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Blurty for This is the Story of a Girl.
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| Thursday, June 2nd, 2005 |
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i was reading past entries from my journal, and i ran across this comment...something about somebody thought that i had a eating disorder... and they offered me help from this community..well i was kinda mad about this comment, because i was writing about ED..the kid i used to like...not an eating disorder...so i kinda went off saying that im not crazy and all this shit. im sorry if i offended anybody with an eating disorder. i never meant to offend anybody..i was just really upset..and i guess to me it was totally obvious that i was writing about the kid i liked, and how i missed him...not that i missed not having an eating disorder. so sorry to anybody out there..especially those who commented about this in my journal, and just to let you know that im not just saying this...but i think that lately i have developed some kind of eating disorder. i've had a lot of stress in my life lately, and i think this is the only way that i can dig myself out of it. so...my sincere apologies go out to all of you...may you get help...and stay healthy! i guess this is all for tonight. im trying to update a lot more...i just seem to never have anything to write about..if you know what i mean. my life is boring... and very sad... |
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so you think i could update a little more often? haha, so life is okay i guess. it doesnt get any better than this...or maybe it does. but for me..life couldnt get any better..only shittier. hmm, so i graduated high school. no surprise there...quick little question..how does one go through life not graduating from high school? its not that bad...i just whizzed right through it..actually i graduated a year early, but i wanted to walk with my class...and im actually not that smart. so...the graduated life is great. i sleep everyday until like 11 or noon...get up eat..get ready for work...work for about 4 hours...come home...eat...and do stupid shit. what a great life huh? staying up late again..its awesome! so....hows it goin? side tracked... i dont have much to say... you would think that i would have tons to say...but i dont. hmm. k, i know that this sounds weird..but i havent had a period in like over a month! and there is no way in hell i can be pregnant...unless i impregnated myself and im pregnant with baby jesus. haha. but no really. weird. does stress cause this? hmm. me dunno. im bloody tired... so...wow, has my life changed since i last wrote...well nate went to hell!! i actually ran into him at wal-mart about 3-4 months ago. he was with some fat chick...i just about shit myself. then the prick gave me a dirty look and started laughing. i was like...DICK! hes just mad cause he couldnt get with me...haha...haha...gross.nate.blah. hmm...no boys in my life...ross...hmm...well, lets just say hes dumb...and its over! one thing i've learned...never do "something" with a guy who thinks this "something" is cool, just to get him to like you. cause trust me... it didnt work...and he fell for the h*k delli slut! f*ck you christina fulmer! can you believe that this stupid bitch thought that i was jealous of her? yeah, im jealous of a blonde whore, who likes the sound of her own voice, and talks out of her ass! haha. "so i fucked ross, then i fucked david, (then i fucked my dad) and now i dont know which one i like more"...oh gawd. so...i guess that is about all i have to say tonight...so uh...goodnight..... |
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| Thursday, August 5th, 2004 |
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ugh, so im at work right now...i feel like shit, i look like shit, everything is the shits i guess... hmm..so nate hasnt even attempted to call me. me so happy! if i were him, i wouldnt want to call me..i have so much anger built up inside of me that i will just blow when i finally talk to him. im not pissed off at nate in particulary...but im pissed at the fact that he cannot stand up to katheryn and explain that we are only friends! never would i do anything with nate...even though a couple of times i considered doing something with him...but now that i think about...eww! gross! yeah, nate is cool as a friend and everything...but hmm..wut am i trying to say here. sooner or later he is going to realize that he will never have a good enough friend like me....someone who will sneek out of her house at 2 in the morning and drive 20 miles to get his stranded ass then drive another 30 to take his ass home. k, so maybe i am pissed at nate...and im proud to say that if katheryn hadnt threatened to kick my ass, or have nate call me at midnight just to say not to call him...i wouldnt have came to the conclusion that i am pissed at nate. thanks for that katheryn..even though i still hate ure white trash ass, and i will one of these days kick it all over god greens earth. hmm..does anyone know when the used new cd comes out. emanuel said it came out yesterday, but i looked at k-mart and shopko, and it is nowhere to be found. shopko didnt even have their first cd...hmm. i thought it was towards the end or middle of this month, and im prolly right..but i dunno. well i really should be going...oh yeah..dont see i, robot or the village. they both are really stupid. even thought will smith is really really hot in i,robot its not worth the ticket price. and the village, it just wasnt wut i expected. only 3 jumpy parts in 2 hours! 3! thats it. i expected something a bit more scary and exciting! damn retarded people. if you've seen the village, u'll know wut im talking about. anyrate...im leaving no |
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| Sunday, August 1st, 2004 |
