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Wednesday, March 3rd, 2004

(wooteR)

Subject: i melt...everytime you look at me that way Time: 9:32 pm. Mood: confused. Music: rascal flatts- i melt.

gr i keep forgetting about this thing. haha that's right cause i actually have a life now-a-days. me and jimmy are back together, but things are sorta like uhh i dunno. we'll work it out i hope. and well i dunno im just confused about some stuff. friday was karley's house great stuff. i ate about a galloon of pizza and we walked to food lion to buy batteries in the freezing cold and rain, like hobos. and we watched bruce almighty and malibu's most wanted.you betta hope i dont piss in yo trunk! then saturday we went to holly days until like 3ish. fun stuff. k-smoove is the best yo. last night was jessica alfono's birthday, and she had a party and stuff. yah it was fun, jimmy couldnt come which sucked cause alot of people were all you know couple-ish and everything. but it was so fun. i love the millbrook folks, i sincerely wish i could go to school there. i hate sanderson. but of course you all know that by now. haha. yah. today taylor and me went to kayla's. it was great. the shiskineers. gosh i love my friends so much.

(wooteR)

Subject: tonight i'll stand in the light, so you can count how many tears fall from my eyes Time: 11:48 am. Mood: crushed. Music: break up day [x] starting line.

omg. so i'm suggesting everything i've written in my blurtizzle before this post you just completley disregared. because i havent updated in about a month and most of it is bull to me at this point because so much has happened and changed. i tried to delete everything before it but i'm computer illerate and dont know how. but whatever. just dont pay mind to it. anyways. i'm not gonna go on with confusing updates and blahblahs. but i'll just say things have been-no-were- getting better. alot better. a bunch of people come over like everyweekend. i dont feel like an outcast at school. me and jimmy had gotten back together.(for about 3 weeks) i had an awesome thanksgiving break. you know everything was nice until yesterday. jimmy thought that we 'couldnt' talk to each other or something. like there was a block there i guess i know what he was talkng about. but i was trying to suggest something other then breaking up over it. but whatever. i've been hurt by him enough. its over for real this time. pretty much the only people i hang out with are my great friends from millbrook. its sucks cause i wanna go there so bad and i dont get to see them that much. but my mother is a gay and she wont let me transfer no matter what. i really dont see the point in staying at shs. theres seriously nothing here for me. except for like one or 2 people that i really like being around. everyone else is so..uughhh. i'm home sick today. blah. okay well i'm going to stop gibberizing. later dawgs fate fell short this time, smile fades into summer, place your hand in mine, i'll leave when i wanna. this place was never the same again, after you came and went, how can you say you meant anything different to anyone standing alone -- blink 182 (feeling this)

(1 hollerated | wooteR)

Subject: i lied my face off when i said i would be okay Time: 5:44 pm. Mood: drained. Music: three days ago [x] nothing to lose.

i havent posted in a while, eh? lol. alot has happened. the weekend was hellar good. friday i went to karley's and we went trick r treating. we went to this girls house for a bit, there was like a million people there from sanderson and carroll. hm. it was ok. and then i spent the night at kars. FUN STUFF! saturday we went to see this guy david at the hospital. and sat night i went out to eat followed by absloutly nothing. sunday i went to kayla's and chilled with her and taylor! gosh i miss them so much, i wish they went to my school, you have no idea! and wes and jimmy came over later we hung out with them for a while. fun stuff. except for the fact that jimmy is a jerk off. hahaha. many reasons, i dont feel like explaining everything. i didnt get any sleep last night. im so tired, and i hate tuesdays. hateee them. i think theres a soccer game tonight. i wonder if i should go. i dont think i'm going to, i hate the ignoration factor that will probably introduce itself. later. fatally yours [x] alkaline trio there's no mystery no more just no talking to you guess you had other things in store guess i just felt i was through i answered every question as accurately as i could i don't hear from you no more but i get the message you crashed your car through my front door i pulled you from the wreckage you told me that you missed me but you meant with the grill and hood you'd kill me if you could and if it's ok i'll just grab my shit and leave i won't say one word i'll keep my tricks up my sleeve flew off of the handle you opened fire on me put me down, put me out of misery i'm fatally yours you set fire to me that night you lit and left me burning out of my mind but in my sights i saw the tables turning i had a friend that needed me you made a wish that won't come true and now it's killing two and if it's ok i'll just grab my shit and leave i won't say one word i'll keep my tricks up my sleeve flew off of the handle you opened fire on me put me down, put me out of misery i'm fatally yours i'm fatally yours i'm fatally yours i'm fatally yours i'm fatally yours

