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Wednesday, October 1st, 2003
6:42 am - hay buhay
21 days to go...

current mood: excited
current music: Only God Knows Why - Kid Rock

(Find me a Date)

6:35 am - hmmmm.......
ang bango-bango ng boss ko!!! grabe!!! ang cute cute pa!!! =D
kaso... taken na... WAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

current mood: hopeful
current music: noises in the office

(1 blind date | Find me a Date)

Tuesday, August 12th, 2003
9:04 pm - know the CHEMIST better - Part 2
What was your most memorable moment from the last week?
- July 30, 2003; Went dinner, movies, and clubbing with Krissy, Shara, Eelan

What one person touched your life this week?
- Tin De Mesa because she still went to my house even though she knew I have measles

How have you helped someone this week?
- Yes, my cousin Tintin. I taught her Algebra (naks!)

What one thing do you need to get done by this time next week?
- I need to get my students’ worksheets checked and recorded

What one thing will you do over the next seven days to make your world a better place?
- I will pray, clean my room, and study for GRE

If you had the chance to meet someone you've never met, from the past or present, who would it be?
- Freddie Prinze Jr.

If you had to live in a different century, past or future, which would it be?
- Still in the 21st century

If you had to move anywhere else on Earth, where would it be?
- Spain! Hola Amigas, Chicas!

If you had to be a fictional character, who would it be?
- Hermione Granger

If you had to live with having someone else's face as your own for the rest of your life, whose would it be?
- Audrey Hepburn’s

Do you like talking on the phone? Why or why not?
- Depends on whom I am speaking with. If she were my friend, I’m cool with that, but if he were *toot*, forget it!

Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
- My father

About how many telephones do you have at home?
- 1 phone line, 2 extensions

Have you encountered anyone who has really bad phone manners? What happened?
- Yeah, this person rang me up through my mobile and accused me for stealing her phone. Duh!

Would you rather pick up the phone and call someone or write them an e-mail or a letter? Why or why not?
- Depends on the urgency.

What was the last song you heard?
- Area Codes by Ludacris and Nate Dogg

What were the last two movies you saw?
- Bad Boys 2 and Tomb Raider 2

What were the last three things you purchased?
- Shallow Hal and The Matrix DVD, Analyze That VCD

What four things do you need to do this weekend?
- Finish off the worksheets of my students and record them, attend Tapat Anniversary at Malate, make reviewer for the Finals, check emails

Who are the last five people you talked to?
- Tin De Mesa, Kuya Pio, Bing, Papa, Mama

What is your favorite type of literature to read (magazine, newspaper, novels, nonfiction, poetry, etc.)?
- Fiction, novels, fashion and showbiz magazines

What is your favorite novel?
- All of Nicholas Sparks’ and JK Rowling’s

Do you have a favorite poem? (Share it!)
- Sonnet 42 by Pablo Neruda

I don't love you as if you were the salt-rose, topaz
or arrow of carnations that propagate fire:
I love you as certain dark things are loved,
secretly, between the shadow and the soul.
I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and carries
hidden within itself the light of those flowers,
and thanks to your love, darkly in my body
lives the dense fragrance that rises from the earth.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you simply, without problems or pride:
I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving

but this, in which there is no I or you,
so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,
so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close.

What is one thing you've always wanted to read, or wish you had more time to read?
- All those books I bought from Power Books

What are you currently reading?
- Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix

current mood: sick
current music: Monica - Angel Of Mine

(Find me a Date)

8:30 pm - damn these measles!
i have measles. nakakainis! arrrrrrrrgh! it all started nung naulanan ako last july 31 ng madaling araw sa wherelse. after that incident, nagka-flu ako, i didn't know it was prelude to measles na pala, hehehe! pero okay lang, 1 week akong rest sa bahay, panuod-nuod nalang ng video, and tatapusin ko na rin yung Order of the Phoenix, na kahit alam kong si Sirius Black (hehehe, spoiler!) yung mamamatay eh babasahin ko pa rin sya. :) hmmm...

blessing in disguise na rin itong measles na ito, at least may time ako to finish the lag work i have here at home and i can now surf for graduate schools. wala lang.

hay naku...

sana naman may isang angel na magdadala sakin ng blueberry cheesecake dito sa bahay.

current mood: crappy
current music: Shoulda Woulda Coulda - Beverly Knight

(2 blind dates | Find me a Date)

Tuesday, July 1st, 2003
8:17 pm - know the CHEMIST better - Part 1
1. How many times have you truly been in love?
- Honestly, just once, but the feeling WAS NOT mutual.

