| is it true that you like to sleep alone? | |||
| 10:51am 31/03/2005 | |||
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Is that what you just tell everyone... Me and R are going out♥ I love him |
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| Blurty Blurty Blurty. | |||
| 11:33am 07/12/2004 | |||
| I remember all the hard times I used to have when I used to write in here. I was always so sad. That really did suck. Wow. I think I am going to print out all of these entries and make a book out of them or something. Its totally something I am going to want to read when I am old and dying. A lot has gone through here and I think it would be wrong if I didnt save them . | |||
| Will He Hold Your Tiny Face in His Hands? | ||||
| 12:23pm 22/10/2004 | ||||
Livejournal unfortunatly have overtaken me, but I will never forget blurty and all the memories I have shared in it with everyone and in its context. *shurgs* visit mah livejournal. www.livejournal.com/users/all_on_black22 |
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amused| Its so amazing here. | ||||
| 10:02am 24/08/2004 | ||||
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aggravated| I wish you were here to hold me... | ||||
| 04:20pm 12/08/2004 | ||||
and scream damnit love i need you back I am really confused right now... about a lot of things. For instance why I feel like he is shoving his love in my face then running away before I can decide wether he's being honest or not. Its not fair at all. If you say something so strong you need to be able to show that I can trust you... and trust what you are saying. I am so tired of how everything has been turning out recently. So you know what basically it all comes down to the pure fact that i dont care for him anymore. I love him, that will never go away but there is no way I am going to get worked up about it... No more effort is coming from me, and no more tears, no more thoughts, no more anything is coming from this one to be directed at him. He has shown me enough to make me realize he is a fickle liar. ....Cause theres beauty in the breakdown... Hey i swear i dont have a crush on someone... that you would never believe... |
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| Shore Time | ||||
| 05:22am 29/06/2004 | ||||
Cell: 1(484) 995-3367 Shorehouse: 1(609) 729-1734 But it all was bullshit It was a god damn joke And when I think of you and I I hope you fucking choke. Ohhh somebody kill me please Somebody kill me please, I am on my knees pretty pretty please, Kill me, I want to die PUT A BULLET IN MY HEADDDDDDDDDDDDD |
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blah| I hate him | ||||
| 03:40pm 28/06/2004 | ||||
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| I hate him | ||||
| 03:40pm 28/06/2004 | ||||
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| Blurty... | ||||
| 04:52pm 25/06/2004 | ||||
I am playing DDR with lisa and dave. Oh man is it fun stuff. I visited rossi today and i love that boy. My mom locked the keys in the car so we had to wait an hour for my brother to show up that was so like her. Shes getting old and crazy like. I got a job today at Victory. Its under the table so that'll be good. |
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| Close Your Eyes | ||||
| 11:30am 11/06/2004 | ||||
I was on the U of arts site looking at all the students work. Its really awesome. At the same time... their photo work isnt that far off from everything we've been doing here. Thats a good feeling. I burnt my finger really badly on the tacking iron in first block photo. I think someone needs to just chop it off and stop the god damn pain. Me and scott were talking and I called his friends dumb... so he got up and kicked me full force in the ankle. I seriously thought he broke it... my mom did too, but you know hes a fucking douche and will learn in the future that he doesnt have to hurt me every chance he gets. Its not a fashion statement Its a fucking death wish. The new mcr cd is AWESOME. so is their new site. Visit it bitch. |
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| Secret Song. | ||||
| 05:47am 07/06/2004 | ||||
I'd always love you... ohh... yeah... You let the needle drop I think that you could do so much better. The phantom is diquised. Its horrifying right before your eyes The phantom it is inside Its hideous right before your eyes The phantom is watching you. The phantom is watching you... Rilo Kiley has the most random lyrics ever and I happen to love them so much. *sigh* Please dear god everyone give up the petty drama. NOT worth it. I cant stand always having someone mad at me for something really stupid... besides that standard fact, if you guys really cared about me ( not to sound emo ) or cared any bit about my feelings you wouldnt be such an asshole on every occausion possible. Oh fuck it heres your love song That you;ve been asking for It's the best I could do without saying I love you |
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crappy| you | |||
| 03:38pm 02/06/2004 | |||
| I give up on you | |||
| Needs to be Said | |||
| 11:34am 01/06/2004 | |||
