chelle's thoughts

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6:40pm: OMG!!!
Lookie, lookie, we finally got the internet!! Man it feels good to be typing in my blurty once again. It has been over a year since I have had the internet all because of having to budget around my bundle of joy!!
hopefully I can get her to type something


No she is playing right now. And trying to put on some lipstick.

It feels kinda weird typing now. Since I had got the internet turned off I have had to resort to the old fashioned pen and paper.

Ok, I am gonna go now b/c my boyfriend is home now.

4:52pm:

You Know You're Hispanic When....

You grew up scared of something called "el cuco". Dinner usually consists of rice, beans and some type of meat. You were raised of Goya products You have ever used your nose or lips to point something out. You've ever dropped food on the floor, picked it up, ate it after saying, "Lo que no mata engorda". You've been hit by a chancleta. You constantly refer to cereal as "con flei". You can tell the difference between arroz canilla and everything else. People tell you to stop screaming when you`re really just talking. You've gone outside your house with rollos and chancletas. Whenever you're angry, you spout off a torrent of "cono", "punetta" and "carajjo". You've been hit with either the cord of the plancha or la correa. You know when your mom is sneaking up on you because you hear the "clack clack" her chancletas. Your mother yells at the top of her lungs to call you to dinner and your in the next room. You start celebrating before you even win a lotto and next thing you know you don't. Your house has all of those little figuras that take up every inch of space on/under the TV and you have either one of the following: a porcelain cat, dog, owl, of elephant in your living room. Your sofa is covered in plastic. If you know who Don Francisco is. (from Sabado Gigante) If you go to a wedding or some gathering, gossip about how bad the food is, but are the first to get a plate to go. If you`re sister has more moustache hair than your father (lmao j/k) If your uncle or relative down the street owns more gold than the jewlery shop down the street. If you can dance merengue, cumbia, and salsa without music. If you use manteca instead of olive oil and cant figure why your a$$ is getting bigger. If you just cant imagine anyone not liking spanish food. If you`ve been in a two-passenger car with over seven people in it, with a person shouting, "entren, que caben mas!" If you call your sneakers "tenis" If your car has speakers in it that could drive a def man crazy. If you have at least 30 cousins If you start clapping when your plane lands on the runway. If you say crazy things like "me cago en diez" or "me cago en na" If you consider platanos to be a food group If you have a family member that lives in washington heightz If you waste all of your money on Frio-Frio If when in your country u hear the neighbors screaming "se fue la lus!" If you eat mangu or fritos with ketchup If all your pots and pans are kept inside the oven If you say things like: ANDA LA MIE*DA ANDA EL DIABLO EL DIACHE EL DIABLO QUE VAINA DIMELO TA TO Y ES FACIL QUE LO QUE A PO TA BIEN QUE TRIPEO TU SI JODE TA VACANO TA JEVI LA CRETA TU TA PASA OR PASAO COJELO SUAVE NO TE QUILLE DEGRASIA MALBA BARBARASA

I probably DON'T have maybe 5 or 6 of these things going on in my parents house.

3:59pm: So...
I had the baby, a beautiful baby girl. I have been going to school with her.
I got an email today from my academic advisor saying that some people don't feel comfortable with me bringing her so I asked the a.a. for a meeting tomorrow, and to make this long story short, I will probably drop out of college.

12:29pm: OK...
Today is tuesday, I am gonna go to the hospital midnight today to get prepared to be induced. You know I still need to get my bag packed.

I skipped class today because I don't want to get distracted by anything today. Actually, with skipping school today I was able to sleep in until 11:15am. I didn't wake up for an hour or two in the morning and then go back to sleep, I actually stayed in a good solid sleep until 11.

Whoa, isn't everything just happening so fast for me?? I don't know what is up with me, sometimes I feel so happy about her, then other times I become so riddled with anxiety that I really feel scared and lonely. Oh well, I think that these feeling are natural for being pregnant.

David just called me a second ago. He was on his lunch break. He was picking on a grasshopper, then all of a sudden I heard him make a little yelping sound. He was like, 'the grasshopper jumped on my hand chelle and I sreamed.' All I could say to him is that he is just too cute, screaming when a bug jumps on him. That is just one of the many reasons that I love him.

Ya, I just checked a voice message left on my cell phone and it said that I have a doctors appointment with my doctor at 1:40pm on Wednesday... but I though that I was supposed to be getting induced with the petocin at that time. I am gonna have to call them and ask what is going on. I can't be at 2 places at once.

I am gonna straighten up more of the baby's stuff today then I am gonna take a bath and run some errands.

You know, right now I just feel a little unreal since I know what is gonna happen to me in a little while.

I am gonna go ahead and get off of here so I can start doing stuff. Man, I am gonna have to dress cool because it is supposed to be 90degrees outside today.

10:20am: Well, well...
I went to the doctors yesterday, and I actually heard something different...

I am one centimeter dialated!!! yeah, I am so happy that my body is trying to do something to help me. And I guess that those back aches I get in the middle of the night aren't just regular back aches then. I am still working though. I don't want to stop working because then time will really drag, but sometimes it does feel good to sit back and relax. I actually have this saturday off and I didn't even request it. The only sucky thing is that David is gonna go to KC this weekend to get his mom. So even though I have part of the weekend off I still won't be able to spend it with him. Maybe that is a good thing so I can sleep.

