Date:	2003-05-11 15:13
Subject:	Neko!
Security:	Public
Mood:	lazy
Music:	Foxy Cleopatra - Hey Goldmember

After my previous post, there were a few suggestions for me to get a good mouser. A cat, or feline, if you will.

"What is this "cat" you speak of?"

Actually, we do have a cat. But technically it isn't ours... it just came along one day and hung around my house. Have I mentioned this before?

Anyway, my mom hates anything with more than 2 legs, and the cat was no exception... until she found dead rats lying around the yard. Since then, she loves the damn thing. Feeds it and everything. But lately, it hasn't been earning its keep and the rats are back in force. And I think I know why.

I think it's pregnant. Again. (The cat, not the rats...)

The last time it bore a litter, my dad put them in a box and abandoned them near a dumpster. I think they were all weaned... but still, it was pretty sad.

Oh well... just gotta wait till it relieves itself of its maternal load. Oh, and guess what it's name is.

The Cat. ^_^

"Mom!! Have you fed The Cat yet?

Date:	2003-05-10 20:15
Subject:	Damn rodents!
Security:	Public
Mood:	chipper
Music:	Kittie - Run Like Hell

I have rats in my ceiling. Annoying little buggers. Not that I've ever seen one of them... but they're there. I just know it.

How do I know, you ask?

Well, here's the thing. As if the incessant insufferable scrabbling sounds that come from the ceiling weren't enough to tell us that we need some industrial-strength rat poison, the little bastards have taken to chewing through my ceiling! And when I say my ceiling, I mean the one in my room. Oh no, they don't munch the ceiling in any other part of the house. Just my room.

They've been scuttling about up there for the longest damn time. One particular night I came home, and was about to sit at my work desk when I noticed what seemed like small pieces of cardboard. The ceiling kind. I look up, and what do you know... there's a small hole. So I clean it up the mess and forget about it.

Stupid rats...

The next night, I come home, and there are more chewed-up cardboard pieces on the ground and table. And the freakin' hole has grown to twice its size!!

My parents are pretty nonchalant about it. They suggested rat poison. Lots of it. At one point, my mom suggested just buying a kilogram of poison and just tossing the whole sack into the rafters.

I wonder if she was kidding...

Date:	2003-05-07 17:34
Subject:	Heat+fatigue+a sh!tload of coffee = PMS-like irritability.
Security:	Public
Mood:	bored
Music:	Final Fantasy VII OST - Sephiroth Evil Theme

Have you ever felt like you are surrounded by imbeciles? Like, every single person around you is a dumbass who you just wanna throttle or at least just bitch-slap?

I woke up this morning and went to school, same as I do every other school day. The only thing is that I was in a pretty irritable mood. Everyone around me suddenly seemed like an idiot. Everything they said annoyed me and I just wanted to tell 'em to shut up.

The thing is, this doesn't happen with my other friends. Like, my friends from church... I adore them and love being around them. I have incredible tolerance for them, and more often than not, whatever they do I usually just laugh at. These are the people my life revolves around.

It's just that with my friends from school, it's totally different. I guess it stems from the fact that I never really wanted to be in the school I'm in. I initially chose a better school, but there were no vacancies, so I settled for less. As such, I keep myself detached from the school, and pretty much everything else that goes with it. I guess that's why my school friendships suffer. I distance myself from them. It's like, when I'm not in school, I don't really think about them at all. They're strictly academic friends, you know? I can honestly say that when I leave that school, I'll probably never see those guys again.

And sadly enough, I doubt I'll care.

Date:	2003-05-05 23:28
Subject:	Work impossible.
Security:	Public
Mood:	drained
Music:	Mariah Carey - Through The Rain

More recently, things about my personality have changed. At home, I'm a different person. I'm nowhere near as joyous as I used to be. I've become more cynical... All in all, I have three different personalities. In school, at home, and amongst friends. Obviously the best is when I'm with friends. I'm at my best, happiest and most fun. At home, I'm kinda irritable, although sometimes my mood eases and I'm a little more sociable. In school, it's more like necessary sociability; I spend time with my friends, but they're not the ones I identify myself with, and as such, the friendships I have in school are subject to a stronger brand of cynicism and patronization.