(wooteR)

Subject: she wants someone to see her, she needs to hear shes beautiful... Time: 4:11 pm. Mood: blah. Music: i want to save you [x] soco.

today sucked. i cant beleive its only tuesday. its not like anything inparticular happened that made it so horrible. it just was.but so is every other day. i act so diffrent at school. i act like nothing could piss me off or like make me sad...unless im joking. but then i come home and its like all the shit that i've been holding in cant stay in any longer or something and i become one big huge emotastic ball of ugh-ness. haha. but yah. im bored. and not feeling well. i guess i'll just go to sleep. later.

(wooteR)

Subject: maybe its not over yet Time: 9:21 pm. Mood: chipper. Music: A.W.O.L [x] yellowcard.

today was actually not bad. i mean, nothing particularly wonderful happened. it was a just an alrite-ish day. and i was feeling pretty confident. weird..i know..hahah. but i mean i dont have any stories or anything entertaining or whatever to say. im shutting up now. see yas (i wrote this last night...) sleep doesnt come easy though im tired and sick i close my eyes and the worries pour through the thoughts i cant stand i open my eyes the thoughts never leave im a walking disease call me 'girl without hope' but sometimes when i close my eyes, everythings blank i need something i need something to get me through the night thing i should do things i wish i could do pull me through, pull me through the night

(wooteR)

Subject: carry me, carry me softly Time: 5:39 pm. Mood: depressed. Music: caldecott tunnel [x] soco.

i'm still out-there. i wonder whats wrong with me. i've just been so depressed or something. all i feel like doing is lying around. like sleeping my life away or something. yah i wrote a poem, i know im really bad at poetry...but yah just dont laugh or something. nothing [x] by me lost in nothing surrounded by no one just lonley, just wasted why would anyone waste away with me? if i had the strength i would end it now surrounded in pain the nothingness sure to fade but for now ill just complain, in my mind try my best to hold it inside wait for something worth living for

(wooteR)

Subject: the feelings wont let go Time: 5:27 pm. Mood: lonely. Music: starting line [x] thanks, your the best.

im so out of it today I'm 90% EMO, how about you? I'm 65% loser, how about you? I'm 25% prep, how about you? im too dead to write much. im just listening to some emo and sulking by my lonesome. no particular reasons, well..yes there are a couple reasons...but theyre staying inside chelsea's mind. sometimes my dreams are so far fetched, i know that the things i want will never happen. so y do i keep wishing for what i know i cant have. im just screwing myself over.

(wooteR)

Subject: some things never do change Time: 9:01 pm. Mood: drained. Music: cavanaugh park [x] soco.

i so dont feel like writing alot right now. but im going to do it anyways. cause i love my adoring fans...oh wait...no one reads this shit...muahaha. ok moving on... we got out at 12:20 today..wooteR. me and mel went to the fair. it was originally me mel christina and hallie. but things didnt quite work out, whatever. anyways...we went to the fair. lines were nonexsistant. it was wonderful, expecially when compared to the overcrowditity this weekend had possesed. lol. so anyways. we hung out with lots of peoples too. first we hung out with melinda and some of her friends for a while. then we saw laura and allison and hung out with her and met up with adam and jimmy and a bunch of people i didnt know..hah. then we left them and hung out with giggey mary alex and morgan for a bit. then we left at about 5:30 cause mel had to go to dance in the soccer game (which didnt even happen. bleH.) and now im sitting in my room. a little upset-ish (dont ask y because i will never tell anyone..*evil grin*) so anyways. im bored as hell and avoiding homework at all possible costs.so heres some more shiznat?...? byeee-yuh! Which Holiday are YOU? Find out @ RelentlessDivas.Net! i cant explain the reason for this but somehow theres pain holding this inside, where it stays until i find the key to your heart but you make it so hard but if hope is around, one day i'll find it -nothing to lose

(1 hollerated | wooteR)

Subject: better to die then to live without you Time: 5:36 pm. Mood: exhausted. Music: been alone [x] off by one.