2. What was/is so great about the person you love(d) the most?
- Everything about him --- he’s a changed person, intelligent, responsible, a bit good-looking. I have known him since 1993.

3. What qualities should a significant other have?
- Faithful. Loyal. Truthful. Intelligent. Responsible. Outspoken.

4. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
- Yeah

5. If there were one thing you could teach people about love, what would it be?
- Be practical. Do NOT ever settle for second best --- always keep that in mind!!!!

6. What do you most want to be remembered for?
- I want to be remembered as a person who never runs out of true, loyal, and good friends, and as somebody who is generous and approachable. I consider my friends as gifts from God. Next to my family, they are the best things that ever happened to me. I also yearn to contribute something in the field of Biochemistry.

7. What quotation best fits your outlook on life?
- “It’s not what you know, it’s WHO you know…”

8. What single achievement are you most proud of in the past year?
- Passing the Licensure Exam for Chemists

9. What about the past ten years?
- There are lots… my academic awards in school, my being an officer in organizations, etcetera…

10. If you were asked to give a child a single piece of advice to guide them through life, what would you say?
- Finish school and work your ass off to the top!

11. What brand of toothpaste do you use?
- Close Up Lemon Mint

12. What brand of toilet paper do you prefer?
- Kleenex tissues

13. What brand(s) of shoes do you wear?
- Shoe Salon, Mendrez, Celine, Nike, Barratts, and those generic brands you buy from Payless Shoe Source :)

14. What brand of soda do you drink?
- Coca cola, Pepsi

15. What brand of gum do you chew?
- hmmm… nothing in particular

16. What drinking water do you prefer -- tap, bottle, purifier, etc.?
- Purified or bottled water. Sparkling, sometimes.

17. What are your favorite flavors of chips?
- Sour Cream & Onion and Barbeque

18. Of all the things you can cook, what dish do you like the most?
- My ever famous BAKED MACARONI, which, by the way, Chicken Wing and Usher love!!! :)

19. How do you have your eggs?
- sunny side up

20. Who was the last person who cooked you a meal? How did it turn out?
- today? I cooked my own food today. As usual, it was sumptuous because I cook only the best. :)

21. Would you consider yourself an organized person? Why or why not?
- Sort of. Somehow, I want my things compartmentalized and color-coordinated. I also make a Things-to-Do list everyday.

22. Do you keep some type of planner, organizer, calendar, etc. with you, and do you use it regularly?
- I got a Sony Clie and I use it every single day

23. Would you say that your desk is organized right now?
- I can’t say it is, but I’m sure it’s clean and clutter-free. :)

24. Do you alphabetize CDs, books, and DVDs, or does it not matter?
- As for my Audio CD’s, they are arranged according to Artists and then by Genre. My books, they are arranged according to size. And my Video CD’s and DVD’s, they are arranged according to their movie titles.

25. What's the hardest thing you've ever had to organize?
- It’s actually an event. Back in college, our political party organized a forum with Senatoriables Winnie Monsod and Joker Arroyo. The work was distributed among us but because I was in the Core Group, I was assigned extra tasks.

26. Name one song you hate to admit you like.
- Crazy Town’s Butterfly

27. Name two songs that always make you cry.
- (1) Daniel Bedingfield’s If You’re Not the One because it is hopelessly sentimental; and (2) Brandy, Tamia, Chaka Khan, and Gladys Knight’s Missing You because it was the last song that I listened to when I last rode in Carlo’s car.

28. Name three songs that turn you on.
- Like, what kind of turn on? Haha! 3 songs that make me dance are: Snoop Dogg, Pharrell, and Charlie Wilson’s Beautiful, R.Kelly’s Ignition Remix, and Justin Timberlake’s Rock Your Body.

3 songs that I would love to hear from my special someone are: Ruff Endz’ Someone to Love You, Joe’s I Wanna Know, and Maxwell’s Whenever, Wherever, Whatever.