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so...nates ex or wutever wants to hunt me down and kick my ass...hmm. bring it on bitch!! thats all i have to say. she calls and leaves threatening messages on my phone...yah like thats gonna do any good. ure goin down katheryn, u stupid bitch! and fuck u to nate! u know wut, dont ever fuckin call me again until u can fend for yourself around katheryn. god wut is she gonna do? sit on ya? geezust. for real. well anyrate, my life hasnt been way exciting...except for the fact that katheryn wants to kick my ass, and i have the worst sunburn of my life!! i went to the pool the other day with kids...remind me to put on more suntan lotion stuff the next time, and oh yeah there wont be a next time cause i hate watching kids in water! so im at my grandmas now and this stupid girl downloaded this windows messenger shit and now i have all these annoying 14 year olds writing to me. i even got in a fight with a mom...wutever. they dont know me, and besides, if she wants to talk to people, talk on ure own damn computer for hells sake! im really irritated right now so i guess i will leave before i burst my anger!! or something. |
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| Thursday, June 24th, 2004 |
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| Thursday, June 3rd, 2004 |
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| Tuesday, June 1st, 2004 |
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Whats your name?: Heather Where were you born?: Utah...it sux Where are you now?: at my house What time is it now?: 11:46 p.m. Are you in a good mood?: sure, i guess...could be better do you like cheese?: yeah do you enjoy running around in public in your underwear?: depends on wut underwear im wearin...haha...nope Have you ever shot a gun?: yeah..a muzzle loader Have you ever shot a gun at a person?: nope Whats your favorite type of music?: rap! Whats your favorite color?: yellow...its so happy like! ;o) What color are your eye?: hazel When was the last time you took a shit?: wouldnt u like to know....haha thats sick do you think the last question was weird?: yes i do What time is it now?: 11:48 Can you out your foot over your head?: hell no What is your worst fear?: spiders, and getting old Are you bored yet?: very bored... Why are you taking my survey?: cause..i was bored..and theres nothing else to do Coke or Pepsi? coke...pepsi is nasty! Soup or Salad?: wut kind of soup? chicken noodle? yeah im down with that Have you ever been caught picking your nose during class?: nope Ever farted on an elevator with other people on it?: nope, but that would be funny though Would you cut off a toe for 10,000$?: maybe What time is it now?: 11:51 Are you getting annoyed?: yep Would you like the guy that made this survey.: nope How do you want to die?: i would want to die instantly...no suffering...no way Where do you see yourself in 10 years?: um...with devan..haha i wish...married hopefully with a rich husband...haha Are you masterbating?: nope sure arent Your stranded on an island, just you and your worst enemy, what do you do?: beat the bitch...haha do you have a "special" talent?: uh..sure Bored yet?: sure am Would you eat your own shit for 100,000$?: hell no Ever been caught stealing, if so what were you stealing?: yep, make-up Can you lick your nose?: um...dont think so What time is it now?: 11:54 Do you take a lot of surveys?: more than i should Do you think hazel eyes are sexy?: of course... i have sexy eyes hehe How much TV do you watch on average per week?: a lot What was the dumbest thing you've ever done?: let chochy take my car for a joy ride.... Whats the Funniest thing you've ever done?: fell out of a car Glad that your almost done?: uh yeah What do you think of the person that made this survey: they need to get a life... What will you do now that your done with my survey?: uh...talk to chochy and nate..then fall asleep well that was fun...uh...update later...i need to talk about sunday night/monday morning...more than likely everyone will be upset with me...but okay thats all im saying.... |
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| Wednesday, May 26th, 2004 |
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so, if you want me to add you to my friends list...just request it with a comment...;o) |
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| Monday, May 24th, 2004 |
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Ten bands/artists you couldn't live without: [1] Eminem [2] 50 Cent [3] D12 [4] Chingy [5] The Offspring [6] Jessica Simpson [7] Blink 182 [8] Evanescence [9] Big Tymers [10] Hoobastank Nine albums that are important to you: [1] The Eminem Show~Eminem [2] D12 World~D12 [3] Get Rich or Die Tryin~50 Cent [4] Americana~The Offspring [5] Jackpot~Chingy [6] The Reason~Hoobastank [7] The Black Album~Jay-z [8] Blink 182 [9] The Young and Hopeless~Good Charlotte Eight movies you'd watch over and over: [1] Tommy Boy [2] The Fast and the Furious [3] Finding Nemo [4] Beauty and the Beast [5] The Little Mermaid [6] Sorority Boys [7] American Wedding [8] Scary Movie 3 Seven things that annoy you: [1] Tailgaters [2] People who drive below the speed limit [3] When people talk in a movie theatre [4] Boys who say girls cant drive suped up fast cars..cause they cant handle the power [5] People who chew with their mouths open [6] People who ask the same question over and over again [7] People who dont use turn signals... Six of your favorite songs: [1] Holidae Inn~Chingy [2] The Reason~Hoobastank [3] My Band~D12 [4] I Miss You~Blink 182 [5] Arms Wide Open~Creed [6] Wanksta~50 Cent Five TV shows you watch regularly: (well when I can) [1] 7th Heaven [2] That 70's Show [3] Strong Medicine [4] Boy Meets World [5] Pimp My Ride Four of your all-time-favorite books: [1] All the Places You'll Go [2] Lost Boy, Lost Girl [3] The Pigman [4] Tuesdays With Morrie Three albums you've bought (or downloaded) recently: [1] Jackpot~Chingy [2] The Reason~Hoobastank [3] Blink 182 Two Artists you think are good looking: [1] Mark Hoppus [2] Eminem |
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| Tuesday, May 18th, 2004 |