It may seem conceited, but the fact remains that there is no one that I can carry out an intellectual conversation with, and if my patience span was shorter than it is, I probably wouldn't have many friends in the school I attend now. As it is, some people in school annoy me simply because they are inane and prone to bouts of racially-confined idiocy. Others are tolerable and are the kind of people you'd just look and smile at, in the same way I'm sure Americans smile at rednecks who don't know better.

I dunno... Friendships have always been a difficult affair for me. I remember growing up and being an extremely shy kid. Of course, if I claimed that now, people would laugh in my face.

"You? Shy???"

I used to keep to myself a lot. I was one of those kids that always cried when left at school by parents. As such, making friends was hard; I never had many friends growing up. And any that I had, I clung to for dear life simply because I needed conduits to the outside world. I needed people to help me brave the scary things that awaited me in the world of school and my prepubescent life. Perhaps that incessant need for friendship and validation has caused me to be what I am today. In some ways, I'm glad to be who I am. But sometimes I just don't want to be anymore. My life mentally drains my everyday, and it's so tiring.

It's about 11 pm as I type this. A few minutes earlier, I sat at my desk, trying to bring myself to begin writing a Sociology essay that was due today. Yet, I came to the conclusion that has brought me in front of this computer right now.

I cannot.

I am unable to sit down and just go through hours of mindless work. I hate it. Despise it. Loathe it. But I have to do it, for the sake of my future. Maybe it's just coz it's late, but somehow procrastination seems to be so easy...

My mind reels with the mental turmoil of a never-ending cycle; school has become tiresome, and I just want it to end. I want the exams to come and go and be over. And amidst it all, I want to do well.

All this is compounded by my inclination to separation anxiety and short bouts of mild depression. I am unable to be alone for too long; lack of human contact breaks my mood, and I'm a person that prides himself on being happy-go-lucky and perpetually cheerful. The thing is, I'm always happy coz I'm always around friends. And so, obviously when people see me, I've always got a smile. What they don't see is what happens when I go home... when I'm alone. Or rather, lonely. My family is great and all, but I've always felt greater empathy with my friends.

Not that I claim any trauma or abuse of any kind. I'm blessed with many friends and loved ones. But if only they knew what goes on behind the closed doors of my mind... very few people know of things I experience. Hell, if I wasn't so in love with life, I'd have committed suicide long ago. God knows that I feel I have ample reason to. But heck, I'd never do that to the people I love.

And besides, I've always believed that suicide is cowardice. If I were to kill myself, what would that say about me as a person? I would be someone who was too afraid to live life. I'd be a coward who doesn't want to face the hardships of this world and opted to take the "easy" way out.

Anyone who disagrees with me... Well, maybe you're more sad than I am.

Date:	2003-04-26 00:23
Subject:	La dee da...
Security:	Public
Mood:	okay
Music:	Sixpence None The Richer - Don't Dream It's Over

I noticed that the quality of my posts have degenerated from intuitive albeit opinionated posts to basic posts about how my life is going. Admittedly, they're significantly less interesting than they used to be, but only because I've realised that I have less to say than I did. Oh well, I hope to correct this oversight in time.

In the mean time, anyone who reads may like to know that my site is down for now. The server unexpectedly died, and one of my friends might host me later on. Not sure yet hehe.

Today I went to a memorial for my friend's grandmother. It got me thinking about Heaven.

What will it be like? Will there be houses and trees and gardens? Will there be animals that are tame and friendly? Will there be sunshine, or even rain?

The Bible says that there are roads of gold. If there are roads, what else is there? Will there be shops? And if there are, will we need to pay? Like, could we just run out into the road, pull out a piece of gold-mac, and pay with that?