3 songs that make me go “passionate” are: R.Kelly’s Ignition (not the remix), Marvin Gaye’s Sexual Healing, and Keith Sweat’s Nobody.

29. Name four songs that always make you feel good.
- Snoop Dogg, Pharrell, and Charlie Wilson’s Beautiful, Andrew Gold’s Never Let Her Slip Away, Square Head’s Happy, and Daft Punk’s One More Time.

30. Name five songs you couldn't ever do without.
a. Beautiful – Snoop Dogg, Pharrell Williams, Charlie Wilson
b. Happy – Square Heads
c. Dimelo – Voices of Theory
d. I Wanna Know – Joe
e. You See the Trouble With Me – Black Legend

31. What was the last TV show you watched?
- MTV Most Wanted

32. What was the last thing you complained about?
- That I am gaining weight

33. Who was the last person you complimented and what did you say?
- My student, Ruffy, because he was behaved in class

34. What was the last thing you threw away?
- Loads of tissue because I am sick like hell!

35. What was the last website that you visited?

36. Who is your favorite celebrity?
- Gwyneth Paltrow (Hollywood) and Kris Aquino (local)

37. Who is your least favorite?
- James Van Der Beek (Hollywood) and Claudine Baretto (local)

38. Have you ever met or seen any celebrities in real life?
- Yes, lots of them! :)

39. Would you want to be famous? Why or why not?
- I don’t want to be a public figure (i.e. actress, singer, model, politician) because everybody meddles in your life and one wrong move can create a scandal. However, I want to be popular in a certain community or circle of people, say I am well known because I am a Doctor of Philosophy in Molecular Biology --- that kinda thing.

40. If you had to trade places with a celebrity for a day, who would you choose and why?
- Jennifer Aniston --- `cause she’s Brad Pitt’s wife! :)

41. What was the first band you saw in concert?
- I cannot remember… I am sure it was just a local band that our school invited for our Foundation day

42. Who is your favorite artist/band now?
- Lots of them… at the moment, it’s R.Kelly

43. What's your favorite song?
- Beautiful by Snoop Dogg, Pharrell, and Charlie Wilson

44. If you could play any instrument, what would it be?
- Piano

45. If you could meet any musical icon (past or present), who would it be and why?
- Madonna. She’s the artist of the millennium!

46. How many houses/apartments have you lived in throughout your life?
- 3 houses. First one was in Caloocan, second was in Fairview, and currently, third, is here in Malate

47. Which was your favorite and why?
- Our apartment in Malate because of its proximity to LaSalle and Makati

48. Do you find moving house more exciting or stressful? Why?
- Exciting because you move in to a new community, you meet new people, and you get to buy new stuff for your room

49. What's more important, location or price?
- It’s gotta be the location!

50. What features does your dream house have (pool, spa bath, big yard, etc.)?
- It should have the following: a gigantic yard, a swimming pool, a spa in my bathroom, an enormous walk-in closet, a queen-sized bed with posts and drapes on the side, an entertainment room, a study and library, a mini aviary in the garden, and a lounge with a patio facing the beach.

current mood: sick
current music: Do I Need a Reason - D'Sound

(Find me a Date)

Sunday, June 15th, 2003
1:11 am - random eklat
Mahal ko na yata siya eh. Grabe, namimiss ko siya. Kaso sila pa rin ng girlfriend niya. Kung bakit naman kasi eh!!! hay buhay! ayoko naman maging home-wrecker noh! ganito yata papel ko sa buhay eh, ako yung contravida sa pelicula, ako yung querida. wehehehehe.

Kasalanan naman niya yun eh, sana hindi na lang siya umamin noh. Tapos patext-text pa siya kay Hanzel na: "mis ko n kyong lahat lalo n c karla sobra" Ah ewan, leche siya. Sakit siya sa ulo pero mahal ko na yata siya.

Why does he have to go and make things so complicated?