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.1. What is your full name? Heather Nichole .2. Are you happy with it? sure am .3. Are you named after anyone? nope .4. If you could change your name what would it be? hmm...i look like a heather...im happy with it...i guess .5. Your screenname: cherry_fairy...its quite gay actually :o/ .6. Would you name a child of yours after you? dunno... .7. Then what would you name your children? i really like the name savannah...and! devan! haha .8. If you were a boy, what would your name be? prolly hmm...dwane .9. If you could switch names with a friend, who would that be? prolly with Kristen... .10. Are there any typos that people do with your name? Nichole..its unique. my last name...ALWAYS! .11. Would you drop your last name if you became famous? prolly ----------------------------------- BASICS ----------------------------------- .12. Your gender: female .13. Straight/gay/bi? straight .15. Want to be gay? hmm...haha. im kidding no .16. Your birthdate? October 6, 1986 .17. Your age: 17 almost 18! wahoo! .18. Age you act: 10 ;o) .19. Age you wish you were: 21 .20. Your height: 5'8" .21. The color of your eyes: hazel .22. Happy with it? i love blue eyes...but they do .23. The color of your hair: dark brown .24. Happy with it? sure am .25. Left/right/ambidextrous? righty .26. Your living arrangement? with the parentals .27. Your family: annoying at times... .28. Have any pets? sure do. cocker spaniel named Sadie...shes awesome! .29. What's your job? shitty. but! i am quitting. only one more weekend left! after that...im gonna be a nanny! ;o) .30. Piercings? ears .31. Tattoos? nope .32. Obsessions? one person...dev! .33. Addictions? to lots of things! weed, alcohol...haha kidding. ice cream! im addicted to music! .35. Do you speak another language? spanish .36. Have a favourite quote? "The greatest teacher in life is experience" tons more where that one came from... .37. Do you have a webpage? nope ---------------------------- DEEP THOUGHTS --------------------------- .38. Do you live in the moment? sometimes... .39. Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? sometimes .40. Do you have any secrets? yes .41. Do you hate yourself? sometimes... .42. Do you like your handwriting? sure .43. Do you have any bad habits? i bite my fingernails... .44. What is the compliment you get most from people? haha, that i am one hellarious chick! .45. If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? the wonderful life of heather! no, i dunno .46. What's your biggest fear? getting old :o/ .47. Can you sing? ive been told i have a good voice .48. Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? haha..of course not .49. Are you a loner? i'd like to think not .50. What are your no. 1 priorities in life? reach my full potential.. .51. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? hell yeah! im freakin awesome! .52. Are you a daredevil? hmm...sure .53. Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? i cant tell people my true feelings. i keep them bottled, and i hate that.. .54. Are you passive or aggressive? umm.... .55. Have you got a journal? sure do... lots of them .56. What is your greatest strength and weakness? weakness-i tend to give in to people easily strength~ uh...i'll have to come back.. .57. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? let my true feelings out... .58. 3 cups- of what? .59. How do you vent? listen to music, punch my pillow...haha i dunno .60. Do you think you are emotionally strong? nope... .61. Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? i regret a lot of things actually...:o/ .62. Do you think life has been good so far? sure, why not? .63. What is the most important lesson u've learned from life? you have to live everyday as if its your last..l .64. What do you like the most about your body? my eyes... .65. And least? my stomach .66. Do you think you are good looking? um...ure asking the wrong person... .67. Are you confident? sometimes.. .68. What is the fictional character you're most like? dunno... .69. Do people know how you feel? nope...too scared to let that out... but they should know... .70. Are you perceived wrongly? sometimes...but only by the people who dont take the time out to get to know me... ---------------------------------------- DO YOU... ---------------------------------------- .71. Smoke? nope, its nasty .72. Do drugs? ;o) does weed count? haha, kidding. i heard a funny story about that today!! um, actually no. only the prescribed ones... ;o) .73. Read the newspaper? sometimes... .74. Pray? nope... .75. Go to church? nope... .76. Talk to strangers who IM you? yep..tell the false info...:o) .77. Sleep with stuffed animals? nope .78. Take walks in the rain? of course! i love the rain! .79. Talk to people even though you hate them? hmm.. depends on who it is.. .80. Drive? sure do! .81. Like to drive fast? i street race...of course i like to drive fast! ----------------------------------- WOULD OR HAVE YOU EVER... ----------------------------------- .82. Liked your voice? hmm... .83. Hurt yourself? yep .84. Been out of the country? nope .85. Eaten something that made other people sick? yep.. .86. Had sex? virgin! .87. Been unfaithful? yep .88. Been in love? not really, but thought i was... .89. Done drugs? nope...even though i prolly will this summer! :o) .90. Gone skinny dipping? nope .91. Had a medical emergency? do kidney stones count? .92. Had surgery? yep .93. Ran away from home? yep .94. Played strip poker? nope .95. Gotten beaten up? nope .96. Beaten someone up? nope, but have had plenty of people i wanted to beat up .97. Been picked on? yep .98. Been on stage? yep .100. Slept outdoors? sure have! i love it .101. Thought about suicide? yep .102. Pulled an all-nighter? yep .103. If yes, what is your record? 48 hours .104. Gone one day without food? yeah right .105. Talked on the phone all night? sure have...record is 9 hours! .106. Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex first? sure havent .107. Slept all day? yep...when i had surgery .108. Killed someone? nope .109. Made out with a stranger? nope .110. Had sex with a stranger? nope .111. Thought you're going crazy? yep. marcus called me a freak once.. .112. Kissed the same sex? nope, i dont swing that way .113. Done anything sexual with the same sex? once again...dont swing that way .114. Been betrayed? yep .115. Had a dream that came true? hmm. i think so .116. Broken the law? yep .117. Met a famous person? nope, would like to though .118. Masturbated? nope .119. Masurbated with something other then your hand? haha nope .120. Have you ever killed an animal by accident? nope .121. On purpose? nope .122. Had sex? virgin! .123. With more then 1 person? nope .124. Threesome? nope .125. Orgy? nope...thought about it once...haha kiddiny .126. Whip cream? haha, whipped cream on what? .127. Bondage? wut? .128. Whipped/gotten whipped? nope .129. Blindfolded? uh...nope .130.Tied someone up/been tied up? nope .131. Used candle? huh? .132. Used Porn? watched it .133. Been a groupie? nope .134. Watched porn? yep .135. With another person? yep .136. Gotten caught? nope .137. Masturbated to porn? nope .138. Been caught masturbating? nope .139. Watched someone masturbate? nope .140. Been watched? nope .141. Had oral sex? nope .142. With someone other then your gf/bf? ....nope .143. Committed adultery? nope .144. Does your significant other know? nope .145. Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? yep .146. Stolen anything? yep .147. Been on radio/tv? yep .148. Been in a mosh-pit? nope .149. Had a nervous breakdown? haha, yeah .150. Considered religious vocation? nope .151. Been critisized about your sexual performance? nope .152. Bungee jumped? nope, would like too though .153. Had a dream that kept coming back? all the time ---------------------------------------- CLOTHES and other fashion shit ---------------------------------------- .154. Shoe brand? vans... .155. Brand of clothing? uh, doesnt matter .156. Cologne/perfume? lucky .157. What are you normally wearing to school? um, clothes! pants shirt yeah, clothes .158. How about panties? thongs...no granny panties for me .159. Wear hats? sure dont, hate them..i look ugly in them .160. Judge other people by their clothing? of course not.. .161. Wear make-up? sure do .162. Favourite place to shop? hmm..mall .163. Favourite article of clothing? hmm...my pink/grey stripped punk shirt .164. Are you trendy? uh, i guess... .165. Would you rather wear a uniform to school? hell no!! --------------------------------------- BELIEFS ---------------------------------------- .166. Believe in life on other planets? haha, jared and devans "hypothesis" hella funny! .167. Miracles? sure do .168. Astrology? sure .169. Magic? yep .170. God? uh, i guess .171. Satan? i guess .172. Santa? haha of course! ;o) .173. Ghosts? sure do...Z, stay the hell away from me! .174. Luck? yep .175. Love at first sight? yep .176. Yin and Yang? yep .177. Witches? haha, sure .178. Easter bunny? nope .179. Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? hmm... .180. Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? haha, lucky charms... .181. Do you wish on stars? yes ------------------------------ DEEP THEOLOGICAL QUESTIONS ------------------------------ .182. Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell? i guess, im not into that shit really .183. Do you think God has a gender? uhh, shit, i dunno .184. Do you think that science counteracts religion? uh...wut? .185. Do you believe in organized religion? nope .186. Where do you think we go when we die? well, im going to hell, i know that -------------------------------- AMIGOS --------------------------------------- .187. Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? sure do...there awesome i guess .188. Who is your best friend? kristen, mindy, ang, and kelly...best friend is such a stereotypical type of thing .189. Who's the one person that knows most about you? prolly mindy .190. Best advice? angie .191. Your favourite inside joke? kristen .192. Thing you're picked on most about? how stupid and blonde i am... .193. Who's your longest known friend? mindy .194. Newest? uh...jared .195. Shyest? deffinently kristen .196. Funniest? haha, kell .197. Sweetest? kristen .198. Closest? kristen .199. Weirdest? mos deff me and kell .200. Smartest? angie .201. Ditziest? prolly me, and kell .202. Friends you miss being close to the most? uhh, im close to everybody...prolly alex .203. Last person you talked to online? ...... .204. Who do you talk to most online? no one .205. Who are you on the phone with most? uh...we dont really talk on the phone, but i guess that would be mindy .206. Who do you trust most? kristen .207. Who listens to your problems? kristen and angie .208. Who do you fight most with? mindy .209. Who's the nicest? uhh...kristen and angie .210. Who's the most outgoing? kelli .211. Who's the best singer? me! me! me! .212. Who's on your shit-list? mechelle, i hate her!!! .213. Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend? devan! haha .214. Who's your second family? mindys .215. Do you always feel understood? uhh, sometimes .216. Who's the loudest friend? kelli .217. Do you trust others easily? nope .218. hmm where is it? come again? .219. Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: devan... .220. Do your friends know you? of course, they are my friends! duh! .221. Friend that lives farthest away? kristen -------------------------------------- LOVE, and all that ------------------------------------- .222. Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title? nope .223. Do you remember your first love? haha, sure do. steven...in kindergarten.. .224. Still love him/her? nope, i moved .225. Do you consider love a mistake? no not really .226. What do you find romantic? uhh, i love flowers...and just sitting in the dark and talking... .227. Turn-on? pretty eyes...sense of humor .228 Turn-off? jerks!! .229. First kiss? Dan the Man!! .230. If someone liked u ,but u had no feelings for them how would u feel? um...flattered i guess... .231. Do you like knowing someone b4 you date? yep .232. Do u wish girls could ask guys out more? yeah..but im too shy to do it. .233. Have you ever been attracted to an unatractive guy? haha, yeah, potsie! .234. Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? um... .235. What is best about the opposite sex? i love the guys with a sense of humor, and care about your feelings .236. What is the worst thing about the opposite sex? how horny they are! geezust! am i right? .237. Do you read porn? nope .238. Read the articles? nope .239. Just the pics? haha, i have watched porn .240. What's the last present someone gave you? a shirt .241. Are you in love? i wish i was...but its just lust...this sux .242. Do you consider your significant other hot? devan is amazingly hot! especially when hes high! :o) .243. When you see a hot guy wut do u do? look at him...i dunno ---------------------------- THE BATTLE OF THE SEXES -------------------------------------- .244. Have you ever wished you could experience being the other gender? yep. guys have it so easy .245. What would you do if u were a boy/girl? hmm.... .246. What do you love most about the other gender? i believe i answered this above.. .247. What do you dislike most? hornyness, dishonest... .248. What do you understand least? wut is going on in there head .249. What do you notice first in the opposite sex? pretty eyes! ---------------------------------------- POSESSIONS ---------------------------------------- .250. What is your fave posession? my bed! haha .251. What physical, tangible posession do you want most? i want my nose pierced! 18th b-day, cant wait! .252. How badly do you want it? uhh, pretty bad, but could live w/o it i guess... .253. Have you ever seen The Exorcist? uh, nope .254. What? huh? ---------------------------------------- WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON... ---------------------------------------- .255. That haunted you? haha nate and mike .256. You wanted to kill? mechelle...and i still do! .257. That you laughed at? dev...and jared .258. That laughed at you? dev... .259. That turned you on? haha...australia kid... .260. You went shopping with? um...i believe that was mindy .261. That broke your heart? a boy... .262. To disappoint you? angie! i know you did something w/ chase saturday! haha kidding. .263. To ask you out? chase... .264. To make you cry? sigh, my dad..i think?? .265. To brighten up your day? devan! .266. That you thought about? i am always thinking about devan...and jared! .267. You saw a movie with? uhh, that was an awfully long time ago! .268. You talked to on the phone? angie...bitch! haha .269. You talked to through IM/ICQ? australia kid .270. You saw? my dad... um...other than family...tammy .271. You lost? my chingy cd!!! grr! so i bought it again!! .272. You went head over heels for? devan...and im still head over heels for him... .273. You thought was completely N-U-T-Z? kelli .274. You wanted to be? hmm... .275. You told to fuck off? tammy .276. You trusted? dont trust many people .277. You turned down? ???? ---------------------------------------- WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU ---------------------------------------- .278. Smiled? i am smiling right now! .279. Laughed? i never stop laughing .280. Cried? yesterday .281. Bought something? today .282. Danced? haha, today .283. Were sarcastic? today .285. Talked to an ex? today .286. Watched your fave movie? umm...its been forever! .287. Had a nightmare? um...last week??? .288. Talked on the phone? earlier... .289. Listened to the radio? listening right now.. .290. Watched TV? little bit ago .291. Went out? hmm, about 3 hours ago .292. Helped someone? today .293. Were mean? im never mean... :o) .294. Sang? right now .295. Saw a movie? hmm...sunday .296. Said I love you? long time ago .297. Missed someone? i miss devan and marcus right now... .298. Fought with a family member? uhh, yesterday/last night .299. Fought with a friend? saturday .300. Had a serious conversation? yesterday .301. Smoked weed? haha saturday...joking .302. Got drunk? saturday .303. Had sex? virgin! -------------------------------------- A LAST TIME for everything... -------------------------------------- .304. Last book you read: lost boy, lost girl .305. Last movie you saw: Juwanna Man .306. Last song you heard: wut the hook gonna be? .307. Last thing you had to drink: h2o .308. Last time you showered: last night .309. Last thing you ate: hmmm, a powerade slush from sonic .310. Last CD you bought: Hoobastank .311. Last thing you bought: deordorant...lunch ---------------------------------------- RIGHT THIS MOMENT... ---------------------------------------- .312. Are you going to? do wut? .313. Will it be with your significant other? huh? .314. Or some random person? your confusing me... .315. What are you wearing right now? white and pink shirt, capris, blue thong, white bra... .316. Body-part you're touching right now? uh, im not .317. What are you worried about right now? how marcus is doing in pheonix .318. What book are you reading? lost boy lost girl...huck finn for english...i hate it. .319. What's on your mousepad? animals .320. 5 words 2 describe how you're feeling: mos deff tired...anxious...thirsty...bored...TIRE .321. Are you bored? sure am .322. Are you tired? when am i not tired!? .323. Are you talking to anyone online? nope, and dont plan on it... .324. Are you talking to anyone on the phone? nope... but im waiting for it to vibrate... .325. Are you lonely or content? lonely...:o/ .326. Are you listening to music? yep!! ---------------------------------------- NUMBERS ---------------------------------------- .327. Do you laugh when you hear the number 69? hahaha yeah .328. Are you lying about that question? nope .329. Do you actually know your social security number? sure do .330. Do you actually know your IP address? wut? .331. Do you know what an IP address is? nope .332. Do you know the four-character extension on your zip-code? huh? i guess not .333. You ever think there were 2 many numbers in our lives? uh...i dunno .335. What do you think of pi? pi as in 3.14? .336. Have you got a fave number? yep...69 and 420! haha .337. How many rings before you take the phone? usually the first or second...on my celly phone..i dont answer the house phone.. .338. Do you type with your fingers on the right keys? yep .339. How many CD's do you have? too many to count -------------------------------------- COMPUTERS ---------------------------------------- .340. Mac or PC? doesnt matter .342. Do you ever begin preferring IMs to other forms of conversations? um...dont think so .343. Are you different talking through IMs than face-to-face or telephone? um no .344. Have you ever ended bid on something on eBay and regretted