I feel like taking a nap right now but the maintenance man is here and I wouldn't feel comfortable enough to lay down and actually go to sleep.

Another thing that me and my doctor discussed... She said that by Sept 1, my due date, we could induce if I wanted and I said ya, I really did want to induce on that day if my body is not doing anything. So what the game plan is is on tuesday midnight, a little after midnight me and David are going to go to the hospital so they can put a pill in my vaggie so that the tissue in there can soften up, and they will put a pill in every four hours, then in the morning they will put the artificial oxytocin (petocin) in an IV and then I will begin to contract. I wonder if I will be able to handle that pain. I wonder if they will even let me walk off the pain. But for some reason I think that my body is going to do this naturally and I might need a little help from medicine but not much.

Ya, the maintenance man just took off the sliding glass door to fix it because it takes a little umph to get it open. Huh, at least it will be fixed for the baby. I have her bag packed but I need to get my bag packed. David has been bitchy lately. He won't let me rest for shit. He will pester and pester me if it is my turn to cook dinner or wash dishes because... he can't handle doing both of those things in one night, oh no, you would have to be crazy to think that he is gonna do that. You know I really am going to enjoy it when I can't do anything for those first few days, but he is gonna have it easy since his mom will be staying with us.

Man, lately I have been breaking out into some crazy stress hives and it is so damn annoying.

Well I am gonna go now because I have some shit that I need to get done.

9:17pm: ONE WEEK THREE DAYS...
Doesn't sound too far away, but it definitely feels too far away. This is just too much for me.

All she does is kick my ribs and puts pressure on my back and she stretches my skin so tight it turns white. This is just too much.

I feel so pooped and tired and I feel like I never get a break. All I do is work. I am still working 30 hours a week.

The sucky thing about all this is that I am not getting any real contractions. It is just her jiggling around in there like she wants it to be her permanent home.

It just hurts so much. I will have the next doctors appointment on wednesday and ask if I am supposed to feel this way.

This is all for now. I feel so tired right now I am having difficulties keeping myself sitting up.

And on top of this all I have to be at work at six am, not six thirty am.

ttfn.

5:28pm: so slow, the time goes by...
man, everthing is taking forever, the actual time is flying by, but it feels like I am standing on the side lines watching it not feeling anything.

Part of it is being really anxious, part of it is being really scared, and part of it is thinking...

Can I really make it with a kid? Will we be able to survive if it is only David bringing in some sort of income?

All of this will be answered soon in the future...

Right now I have exactly two weeks left until my due date come around.

My doctor told me, "Now is the time to start having lots of sex." My body and this pregnancy...

It not doing anything. I feel no contractions, I am not dialated at all, and there is just nothing going on with my body.

Sometimes I feel like I am going to be really lost because there is going to be no one down here to help us out at all. There is no family that lives anywhere near us, they are all at least two hours away. So...

Here I am with no one around me. No one to talk to, ask questions to, what is a person to do in a situation like this???

I don't know, I have never known anyone to be totally without family.

10:56am: oh my, how long has it been since I have written in this thing?? For some reason I am losing my infatuation with blurty and am thinking about going back to using pen and paper. For some reason that way feels a bit more nostalgic to me. And I won't have to be near a computer to capture one of my confusing thoughts.

Well, the birdies finally have their own cages. The boy birdie made a big old bald spot in the back of girl birds head. And now that they are separated boy bird is the one that stresses out that he isn't with her and she is just enjoying all of her new cage space. I wanted her to go into the new cage because I had bought new toys for her, but boy birdie was the one that worked up the nerve to explore the new cage and stay in there. They are doing a little bit better today.

Did I ever mention that I am having a baby girl?? I am so happy, she already has a few cute outfits. I cant wait until she comes out. Next wednesday will be my nine month mrak. Only one more month.... and I will.... actually have a baby in my arms. Whoa, that is gonna be wierd. I really don't feel ready to be a mother. I am going to be in charge of someones life for me to develop. That is pretty scary.

Ok, I have to get off of here and get ready for work. I will type again asap.

10:28am: This stupid thing...
Blurty is going so slow right now, I almost fell asleep waiting for it to get to the update page.

I am so tired. All night long all I did was toss and turn it was horrible. I would lay on one side and I guess that the baby would land right on my siatic nerve and I would be laying there feeling like the nerve in my hip was being pinched by some naughty demon or something. And when I would toss on the other side the same exact thing would happen to me. So at around three am I just woke up and laid there listening to david sleep. He sounded so precious.

And then I didn't get to sleep in or even rest in the morning. The kitten started crying as soon as the alarm clock went off so I let it out of the bathroom. Then it wanted to play, but only in the bedroom. I did that all morning with it from about 6-7:30 until I had to get ready for school. So by the time I had put it back in the bathroom so I could head out to school, it was happy to go there and just go to sleepl. I also gave it a little bit of warm milk because he kept on trying to get near my cereal bowl. I think that made him a little bit sleepy. But today, when David picks me up, we are going to take it to the shelter since nobody wants it and we can't keep it.