Ang ganda ng kanta ng Stonefree na Listen. Sana may mabait na angel na magpost ng lyrics dito sa blurty.

current mood: crushed
current music: Stonefree - Listen

(5 blind dates | Find me a Date)

Tuesday, May 20th, 2003
12:48 pm
ang hirap naman magdesisyon. lalo na ngayon. one wrong decsion would cost me my future. pero siempre, if you decide on something, you might have to give up other things as well. that's my dilemma.

ang hirap kasing mag-give up ng isang bagay (or kahit tao) na natutunan mo ng mahalin. lalo na kapag gustung-gusto mo nang gawin ang isang bagay, tapos may darating na ibang opportunity, tapos hindi mo naman alam kung magiging masaya ka ba doon sa bago mong gagawin.

nakakainis, namimiss ko tuloy maging estudyante na kung saan, poproblemahin ko lang ay ang mag-aral at ipasa ang mga subjects ko. hehehehe. sana ganoon na lang habang buhay --- kaso hindi pwede.

nakakalungkot kasi hindi ako makapagdesisyon. natatakot akong magkamali.

current mood: cranky
current music: Dimelo - Voices of Theory

(3 blind dates | Find me a Date)

Sunday, May 4th, 2003
10:28 pm - whaaaaaaaaaaat?!
ano `tong nabalitaan kong kung wala ka lang daw girlfriend, eh, liligawan mo daw ako? ano ba yan!

pinahihirapan lang natin ang ating mga sarili. :(

I wish I never knew it was you.

current mood: frustrated
current music: anna fegi - anyone can see

(Find me a Date)

Monday, April 28th, 2003
5:13 am - Duduguin ako sa'yo, hijo!
Grabe, duduguin ako sa ka-torpehan nya! In fairness!
At mali po kayo dun mga kaibigan, hindi po sya si Chicken Wing. Itago na lang po natin sya sa pangalang Funny Guy.

Opo mga kaibigan, nakakatawa po siyang tao, hindi dahil nakakatawa ang kanyang pagmumukha kundi nakakatawa ang kanyang personalidad. Masayahin po siya at mahilig siyang mag-joke --- na bumebenta naman sa akin. :) Pilit niyang gayahin si Craig David at Usher Raymond... and I love it when he does that.

Bago ko pa man din nalamang may pagtingin pala siya sa akin, eh matagal ko na siyang kras sa opisina, sapagkat pareho kami ng hilig sa musika at ng estacion sa radio, in fact, fan din siya nila Chico and Delamar. Madalas din kaming nag-aasaran dahil duet kaming nagcoconcert sa aming project room. At heto pa, matalino pa siya. Siyempre, alam ninyo naman ako, kapag matalino ang isang lalaki eh 1 million pogi points na agad yun.

Wala naman akong pinagsabihang kaibigan na may kras ako kay Funny Guy dahil slight lang naman yung pagtingin ko sa kanya eh. Siyempre masmatimbang pa rin si Chicken Wing, milya-milya ang lamang nung mokong na yun.

So may panahong nakalimutan na lahat yun.

Hanggang nagka-"stalker" ako sa opisina namin. Hindi naman siya nagpa-prank calls or anonymous text noh. Meron lang nagpa-pop-up na sweet messages sa computer ko every 10:00 am. Noong una, tipong ako, okay fine, dead-ma.

Tapos isang umaga, hetong baklush kong friend eh nabuko ang stalker ng lola niyo, at que horror! Si Funny Guy pala yun! Siyempre heto naman si ako, dead-ma, ayaw pa maniwala kunwari. Pero deep inside, flattened, este flattered ako, in fairness, pero deadma. Flattered pero deadma. At hanggang ngayon, dead ma pa rin ako.

Pero may nangyari kasi sa opisina na kung saan naglabasan ang mga tunay na kulay ng mga tao. Nagka-balahuraan sa office at na-agrabyado kaming mga tutors. Siyempre, dahil sa mga pangyayaring iyon, naging bonded kaming mga tutors. Eh siyempre diba, bonding na kami ni Funny Guy.

Ang masaklap dun, hanggang bonding na lang talaga kami. Hanggang asaran or chat sa Yahoo Messenger or text-text na lang.

At isa pang nakakahinayang dun ay aalis na ako sa aking trabaho. Hindi ko na siya makikita. Bakit kung kailan pang paalis na ako? Ang hirap tuloy umalis, pero kailangan kong mag-move on sa aking career.

