Fire_Tearz's Blurty

Not goin so well...
Welllll, haven't been online in a long time, so much has happened and so much is fucked up. Letz c...
Me n James broke up 5 dayz before we hit the 2 month mark and 3 days afta our break up Jessie started talking to me again...which I am actually really gr8ful for...the jessie talking, not the breakup, but hey! So that'z all good
Went up to Timelord's again on the 17th...by the 18th he'd raped me. I mean omfg!!! I just..and >_< I donno what to do, think, feel....but I feel sick, I know that much...can't tell mum, can't tell n e 1 ova here really...wrote letter to jazzie and damn my hand was shaking so much that my handwriting was worse then it'z eva been before...i jus need to talk to her but that'z a little bit impossible >_< JAZZZZIIIE!!!!
Mum thinx everythingz alright...ch00ky knowz...he put $50 on his mobile yesterday and talked to me for around 6 hrz...glad he didn't get sick of me...even gladder that he was jus there for me... Ach >.< I had to tell Jessie in an email...I donno how the hell he's gonna react...I don think I could take him yelling at me...then again he's actually really nice (shuddup ppl) so he'll probably b there for me 2...rapez a bad issue with him...like it is with every1...omg...i...ach...ch00ky'z coming home soon...pity I not in his home or i could get a hug....*Shrugz* one day! ach...gonna stop rambling now *nodz*

Linkin Park - Numb

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be

Current Mood: numb
Current Music: Linkin Park - Numb