Oops! I know what I forgot to do this morning... give the kitty more food. He wasn't all the out, but he didn't have a whole lot left. And we had to stop feeding it canned cat food because he would get so gassy that even if we picked him up, he would lay a stank ass fart that lingered in the air. So now he is only having crunchy kitty food with some water to soften it up. I looked in his mouth to see how many teeth he has, and he has his 2 fangs on the bottom and 2 on the top, and 2 teeth on the top and 2 on the bottom in the back of his mouth. No other teeth at all, it is all just pink gums. He even still has all of his milk teeth, those haven't even started to fall out. Poor kitty, I wonder how it got separated from its mom. It is lucky we took it in or else it would have probably dehydrated since the last 2 days were in the ninties. But, it has to go away today.

David cleaned up the bedroom. I am really proud of him. He even rearranged it to how I wanted it. He has the bassinet all set up and everything. I remember when i first got the bassinet/playpen, I just looked at it, like we bought something that was still useless to us, but now that it's set up and I am so close to popping, I can imagine my baby just laying in it. How scary. It is gonna be wierd when it comes.

Very Exciting News, only 5 more days until I go to get my 4-D sonogram. That is just so awesome, I am actually gonna know the sex of my baby!!!!!!!!!!!

I should get off of the computer, but I don't feel like studying right now, although I should since there is a test on Friday. Can you believe it, summer school is already almost over. And when summer school is almost over, that means that it will be August, and I will be starting my ninth month of pregnancy. Oh my, I am so not ready for my personal human being to come into the real world.

Ok, I will get off right now. Maybe I will update later on depending on how much I stick to the 'planned' schedule for today.

3:12pm: I am bored right now. I have to be at work at 4:00pm. The good thing is that I get off at 8:00pm, yeah, I don't have to close tonight.

Last night I had to close and let me just say that staying up that late and being even a bit physically active almost kills me. I was tired when I went to work. I got tired as I was at work and I got even more tired when we were closed and everyone was trying to hurry to get out of there a little bit early. Then I was tired when I got home and my hips were sore from standing up so long. I got home and I could tell that the baby was ready to wake up and have a party inside of me. So I decided to sleep sitting up. I tried that for about an hour and most of it was pretty comfortable, then like 10 minutes until one in the morning I had to lay down to actually fall into a deep sleep.

Then I woke up at 7:20am this morning and got ready to go to school, and I was gonna get my water bottle filled up for the walk to school, but when I went to get it I remembered that I had left in my car, which David now takes to work in the mornings. So, I had to start up his big green monster, it died out at a freakin stop light in the middle of morning rush, but I did finally make it to his work to get my stuff out of the car. I then had to drive all the way back to school, and park where the stupid meters are, then I walked to school. While in class taking notes, the baby decided to do it's version of tae bo, in which it just kicked the shit out of me.

I got out of class and made it back home. I immediately went to the gueania pigs cage to clean it since I had promised her since yesterday. I set her down to run and got the cage down, took off the top, and then I had to sit down and rest because the baby was squishing my lungs. I should have never rested then and should have just keep on working because after that I wasn't able to bend down, or sit indian style and so I couldn't clean her cage. I just figured that I would wait for David to come home and finish it.

Speaking of him, his very obedient butt went to school to wait for me to come out of the library because I was supposed to be waiting there since I was also supposed to walk to school, but because his cell phone is dead I had no way to call him and tell him that I was already home. I told him that I just figured that he would come home about eleven thirty and see if I was at home. Oh well, he finally made it home and that is all that matters to me.

Then I told him that I couldn't finish cleaning out the piggies cage since I couldn't bend down that far without feeling really uncomfortable. He complained and moaned about it for a while, butr he had managed to get it all cleaned out (he even did it faster than I normally do). And I told him that he needed to stop complaining about cleaning the cage because this is the first time that he has had to clean the cage since we had got her back around christmas time.

Then I had a doctor's appointment today. I think she told me that I am exactly 32 weeks along today, so lets see, 8*4=32, so I am exactly eight months today. hooray!!!! I am so emotional about that. It means that I only have two more months to go with lugging this baby around, but then it means that I only have 2 more months until I have my very own human being to take care of.

I have to go now and start getting ready to head off to work. Supposedly a big storm is supposed to be coming our way, but I don't know.

Ya, David fixed the gas bill, originally they tried to bill us for $120, when the only thing we use gas for is hot water, one which we don't use that often, but then the lady told David to go read the meter and it looks like they were wrong. David just has to call back tomorrow to get the new price of the bill.

Ok, I am really gonna go now.

10:16am: I am really really tired this morning.

We got home at about 10:30, stayed up to watch the weather channel, and tend to the animals as neccessary, then we crawled into bed. Of course as usual it took me a while to actually go to sleep while the baby was making itself comfortable. Then I had to set the alarm clock to a new time for David's new work schedule...

So at 5:45am the alarm went off and I rubbed David's back so he could wake up peacefully and he did and I am glad of that because I didn't feel like talking yet. I laid there and tried to fall asleep again while he was taking his shower, but the only thing I got accomplished was laying there. So then the baby started to kick my bladder and I was forced to get out of bed, I had to rock myself a little to get enough momentum to sit up, then I felt a little better because the dull pain in my hip becomes a little less noticable. When I put my feet on the ground to start walking to the b-room, they were so swollen, it was horrible. I almost lost my balance because they were swollen. Then I tried to walk on my toes instead of my feet but no, my toes were just as swollen. After I finished peeing I went back to sit in bed (I didn't lay since that is somewhat of an uncomfortable position) for about 20-30 minutes. David had already left because with his new schedule he has to be there at 7:00am.