Anyhow inihaw, yun lang naman. Sana eh umamin man lang siya, diba? Pero okay lang, at least alam kong merong naaaliw sa akin at na-boost ang ego and confidence ko kahit papaano.

O siya, tama na itong kabaliwang ito.

current mood: happy
current music: Don't Dream It's Over - Sixpence None the Richer

(18 blind dates | Find me a Date)

Monday, April 14th, 2003
10:33 am - hindi nga ba ako affected?
Sabi ni Michelle, may balak ka daw ligawan, Lasallista din daw, ID 98. Sino? Si Kitchie? Ang lakas talaga ng fighting spirit mo dude!

Asa ka pa, eh magka-date sila ni L.M. sa Greenbelt 3 2 weekends ago, at bukod kay L.M., meron pa syang ibang dini-date, kaya asa ka pa!

Kung hindi si Kitchie yun, sino? Clueless ako. :(

Eh kung ako na lang kasi ang ligawan mo, hindi mo na kelangan mamroblema.

Bakit ganun, napakalaki ng impact mo sa akin... 3 years tsong... 3 years na akong nagpapakatanga! Eh hindi ka naman nanligaw, hindi naman tayo naging M.U. Hindi ka nga mahilig maligo at once in a bluemoon ka lang mag-shave ng facial hairs mo. So anong nakita ko sayo?

Ang tagal ko ng nagpe-pray na sana magkatuluyan tayo. Feeling ko kasi, we complement each other, we are good together, we're like coffee and cream :)

God, kung hindi siya, sino?

If I am not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?

(Find me a Date)

Saturday, April 5th, 2003
2:53 am - Immequire's Painful Fate
I hate to write it over and over, but here's the gist, Immequire ceased its operations last April 3, 2003. Sad noh? I still have my job but I have other concerns.

Join me in mourning, read all about it.

current mood: sad
current music: B2K feat. P.Diddy - Bump Bump Bump

(Find me a Date)

Monday, March 17th, 2003
5:13 am - Nang makita si Chicken Wing...
Wednesday, March 12

Dumalaw akong school kasi Campaign Week for the SC General Elections. Dumating akong school nang maaga, mga 16:00. Eh sa La Salle, magkatabi ang tambayan ng Tapat at ng YFC dun sa former Chess Plaza, at kung galing ka sa North Gate, una mong madadaanan ang YFC tambayan. Syempre, just as usual, kapag ganoong oras, puno ang mga tambayan. Nang makita ako ng mga younger generation sa YFC, tinawag nila ako...

YFC (in chorus): "Mama Karlaaaaaa!!!"
Me: "Hello!!!"

Sabay beso sa mga people... At hulaan nyo kung sinong nanduon? Syempre, dun mga mga masugid kong LJ friends, kilala nyo na kung sino sya. Syempre, andun si Chicken Wing (CW) at take note, nagbeso pa kami. Tapos tinanong ako ni Gem, "Mama Karla, bakit ka pumapayat?" At syempre sinagot ng lola mo, "Eh kasi wala akong love life!!!" Tapos may biglang humirit, "Ay daig ka pa ni CW, sya nag paplano na."

To my horror, tinanong ko sa aking sarili, "Si CW, may love life? Sino?!?!" And to my relief, buti na lang yung so-called love interest nya eh medyo hard-to-reach dahil si Kitchie ng Mojofly lang naman yung pinagnanasahan nya. Hello?! Diba? In his wildest dreams! :) At syempre, finally tumapang na rin ang apog ko dahil bigla kong hinirit sa kanya, "Hay naku, bakit kasi kung saan-saan ka pa naghahanap, eh ang dami naman dyan sa tabi!" Sabay layas ang lola mo.

Oh diba, sa buong 3 taong nagmamahal ako sa kanya, ngayon ko lang sya nahiritan ng ganun.