Many things you gotta wonder about. Like, if a loved one dies and goes to Heaven, what will they look like to us when we get to Heaven? Will they be at the age we knew them to be when they died? In that case, how bout people who knew them to be a certain age?

So let's say a grandmother and her friend parted ways when they were both 20 years old. Now, if the friend and the grandmother die at a ripe old age and go to Heaven, will they see each other as 20-year-olds, or at the ages they died? For that matter, what about her grandchildren who knew her only as a sweet old lady? Will they also see her when she was 20?

I think perhaps in Heaven, everyone will each other in the ideal age they remember them. Like, if you knew your grandmother as a little old lady, that's how she will look. And someone else who knew her as a 20 year old would see her thus.

But then again, that seems kinda silly almost. There are too many discrepancies that come into it. We might not even have proper substantial bodies anyway. We could all be spirits or souls floating around.

On the other hand, if we don't have bodies that can feel and minds that experience emotion, what does that mean for the evil people who die and go to hell? Given that hell exists, isn't it true that people there would feel incredible pain, and regret for what they did in life? So if people in Hell can feel pain and regret their actions and experience mental torment, why not pleasure, joy, happiness and excitement in Heaven?

People also ask, "What would we do for fun in Heaven? I mean, eternity is a long time..."

True, but what makes you think we could even understand heavenly fun? I mean, our secular definitions of fun are entirely relative, i.e. what's fun for me could be totally boring or inane to you.

That said, let's just assume that we do become ethereal spirits. Perhaps when that happens, there are certain kinds of spiritual fun that one only comes to know when one attains a spiritual body after death. Like, maybe we'd all be playing "Jump-on-the-cloud-and-make-it-rain!"

But then again, that sounds stupid to me. See? There's no telling what spiritual beings do to have fun. Maybe our definitions of fun suddenly change when we die. And heck, why wouldn't they? If you were to die, I doubt video games would have much weight where you're going.

Speaking of which, I wonder if there are video games in Heaven... VR would so kick butt there. Except it'd be Reality. Or Virtual Heaven... I mean, Heaven.

Or something.

Date:	2003-04-21 16:17
Subject:	Separation anxiety.
Security:	Public
Mood:	blah
Music:	Evanescence - Bring Me To Life

At this very moment, I'm depressed. No one is replying my msgs, and I need to talk to my girlfriend. Only problem is that I'm afraid to call her house in case her mom picks up. The situation over there is unsure, since her sister doesn't really approve of our relationship, and wants us to call it off. She initially lied to her sister that she dumped me, but yesterday she revealed the truth to her sis. Needless to say, I'm worried. I wanna know what happened, but I don't wanna call and make things worse if things aren't all fine, you know?

I've been msging people here and there, but no one's replying. I msged my close friend, but he hasn't replied either. Tried calling him, but no answer. This sucks. I'm sitting here getting all paranoid and depressed.

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Right now, it's about half an hour after I wrote the above note. I just talked to an old friend, and she kinda helped my mood. I'm not exactly happy, but at least I'm not depressed anymore.

Think about this - I LOVE video games. My PS2 is one of my fave things in the world. So you can get an idea of how sh!tty I feel when I'm so depressed that my PS2 doesn't entertain me anymore. For crying out loud... I can play games for 10 hours straight and enjoy every second of it. And suddenly today I "don't feel like playing"?!

I need some Prozac.

Date:	2003-04-18 17:30
Subject:	Emotional revolution.
Security:	Public
Mood:	gloomy
Music:	The Vines - Get Free

My life revolves around the people I love. Or rather, my emotions do.

When someone I love feels down, it affects me as well. I tend to be able to empathize really well, even with people who aren't close friends. That's not to say that if a person is insane and pissed, I'll follow them around saying "I feel your pain, brother!!"

But the fact remains that I flex my compassionate muscle whenever I can. Fulfills a void or something.

