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[31 Jan 2004|11:50pm] |
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ok so things came up and i didn't update at all..but ok n e way....this is about my night...ok nothing really happened until i got online to talk to mark....and for some reason i ALWAYS screw things up...i really think he hates me now..i don't even know what got into me...i just know that i got mad about something on his info and then he started to act kinda like a jerk but i was bitchin to much i guess who knows...its all my fault...im always doing something wrong...i can't ever do anything right...i hate feeling like this..right now i just want to leave and never come back...but i can't do that..i feel like im an inch tall right now and its not the best feeling in the world im really scared that i think i lost him...i don't know...every time i tried to talk to him he put his away msg up...i don't know if on purpose or not but i guess theres nothing i can do about it..i don't know what to do..i can't talk to him cuz i don't think he'll listen to me since im sure he probably hates me right now...i don't know i hate messin things up...hes one of the only guys that can make me happy whenever im sad...but this time it don't work since i can't talk to him..you know that quote "what do you do when the person that can make u stop cryin is the one that made u start" like don't get me wrong....he didn't make me cry..well it wasn't all him..i had a big part in it...but like i just can't stop cryin and i don't know what to do anymore..i just want to crawl into a little ball in the corner where no one has to pay attention me..ok well im going to go..im lettin anyone post on this one kinda hoping marks comments on it..but its alright if u comment under ur name or anym. ok bye
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hey hey! imma actually keep this journal...unlike all the other ones....ok so yeah last night we had a game and lost..and tonight we have a game...hopefully we'll win...i think maybe after the game tonight im going to go out with some friends or summin...i might change tho cuz ya know after the game u get all sweaty n nasty! yucky!i need to change a lot of the things on this thing...and add more interest..considering i got bored typing them out..lol ok yeah im BORED i think im going to go crazy! lol ok im about to go cuz i don't know what to write about and i have to get ready i have to leave for the game in about an hour...ttpl! bye byes
~Tiffany~
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