I finally hopped into the shower kinda late, I didn't feel like moving too much. I got out of the bathroom and got dressed, slowly did my hair and got my shoes on and started putting all the neccessary things in my bookbag. Then I am gonna get some graham crackers to much on and leave when all of a sudden I had to make an emergency bathroom break. Got that done and out of the way I finally left for my long walk to school at about 8:20am.

It was a nice walk, being that it was still really early and still cool outside. So I got to walking, and that first big ass hill that you meet when you get onto the sidewalk is pretty damn tough, I almost started panting. I kept on walking and the baby loved it. I could feel it moving a little bit, but I think that it was really enjoying the ride.

I got to class about 7-8 minutes before it started and I was chillin cooling down because I had started to sweat and I got relaxed. Then the teacher started lecturing and I was taking notes and all of a sudden the baby decides to be wide awake and stretching every body part that it has. So I start wrestling with that trying to get comfortable and ignore what was going on inside of me, then all of a sudden the biggest wave of fatigue comes over me. I felt like I barely had enough strength to hold up my clipboard, and my vision was getting blurry, and I would lose focus on what I was writing. It was horrible. Finally, for maybe the last 10 minutes of class I found a position to sit in that let me stretch out and give the baby room but it also helped me stay awake a little better.

And class ended so right now I am in the library of the school waiting for 11:00am when David gets off of work so he can pick me up and we can go home and.... start doing a list of tasks I have already composed in my head.

Ok, I am gonna go play on the internet right now.

10:24pm: bored bored bored.

Nothing to do right now. I am just waiting for nothing.

cooking dinner right now. Hamburger Helper Nacho cheesy.

Maybe I will play a video game. or read a book. or draw. I don't know.

10:42am: My Gosh, when was the last time???
I don't even remember the last time I updated. I feel bad for neglecting my blurty.

I am getting pretty big now. This morning after my shower I found that I couldn't dry off the bottom part of my leg. Probably in a few more weeks David will have to start helping me with that. The baby is getting so big now. I can tell that it is gaining alot of weight. Then it uses up so much of my energy.

For my birthday David is gonna take me to the Topeka mall so we can have those 4D pictures taken of the baby. We are going to get the big package too that allows you to get a 10 minute DVD of watching the baby move in utero. So, for my birthday I am going to know the sex of my baby.

Ya, I am going to chemistry for summer school. That is 5 days a week. Then I am working 30 hours. I know that that isn't alot but it really does take alot out of me, especially when I have to close and get out late, then go to bed late, and still have to wake up early. It sucks because it just feels like I never have a day off. I only get one or two days off of work and those are usually on the weekday, so when I have no school on the weekend, those are the days that I put in my seven hour shifts.

I am gonna have to cut this short bacause I am going to eat and start getting ready for school.

11:01am: My 'Puter!!
The computer is finally fixed!! I am so happy about this!! Ugh, so much stuff that I had to talk about, but now that I am further along, my short term memory has dwindled to a span of about 5-10 minutes. On saturday, I thought that I had lost my atm card about 4 or 5 times because I would hand it to daivd for something, then literally about 5 minutes later I would be looking through my purse, or searching around in my environment trying to find it and he would just wonder what I was doing since he remembered that he had the card.

Let's see... on Fathers Day David got a shorts outfit from JCPenneys, then I bought him brakes for his car. That came up to a total of about $50. He spent about that much on me on mothers day. Then he kept on trying to change his mind on whether he wanted brakes or cool little man stuff that they sell at stores. I told him he said that he wanted brakes so I went ahead and got him brakes. Nothing more. Now he has to get his rotars checked out. If the groove on them isn't too deep then the auto parts store will be able to sand it down. But if the groove is too deep, then he will have to buy new ones, and they are 49.99... each, so if he were to replace them, he would have to spend about 100.00. Good thing I didn't agree to buy those for fathers day. I got the cheap stuff, $17.00 brakes.

Ya, King is looking a little under the weather. He has dark bags under his eyes and he is just sleeping in one spot all day. David is gonna ask the pet store guy first then determining on what that guy says, he might have to go to the vet. I might take queen along as well just to make sure she will not come down with whatever he has.

The other night, the baby was kicking me so hard when I was trying to go to sleep it made me cry. It probably made my belly stretch out 1/2 an inch. It hurt so bad. David had to put his hand on my belly to make it stop moving as much. That made it calm down alot. Then yesterday it must have been growing because it didn't move around nearly as much as it usually does. David said that he wants to get that sonogram thing done at the Topeka mall for my birthday, so my present will be knowing the sex of my baby.

Ok, I am gonna go as I have to start cleaning up this place now. Poo, I am gonna feel pooped today. I plan on going swimming, but I am gonna test the water since we had a whole week of very cool weather.

BYe bYe

10:29am: Long time no update...
The hard drive on the computer went out a few days ago so David went to Staples and had to order another one (it was out of stock) and the cool thing is that we got it on sale for $50 when it was originally $80 or $90. I though that was a really good deal. So now we are just waiting to get it.