But it works both ways. My friends have no idea of the amount of control they have in my life. A few simple actions can render me totally depressed, or rescue me from the pits of self-pity and make me totally happy. So you can imagine - one minute I'm all fun-fun-fun, and the next I've got a cloud over my head. Or one moment I'm in a mental coma devoid of joy, and the next I'm all happy-happy-smile-like-an-retard glad.

If my emotions were a line, there'd be valleys and peaks, with dark gloomy squiggles appearing from time to time, and happy bright yellow cartoon suns dotted about liberally.

Happy and sad. Those are my emotions, present in varying degrees. With a lil anger thrown in from time to time too.

Date:	2003-04-10 18:51
Subject:	Red is cute!
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm
Music:	Cinderella OST - So This Is Love

Today in class one of my friends blushed coz the teacher was joking about him and putting him on the spot. I just realised how cute he looked. ^_^

I also realised just how much I like it when people blush. I mean, I dunno why, but blushing has always intrigued me. To see someone get a rush of blood to their faces and turn scarlet is quite a sight, if only coz it's so rare. I don't know many people that blush easily.

You know, as the days and weeks go by, I find myself wondering... why are we so attached to certain people? I mean, what is it, really?

We meet someone we are attracted to, perhaps platonically or physically at first, and over the course of time and friendship development, we wake up one day and think, "Wait a minute... Am I in love? If not, why is it that I cannot stop thinking about [insert name here]? Why is it that when I'm apart from [insert name here], I feel so bad. I just want to talk to him/her about everything... ANYTHING! Oh God, why? WHY??"

*Ahem*

You get the idea. Love sucks so bad sometimes. It hurts you because you can't spend every waking moment with the person, and you always get paranoid because you don't know if he/she feels the same way. But you don't care. You know better. And the thing is, even though you feel so much pain because you love this guy/gal, you know the truth of why you keep loving that person.

It feels f*cking great.

Date:	2003-03-31 20:09
Subject:	So here's the thing...
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm
Music:	Natalie Cole - This Will Be An Everlasting Love

You know, I must've mentioned a friend of mine who I really treasure. And from time to time, our friendship hurt me coz I never knew if he treasured me the way I did him. Unrequited platonic brotherly love, it was. Actually, that sounds like a lot of friends that I mentioned before...

Anyway, in the past number of months, I've gotten to know him a lot better, and if you've read through my previous entries, you'll realize just how much being considered a brother to someone means to me. I don't know why that is. I mean, this guy is just a normal guy!

No, scratch that. He's not normal. He's one of the most likable people I know. That said, the more time I spend with him, the more I love him. Brotherly love is kinda weird sometimes.

His name is Boywin, by the way. He has become one of my best friends and like a brother... I'd say almost closer than a brother.

I think my first son's middle name will be Boywin. Stephen Boywin Keasberry.

Oh, Stephen is another friend of mine that has touched my life in a significant way. A mentor of sorts.

Date:	2003-03-25 16:34
Subject:	Grr...
Security:	Public
Mood:	annoyed
Music:	Utada Hikaru - Colors

I just had a conversation with my friend. And you know what? I'm annoyed, almost to the point of being pissed.

Why, you ask?

Well, my friend has this problem with a friend. And he says that he's finding it hard to forgive this person coz the person will not apologize and continues to wrong him. But then my friend tells me that he hasn't exactly told this person about how he feels.

Now correct me if I'm wrong, but the way to remedy that is to just tell the person what's going on, right?

But my friend says he doesn't want to. He says this problem only matters to him and not his friend. Well, seriously, how can he know if it matters to his friend unless he tells his friend what the hell is going on??

And he also says that the only way to stop being hurt is to stop caring. Well sh!t, if that isn't the stupidest thing I've ever heard in my entire life, then I don't know what is!

I obviously believe in the advantages of communication, and for someone to say that they don't want to talk about something when they clearly should is just stupid.