Friday, March 14

Dumalaw na naman ako sa La Salle dahil last day na of campaign. Mga 19:00 na yun, kasama ko yung mga fellow Tapat alumni, nakatambay kami sa booth ng Santugon, sa may Chess Plaza, hehe. We were making fun of their CD, candidates, core, at kung anu-ano at sinu-sino pa, basta pinagtatawanan namin ang Santugon. Tapos, biglang dumating si CW. Aba, ang lola mo, naloka, pero syempre, I tried to go undetected. Finally, dahil sa lakas ng boses ko, na medyo dinig buong La Salle, napansin ni CW na andun lang ako within the vicinity. So, tinawag nya ako. Syempre ako, lumapit ako sa kanya at iniwan ang aking mga Tapat friends. Hehehe! This time, hindi kami nagbeso, SAYANG! Nagpasama ako sa kanya sa Burgundy para magwithdraw sa BPI, tapos kuwentuhan kami habang naglalakad. Syempre, nagkuwentuhan kami about our future plans, tapos nabanggit ko sa kanya na I have 3 plans, Plan A: mag-Law, Plan B: mag-Masters in Teaching Chem, Plan C: mag-take up ng Education units, then MA in Childhood Dev't. Tapos kinamusta nya yung Spanish ko. Tapos sabi nya balak nyang mag Masters in Civil Eng'g and magtuturo sa DLSU at the same time.

Sobra kong na-e-enjoy yung mga ganung moments with him, kasi isa sya sa mga taong talagang pwede kong kwentuhan tungkol sa mga ganung stuff. Kasi very supportive syang friend, in fairness! Ego-booster ko sya, kasi naniniwala syang magaling ako. Pero ako in return, eh, ina-affirm ko rin sya, kasi, in fairness, magaling din sya.

Habang nasa Burgundy kami, nilalait nya yung flooring ng building, ang pangit-pangit daw. Tapos sabi nya, magEduc na lang daw ako para sya daw yung mag-construct ng Pre-School ko. Oh diba ang saya! :) But I explained na priority ko ang mag-Law because I feel the need of becoming a lawyer. Tapos bumalik na kaming tambayan.

At syempre, habang nasa tambayan kami, naungkat na naman si Kitchie, ay diosko! Sabi ko kay CW, wag na syang umasa dun dahil may nanliligaw na sa kanya. Tapos biglang hirit ba naman with conviction, "Eh marami namang nagdadasal para sa akin." DUH! Sabi ko, wala na syang pag-asa kasi yung isa sa mga manliligaw ni Kitchie eh ka-church pa nya. Syempre, libre nga naman ang mangarap, hayun, liligawan daw nya. As if!!!

Hindi ko na talaga ma-take yung kanyang wishful thinkings, buti na lang tumawag na si papa at susunduin na daw ako sa school. At alam nyo ba ang parting words nya sa akin, "Karla, ipagdasal mo naman ako!" Ipagdasal? Para saan? Para kanino? As-in ipagdarasal ko sya para kay Kitchie? Duh! At syempre ang sagot ng lola mo, "Ayoko nga!" O diba, taray! Kung ipagdarasal ko man sya, ang hihilingin ko kay Lord, eh sana ligawan na ako ni CW para matapos na ang pananaghoy kong ito! My gulay!

Saturday, March 15

Joint birthday celebration ang aking childhood friends na sina Boss and Princess. Habang nanunuod kami ng Bb. Pilipinas, tumawag sa akin sa cellphone si CW, nanghihingi ng directions papunta sa party. Syempre binigay din ng lola mo. Nasa 2nd floor kasi kami, dun sa family room nila Boss, tapos yung party ay nasa garage. O diba, mga anti-socials! Nang dumating si CW, hinanap nya ako kay Boss. Eto namang si Boss, dinala nya si CW sa family room. Ayun, nag-hello lang sya, tapos ni-pinch nya yung left arm ko, tapos nag-hello sya sa mga kinakapatid at ninang ko, tapos aalis din sya agad. Kailangan lang daw nya makausap si Tito Danny (Daddy ni Boss). Okay, fine. Pero buti na lang at naisipan pa nyang hanapin at puntahan ako. Oh well! Wala lang!

Kaya hayun, kahit papaano, completo na ang week ko. Mababaw lang sya, alam ko yun, pero ganun talaga. Masaya na ako kahit kababawan lang yung nangyari sa akin. Heto kasi ang hirap kapag nagmamahal ka ng taong walang pagtingin sa`yo. Masaya ka na kapag nakita mo sya tapos hanggang dun ka na lang sa point na aasa ka na sana maging kayo kahit alam mong suntok sa buwan ang gusto mong mangyari, at okay lang kahit windang ka na sa kaiisip at katatanong sa sarili, "At some point kaya, minahal din nya ako?" . Oh diba, nagpaka-martyr ang bruja!!! Mabait si CW, in fairness. Malamang alam naman nya kung gaano ko sya kagusto, and kahit alam nya yun, hindi man lang sya naiilang or umiiwas, tapos friends pa rin kami.