Leslie and asshole came over last night. Boy was he getting on my nerves. He would squack at my birds and talk to them in an unnice voice and then he would be all schocked and confused why they would flee from him. I just straight told him that he was annoying them and talking to them too loud for him to seem like someone comfortable to talk to. Then I kept on saying a whole bunch of other mean stuff to him throughout the night. He is just someone that knows how to get on my nerves really fast. I can't stand him. I don't even know how many times I told leslie that I can't stand him. She still doesn't want to leave him.

She wants to quit her job because they are really treating her like shit. Will was gonna drag her out of work one night to quit on them but she said no, but when she got home from work that same night and said she wanted to quit he said that she couldn't quit until she found another job... yet he was the one in the first place that told her to quit while she was still at work. I told both of them that it wouldn't be that bad if she quit now that will is supposedly making money for all the little janitor work he does at the motels. I also said that it would be just like when will was mooching off of all her money money when he wasn't getting paid diddly squat.I need to tell her to find a real man. He is so stingy with his money that he doesn't even like to give her five or ten dollars so she can have some money in her pocket. Such a prick, and she doesn't really try to do anything about it.

I could bitch about him more, but I would rather not. The weather around here has been really sucky lately. It rains at night so in the day the temp goes up to about 90degrees and then its humid and I got dizzy driving around in the heat yesterday. I went swimming, but only for about 20 minutes because then another storm rolled in. Sometimes this weather drives me crazy.

We rented some movies from blockbuster. The first one was 'The Last Samurai'. We both like that movie, it was pretty cool. Then last night we watched 'Monster' it's a movie about the u.s.' first female serial killer. It was kinda twisted and weird. The next movie we have to watch is kill bill. I know that one will be cool. David had forgot that he had seen about ten minutes about that movie so when I was trying to get it at blockbuster he kept telling me no I couldn't because it had a woman on the front and that meant it was a girl movie. I told him to just hush his silly little face because he was the one that told me it was pretty cool.

Ugh, this baby is getting big, but it feels like my belly isn't because it is starting to feel crowded in there. It really likes to squish my lungs when it is in there and it has a tendency to hang out on the right side of my body so that now, the ribs on the bottom of the ribcage feel like they are always bruised. Then, I think it is because I am so little, I will be sitting or laying down and all of a sudden you can literally see on my belly a shape like the size of half a grapefruit just stick out, and let me tell you, it feels really uncomfortable when the baby does that. It is almost on the borderline of jsut hurting, but mainly I would just describe it as extreme uncomfort. It sucks. Then David tries to act like I am still exaggerrating all the discomforts that I am feeling because after I complain he starts to mimic whatever was hurting on me. He irritates me really bad sometimes.

I went to this website that tells some ways you can tell if you are having a boy or a girl. I read through it, and for the symptoms of having a boy, I got 5 of them, it's heart rate is less tahn 140bpm, my extra weight is in the front, my belly looks like a basketball, the daddy is gaining weight too, and 20+12=32. Then for a girl I had 3 symptoms, my left breast is larger than the right, some of my hair is getting red highlights, and I am craving fuits. So from there if I wanted to believe it I could say that I am having a boy, but I am very wary of all these crazy little superstitions.

Alright I am gonna go now. I have some homework and worksheets to work on.

11:10pm: I am bored. exploring to see how to do an lj cut. here is the first attempt at it.

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11:36am: well, well...
I am at the library, with the same old hassle of classes. I am actually done, but am taking a cool off and bathroom break before I start to my mach home. And I figured I could do a blurty here since I don't have many distractions around and I might be able to do a decent entry. Lets see...

On thursday night 06/03 we left for KC at around 11:40pm. I had to work the late shift therefore we couldn't leave at a little more decent time.We were running kinda late because I had to double check everything and I wanted to make sure that I wasn't forgetting anything important. We made sure that all the animals had enough water and food and clean houses. David even went to the store to buy a timer for the beardies light so they could get warm during the day. I thought that that was a really good idea since we will be going out of town in the future anyways. Ok, so we got to KC maybe ten or fifteen minutes before 2:00am. I had offered to drive from topeka to KC because I had purposely slept in late to have a little more energy at night. We got to his sisters and talked for a little to his mom and then went to bed.