Date:	2003-03-20 19:11
Subject:	La dee da...
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm
Music:	Ronnie and Debra Laws - Very Special

My previous theological entry was done purely for the sake of intellectualism. Thinking about it now, it really has no real bearing on my faith. It's not significant in that it won't turn me into an agnostic or an atheist. They are just philosophical theories, nothing that can ever really be proven, at least not in this world. I trust that God will reveal all in due time.

I'm gonna go to LIFE cell in a little while. Our material has kinda shrunk in content - each lesson is really short. Our previous stuff was quite substantial and detailed, and very easily brought us to approximately 2 hours of discussion time each meeting. The 1st lesson of this new material was last week, and the material itself could've easily been done within half an hour.

But we took 2.

But then again, that shouldn't be surprising given our group's penchant for tangent pursuit. Whenever we handle a question about the Bible or anything to do with God, we always discuss the theories and the hypotheses that are on our minds, and we follow the trains of thought till the tracks run out and we find ourselves trying to backtrack to our original question.

I have no idea why that happens, but hey, who's complaining?

Date:	2003-03-09 18:33
Subject:	Good Sunday!
Security:	Public
Mood:	accomplished
Music:	Mariah Carey - Do You Think Of Me

You know, something funny happened yesterday. I was having worship practice with my youth group, and the pianist was having problems with a chord or two. Two other pianists came up to help her, but they couldn't figure it out. So I just waltzed on over, pressed a few keys and solved their problem. Funny thing is, I've never played the piano in my life.

Anyway, today was fun for me. I was told to handle a foundation class in church this morning, and I have to admit that I had qualms about it. Actually, my exact words were, "This sucks!"

But as I found out, it wasn't as bad as all that. The kids were quite intelligent and they were fun to be around. 2 in particular, a boy and a girl, were cool, if only because we found out that we have something in common - video games. We talked up a storm, so much so that we drowned out everyone else! So yeah, it was fun.

In church, the deacon's daughter was being her usual irresistbale self. She's just a toddler by the way. But she's just so damn adorable! She's the most temperamental baby I know... but sitting there watching her examine a little book as if it was the most wondrous and interesting thing in the world made me feel like I wanna be a daddy.

I can't imagine what it'll be like to be a father... to watch my own child(ren) come into the world and to know the joy and pride that comes with these little miracles of creation.

I can't imagine... and I can't wait.

Date:	2003-03-07 01:05
Subject:	Theological thought.
Security:	Public
Mood:	contemplative
Music:	Ronan Keating & Jeanette Biedermann - We've Got Tonight

I've been reading a number of treatises by one St. Thomas Aquinas over the past week or so. I must admit that although at times the sheer complexity of his syntax is overwhelming, his works are extremely intriguing, and have been significant eye-openers for me personally, simply because they are based very heavily in logic and make an incredible amount of sense.

Now, the things you will read are pretty much entirely logical, at least to my mind. You may refuse to accept the things I state below, but hey, if you pride yourself on being an intellectual, you won't be able to argue with logic. Unless of course you have divine guidance and revelation to the contrary of what you're about to read. Anyone who disagrees strongly enough is free to e-mail me and talk about it.

Without further ado, here are my thoughts, based on the treatises of St. Thomas Aquinas:


1) Can God do everything? Is He Omnipotent?

This would have to be considered following a number of factors.

First of all, what is omnipotence?

The layman conception of omnipotence is the ability to do absolutely EVERYTHING and ANYTHING. This is illogical. To say that God is omnipotent (according to the layman definition) is false.

Take for example the statement: "A man is a donkey". This is absurd simply because it is impossible, not like raising the dead is 'impossible' (because God can do it) but impossible absolutely, i.e. it is not in the realm of possibility - it is nonsensical.

Although God cannot make the statement "A man is a donkey" true, (because it is nonsense and is thus impossible absolutely), He can turn a man into a donkey because it is within the realm of possibility (A donkey can exist). Turning a man into a donkey is impossible only by our abilities, but not impossible absolutely, and thus possible for God. Hence, whatever can have the possibility of being is possible for God, i.e. whatever can be done, God can do.

