| Thursday, December 4th, 2003 |
| 1:29 pm |
its been awhile
Today was boring.I rolled out of my bed @ like 500 in the morning kissed my girlfriend goodmorning.I went in the kitchen and eight some fruity pebbles and then hit the coffe pot but it tasted like burnt ass well....i dont know what burnt ass tastes like but if i did.then in ag we cleaned the shop and that wasnt fun.its been along time since i wrote in this thing you know.i think im going to take my girl out on a date today |
| Friday, August 8th, 2003 |
| 1:42 pm |
hmph?
Damn there isnt anyting to do today.WHile ive been sitting here rotting away all day my girlfriend is off getting hit on by some suntan smuthered football jock at sliterbahn.Its not her fault she went without me.She had to go w/her family but it still aggrivates me to think about her out there with/out me and she is so bubbly and nice.I can just see it.WHAT IS WRONG WITH!?I think im a bad boyfriend.Why do i get pissed about stupid shit.This is the kinda bullshit you always hear girls bitching about."he's so jelouse".I mean i get hot tempered about things like that alll the time.Why cant i just relax and not get worked up?But my girlfriend is a real hottie.im not insecure about us or anything.I know i got her but I just want every guy in the world to BACK the FUCK OFF!! it wouldnt be so bad if it was both of us but its not. I dont think most of the things that i get worked up about would get to her.I think she only gets pissed about shit like that cuz i bitch about it and she sees a double standard if she does'nt, but i dont know.she is confusing.I dont understand her somtimes.I dont understand me. i hope i get to see her today.Maby i just need slow down and quit trying to control the world around me..... I love laura.
i got to go to the eye docter and get some smokes so i caN get lung cancer before i get old.....who needs to live past 40?
Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: Tool- Eulogy |
| 1:42 pm |
hmph?
Damn there isnt anyting to do today.WHile ive been sitting here rotting away all day my girlfriend is off getting hit on by some suntan smuthered football jock at sliterbahn.Its not her fault she went without me.She had to go w/her family but it still aggrivates me to think about her out there with/out me and she is so bubbly and nice.I can just see it.WHAT IS WRONG WITH!?Im think im a bad boyfriend.Why do i get pissed about stupid shit.This is the kinda bullshit you always hear girls bitching about."he's so jelouse".I mean i get hot tempered about things like that alll the time.Why cant i just relax and not get worked up?But my girlfriend is a real hottie.im not insecure about us or anything.I know i got her but I just want every guy in the world to BACK the FUCK OFF!! it wouldnt be so bad if it was both of us but its not. I dont think most of the things that i get worked up about would get to her.I think she only get pissed about shit like that cuz i bitch about it and she see a double standard if she doesnt, but i dont know.she is confusing.I dont understand her somtimes.I dont understand me. i hope i get to see her today.Maby i just need slow down and quit trying to control the world around me..... I love laura
Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: Tool- Eulogy |
| Wednesday, August 6th, 2003 |
| 11:40 pm |
i love grier
MAn..today was long.I got up this morning and i got to go help my nieghbor fix his car.WTH. Why does my mom think he needs my help.I dont know.Next i had to go to the damn school to get my stdnt ID and all that bullshit cuz our school is gay like that and we have to have all this high-tech crapp to go there like permits & paswords and class room flyers or some shit.I hate my school.oh.. and after all that shit i did for football"walkin' ther, geting my balls checked out(physical)and working out all the bumps on my schedule yesterday my mom Imformes me that im not playing Fb this year.it dose kinda make things easier i think.I cant blame her, its my fault im missing credits cuz i skipped school and didnt do my work in calss and i aint got a car cuz i fucked up my tires.BUt i have always played and been good at it and now.... so NE-Wayz after i did that, things were mellow around the cribb...UNTILL....LAUra said she was coming with grier to see me! I got like a burst of life in my lungs so i cleaned my room and burnt a badass CD.i dont know why anyone would read thiz shit.My life sux the big one right now.Im a fucking loser,but....i got one hott girlfriend that loves me so i guess thats the only thing that is important anyways.... if thats what you want in life?.
Current Mood: apathetic
Current Music: carried away |
| Tuesday, August 5th, 2003 |
| 1:49 am |
everything is so blurry
i havent ever had one of these before and i always thought they where wierd but if im ever gonna get one i think now would be the time.i woke up this morning and everything sucked already. i was supposed to get up and go to fucking football two a days but my god damn mother and her asshole of a boyfriend grounded me from my car so i couldnt get there...WTF...so i wake up at like 12:00 and go to make a schedule for next year.well im a fuckin 1/2 credit short. i hate this shit its like gods is playing with me and fucking me up.i can just see him sitting up there throwing shit in my way and burning my ass with a magnafying glass.i end up ditching my damn off-period for next semester and now i have a full schedule and if i fail one class im fucked.it all wouldnt be so bad if laura "my girlfriend" didnt live so fucking far away.she lives in south austin and i live north so it makes shit hard. but heres the best part, i leave football on my schedule even though i really didnt have room for it thinking that "as long as i have a need for the car my mom cant keep me grounded"....WRONG.that bitch goes all out and tell me she aint giving me a ride and i can walk or get a ride.im like ok and wasnt gonna go. Then my coach calls and asks where i was for the morning work out ?im like blah ..blah ...blah and fill him in and hes says"start walking"...WTH. "BE here AT 600"..."you can make it its only 500". i cant be doing that! its 3.2 miles! so i laid dont and cried and played the what if game for 1/2 hour and then i left.ON FOOT.but when i get ther the fucking trainers dont let me practice cuzi aint got no physical. i walked my ass back it took two hours and life sux ass.i cant handle this.i need a car.i cant fix this.i cant do anything. what the fuck do i do? |