must have gotten a new journal, because i never see her posts :-\. I talked to Dan a lot at the show. That's always good. And yeah.. band practice sucked yesterday :-\. Everything has sucked lately.
Now the quizzes:
Yes, your depressed. You feel like you have no
life, and no one loves you. Chill, life will
get better. Or not... just die, it'll be
better...
Do You Have Depression?
brought to you by Quizilla
Okay, sounds like a plan.
You Are Sorrow
You think love is really wonderful but when u are
heart broken u think it is patheitic and full
of pity.
What word decribes your true feelings about love?
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Yeah, okay. Isn't that how... everyone feels?
Yeah i have a survey thing.. if anyone wants to fill it out.. please do.
You are really _____. You should _____. We need to go _____. After that we can _____. Remember that time we _____? That was real _____. Maybe tomorrow we can _____. You are my _____. I _____ you!
Signed your _____,
_____
P.S. _____.
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| Well maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me. |
[27 Feb 2004|04:20pm] |
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Well yeah, this song makes me cry. Hmm.. i guess what's new?....
Got some Mormon names, i thought i'd post them:
Chloe: Cashelle Josephinie
Julia: Julina Gerilyn
Will: Arville Georlin
Matt H: Davenport Shore Golden Noble
Drew C: Drewry Nickolie
Aimee A: Adrielle Allora LaLovi
Elise: D'Elise Yavonna
Sara Jo: D'Shara ElNora
Roy: Del Roy Kaiden Chipper
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Yeah.. i liked my name. :) cool. I gues we'll see what goes on tonight.
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| I miss the warmth of the summer. When we were on our own. But now it's winter, my bones are cold. |
[22 Feb 2004|09:46pm] |
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Taken from my website:
Yeah.. changed my layout. I have some new pictures too. So.. life is alright. Been single for 4 months now. Not really liking anyone. Kind of losing a lot in my life. A lot of friends, i'm realizing are major hypocrites; back-stabbers. I'm having trouble trusting people. Yeah, i don't know. I'm the only one who's going to be with me for the rest of my life. I just want summer to come. I just want to be around people i like. People who make me happy. School sucks. Everyone there is just so fucking immature. And as for myself. I'll keep my fucking mouth shut for the rest of the school year. Because by the end of this school year, everyone is going to wish i was dead.
Yeah.. hmm. Now the current update. I went to Aly's youth group today.. at her house. Matt went too. Christianity is very over-rated. Half of them are hypocrites. Going to church every sunday, and kissing God's ass does NOT make you Christian. If you want to be so fucking christian, then don't judge people. GAYS. If you say "well it's against god's plan" well then.. fuck you. Who the fuck are YOU to judge? Let God judge what he created. If God can forgive someone for taking a life, then he can forgive someone for liking the same sex. I'm done. Well yeah whatever.. i bet a lot of people are going to be offended, or get pissed off by my post.
"You fat corporate slob, you models in the catalog, you're filthy rich off making little girls hate themselves."
-BARNHOUSE
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| Heaven is waiting. |
[21 Feb 2004|03:06pm] |
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Yeah, went to the show at Kelsey's church last night. It was alright. Dead End NJ, The Sunshine State, and Jonesday were really the only bands i liked. So yeah... fun show. :-\
I was playing guitar not too long ago. Some Saves The Day. Wrote my first song for the "band" today.
Yeah.. hmm. I have to talk to Aimee about that. Today will probably be very uneventful. There's a show at Caffe Latte. No good bands though. DSR, FF, and BNF. Maybe i'd go to see FF.
Tomorrow i think i'm going to Aly's to hang out with Matt, Aly, and her youth group :-\. Matt will be the only cool one. haha. Well and Aly. We're supposed to watch a movie, but maybe us three can practice for our band. :) haha. Yeah anyway. adios.
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| She always wears blue. |
[15 Feb 2004|09:14pm] |
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Hey... Well today was pretty uneventful until... about 8:15. When Matt O'berski IMs me to tell me to meet him, Adam, Krista, and Brittany. Haha. So yeah.. That was.... weird. Anyway.. so i'm not planning on going to sled.. i'm going to just watch them sled and watch the stars. So i walk up there.. in the dark.. alone.. with hot cocoa in my hand.. Yeah so i walk up the hill and Matt and Adam are coming up the other side. They were like "who's that!" and i was like "It's Chloe you infernal 2 foot penis" and they were like "Chloe!" so yeah.. that was funny. then the girls get there and the party was totally ruined. anyway.. I was standing at the top of the hill watching the stars and Matt just slides by me face first on his sled.. grabs my legs, and i fall right on my assss. Ouchies!! It hurt! Then i left while Adam and that anorexic whore were making out at the bottom of the hill. I was hoping they'd like hit a big patch of ice and break their heads open.. but that failed.
I would have laughed. Oh yes i would have laughed. What would we do with me laughing? I don't know.. don't ask me.. i don't know. Maybe i'd grow up to be a serial rapist, or an ax murderer, or be in a heavy metal band. I don't know which would be worse..
Hahahaha. that was awessssssssssome. Doing some BarnHouse type of lyric .. yeah .. wow i rock. Yeah anywaay...... Later!