it later? nope .345. How much time do you spend online each week? a lot! more than i should .346. Is the internet one of the modern things you could never live without? yep .347. Do you even receive snailmail letters anymore? no...and i love recieving mail! .348. Send any? nope... .349. What's your fave smiley? the clown!! <@:o) haha clowns are scary! i love the flirty one! ;o) .350. If you could meet anyone in the world who would it be? hmm...Travis Barker! he is amazing! .351. Who is your idol? my cousin .352. What band has the funniest name? Alien Ant Farm...haha...uh, okay. [.:CURRENT:.] - Time: 5:24 - Worrie: wut will i do with myself when i dont see devan everysingle day?! - Emotion: very tired! - Hate(s): i hate english! why must i go through this when i know the language allready? - Love(s): devan and jared! - s/n(s): cherry_fairy...blah...pixie_dust106...i have lots...lances_gurl106...hmm..princess106 lots of 106's - Person your cheating with: i am not a cheater! i have no one to cheat on.. - Song : let it burn~Usher [.:AIM:.] - Buddy icon: cant remember...journal icon..CHINGY! - How many people are on your list?: not very many - How many people do you have alerts: .... - People online: 0 - Where are you? living room [.: LAST.:.] - Person you talked to: Bitch...haha, angie - person you talked to in person: parentals - Picture you looked at: Devans... - Food you ate: powerade slush - Person who got online: nobody... - Jurnal update: hmm...right now! - Noise you heard: radio [.:FAVORITE:.] - Food: pineapple and ham pizza! ice cream...oreos....french fries..blue coconut cream slushes from sonic... - Band: blink 182...i have to many... - Song: holidae in-chingy i have a lot of these too - Person(not famous): devan - Person(famous): umm... vin diesel?? he is hot...i dont have a favorite really - Color: hmm..id have to say pink - Show: that 70's show, pimp my ride! punk'd....???? - Cartoons: umm...i like all cartoons! well not all, just the awesome ones! - Number: 69 and 420 :o) - School subject: umm...psychology - Shirt you own: pink and grey punk shirt - Holiday: me birthday..halloween...christmas [.:RANDOM QUESTIONS:.] - Do you have a website? nope - Any body part? uh? - If you could save any1 from there life, who would it be?: hmm...prolly dan - What do you miss more then anything?: having no responsibilites...i miss being a little kid..i hate the hard choices in life! but! i would rather me make my own choices rather than my parents! that would be bad... |
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TrackStar (oh oh) Disturbing Tha Peace So So Def Chingy J.D. I like da way you do dat right thurr Switch ya hips when ya walkin let down ya hairr I like da way you do dat right thurr Lick ya lips when ya talkin dat make me stairr Girl why you dat right thurr she so bad im costly getting calls from da mayorrrr I though of a rabbit the way she bouncing fo thurr curr (crew) Her man defendin her like a lawyer so bewarr So dudes be handcuffin but dirrty dat aint farr I wanna bet she got da Bomb like a terrriosy She wit ?? hit it though but I aint thinking bout marrrrage I love these honeyes might as well call me Papa Bearrr Girl you know you looking good (good) Ah don't I know you from da Hood (hood) You say you want and you would (would) Now take it off you know you should (should) Now twist around cuz I like da way you do dat right thurr Switch ya hips when ya walkin let down ya hairr I like da way you do dat right thurr Lick ya lips when ya talkin dat make me stairr [Trina:] Ms. Trina Make all da Ballas wanna Starr Hoza-Notie Boots flyin with da furr Walk with a switch pull it ova make it twerk I'ma Flirt till it hurt in a throwback skirt Im dat bad bitch, foxy and Don Blaze Rocks on my Risk like pink lemonade ill take ya watches and ya rangs Tell tell them other girls lil mama rockin strings and Chanel Pearls Im back fo my crown fake bithes bow down dis da remix wat ya wanna do now I know u like da way we do dis ova herrr get loose in da club like we don't carrr (care) [Chorus 2X:] I like da way you do dat right thurr Switch ya hips when ya walkin let down ya hairr I like da way you do dat right thurr Lick ya lips when ya talkin dat make me stairr [Jermaine Dupri:] Im from da city wherr they do dat right thurr da most Outa Towner come around and straight ova dose Where da hips sing to ya and swing like BUMP BUMP BUMP Like You Done walked into a B2k concert Mannn Back out legs showin talkin like mann who got da drink and where da party at tonight damn Dats when they start dat backing it up on ya homie and dats a feelin you just can't fight Wee fired up off dat hypnotic and Hennessey she cant Keep her MotheerFuckin hands off me We both in da club high bouncing to da beat when she turn around this is wat I told her I like da way you do dat right thurr Switch ya hips when ya walkin let down ya hairr I like da way you do dat right thurr Lick ya lips when ya talkin dat make me stairr |
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| Tuesday, May 11th, 2004 |
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I have had a terrible, horrible day! i woke up extremely late for school, it rained last night, and i left my car windows down, im on my way to school, and my clutch goes out, so i just about kill myself. i have no money in the bank to fix it, and i dont get paid until next friday! i was late to 2nd period...sluffed 3rd with josh-got locked out of my house, so josh climbed through the window...spent about 20 bucks today...20 bucks that i dont have to spare right now! my friend is pissed because i sluffed with josh, i have a final in 3rd period, and i havent been there the last 3 days to know anything that will be on it. missed a test in 1st period today, because my clutch is the gayest thing in the world...i hope its just the clutch, and not the transmission! i had to present my report in cna today...haha i messed up, and devan laughed! but! he made it easier because i had to talk for 15 minutes, and i had absolutly nothing to say, so he kept on asking me questions so that i would make it! then he presented, i asked him questions..but he didnt quit make the 15 minutes required..that