On friday 06/04 we woke up had breakfast said hi to everyone in the house that was sleeping when we first arrived. Then we got ready to run around town. The first place that I wanted to go to was my sister Mela's house to see if my other sis Elida had come into town yet. We got to her house and they were in town but they had just left to the sotre for a quick second, but I was there talking to my neices and nephews. I think all of my neices and nephews except for one was there. So that put the count up to six little kids hanging out there. Well really, 4 little kids since my 2 oldest neices are 13 and 14. So we were talking and my sisters got home and my sister Elida came over and starting trying to wake up the baby which she achieved. So we sat there talking about everything we could and we were talking for a while and I knew it would be even longer since Elida had wanted to do my nails. So at that sime I told David that it would be cool if he wanted to just go ahead and visit Chrissy since I knew that it would be a while longer. She put some fake nails on me and they do look really cute, except that I am not used to them so if there are some gramatical errors in this entry that I have not caught I blame it on the nails. Anyways I stayed there then it was Elidas job for the party to make some spanish rice and she was running low (or empty) on ingredients and she still had to organize the kids to get each other ready for my grandmas party. David came over and I told here that me and David could cook the rice so she can go get ready. We cooked about 3 or 4 batches of that stuff and nothing really came out right because we were being rushed for one thing, and we didn't have enough time to cook it in the right proportions. And we forgot to add the chicken buillon cubes. So we did that then I had to go home and put on a skirt so I could look semi decent for the party and I had told Eli that I would go by my moms house to try to get my brothers to come. We went by there and picked up Adrian but Michael didn't want to go. So off we went to find the Merriam community center, and I only heard my sister say the directions to it only once, and then I was even paying that much attention, so david and i were prepared to do some driving around. We took a wrong turn and then turned back around and decided that we were going to ask someone at a gas station where it was and as we were driving up the street we found it so that was cool.
So we were at the party and my grandma hadn't shown up yet (it was a surprise party, so she was going to be brought in a little after the time the party was supposed to be started). There was about 75 to 100 people there and I think that that was a pretty good turnout. Most of them were cousins and seconds cousins from my great aunts sides of the family. We partied and danced and cheered dancers and it was just a blast. They had food there so I was eating as much as I possibly could. We got out of there at about 10:30 (or maybe 9:45 or something), and since we were in that part of KC David wanted to try to go by Chrissys house to visit for a little while. Well, since I have never been to Chrissy's house david was the only one who knew how to get there, and ya, david sucks at remembering how to get to places. We drove really slow for about 20 minutes trying to see if David recognized something. Well, we were about to turn around when he sees the street that he thinks leads to her house. We went driving down that street and he recognizes the next street that we have to go on just as he is passing it. We turn around, go on the street and then he is trying to remember which apartment complex she is living in so once again we are driving really slow. He goes up this huges ass hill, and takes a left, goes straight and is driving and I tell him that he better not get lost because I had no idea of where we were at as I have never even seen this part of merriam before. We are still cruising when all of a sudden he actually does find her apartment, but the suck ass thing is that she was there. So we got out of there and drove by her mom's house to see if anyone was there either, but no one was. We went home and I was about ready to pass out from being so tired and busy all day.

Saturday 06/05, the day before my sisters were talking about going swimming at the merriam aquatic park, so david and I got up extra early went to buy him swim shorts, bought some 88cent floaties for the kids and went to my sisters. Then we waited that because mela was at a soccer game and eli had went to grandma moras house to visit. Well, everyone had their swim clothes on ready to go, and we go to grandma moras house to meet with my sister. Well there they start saying that it is too cold and cloudy to go swimming, so we were blown from that plan, went back home and decided to go to David's brother Shawn's house for a visit. We hang out there for I think two or three hours. David was busy trying to hook the amp his brother let him borrow to the speaker and he was high so he was working really slow and it was annoying me. I hung out and played with davids neice and nephew and their dog. We had brough along Davids other nephew anthony to play, but that boy is so weird he stayed upstairs for an hour sitting in the bedroom by himself watching nickalodeon. He was too shy to play with the girl because she had some girlfriends over that she was playing with. So David is finally done hooking up his amp and I want to go to my moms house to give her her mothers day present. We go over there and my brother Michael tells us that she is at my sister's house and I dont want to go over there because I knew that that many people would make me really tired. So we talk an hang out with my brother for about 2 hours waiting for my mom to come home. She finally does and has my neice Renee with her because I guess she wanted to see Michael. Mom gets there and I tell her to open her present and she does and is so happy because I got her new pots and pans to use. They are a good kind too. She was happy about that. Then at about a little before 10:00pm I offered to take Renee back to my sisters house because I had accidentally left my watch there. Well we get there and sit down and chat for maybe fifteen minutes. Chris gets my watch for me and as I am putting it on when I notice the time. My watch said that it was about 11:30 already. I had been going by David watch ever since we were at his brothers house and I just realized that his stupid watch was an hour off. So instead of it being 10:30, a little after Chrissy gets off of work, it was really 11:30. We call their house to see if it is OK to come over an they had to say no because their mom was not feeling too good. We get home and eat dinner and go to bed for one more day of excitement.


I am gonna have to stop here so I can start on my walk home. I will try to finish it there since I only have one more day of vacation to talk about.

2:01pm: it 2:00p and I have a doctors appointment at 2:20p. I am so anxious for this, hopefully the doctor will be able to let me get another sonogram so I can know the sex of my baby. I am gonna give the doc a sob story and say that it would really be helpful to me to know the sex since my family is going to be helping me out alot with it. And then I might resort to begging if that doesn't work.

I think that the journal entry is only half way finished. I was typing it and leslie called and then david set my mood for it and if he updated it right my music should be D12. I think he did though because he was reading my journal.

Leslie is still putting up with a lot of shit from will. Apparently he has been getting paid cash from the hotel he fixes and he hasn't bothered to tell leslie and all he said about it was that he is saving up for her surprise. whatever. bullshit. And then he won't even let her borrow five dollars from him because he is so stingy. Even though before he was getting paid he would always borrow money from her for stupid stuff like cigarrettes.

9:50pm: long time no entry...
huh, no excuse for why I haven't typed in this thing for the longest time. I guess that I have been feeling too lazy to sit here and type.