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| Why won't you believe me? |
[12 Feb 2004|09:50pm] |
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Bad week. Selfish people. Blah.. i'm done.
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| I like it just fine. |
[09 Feb 2004|07:39pm] |
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School was allright today. Boring as usual. I was in a really bad mood last night, really emotional. So i went to bed at like 10pm. As for Valentines Day, i wanted to spend it with this one guy, but i guess he's going away. Yeah, oh well. Spending Valentines Day alone isn't anything new for me. Hm.... anything else....
My shoulder really fucking hurts. Stupid shoulder. Panther Party on Wednesday. Yay..? Hm.... that'll be a waste of time.
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| Let's go back, back to the beginning. |
[06 Feb 2004|10:28pm] |
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Heeeeeey. Schooool was alllright. Took the MEAPS at 8:00am, left at 10:30am with Kelsey. Went to Taco Bell at 11:30, took some back to Mrs. Matson. Came back here with Kelsey, recorded some stuff on the computer. Was fun, except the fact that i about pissed my pants 4383247348327483284324 times. We had a good time, then she went home. I had pizza and talked online, fell asleep for like 15 minutes, it was weird... i wasn't really asleeep, but i wasn't awake. Then the phone rings and i'm thinking who the fuck is calling me, yeah.. Kelsey is. I answer the phone and we talk about some stuff that she was trying to tell me online.. i forgot to put up my away message so she probably thought i was dead or something. Anyway, then i talked to Aimee. Then i went to Target... got the Hilary Duff CD.... hmm. I hear "Come Clean" every morning while i'm laying in bed trying to get up. That music video is always on. I like that song, so i thought maybe i should just go and buy it. So i did. Yay.
I've been very paranoid, with the whole Adam deal. I don't know.... how i feel anymore, if he asked me back out, i would NOT say yes. Adam is doing shit that is digging his grave deeper and deeper each day. I don't know what to think... should i care? should i not? should i help him? should i let him go? He let me go, why should i not let him go? Because he let me go.. for a reason that i didn't realize until tonight. He let me go, because he knew it was the best thing to do. He knew i would eventually be happy again, and if he wouldn't have broken up with me, i would be extremely miserable. -Thanks-
Now i'm tired.... yeah i'll probably stay up a lot longer though. blah. good night.
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| They loved my friend adam, but he always got caught. Man that kid made fucking up look cool. |
[30 Jan 2004|08:11pm] |
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1. My name:
2. Where did we meet:
3. Take a stab at my middle name:
4. How long have you known me:
5. How well do you know me:
6. Do I smoke:
7. Do I believe in God:
8. When you first saw me, what was your impression:
9.My age:
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11. Hair color:
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13. Am I tall or short or average:
14. Do I have any siblings:
15. (opp. sex) Have you ever had a crush on me:
16. (same sex) Have you ever been jealous of me:
17. Who am I in love with:
18. What is one of my favorite things to do:
19. Do you remember one of the first things I said to you:
20. What`s your funniest memory of me:
21. What`s my favorite type of music:
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23. What is my worst feature:
24.Do you look up or down on me... as a person:
25. Do you think I have morals and values:
26. Am I a leader or a follower:
27. Am I shy or outgoing:
28. Can you picture me dancing:
29. Can you picture me rolling down a hill:
30. Would you say I am funny:
31. Am I a rebel or do I follow all the rules:
32. Do I have any special talents:
33. What's my best accomplishment:
34. Would you consider me a friend:
35. Would you call me preppy, slutty, a homie, average, sporty, punk, hippie,glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else:
36. Have you ever seen me cry:
37. If here was one good nickname for me, what would it be:
38. What is your favorite thing to do with me:
39. Would you ever make out with me:
40. Have I ever been there for you:
41. Am I fun to be with:
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45. Name one way I have changed your life or made an impact in it:
Stole that from Roy. Fill it out? :) please..
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| I know i am not the one. |
[29 Jan 2004|03:24pm] |
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( Converation ; pt. 3 )
Haha, i don't know why she doesn't just give up. What a dumbass. Yay for kicking major Hoe Ass.
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| I hope you get an STD and it burns like hell. |
[28 Jan 2004|05:40pm] |
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( Bitch conversation ; pt 2 )
HAHAHAHAH. Yeah, i DID leave ADAM for JULIA. Just kidding. I'm going to kill this Hoe. She's going down!!
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| I can't take this anymore.... |
[28 Jan 2004|12:05am] |
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( Makes Me Cry )
I don't know what's wrong with me. Why do i still like Adam? Because i'm perfect for him. I'm the best thing that has ever happened to him. I just don't know why i feel so sad wehn he did nothing but make me cry. I'm too fucking selfless. I need to get through this. I can't go back with him, It will ruin me. He has already ruined me. Please don't let me get myself into that again. Why do i miss him? Why do i think things will get better? I don't want to cry anymore. Someone needs to take this seriously and help me. I can't take this anymore....
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| I'm doing fine. |
[27 Jan 2004|04:56pm] |
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Yeah. Bitch. I kicked your ass. :) hahahaha. Yay for me. Nice she's already in crutches and a cast once i kick her ass, she'll be a DAMN GRAVE.
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