Sana makahanap na ako ng panibagong taong mamahalin, dapat mauna akong magka-boyfriend bago pa man sya magka-girlfriend dahil hindi ko talaga mate-take na mauna sya sa akin, as-in!

Ang tanga-tanga ko talaga!!!

"If I am not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?"

current mood: nostalgic
current music: Playlist ni Hanzel

(9 blind dates | Find me a Date)

Tuesday, March 11th, 2003
9:48 am - Paano na ang future natin?
A war will break out soon. We don't know when but it's gonna be real soon. No amount of peace rally can stop them. By the look on the Pope's face, you'll see mixed negative emotions. As for the MEN who are responsible for this, the MEN who started it all, let me tell you this, anything that creates chaos is not of God. No matter how much you justify and believe that it is your mission to fight all out--ALONE, the world can sense it in your heart that all you want is power and dominion over all. Greed is all you have and greed is not of God.

I am anxious of what and how our future will become. I have my dreams and amibitions and I want them materialized and live them someday. And imagine how many more youth and people my age who hold the same dreams and ambitions as I do and people who also yearn for the best in their lives like I do. It rages and, at the same time, scares the hell out of me that one day all of our dreams will crumble inevitably not because we failed but because other people prevented us to live them.

This will be just one of the million consequences of your actions and decision. May God bless your soul.

current mood: anxious
current music: Last Beautiful Girl - Matchbox 20

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Thursday, March 6th, 2003
7:05 am - senti tripping
"I gave to you my heart and soul
Now I just need to let you know
You're part of me that I just can't let go"
- I Just Can't Let Go by David Pack

"When I'm weak I draw strength from you
And when you're lost I know how to change your mood
And when I'm down you breathe life over me
Even though we're miles apart we are each other's destiny"
- Destiny by Zero 7

"If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?"
- If You're Not the One by Daniel Bedingfield

"...And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you are the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life..."
- If You're Not the One by Daniel Bedingfield

"I've got the sunshine but i haven't got you"
- Caribbean Blue by Big Mountain

"It's funny how we want the things you haven't got
I heard that time can heal but still the pain won't stop"
- Caribbean Blue by Big Mountain

"As today I know I'm living for tomorrow
Couldn't make me be the past but that I mustn't fear
Now I know deep in my mind
The love of me I left behind
And I'll be loving you always"
- As by Mary J Blige and George Michael

by Pablo Neruda

I don't love you as if you were the salt-rose, topaz
or arrow of carnations that propagate fire:
I love you as certain dark things are loved,
secretly, between the shadow and the soul.
I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and carries
hidden within itself the light of those flowers,
and thanks to your love, darkly in my body
lives the dense fragrance that rises from the earth.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you simply, without problems or pride:
I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving

but this, in which there is no I or you,
so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,
so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close.

current mood: mellow
current music: come around - rhett miller

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Monday, March 3rd, 2003
5:49 pm - that 70's show
i'm not really into watching sitcom/series regularly, not even Friends, because (a) I don't have time, and (b) the only TV series that I religiously awaited almost everyday was Pangako Sa`yo (hahaha! baduy!). But one evening, I decided to catch up on Friends at ABC 5 (local Filly channel) and succeeding it was That 70's Show. I tried watching it and I actually enjoyed the show, now, I am addicted.

Crush ko si Eric Forman played by Topher Grace, grabe!
He reminds me of my nerdy ex-crush back in high school!

Anyway, I haven't gotten any friends here at Blurty yet. Hope to have heaps of them soon. :)

current mood: thirsty
current music: sweet baby - george duke

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7:43 am - i'll be anticipating...
this is something new, huh? :)

i learned this from littlemissy. hehe!

i'll be posting real entries here soon.

adios! :)

current mood: busy
current music: Anticipating - Britney Spears

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