sucked. i was tryin not to laugh..and he kept on saying heather, what else should everyone know about muscle distrophy, so then i would have to make something up. he forgot his visual aid, and so then hes all like, heather will you be my visual? and i was like sure! i love that kid. he truely brightens my day up! then he was all like why didnt you call me, i could've fixed your clutch...and i was like i dont think you could've not even josh knew what the hell was wrong. i got my nails done last night, and i bit everysingle one off today because ive been so stressed about my car. i love my car i do! but i am so tempted into getting a loan and getting a new one! even though my dad said, "dont borrow money!! its not good, you go broke, and you slave the rest of your life away!" oh geeze. maybe i can convince him into letting me get a loan...i found an eclipse for like 5 grand. i love it! but! i do love my little car..good times i've had in that car... haha, i took this quiz...i hope something happens between me and dev. i love him! but! nothing will happen i bet..he graduates in 2 weeks! i will miss him! i guess that i will have to make lots of trips to arctic circle this summer! :o) unless he gets that new job he applied for.... :o/ oh well, what do ya do right?
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i've decided that the people with the most journal entries have way to much time on their hands, and they need to get a life. sorry. anywho, van is the biggest @$$ of all time. nobody compares to him. so, 2 weeks ago, i wasnt scheduled to work sept. 12-13. so yeah, i made plans...because yes it is homecoming, and i really wanna go. but i didnt get asked. which is the dumps. but hey, i didnt have to work, until tonight. i got scheduled for both nights! it pissed me off so bad. so i told him that i got asked to homecoming, and my date allready made reservations, and bought football tickets, and i bought my dress and everything. well, he gets pissed off, and says i have to work. im like whatever, im not breaking it off. this guy allready spent a ton a money, and everything. i swear he was gonna cry like a baby. "well, whos gonna work?" im like thats your own problem. i didnt have to work until you switched the schedule at last minute....AGAIN! it pisses me off so bad. i mean really, if i really got asked...then that would be really rude to break it off, when he allready bought tickets to everything, and made reservations. hes such an @$$. it pisses me off so bad. so now hes like..ask morgan to work all day. i cant do that, cause morgan wants both days off too. even though she says she will work, i know she doesnt want to. and i dont want her too. we put up with so much f'in bull$h!t up there, its not even funny. and i would feel guilty because, im not really even going to homecoming. i just want my original days off. plus, i really did allready get football tickets, so theres no way im working. he can figure it out his ownself. and if i have to work, i just wont show up. and thats that. he can fire me, i dont care. im gonna quit soon anyways. im confused, and pissed off at the moment...and this isnt helping out much either..so im going. |
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| Wednesday, September 3rd, 2003 |
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so, ed quit last saturday. you know, its okay. im moving on.. no, im not actually. i think i like him a lot more now, than i ever have. i finally told morgan today that i like him... but! im having second thoughts. i kinda like corbin....i think. at first, it never really appeared to me, because yes, he is indeed a jock, and on the football team, and there is no way in hell that he would go out with me, unless i was a bulimic cheerleader. but suddenly, it occured to me that in fact, we are actually really good friends. were always partners in spanish, and we get pissed off when one of us is moved to be partners with somebody else. i am really stupid, and i dont understand a single thing in spanish, but he doesnt care. we learn together. i have so much fun with him. he doesnt care where i work or anything...well, niether does ed, because afterall, he DID work there. im so stuck in all of this. i dont know anymore. i should just face that i will never be a cheerleader, and i will never get the jock. :o/ now, i must go get my tire checked, because i guess its broked at the moment...and i dont want to cause anymore damage to myself..goodbye. |
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| Friday, August 22nd, 2003 |
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oh gawd. school is allready here. the summer went by way to fast. i started the very first day of my junior year yesterday. it sucked. majorly. i only have friends in 3 of my 5 classes. and its only like 1 friend. sucky. my math class is the absolute worst. besides me, there is only about 3 other juniors. the rest...sophomores! 31 out of 35 students, are sophomores. i feel so stupid. but, there is no other math for me to go into. i took geometry last year. and i cant take integrated, or else i get no credit. totally sucks. gawd, today school didnt start until 9:00. so, mindy and i went for a doughnut run. when we came back, we went and switched around her classes. so, we got the teachers signatures, but she forgot her money. so she went and grabbed her money out of her car, while i stayed and talked to ashley and shandie. then the bell rang, and my first period is out by mindys car anyways, so i just walked out there. well, bryce was out there, talking to mindy in her car. so i go over to angelas car, and talk to her. well, bryce gets up, walks over to me and says..."holly sh!t!!" then he slaps my @$$!! i was freakin pissed. so i freakin slapped him. and hes like, "gawd, your fiesty". im like your "fu'in idiot! dont slap my @$$!" and mindys like, "why dont you like him?" and im like "he just slapped my @$$! for hells sake!" eww. gawd. i hate bryce. he had the hugest crush on my in 9th grade. but, hes a fu'in cowboy. and i loathe cowboys. *shudders*eww.brycegallowayslappedmybutt! anywho, i guess i shall go. |
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| Monday, August 18th, 2003 |