If something is impossible absolutely, God cannot do it, not because of any defect in the power of God, but because it does not possess the nature of a feasible or possible thing. Therefore, whatever implies contradiction does not come within the scope of divine omnipotence because it cannot have the aspect of possibility. So, it is more sensible to say that such things cannot be done, rather than to say God can't do them.


2) Can God make the past not to have been?

As above, this does not fall under the scope of God's omnipotence because it implies a contradiction. For example, to say that Socrates sat down and did not sit down is a contradiction, pure and simple.

Someone who says, "If God is almighty, let Him make what is done as if it were not done" is effectively saying, "If God is almight, let Him make that which is true, by the very fact that it is true, false." To say that something that was done wasn't done is a contradiction. Thus it is more impossible than, say, raising the dead, which is only impossible by our standards but not by God's.

Basically, God can do all things, yet some things are not subject to His power simply because they fall short of being possible, and have gone into the realm of absolute impossibility; i.e. some things which at one time were possible before they were done, now fall short of the nature of possibility when they have been done. Thus, God cannot do them because they themselves cannot be done.

For example, if God were to turn a man into a donkey, He could wipe the minds of all witnesses and let everyone think that the man had always been a donkey. But the TRUTH would always be there, i.e. that the donkey had once been a man; God cannot make it false. But, say He left one witness who knew of the donkey's original existence. The witness would tell everyone the truth, and everyone would think his claims false. Even by making us believe it to be false, God would not be able to change the inherent truth of the man's true previous nature. That truth in itself cannot be altered.

Take for another example a woman that loses her virginity in sinful sexual desire. Can God make it so she did not sin?

No, because it is the past, and to make it undone is impossible absolutely. He can remove all corruption of mind and body from her, but the FACT that she did sin cannot be removed, in the same way that the fact of having sinned thereby cannot be removed from the sinner.


3) Can God sin?

No, because sin implies rebellion against God, and God cannot deny Himself.

However, evil may be done accidentally so far as it accompanies good. For when a lion kills a stag, his objective is food, but it comes with the killing of the animal. Similarly, the fornicator intends the pleasure, which is joined to the deformity of sin.

The evil that accompanies one good is the violation and privation of another. So, God in no way wills the evils of sin but He can commit the act of "evil" within the boundaries of a greater good, such as justice through, or in the form of, punishment, or preservation of natural order in the natural corruption of some things.

Thus, God CANNOT sin, but he can commit "evil" that works toward good.

*Phew*

Date:	2003-02-23 08:15
Subject:	Annoying church people...
Security:	Public
Mood:	annoyed
Music:	Sean Mullins - Lullaby

Being very involved in church, there are a number of responsibilities I have, and being an example is one of them. But sometimes this annoys me, because there are a number of people in the congregation (adults, I'm guessing), that feel that they are the authority on rules. Not that I'm putting them down; I just believe that many things are relative and I'm just wondering what makes them the authority on whatever they criticize?

I mention this because, like I said, my crush recently agreed to be my giirlfriend. And yesterday, my youth leader took me aside and said that there are some people in church that are "concerned" aboout physical intimacy issues. Now, he didn't single me out exactly - there are 4 couples in my youth group right now, and he's gonna talk to all of us.

But honestly? I don't really give a crap what the church people think about my relationship with my gal. For one thing, we both have already agreed to take it really slow to be safe. Any slower and we'd effectively be just friends! Besides, I'm 20 years old! 21 in December! I think that pretty much what I do, I'm allowed to, and is my and her business alone. Not that I'd do anything (She's 16...), but hey, I think I know how to control myself.

It just annoys me that some people can be so judgmental, you know? I mean, I suppose there are good intentions and all, but it still annoys me.