i just got home from melissa's like 10 minutes ago. i've spent the entire weekend with her haha. i ended up going along with her and nicole to the fair, im glad i did too, it was mega fun. hah. so anyways...the fair was super fun.i saw tons of ppl i knew too. when we first got there we went down to the midway and we hung out with logan and zac for a while. (sexy beasts heh) then we were in line for something and a million of our millbrookian friends (kayla, jess, thomas, evan, evans g/f, al, jaxon, and some other people) came and hung out with us for a while. we ate so much. then we hung out with ben for a bit. and we were gonna give him a ride home but he had to make fun of the chelsea trashcan so we left him and he got mad and didnt want our ride anymore i think? haha. we ate so fucking much too. fdsajkf! hah. and we almost got raped by these old guys in the hot dog place...eek. me and nicole stayed over at mel's. i fell asleep like right when we walked in the door. i was tuckered hahah. nicole had to leave really early like 10 or osmething and me and mel woke up at like 12 and went to taco bell (yumyum) and then went back to sleep until like 4:45 when i went home. which is where i am now. and im still tired but i gotta clean my room and shit. ugh. well, byee

(wooteR)

Subject: cause i have found, all that shimmers in the world will slowly fade away..again.. Time: 12:06 pm. Mood: disappointed. Music: made [x] mtv.

holy shit. my dad like cut his finger like really bad. i think its gonna fall off? woah. drama over here. and im getting blamed for not hearing him yell? well duh, did i forget everythings chelsea's faultup in hurr. anyways. i dont have anyone to go to the fair with. it sucks. the only person i would really wanna go with is mel and i'd feel tagalongish if i went with her and nicole. i dunno. mel's still here. were watching made. hm..interesting episode..hahah dont ask. i just really really hope i find somoene to go with. cause i really wanna go. ugh it sucks not having friends. ok well i guess i'll go take a shower or something? i dont know? byeee.

(2 hollerated | wooteR)

Subject: i want you to know that i miss you, i miss you Time: 12:06 am. Mood: awake. Music: finch [x] letters to you.

today was alrite. fridays :-) hehe. i went home with meli after school, then we went up to cici's and met up with ben. or smoove, hahaha. and me and melissa had some pretty bad encounters with our drinks (big time spillage). then we went home? and ben is now my protecter so dont mess with me or him and his friends will beat ur arse! hah? ok...then we went home and allowed our pants to dry from the soda, and went to the millbrook game. ugh i was pissed. all my former great friends from west were too fucking good to talk to chelsea, i guess. but whatever. then itpoured. and we got soaked and went home. gr. then we went to meli's and hung out there for a while. i snagged a great necklace, and a new incenser burner from her junk drawer. wootie woo. and now were back at my place just chillen around, bored as hell, like always. ok. the end? i'm tired of lying about not thinking about you...-alkaline trio

(wooteR)

Subject: you dont do it on purpose, but you make me shake Time: 6:20 pm. Mood: contemplative. Music: hurricane [x] something coporate.

im writing the puposeless post now. it seems like i have nothing to post about now-a-days. life is so dull latley, i just try to contain my boredom with all those damn quizes and of course music.and latley ive been contemplating how i feel about everything, because im still not really sure. i had asd today. sucked major ass. we played marco polo and the penis game! hah. ben got kicked out too of course. and i saw a really cute guy in there. woot. then i just had some pizza. its a fine evening! hah. blue carolina [x] alkaline trio it's everything that i can do right now to not think about you moving further off with every passing second and every night of this lonely summertime i feel you missing from my heart, a part was kidnapped from my soul chorus well i can hardly wait... until i get the sun and your lips both pressing on my skin well i can hardly wait... until i feel that thrill my heart that starts inside your eyes and a song in my head that burns so good on my tongue yes i will the night is aging as the sun warms your face won't you turn around and stay for good, the air is getting much too cold i am nervous and anxious. it really counts this time and you know all my favorite singers have stolen all of my best lines chorus someday i'll burn this bed, only two feet wide but where i'll hide... for the next seventeen days...i will ask myself, "how badly do i want this?" i really want this

(wooteR)

Subject: dashboard quiz Time: 5:03 pm. Mood: bored. Music: something corporate-huricane.

You are: Saints and Sailors! You are one depressed little fucker. You spend your nights alone waiting for something to happen because you dont want take the time and energy to get it yourself. You've been hurt constantly by someone you love and you're not sure why you're still putting up with them. You see yourself as someone innocent who is out there only to get hurt. What Dashboard Confessional song describes your life? brought to you by Quizilla

(wooteR)

Subject: you were the best thing that i ever ever had. Time: 3:44 pm. Mood: lonely. Music: the starting line-thanks your the best.