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omg. i do not want to work with karen tomorrow. i dont wanna work. period. gawd...somebody just fire her for hells sake. i will. karen your fired! now get the hell out, and never come back! yeah...i wish. hey, i could make a good boss...right? hell yeah. anywho...on with it. the next thing on the agenda for tonight is....ed. um yeah. what can i say about ed? well, marcus totally thinks that were going out...just like that. hes all like...heather do you like ed? is ed your boyfriend? finally after trying to ignore him i said sarcastically yes marcus..i do like ed. and toms all like..no! she love him! when they say it like that...its called beautiful love. im like..what the hell and marcus is like...so you love him eh? not like him...but loooove him? ooh! eduardo's got himself a girlyfriend. im like oh yeah. whatever. and tom is like...kids your age always say they love somebody to their friends..but they dont want them to tell...and i think that is beautiful love. okay...tom. whatever you say. i dont "love" ed. im not even sure if i like him that way anymore. okay..so maybe i do...but love is such a strong word to just throw around. i've never loved somebody. i've only liked somebody. i dunno anymore. i give up. if something happens, i guess it happens. right? marcus and tom just said that ed is really shy around me and stuff. he'll come around...sometime. yeah. hopefully. on a later note. the trippiest thing. i ran into potters mom at the beauty shop today. at first i saw potters car..and im like omg! potter is here! and i look like sh!t! i walked in..looked for him..and he wasnt there! so come to find out..the lady in front of me was potters mom. weird. i know this is weird...but since were not like going out, or talking to each other anymore, i run into him at the most weirdest places. like albertsons at 9:00 at night. and at the gas station. and just really weird places, and random times. he was up by my house the other day. so trippy. anywho, i cut about 3 inches off my hair. i think it makes my hair look a lot fuller, and thicker. i like it. but cindi was mad, that i cut it off. dont know why. jessica came up to my work tonight. i've called her so many fricken times, and she never called back. come to find out...she got her cell phone taken away for almost the entire summer. no wonder. i wonder if we have classes together. oh...school starts on thursday. wahoo. not. i got the cutest pants and shirt to wear. so dang cute-ness. well. i guess i will go love me. |
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| Friday, August 8th, 2003 |
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i miss how we used to talk....and tell each other everything i miss how he used to call from work, and make sure i was okay with everything that had been going on i miss being able to goof around with him i miss riding home with him i miss how he used to teach me how to make grilled cheese...at work i miss how he taught me how to cook i miss talking to him period i miss working with him i miss everything about him i miss ed ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ why do $h*tty things always happen to me? why cant it happen to somebody else for a change. i have to be the mother...24/7 because my mom has parkinsons disease and she cant drive or anything. i put up with constant blacking out, and going to the doctors, and....im only 16. i shouldnt have to be the mother. but i am. my step grandma had a brain anurism yesterday. she was life fighted to salt lake. its scary. and my dads "aunt"/really really good family friend had a heart attack yesterday too. what is this damn world coming too? |
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| Tuesday, August 5th, 2003 |
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i will be so glad when school starts, and i dont have to work with the lazy loon any longer, until next summer. that is if i can last that long. i might have to, because my cna class isnt until 3rd tri. which really pisses me off. i was planning on taking it first tri. but no, the damn high school just thru together a bunch of classes that i didnt even take. i didnt even get into a class that i need to graduate. i hate how they get to damn lazy, and throw a bunch of dumb@$$ classes together, and expect you to be all right with everything. so now, i have to go and get my schedule all re-arranged. i like ed. thursday, morgan and i are going up to work to embarrass the living hell right out of marcus. were taking my brothers guitar, and were gonna make up our own little happy birthday song and stuff. its gonna be so damn funny. ha. i cant wait. i hate school shopping. i can never find clothes that fit me well. im going to the mall tomorrow i think. i want this way cute hat from shopko. its only 6 bucks. so i figure what the hell. buy it. ive only bought 2 pairs of levis and like 4 shirts. one is a cowgirl shirt. morgan and i are dressing like cowgirls this year. its gonna be fun. and the other is a hoodie/sweater. and the others, are plain t-shirts that im putting stuff on. im thinking aar, and rolling stones????? dunno yet. will decide tomorrow. anywho, i think i will go dream...about ed. :o) oh, i heard marcus and ed talking on sunday when i went in. well actually all i heard was marcus going your litte girlfriend is here...and something else, then ed going marcus im scared, you know that. not now. hmm. makes me wonder. today marcus goes..heather, your boyfriend is gonna be coming. im like, marcus he hasnt asked me yet, so hes not officially my boyfriend. and hes like well, you wanna go out with him, huh? im like omg. yes! j/k. i made up a song about marcus on sunday night, and cindis like, go sing it too him. im like no, he'll get mad, and beat me up. so she goes back and shes like marcus heather has a song she wants to sing to you. and hes like sing heather and im like no. and hes like okay.. is it "i love eduardo, i love eduardo" im like marcus, screw you. even though...sigh, it is very very true. :o) okay...im going now. goodnight. |
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