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Sunday, July 18th, 2004
8:40 pm - Color-Ado!
Yes! We leave for Colorado tomorrow morning at 6 AM. I am so excited. Brian and I went to Wal-mart to buy a bunch of junk food for the road. I can't wait!
I cut my hair today. About 2 inches. It's still hella long though. It looks really good, so I was happy when I was finished.
Many months ago, before I had a job, I signed up for this babysitters thing online. Well, I had forgotten totally about it until a couple weeks ago, this really nice lady calls and wants me to watch her 1 year old daughter. She has a 7 year old son too but hes on vacation with his grandparents. Well, I was so psyched and I babysat for them for the first time last night. Unfortunately, Janna(the baby) was asleep, (unfortunate because if youve ever met me, I LOVE babies) but I got to play with their dog, who has yet to be named. He's a terrier/schnauzer and they got him at a shelter. He jumped on my lap while I played with their TiVo(total crap I might add). So I ordered pizza and had myself a great old time, haha. Hopefully next time, Janna will be up so I can play with her.
I have decided that packing totally SUCKS. I mean, do I pack my hair stuff before or after I'm ready to leave, because obviously, to get ready to leave, I'm just gonna have to unpack it to use the stuff, but if I don't pack it while I'm thinking about it, I might forget it so I get totally stressed out trying to figure out what to pack before and after and it always ends up the same way-pack it before...like I said...packing just SUCKS.
So now I'm at Brian's and we're just gonna stay up all night because I won't be able to sleep since I'm so excited for tomorrow. Brian and I are probably sharing a room with his 13 year old brother, Kevin. Unless Kevin decides to sleep on a cot, which is actually likely.
So I gotta go for now. I might get on again later tonight.

You Know You Love Me,
Molly

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Wednesday, July 14th, 2004
10:36 pm - Me Again
I haven't written in a while. I was becoming somewhat of a workaholic. It wasn't that I even liked working...it was just that I got scheduled for more hours than I should have been. Which will be fine because I need the money for Washington. :D
I'm going to Colorado on Monday...Just a LITTLE bit closer to Washington, so it will feel nice. Not to mention that it will not be half as fucking hot there as it is here. I mean, don't get me wrong, I love being able to go to outdoor pools (lol) but it's like I go to get into the car and it's llike HOLY SHIT! lol. PLUS, Brian's car has leather seats and when I'm wearing a halter top, it likes to burn the crap outta me. Gurrrr!
Peanut has gotten to his full size I think. Still pretty shrimpy though. He needs a haircut cus he can barely see through his little eyebrow hairs.
Josh is good but he has been so mean lately. I don't know why he is so mad, but something is wrong. It gets to the point where I just wanna say "screw it" and leave. I love him more than anyone but it's hard to love someone when theyre yelling at you. Omg, he said the cutest thing the other day. My mom had just bought this really lime green shirt and she was wearing it with this black skirt and she had done her hair and everything cus she had an appointment and Josh comes up and goes, "oh, mom, you look really cute!" We just about died! Then we went to Brian's house and Josh wanted to watch a Pokemon video. Well, I settle him upstairs in the living room with popcorn and soda and he comes down about 10 minutes later and goes "Golgy, I don't want to watch that movie anymore. That movies WIERD." THANK GOD HE DOESNT LIKE IT! I knew he was smart. haha.
Brian and I are working on getting the movie done for everyone. We're putting them on DVDS. I think I might just wait until I come up there to give them to everyone because it's only gonna be like a 2 week difference.
Oh yea! Sam left!!! She went to Alabama to stay with her mom. I have to admit that it's been nice. So now we're in the process of switching rooms but first, we have to clean up her shithole which could take like, a year, or something. I swear, there is a pile of shit thats like 3 feet high. I might start going in there on my days off and trying to clean it up. It sounds scary but I need my own room!
Well, gotta go for now. Ill write back if anything good happens

current mood: satisfied

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Monday, May 17th, 2004
11:54 am
Hey, it's me again. I have to go get my nails done today, go see this counselor, and then go to work. I work until 10:30 which sucks, but oh well. I have been feeling really nauseous lately. I haven't puked or anything but it feels like I'm going to. Yesterday I went to the store to pick up a pregnancy test but they didn't have any so I just didn't bother. I don't think I am, but I wanna be sure. I doubt it though.
Well, I gotta go get ready. Bye!