Take the test, by Emily. its rainy. i think i failed my clothing design midterm. how fucked is that. heh. im feeling a little distrought, maybe its just the weather. im just kind of not happy about anything. but i guess im not sad so its all good. i might go down to adams. heh.

(wooteR)

Subject: but you were the one who stole my heart, sorry i cant tell you what you need to hear Time: 1:15 pm. Mood: bored. Music: off by one-untouchable.

Although your name of Chelsea gives you a good appreciation of material values, business ability, and skill in organizing and managing others, your success is restricted by a lack of self-confidence and initiative. This name brings out a practical, materialistic quality, with a strong desire for a good standard of living in an environment where you are in contact with refined, successful people. You try to further your interests through pursuing the association of people with influence. Being well-groomed and well-dressed at all times is important to you as you always strive to make a good impression on others. Your interests are more focused on your social life and convivial living, with any pressing or difficult issues being put off as long as possible. went to some website. thats what it says about me (because of my name?). suprisingly true. herm...more quizzes: I am 23% Geek I wanna be a geek. But I'm not. Why would I even want to be one. Do I think it's fun? I should try writting an online test application at 1 am in my underwear Take the Geek Test at fuali.com I am 41% Emo Hmm.. I should stop listening to Dashboard Confessional.... enough said... Now that I stopped looking at my shoes, I know how the real world looks. Take the Emo Test at fuali.com I am 48% Internet Addict I could go either way. Deep into the madness of nights filled with coding CGI-Scripts and online role playing games, or I could become a normal user. Good luck! Take the Internet Addict Test at fuali.com I am 63% Evil Genius Evil courses through my blood. Lies and deceit motivate my evil deeds. Crushing the weaklings and idiots that do nothing but interfere in my doings. Take the Evil Genius Test at fuali.com

(wooteR)

Subject: i dont wanna be happy tomorrow...i wanna be happy today Time: 10:01 am. Mood: tired. Music: ben kweller- superneat.

hm, im bored as usual. for some reason i can't explain i got out of bed at 9:45, despite the fact that im still tired. oh well. last night was so fucking boring. hah me and karley just spazzed and fought over ashton kutchers lower areas all night. and i had a fight (no fists invovled..haha) w/ mel. im still kinda pissed though cause she still seems to think they i say shit about lauren which is really bull but whatever... i stole this from mel's blurty...*evil faceish thingy* What Makes You Sexy? by eva71 Name/NickName Gender Sexy Body Part Is Your Lips Special Talents Are Looking Innocent Created with quill18's MemeGen! well from the looks of things robert has a new girlfriend or osmething and im fucking happy because im tired of this blah blah shit with him hahah. 'im asleep so i dunno call and wake me up but call the cell i love u kayla im so happy were back together and i hope we stay togaether forever' that was his aways message. ok "I can't explain the reason for this, but somehow theres pain holding this inside where it stays until i find the key to heart but you make it so hard but if hope is around one day i'll find it" -nothing to lose

(wooteR)

Subject: her iq is shorter then her skirt...hahah i <3 off by one Time: 5:57 pm. Mood: bouncy. Music: off by one-high school.

i truly adore saturdays. lol. slept in till 12:30..ahhh! then i woke up and got dressed on the way to the mall we had to go pick up my sisters boyfriend...we got very lost. very lost. hahah, then we finally go there and my mom and i went to get our hair cut. i got some vans (but their too big :-(..), a scarf, some dora the explorer sox,woot. and we had some chickfila. i saw thomas and willy. cool cats. i saw hallie too but she didnt see me :-(. well. i went to colbys to get my clothes that i had left there forever and more ago. and of course logan is so against me for some reason that he cant even say hello to me when im in his own fucking house. but whatever? hah ok. so homecomings tonight and im not going. long story, but i dont regret not going. my parents are at the canes opening night game (not fucking fair) and im stuck here watching my sister. blah. well im out...later

(wooteR)

Subject: ughlicious Time: 2:04 am. Mood: bored. Music: mtv (ick).

super bored. like really. im drowning in boredness over here. i guess i should sleep. later fools. what do they really think of you by purple lj name sex age your best friend thinks you look good in pink your family think The sun shines from your arse strangers think you're just plain wierd Created with quill18's MemeGen!

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