| distance makes the heart grow fonder |
[04 Aug 2007|04:31pm] |
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Oh my dear Blurty,.. how I ignore thee and have left thee to waist away.
Do not feel bad, I have not replace thee,... yet....
Oh alright, you see right through me,... I am contemplating starting a new blog.
A blog that will consentrait on my love of design and art...
No more details of the daily routine or tales of love lost and won.
A new day is on the horizon my dear friend.
How you have served me and supported me through the years,...
You will always have a place in my heart.
<3 <3 <3 <3
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| super-stars love me! |
[17 Sep 2004|12:10am] |
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These are so funny!
Only if the picnic involves me as the main course! *Puuuur*
Also very funny..... Jessica Sarah Parker, pot, talking about her and a tickel fight!
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| destroyer |
[13 Aug 2004|11:20am] |
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Sometimes we make mistakes and some of them are bigger than others. For some reason I make a point of destroying the object of my affection. Tearing it to shreds and thinking it’s ok….that’s not true, I don’t think it’s ok and I know what I’m doing is wrong but I do it anyhow. I don’t trust and I don’t believe. I let my own insecurities and issues get in the way and I use them to fuel the wrath I lay on others. I need serious help.
I don’t deserve to be happy. I can’t make another person happy, so why should I expect it from anyone else? My heart is an empty shell and I fooled myself into thinking I could love. Because I was reckless with myself I have to pay. I have to pay for thinking I could find happiness. I’m like a little kid who wanted a puppy and complained and threw a fit until I got one, then because I’m a brat I neglect it and let it starve to death. I see what I’m doing but don’t care, then I feel bad inside but have destroyed it so I can’t reverse the damage.
I’m destined to be alone and never have anyone love me. It’s probably for the best seeing as how I will just end up making that person hate my guts and never want to talk to me again. Plus there is the whole business of me being completely repulsive to the male species. No matter what I do I can’t get a man to love me or even be attracted to me,….let alone a man I really want.
I hope I die soon, this everlasting pain is really too much.
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| yeah it's true |
[06 Jul 2004|05:16pm] |
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yesterday was some much needed disneyland.
everytime i go with my man i have the best time ever!
highlights:
giant corn dogs, friends, funny faces @ splash mountain, patrick the missing billy-goat, haunted mansion x2, pirates *throw me a roll*, lemonade freeze, the enchanted tiki room, jungle boat cruise, "squirt" my new turttle, shag litho, fireworks w/my love and sherbert ice cream in a hot waffle cone!
i'm still in a disneyland coma!
today i was doing pilates and pulled something in my upper leg = pain.
so besides that and a slight tummy ache things are good.
this show looks really cool and gross at the same time, it is preserved dead bodies. the body parts are preserved by injecting plastic into them... and are displayed in action poses and what not. creepiness i would like to see. http://www.californiasciencecenter.org/Exhibits/Weingart/Weingart.php
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| cuppy-cake |
[01 Jul 2004|06:56pm] |
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going campin' @ the beach this weekend, leave tomorrow,.. woo-hoo.
made cup cakes for the trip, hope they don't taste like shit.
i'm really f'in' excited about this weekend....... yay!
My life is rated NC-17.
What is your life rated?
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| shuffle my deck |
[28 Jun 2004|01:04pm] |
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stayed home from work today,... feeling blah.
weekend bad & good, a little more of the first unfortunately.
saw fahrenheit 9/11 friday, interesting, sad and frustrating movie.
damn you Bush and your evil empire.
spent the rest of the weekend bleeding and being a grumpy bitch-face.
sunday hung out with the boy, and some friends,.. that was nice.
had to come home last night, much drama.
today i think i will make art and pretend my life is something other than what it is.
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| drinky-drinky |
[24 Jun 2004|05:59pm] |
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| How to make a cherryrobot |
Ingredients:
3 parts intelligence
3 parts humour
1 part ego |
Method:
Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Add a little wisdom if desired! |
Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com
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| piece of.... |
[23 Jun 2004|11:58pm] |
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I was looking at the amount of journal posts on the most updated journals here on blurty,.. and it's like who the hell has that much time,.. seriously?
In any case my life just keeps on getting better and better. Today I got to see my man, who gave me much needed man-meat, ice cream and chocolate + movie and good kisses. Also got my art put on a borchure for school, the photo looks AMAZING! Woohoo for another portfolio piece.
I swear i'm in heaven right now.
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| butter my toast |
[22 Jun 2004|03:36pm] |
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Modest Mouse_Float On |
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my social life is still alive,.. i swear I thought I had let it die completly. my social life is like a much neglected plant, i haven't watered it, given it sun or talked to it in forever. but this little trooper is still alive and back with a vengence. i've been making so many plans and wanting to go and do everything. it's so nice to have multiple plans for the next couple of weeks, not just school and work filling up my calander.
i really am so happy right now, i have soical time, i'm sooo in love, the sun is out and the weather is good. these are the best times for me, i feel happy and so creative, YAY ME!
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| so in love |
[21 Jun 2004|12:09pm] |
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I'm falling in love all over again with my boyfriend.
I have that continually giddiness everytime I see him or talk to him.
I always want to be with him.
Kissing him has become one of the best things in the world again.
The sex is awesome and I'm always craving it.
Everytime we part, I realy don't want to go and I can't wait to make plans to see him again.
I'm obsessed, but it's a good thing.
Maybe, it's just my fairly good mood today, but I feel like things will be getting back on track. That I'm so in love with him, no one and nothing can come between us right now.