Date:	2003-02-12 00:43
Subject:	PS2 and a gal.
Security:	Public
Mood:	groggy
Music:	Jackie Wilson - Baby Work Out

My crush just said yes, and now we're an item! I'm ecstatic. I love that girl! Right now the only thing I'm afraid of is that we'll run out of things to talk about. I'm almost afraid to call her coz I don't want to end up quiet on the phone. But she's being great about it and says it's ok if I don't always call her.

I also got her a Valentine's Day gift. It's a small Tatty Teddy sitting on a big heart holding a tiny rose hee hee! She loves those cute little bears, and heck, I do too. I have a weakness for cute stuffed toys.

AND I bought a PS2 a few days ago. I've got 25 games, and I have no idea where to start. Kingdom Hearts, Final Fantasy X, Shinobi, Devil May Cry 1 & 2, Onimusha 1 & 2, Dual Hearts, Metal Gear Solid 2, just to name a few. Hmm...

Decisions, decisions.

Date:	2003-02-07 19:34
Subject:	W00t!!
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful
Music:	Stereophonics - Don't Let Me Down

I wanna get a Playstation2!! And by hook or by crook, I'm getting one this year. I've got some cash saved, and I've waited too long, missing all the incredible games, hearing from everyone how great they are. Heck, everytime I read about games in one of my friend's PSMs, I feel funny in my pants. My gamer's heart is dying, and I need a PS2 defibrillator!

Date:	2003-02-05 14:45
Subject:	History-onics.
Security:	Public
Mood:	chipper
Music:	Tom Jones & The Stereophonics - Mama Told Me Not To Come

I spend a lot of time this morning studying for a History test. Studying which, given my lack of good time management, I failed to complete last night. As it happened, all the studying paid off - I was writing up a storm just now.

I'd almost forgotten the thrill that comes to knowing the answer to a tough question. There I was, scribbling away for all I was worth, and all the while the guy next to me sat with his head in his hands.

Oh well.

Date:	2003-02-04 17:25
Subject:	Endangered soup.
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful
Music:	Sandy Lam - At Least I Still Have You

I just had a bowl of sharksfin soup. Utterly heavenly dish, if cooked well.

But it brings to mind all those animal rights activists bitching about how the shark is steadily being killed off, simply for its fins. It's not that I don't care about animals. Well, actually I hate sharks, simply coz a shark can eat me. So I retaliate!

I eat the shark hee hee!

But seriously, though... it's a worrying thing. I mean, everyone knows how the Chinese feel about sharksfin soup. It's a tradition for weddings and any other big occasion. But I bet that at the rate we're going, the sharks don't stand a chance.

And no more sharks, no more soup.

Uh-oh.

Date:	2003-02-04 16:18
Subject:	Busy, busy...
Security:	Public
Mood:	bored
Music:	Tracy Bonham - Mother Mother

I was planning on updating my comic today, but things are as hectic as they are every Tuesday. Sure, you may be thinking, "He's so freakin' busy, but he can still post in his journal??"

Well, yeah. Posting here takes me only a minute fraction of the time it takes to rustle up the idea for a strip, make it and complete it dialogue and all, and modify the page and then post it. I may just do it tomorrow. I hope I'm not too tired...

Anyhoo, tonight there's a meeting in church, but my mom's getting annoyed coz there's also a dinner at my aunt's house. Now if given a choice, I'd normally pick the meeting, simply coz I feel it's a better use of my time. Besides, I like the crowd there better. I dunno why my mom is such a stickler about me going to church a lot... Besides, I'm sure I'll be home in time to go to the dinner.

Parents. They don't make sense sometimes. Especially my mom.

Date:	2003-01-29 20:51
Subject:	Hee hee!
Security:	Public
Mood:	grateful
Music:	Rurouni Kenshin - Departure

I love my friends. Whenever you're down or in pain, a friend listening is just all you need sometimes, you know? I'm feeling so much better coz I just talked with some friends online, and went for a ride with my cousin. Happy happy joy joy!

See? I told you I was an emotional see-saw! ^_^