|
||||||
| happy two months. | ||||||
|
|
Blurty for Chelsea.
|
|||||||||||
| Tuesday, January 27th, 2004 |
|
||
| i cant go back to yesterday cause i was a different person then | ||
|
|
| Tuesday, December 23rd, 2003 |
|
||
|
she says, "I will hold on" To her own reflection, she says, "I will be strong" |
||
|
|
| Friday, November 28th, 2003 |
|
||||||
| happy two months. | ||||||
|
|
| Sunday, November 23rd, 2003 |
|
||||
you were the star of all my dreams last night
|
||||
|
|
| Saturday, November 22nd, 2003 |
|
||||
do all of your relationships a favor |
||||
|
|
| Friday, November 7th, 2003 |
|
||||
| if theres anything anyone has to say to me, please do. | ||||
|
|
| Sunday, October 19th, 2003 |
|
||||||
|
i saw your sandcastle world collapse when the sun sank and the tide drew too near im going to piece all these fragile shells that make up your heart back together :) |
||||||
|
|
| Thursday, October 16th, 2003 |
|
||
|
the teacher asked the children to point to where their heart is... and the little girl in the back of class pointed to her throat. the teacher knelt down by her side and whispered "that's not where your heart is"... and the little girl said "yes it is - it's choking me" |
||
|
|
| Friday, September 26th, 2003 |
|
||||||
|
this week.... not good. all i have to say is.. i believe you now. i truly am fucked up let's just leave it at that bye |
||||||
|
|
| Monday, September 22nd, 2003 |
|
||
|
how original. -who else hates it when their shit is copied???- |
||
|
|
|
||
|
i just got off the phone:) and josh just told me a cheezy pick up line:) today has been wonderful!:) we picked up damen this afternoon!:) we went to a chinese restaurant.. god i miss that boy so much.. but he's doing ok.. and his mom is really a nice person that makes it a whoooole lot easier.. i hated saying goodbye to him but i know he's happy.. so i'm happy:) but yea:) today was great:) esp the last few hours! SOMEBODY MAKE ME STOP SMILING:) --EMILY!!-- LJ is having a birthday party on saturday at 1:30 at expo bowl in BG PLLLLEASE COME!!! get ahold of me somehow to let me know if you can!:) <33 **if i could rearrange the alaphbet i would put U and I together** :) i miss you josh! good night:) see most of you in the mornin when the sun comes up:) |
||
|
|
| Thursday, September 18th, 2003 |
|
||
|
I JUST GOT THE NEW SAVES THE DAY CD i like it.. alot:) so today.. and yesterday.. were pretty good at school had GQE testing:-\ it was cool though, i got caught up on my sleep:) some parts of yesterday really sucked.. like as soon as my mom got home she was all bitchy JUST TO ME and like.. made me cry then everyone went to see damen.. i really wanted to go.. but just thinking about that boy makes me cry so it would have been way to hard to see him right now i didn't really get much sleep last night.. kept getting woken up by the phone:) yesterday.. hmm... oh! justin asked me to homecoming i really dont wanna go to the dance though but i think i am today was.. weird.. i dont know.. i felt like shit *cramps suck:(* buttt i was in a really good mood all day.. i couldnt stop laughing in 10th period.. dk why but right now i'm at patti's tomarrow IM GOING TO THE CIRCUS lol then nothing else yet over the weekend.. so if anyone wants to make plans let me know!:) well i g2g do journalism & theater.. saved it till the last minute *go me* have a wonderful evening:) |
||
|
|
| Tuesday, September 16th, 2003 |
|
||
|
guess who i just got off the phone with?? ...... :) |
||
|
|
|
||||||
|
look at me i can't stop smiling i am happy without you :) |
||||||
|
|
| Wednesday, September 10th, 2003 |
|
||||
|
just want to say thank you to my wonderfuldidilytastic friends who helped cheer me up today:) -emily; for commenting -shawna; for iming me -janice; for hugs and kisses -ashley; for being there to have fun with today -molly; for the joke lol i love you girls:) i'm feeling a lot better now i think just because it hasn't really set in.. i know soon i'll feel like shit again when i realize he really won't be living here anymore but i'm trying to be happy and "cheer up" thank you guys:) xoxox |
||||
|
|
|
||||
|
sitting here in journalism.. 2nd period and I WANT TO GO HOME today will be shit, i can tell *psychic* :"( my stomach hurts i am not in the mood for theater (next peirod) and having to play all those dumb games and last period.. sucked. i got called down to my couselour to talk about my grades:-\ and people just piss me off. i hate that she makes me feel bad and makes me feel like i shouldn't be talking to him even though she already has a boyfriend i know if my friend was about to get with a guy i like, i would be reallllllllly mad.. but i dont know because if i already had a boyfriend i wouldn't be talking about other guys so i shouldn't care right? but i do i'm too good of a friend:-\ haha welllllll edith says hi:) and i gotta go now -5 mins left- **damey's not gonna be there when i get home:"(:"(:"( i hate this. |
||||
|
|
| Tuesday, September 9th, 2003 |
|
||||
|
you ever feel so bad.. so low.. that you just feel like you can't get any worse? and will never feel any better? yea, i feel that way right now school was great.. more later but as soon as i walk in the door, i find out damen's going home tomarrow not really a surprise.. but i was just really hoping he wouldn't it's so god damn hard and it's gonna be so hard for me not to cry all damn day tomarrow hopefully i wont since school. but anyways... about school today lol it was crazy found out some stuff that scares me :-\ but i'm gonna pretend it's not true theater sucked today.. the teacher gets on my nerves. i have a 68.8 D in english.. that sucks me and janice kissed today and all these black girls were like EWWWW DID YOU SEE THAT?? it was funny. man i really feel like shit:( .you ask my friends about me. .you look me in the eye. .you go out of your way to talk to me. .you compliment me. .you listen to me. .you make me smile. .you always try to cheer me up. .you like the same stuff as me. .you care. so why don't i? am i scared to get hurt again? ..but you wouldn't hurt me. am i scared to get rejected? ..my friend's say you really like me. am i still longing for him? :( |
||||
|
|
| Monday, September 8th, 2003 |
|
||
|
ASHLEY ASKED ME TO GO TO HOMECOMING WITH HER! i have a date!:) -that doesn't make me gay does it? hmm... :) |
||
|
|
|
||||
|
is it all really worth it? i am SOOOO fucking sick and tired of my friends ..more like ONE certain friend.. i'm tired of caring.. and i'm not anymore because they don't.. and haven't ANYWAYS! school was wonderful:) THREE times:) yay for that annnd he was asking about me at lunch except the stupid chinese girl had to ruin it lol no but yea.. today was great and now i'm goin to bed cause i'm very sleepy nitey nite:) |
||||
|
|
|
||||||
|
i'm in 2nd period.. journalism suppost to be writing up some interveiw.. but i dont really feel like it i'm in a decent mood.. i just dont feel like doing anything today i talked to someone this morning:):) edith isn't here.. i'm bored out of my damn mind i was supposed to go over patti's today buttt i decided not to because MY TOKEYO BROTHER lol that's not funny is probably going home on wednesday:"(:"(:"( that's gonna suck i spent all weekend with that boy.. im gonna miss him soo sooo soo much ah but anyways... i'm gonna go emily-- i read your journal and i dont know what exactly happened but i'm really sorry:( your a kabillion times prettier AND cooler than her so keep your head up:) |
||||||
|
|
Blurty for Chelsea.
|
|||||||||||
thankful.
curious.
busy.
sad.