| Missing my other half... |
[09 Sep 2006|11:16pm] |
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You know that cliche, "the sun doesn't seem as bright without you"? and many others like it? Sad to say that it's true on my part. Maybe it's the fatigue talking, but nothing seems... happy to me. And if you know me, then you know how I easily I find menial things funny. Nowadays nothing seems funny to me, everything seems forced. I haven't laughed like when Albert was here. I know it doesn't seem fair that I'm putting this all on him, but I'm thinking it's a different type of happiness. Maybe the happiness that I have been looking for all along.
Don't get me wrong, this doesn't mean that I'm a sad, sulky bitch all the time, but it's as if the amount of happiness I'm feeling right now doesn't seem to compare to the happiness I felt when Albert was here. I hope someone out there knows what I'm talking about so I don't seem like a lovesick idiot.
Well, to make a story short: I'm in love and I'm missing my love. I'm missing the man that makes me laugh as if I've never laughed before. I'm missing that day when he was sitting in the middle my living room, comics sprawled all around him, my head on his lap and we'd just be reading together. I miss that day we went movie hopping and laughed at "Snakes on a Plane." ...going to Bangkok Gardens to satisfy our (my) mee krab cravings... going to Tokyo Teriyaki and eating Tempura ice cream for the first time. I miss being sushi snobs and observing all the Mexican sushi chefs out there (Isobune!). Food comas are the best with him. I miss making fun of him and his bitter comebacks. I miss everything about him!
I can't wait until December when he gets to be here for one whole month! He gets to be here for Christmas and New Years! I just hope he doesn't get drunk like last time. I actually want him to be "here" when 2007 comes around. It's just the deal with the parents, but I'll deal with that later.
For all of you who have boyfriends/girlfriends nearby, you all are really lucky to see him/her everyday. Really lucky. I would give anything to see Albert everyday just to see his smile and smell/touch his skin... just to be around him.
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