| If you feel a certain way about someone... and you constantly word how you feel about them... then STICK TO IT. Dont act like their best friend in front of them and tell them oh I love you bleh bleh... Okay if your going to talk the trash then you cant just let it slide whenever their in sight, thats called being a PUSSY yes... so dont do that anymore. Its lame and I for one cant stand hearing it, then seeing the after effects. | |||
| I love Kansas | ||||
| 11:22am 01/06/2004 | ||||
bleh bleh blehhh This weekend was absolutely hell compatable. Eh its alright I mean everything in the end kind of worked out but I could have spent my weekend doing many other things that were supposed to be unforgetable. *shrugs* I cant get mad at things anymore. FLEETWOOD MAC is on thursday. Jill and I are going. Maybe we can find some awesome kids there who arent 40 to hang out with. I am not so sure how my mom is dealing with things right now but I hope she loves me enough to let me go out all weekend? Ehh. I got 3 more administratives today... thats a whole lot of detention time. I already have 2 others I havent served yet either. Ugh. Just hopefully I'll be able to get to the mail before ma mere does. She wont care about detentions, but its just if I am kinda semi grounded... the last thing I need is more bad news on my behalf. Dont You Cry Noooo More... I miss you |
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| All The Roads That Lead You There Are Winding. | ||||
| 10:57am 22/05/2004 | ||||
Then I love emilie, and I love alissa and I just met Kyle. He sounds like josh heh. |
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curious| I just want to make a clean escape | ||||
| 08:23pm 19/05/2004 | ||||
(someone want to leave with me? i swear that;d be the best gift ever heh) There'd Be No Distance that could hold us back.... Some people are so FUCKING STUPID. YES YOU. FUCKING YOU ASSHOLE! |
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| The Royal Crown Vs. Blue Duchess Lyrics | ||||
| 11:13am 17/05/2004 | ||||
i swear i won't say what happened that night so starting today things are gonna be all right your best you tried, and yeah you did fine no better than fine, perfect in my mind in fact, i wish your heart was mine and i can hear the memory in my ears back to the years and all those tears but hear me when i say im glad we steered that way because now we're here The shore was pretty bad, but you know you know. heh. Friday I am going to Caitlins... Saturday I have noooo Idea. Sunday I want to try and go to the TLA to see Arcas To Ursa, but I also know that on Sunday I want to go down to the mosaics and do some major protesting... or minus the protesting and lots of signing of the petition. I cant get over how ridiculous this all is... *sigh* I love The Rocket Summer... I love From Autumn To Ashes |
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| You can Hide. | ||||
| 09:20pm 10/05/2004 | ||||
I wished that things were out in the open, that straight up everything was right there. Its not. I feel very unsettled because I have so many things to say to people, that I just cant find the opportune moment to confront people. I mean things are going good right now I suppose. I dont want my feelings to screw shit up like always. I am soooo god damn good at that. Memorial weekend kids. my parental units are away... the shore and so is scott. Um I dont know if you feel like seeing me... i mean, let me know? I am always offering to hang out with people... it seems like no one else puts forth the effort anymore. Today was really nice. Me and lindsay talked a lot and sat in the park. heh ice cream style also. I need him to be here, I need his confidence in order to have some myself and I need his understanding to be able to cope... I need his friendship more than I need the world. Lame. Feelings are the source of hell. |
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| I am Wasted but I am Ready | ||||
| 05:14am 09/05/2004 | ||||
love everyone. |
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contemplative| So tell me that this doesnt hurt you.. | ||||
| 12:24pm 07/05/2004 | ||||
I dont understand things at all. I guess that life is like that sometimes. No one completely understands everything. Sometimes you think you know all there is to know about something and then something happens and your completely shocked as to how exactly it came from them, just let it be known that everything is capable to do the worst. I went to bobs sisters boyfriends baseball game after school yesterday then went home slept for a couple hours... jilly woke me up and took me to joes game. It was good to see him play. he scored although they lost joe still owned. So then yeah i dont know. We went to wendys both jilly and I. I need to figure things out aka talk to someone in particular. I really need to clear things up? Maybe. I dont know I am not sure what I need and I am not sure if it'll get better? i am not sure if I should just not care for the sake of not caring? or care because its how I feel. I dont know. Do crack... Its what all the cool kids do. |
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