When life gives you lemons...
By: Charlene

You know that cliche, "the sun doesn't seem as bright without you"? and many others like it? Sad to say that it's true on my part. Maybe it's the fatigue talking, but nothing seems... happy to me. And if you know me, then you know how I easily I find menial things funny. Nowadays nothing seems funny to me, everything seems forced. I haven't laughed like when Albert was here. I know it doesn't seem fair that I'm putting this all on him, but I'm thinking it's a different type of happiness. Maybe the happiness that I have been looking for all along.

Don't get me wrong, this doesn't mean that I'm a sad, sulky bitch all the time, but it's as if the amount of happiness I'm feeling right now doesn't seem to compare to the happiness I felt when Albert was here. I hope someone out there knows what I'm talking about so I don't seem like a lovesick idiot.

Well, to make a story short: I'm in love and I'm missing my love. I'm missing the man that makes me laugh as if I've never laughed before. I'm missing that day when he was sitting in the middle my living room, comics sprawled all around him, my head on his lap and we'd just be reading together. I miss that day we went movie hopping and laughed at "Snakes on a Plane." ...going to Bangkok Gardens to satisfy our (my) mee krab cravings... going to Tokyo Teriyaki and eating Tempura ice cream for the first time. I miss being sushi snobs and observing all the Mexican sushi chefs out there (Isobune!). Food comas are the best with him. I miss making fun of him and his bitter comebacks. I miss everything about him!

I can't wait until December when he gets to be here for one whole month! He gets to be here for Christmas and New Years! I just hope he doesn't get drunk like last time. I actually want him to be "here" when 2007 comes around. It's just the deal with the parents, but I'll deal with that later.

For all of you who have boyfriends/girlfriends nearby, you all are really lucky to see him/her everyday. Really lucky. I would give anything to see Albert everyday just to see his smile and smell/touch his skin... just to be around him.

Stop saying "you guys." I need to do this unconsciously because right now I stutter and stop my train of thought whenever those words start coming. I don't need the extra "guys" there. Just "you." I could do this. =P

YEAAAA MARICEL AND I JUST GOT OUR KEYS TO OUR FIRST EVER APARTMENT!!!! YEEEEE!!!!! =PP COME VISIT US!!!

I found this on Raisa's blog. I really liked it and made me feel a bit better.

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In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question,

"What kind of man are you looking for?" She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asking.

"Do you really want to know?" Reluctantly, he said, "Yes." She began to expound...

"As a woman in this day and age, I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can't do for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man...or woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask, "What can you bring to the table?" The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money. She quickly corrected his thought and stated, "I am not referring to money. I need something more."

"I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life." He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to explain.

She said, "I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don't need a simple-minded man. I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don't need to be unequally yoked... believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster."

"I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I don't need a financial burden. I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded. I am looking for someone who I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him."

"I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive...he just has to be worthy. God made woman to be a helpmate for man. I can't help a man if he can't help himself." When she finished her spill, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said, "You're asking a lot."

She replied , " I'm worth a lot ."

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You guys voted off Mandisa! Why not Kelly Pickler? She sucks and she's dumb! Mandisa can sing 100 times better than her! You people are tone deaf. Either that, or you people vote because the person's pretty or cute. Ace Young? He sucks, too! He's just cute, that's all. Stupid pre-teens.

America needs music lessons. Oh and for the record, America, Mandisa's way prettier than Kelly Pickler.

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