Actually I think that I have been kinda busy lately, in the past few days. I have been exercising a little and running errands here and there. I don't have anything very specific to type. Yesterday the baby woke me up at 7:40am and I woke David up at 8:15am then we had left the house at 8:25am to go walking. We walked on the trail which was about half a mile then walked around the track 2 times for another half a mile. Then we walked up and down the bleechers. Then of course I worked just as usual. Went swimming afterwards and the water was freaking cold but I was determined to swim. I never warmed up from that swim until I had crawled into bed to go to sleep. So today I am still tired from yesterday and I crashed on the sofa for a 3 hour nap. I woke up and me a david chilled, we watched tv and I washed dishes and then cooked dinner. Fried pork chops and shells and cheese. It was damn delicious

8:01pm: ah, the weekend...
I am so used to being at school. I still think that the weekend is my "time off" although I have put in my usual 15 and 1/2 hours. That really isn't much time off though. But then I am only going to have free time for I think 2 more weeks. I need to put in all of my time-off request notes for June. I need to go to work anyways because I brought a stinky apron home and I need to print off my schedule. For some reason I think he has me scheduled tomorrow because instead of being at work at 6:30am, it is a Lions Club meeting and openers have to be there at 6:00am. That sounds alright but this is a group of about 10-15 people who don't leave even a 25 cent tip.

It was so freakin busy at work this morning. And then it was Charity's first day to come in at 6:30am and since it is usually so slow on sundays I figured that I would be able to take some time to teach her all the things that we usually do to open. But since yesterday was graduation, I guess that visitors were still in town because we were really really busy. I didn't get finished scrubbing my filters until about 10:40am when I usually have them done before 9:00am. Natalie didn't even have much of her manager stuff done. Eric was asking her why she hadn't had anything done and she was like, duh, it's been busy all morning. And it was busy straight from breakfast to lunch. Usually at the most the kitchen people get a 10 or 15 minute switch over time, but not today. They just had to work with the time they had. Then at 11:00am I went up to the front to help Charity do all of her stuff that she was supposed to have done before 9:30am. The people that came in at 11 and 11:30 helped us to get it done. It was just a nightmare today!! The only good thing that I can say that came from this day is that it flew by so freakin fast (I wasn't even that tired because I didn't have time to clock watch) and the story of Erics eye...

So about a week ago Eric told me that he and his friend went canoing. He was already sick at that time with a cold so he just sounded shitty. Then he got a really bad sunburn so he was walking around cherry red. Then today he comes to work and his left eye is just HORRIBLY swollen. He said that yesterday he woke up and his eye was really hurting. He had some white eye boogers in it so he tried to wipe it off and it wouldn't wipe off. So he gets the tweezers and he starts pulling on the eye boogies. Then this clump comes off of his eye and he didn't know what it was so he turned it over to look at it, and it was a tick!!! Can you believe that? He actually had a tick in his eye!! It looked really painful and he said that it was really painful. That was so gross!! He was trying to get a hold of his mom so she could call a doctor to set up an appointment for him. That story is just so freaky, a tick in the eye. Now that is a nasty story that he can tell.

Ya, David and I went swimming today. We went swimming right after I got off of work, so we may have gotten into the water either at 2pm or just a few minutes before that. We were swimming and playing on our floaties and some little girls were playing on our 3rd floatie. We stayed out there for a good amount of time. He went in at 3:20 and I went in at 3:30. I knew that we were gonna have some burning because we were out there for so long but I didn't feel it at first. We went ahead and made chili cheese fries for lunch then I passed out on the sofa at I think 4. I thought that I would only be so tired to sleep for 2 hours. NO!! I fell asleep for four hours! I just woke up at eight. I feel great from taking that nap, only I feel my sunburn coming out. My boobies itch. My cheeks and my nose feel tight, and I know my nose is burnt because it hurts too. Then my eyelids feel burnt and that really sucks because everytime I blink I feel a burning sensation. David said that the only thing that feels burnt on him are his legs. He is so cute. Instead of his legs getting color a whole bunch of freckles are coming out. I guess that is why his arms are so dark though, all of those freckles. It is his turn to take a nap right now. He is just happily snoring right now. I am gonna wake him up at about nine so we can go up to Vista.

Uh, I think that is all for right now, I am gonna try to get into the habit of making more updates since it is summertime.

4:12pm: PISSED OFF.
I am so pissed off right now. My afternoon has not at all been going good for me.

I take a shower at 11:00am to get ready to head off to school. I am fully dressed and made up to go at about 11:45a. I start getting my backpack ready to take and I get my folders and books together. Then I remember that I need my calculator for math so I look for that. I looked for that bitch for almost a whole hour but I couldn't find it anywhere. So, after being super frustrated about my calculator I decide to leave to school for my history final. Well, I get into the car put the key in, clutch is in, I turn the key and the bitch doesn't even want to start!!!! I felt like screaming at that damn point. So I think I try to start my car for like 20 minutes then all of a sudden it starts like it never had a problem. Then I go to buy a parking permit and the car starts up fine then also. Then I go park and walk to the building where I am going to take my final, take the final and leave. I get to my car and try to start it, but it was doing the same shit again. I think that I got to my car at about 3:20p and I was trying to start it until 3:45. I was so pissed off at that stupid thing. So I am in the library and I am going to study for my math final (without a damn calculator) and wait until David gets off of work so he can take me home to help me look for my calculator, then I will probably have him look at my car after I take the final so that I will be the one with some time to spare.