Maybe in the future we will have to make some major decisions that could affect our relationship,... but for now, I feel content and happy about our relationship, and I want it to continue to get better and stronger.
I'm just so happy that I feel totally in love again, and it's with juan.
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| a-rink-a-dink-dink |
[16 Jun 2004|12:35am] |
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i love being clean, lotioned & powdered up; having freshly washed/toasty warm sheets; and being able to bed down inside them for the night...... and that's exactly what i'm gonna go do!
goodnight moon
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| tears to my eyes |
[07 Jun 2004|12:39am] |
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According to "Star Estimator" http://gabitus.com/eng/analogia/
I look like Gisele Bundchen, Gina Gershon and Debra Messing.
What-the-hell-ever *laughs ass off*
Even funnier was the pict i used for my man, said he looked like
Richard Dreyfuss (young), Stanley Tucci and Erik Palladino!
The best part is he looks like the Stanley Tucci picture, just not bald!
Good Times!
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| do-da-do-da |
[04 Jun 2004|10:48pm] |
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my painting final went very, very well! *yay me*
also i'm sooooo in love w/my most recent painting~!
in class though all my usual guy pals were all clingy and touchy-like.
it was freaky, 5 diff. guys were hugging me and giving me massages,
and saying things like I love you and you are so cuddley, I was like what the Fu...?
it was nice to get a little attention and i can't remember the last time i was hugged,
stilllllllll.......... i hadn't even showered,.. ewww.
i think it's my nanni,.. she's sending out signals... bad kitty.
anyhow my man's comes home soon,... miss him SO DAMN MUCH!
i found this new artist, Besty Davis,... oh my goodness she is sooo freakin' awesome!
she makes these rockin' abstract vagina sculptures,.. i want one sooo bad!
you can see her art here,.. click on the hearts!
http://www.queenofplastics.com/bdpage.html
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| f 'in' awesome |
[31 May 2004|07:34pm] |
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"My ex wife said I was an open book and I said ‘Fuck that Carol,
I'm an open beer' and that's when I decided to get a beer can ring pull
tattooed to my head. Of course, I was pretty shitfaced at the time."
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| big hands |
[31 May 2004|07:12pm] |
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"... i whish i were in tijuana, eating bar-be-qued iguana..."
i love that song "mexican radio"
been studying all day, and when it comes to school, i'm so over it.
i still have finals, but honestly i'm done with it all.
need to get the hell out of there.
my man comes back in a week or something like that.
i get paid this friday,... who-rah!
got a dmv appointment next week.... still need glasses.
back to studying,.... blech
*note to self,... mac & cheese tastes gross with apple juice
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[30 May 2004|02:58pm] |
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my life is boring as hell.
i need a car, money and some interesting friends.
have no friends, car or money,... problem.
gonna go do pilates to get my mind of my crap.
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| i <3 hair bands |
[29 May 2004|12:33pm] |
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wow where to begin....
my dads work partner got a brick thrown though his windshield last night.
it broke his jaw and now he's in the hospital having surgery.
all the cops are pissed off and are investigating if it's ALF.
i hate ALF they can kiss my ass mofo's.
my little kittens have taken to spraying one another when they fight.
they piss on eachother and walk around smelling, how dirty.
my right leg is asleep.
i think i'm gonna have a mini shopping spree at oldnavy.
last night i made the most awesome chicken EVER.
saw Triplets of Belleview,.... the bomb.
my newest painting is turining out suppa good.
i think i'm gonna go find breakfast now.
ciao
| C | Colorful | | H | Helpful | | E | Excellent | | R | Refreshing | | R | Realistic | | Y | Yum | | R | Rare | | O | Orderly | | B | Bubbly | | O | Overwhelming | | T | Tough |
Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com
Funny although i don't know about the realistic and orderly part.....
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| i <3 hair bands |
[29 May 2004|12:20pm] |
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wow where to begin....
my dads work partner got a brick thrown though his windshield last night.
it broke his jaw and now he's in the hospital having surgery.
all the cops are pissed off and are investigating if it's ALF.
i hate ALF they can kiss my ass mofo's.
my little kittens have taken to spraying one another when they fight.
they piss on eachother and walk around smelling, how dirty.
my right leg is asleep.
i think i'm gonna have a mini shopping spree at oldnavy.
last night i made the most awesome chicken EVER.
saw Triplets of Belleview,.... the bomb.
my newest painting is turining out suppa good.
i think i'm gonna go find breakfast now.
ciao
| C | Colorful | | H | Helpful | | E | Excellent | | R | Refreshing | | R | Realistic | | Y | Yum | | R | Rare | | O | Orderly | | B | Bubbly | | O | Overwhelming | | T | Tough |
Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com
Funny although i don't know about the realistic and orderly part.....
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| fo real |
[26 May 2004|12:06am] |
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Abba_Lay All Your Love |
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Today I took my installation down and brought it home.
Set one of my nests on the ground and my cat promptly took a piss in it.
What a little crap-face. Luckily it was covered and didn't leak. Still...
On the plus side I lost 6 pounds this past week.
It's not that much I know but it's still enough to make me feel better.
Plus Im still all puffy and I only worked out twice during the week.
Today I ran three miles, which is good cardio for me.
In any case today was a good day!
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| swingin' snappin' drinkin' |
[23 May 2004|06:39pm] |
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just ate toooo much kabob,.. it was so good, but now i'm so full.
i love persian food,.. chicken kabob and radishes w/tomato....yum!
going to go lay on my bed like a beached whale and do homework.
*flop*
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