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Saturday, May 15th, 2004
9:24 pm - Hola
Yesterday I got my first paycheck. It was cool. I have about 85 saved for my Washington trip so hopefully I'm able to go up there soon. I went to Wal-Mart today and got some boring essentials: tanning lotion, etc.
I'm at Brian's now. The relationship has been getting a little rough for reasons I won't say but we're gonna get through it I think. I love him a lot.

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Wednesday, May 12th, 2004
9:34 am
Josh had his surgery today. I feel so bad for the little kid. My anxiety has gone threw the roof lately. I am starting counseling on Monday but I hate having to wait. The hard part is that I don't know what's causing the anxiety. It's not like I have a huge fear of spiders so that makes me anxious. It's like I'm anxious for no reason. I think when I moved it made my anxiety worse. Also when I started having sex and then got on birth control...the hormones from it aren't helping. I feel like I'm going out of my mind. It's driving me crazy and I'm to the point where I will almost do anything to make it go away. The other night it was to the point where I was just like "God take me now cus this is no way to live" and its true. I mean, I'm not gonna go kill myself...that would just be letting my anxiety win. And it won't! Cus I won't let it. I guess well see if counseling helps.

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Tuesday, May 11th, 2004
3:08 pm - New Policy
I have a new policy to be nice and not to talk about anyone behind their back. Of course, that is except this journal. This journal doesn't count :P

current mood: sick
current music: I'm Never Letting Go by Rebecca St. James

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3:08 pm - New Policy
I have a new policy to be nice and not to talk about anyone behind their back. Of course, that is except this journal. This journal doesn't count :P

current mood: sick
current music: I'm Never Letting Go by Rebecca St. James

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3:01 pm
I feel so bad for my brother. I know all too well what it's like to date a moron and have them screw you over. i can't find many reasons to go home right now. Well, there are the main reasons but there seems to be so much conflict up there that it would be nuts if I went up there. But I really do wanna go. Oh well, that's a few months away anyway.
Work is going good. I've got the register down and I can do checks and credit card transactions. I've signed 2 people up for charge cards with Kohl's and got a signature for an email so it's been cool. Everyone I work with is really nice. It's so much better than Chuck E. Cheese's. I have a lot of independence. I just come in, swipe my card, put my stuff in my locker, and then go to work. There isn't anyone checking up on me and that feels good. I finally got my locker combo figured out. Thank God!
Peanut got groomed today and he looks cute as a button. I just love it. I'm adding his pic to my msn group, for those of you who are members of it. W
Well, I gotta go now. Bye

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Monday, May 10th, 2004
3:15 am - Just Me
So today, I wrote Tart back and finally blocked her. It doesn't seem like she wants our friendship to work out anyway. If I told you all the shit she's done to me, you would be like AH! I dont know what to do. I think I'm destined to live in Texas forever, and right about now, that doesn't sound so bad. We have great weather down here and none of my friends talk shit about me. And there aren't any rumors that I'm pregnant (Which I'm NOT). I really don't think that anyone would care much if I did stay here. I mean, I miss my Dad and my brother but theyll live...Not to mention that Brians family is down here and I would miss his mom. Hm, I might not even go up this Summer to Washington. It's just gonna be one bitch fight after another and I don't want or need that. Maybe I brought this all upon myself, but personally, I don't think I'm a bitch. lol. I mean, I am a nice person, generally, if people are nice to me and my FAMILY. Besides my occasional slip, which I always apologize for. Anyway, it seems like my life is falling apart and I don't know what to do...

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