I am just so frustrated right now it is unbelievable. it was making me feel hotter than what I should feel like. Then while I was taking my history final the baby decided to kick through the whole thing. So while I was sitting there I would start stretching out all funny to try to get the baby to change positions or something, but nothing worked. It just kept on kicking like nothing.

Ok, I feel better. Ranting and raving is all out.

10:24pm: I feel so...
Blah! That is exactly how I feel, like I have been doing physical activities all day. I feel drained of all of my energy. I am having trouble keeping my eyes open and it is only 10:25pm. That is super early for me.

My highschool has their very own website. I think it is so cute. I love that highschool so much. They teach you in such a way that it would be pointless to NOT go to college after you graduate, since by the time you are in 10th grade you already have the choice of taking either freshmen college classes or at least some highschool 12th grade classes. I also emailed them a suggestion that they post up a history of the school all the way back from when it was the all black Sumner High School. I think that it would also be interesting to discuss the nuclear war hideouts that are hidden beneath the school. Hmm, I sound like a nerd praising my high school, but maybe that is because I am a nerd.

We got our good sofas today. They are in such good condition. Their mattresses don't even sink when we sit on them. They are a light tan color. Really cute. David is super tired from having to move and rearrange them to make room in here. I would have helped him but I don't want to do anything that would hurt the baby.

We are also cranky tonight. We were in the grocery store and we kept on bickering at each other for little things. I don't even remember what all those arguments were about. Now we are OK since we are resting. I think that we might go to bed soon though.

Summer just called. I actually picked up the phone too to talk to her. That is just because I wouldn't have had enough time to go read what the caller id said. I think that I might get together with her sometime to hang out. I just talked to her until the phone died. It is always dying. I keep on forgetting to buy a cord phone so that at least we can have a back up phone instead of just having to end the conversation for dead phone reasons.

Ok, no more typing for me. I am too tired of staring at this computer screen.

3:22pm: ugh...
It has been busy today. And it will be busy until Wednesday. Then after that I am completely done with school!!... until june 7 then I start right back up again.

I had two finals today. I had the speech final at 7:30am in the freakin morning, then I stayed at school and studied for my genetics test at 2:00pm, I just got done with that.

I figured I would take a blurty break and do a quick entry so that I won't feel so stressed. This is the good thing about having an online journal. It is not so tedious to make an entry. I am going to be busy all day tomorrow studying even though I don't have a test until wednesday. I need to do some hard core review for math since I didn't do any homework for the past month. I know that the last time I sat down and tried to do it I got very frustrated. Then I need to finish reading my christopher columbus book for stupid history. I am so ready for school to be over.

We took the beardies to scaly daves to get sexed. Queen is a girl for sure but they had problems with king. King has the physical look of a guy, but Dave couldn't find any sexually physical characteristics of a guy. But then he said that king might still be too young. Then he said that if we want to breed them (if they are both girls) we could borrow one of his males. I don't want to breed my precious angels, that is alot of stress on the body. But Queen was being really well behaved while we were there. As long as David or I would keep a hand placed lightly on her back she would chill out. King was trying to run a few times but straightened up his act after a while. Then when we got into the parking lot for the apartments King makes a run to sit on Davids back and so David just left him right there. I caried Queen in. As soon as we got into the house she started turning her beard black. Maybe she just wants to be a free lizard. Oh well she can't she is a captive for life.

It is very muggy today. It is cloudy like it's supposed to rain, but the high for today is supposed to be 79degrees. But on the good side, the pool is filled up!!! I am so happy, I just need to wait for the water to get warm though, then I will go swimming. My legs are chubby. That is where all of the weight went. Maybe I will start going to the Rec to get some exercise. It is good for me, it will just better prepare me for labor.

So many people are in the library studying for the test. I think all this week the whole library is going to be open for 24 hours everyday so people can study. That is nice of them. But there is no collegian to read. I think that I am gonna check it out online.

Ok, I am gonna go now, I remember some things that I have to get done. I will try to type again as soon as possible.

9:08pm: I have been slacking today. I don't want to study. When I got off of work I was supposed to sit down and study for genetics, but I wanted to go somewhere, so we went to K-Mart and Hastings. It was a nice little outing. I bought the latest Laura Croft video game. As soon as I get done with this entry I am gonna play it.

I got my old navy maternity clothes that I ordered online. This is the halter top that I got. I got it in the turquoise color. It is so cute. I am wearing it right now. These are the overalls that I got.. David said that he thought I would look cute in some so I ordered them. Then I just got some black maternity stretchy shorts. Everything is so cute. I am getting so many clothes.

The mainenance people are filling up the pool right now. I am so happy. As soon as it gets full we just need to get about three or four days of hot weather to warm up the water and then it will be ready to go swimming in. Then right now old navy has the swimsuit that I want on sale. I am still wondering if I should go ahead and buy it.

I need to schedule some appointments for school and fill out papers. I will probably do all that when I am done with my finals.

Ok, I am gonna go now. I want to play my video game.