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| 05:06pm 14/06/2009 |
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i was going to florida to visit adam, he was engaged or dating a girl he loved
i had a fling with a pretty hot guy who kept dunking me in the water
then he brought me choclates and adam had brought me some too and threw them down when i showed him the ones the hot guy gave me
then i realized i loved adam
adam told me his gf was getting married to another guy and he didnt know what to do
i suggested we go stop the wedding, i told him id have liked something like that if it were me
we were on a ship sailing across the world trying to solve problems, our nxt destination was colombia
i was trying to get it to go back to the us becuse a teenage girl was goin crazy missin her home
anyway these rae drunken dreams after having sake, yeungling, pina colada, and mango vodka...
plus tummy pains from some sushi
i am taking matt out of my life, he wants me in his life but i love him and this cannot continue the way it is
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| professor xn |
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| 10:49pm 14/06/2009 |
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these are some emails i havent sent, ill just stick em all here since i dont plan on ever writing u again
here they are from latest to earliest
Hey,
I think we're looking for different things and it would be better for both of us if we didn't hang out anymore. When we started dating I wasn't looking for anything serious, because I'd been through so much, but now my thoughts have changed and I do want something more than just hanging out sometimes. I find myself wanting to see you or talk to you often, and I don't think you feel the same way. Let me know if you want to discuss this in person or not. I will accept the absence of a response as an agreement with or a concession to my thoughts.
I've been thinking that we shouldn't hang out anymore. I'm looking for something different than what we have. I don't understand you, sometimes it seems like you like me and others you seem to be ignoring me or something. Anyway I have lots of reasons and I'm just writing this down so I can tell you next time I have to see you
Your lack of response answers my question.
I'm sorry I wrote that love you thing. I didn't mean it, I was just being silly. You probably don't care, but I just wanted to make sure you didn't take it the wrong way.
nope thats a lie i do love you
la la la la la boom boom
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
don't mention it
please
no, i dont know what i want
im too lazy to decide so i want you to
and you shouldnt have to
i ignored you
because you annoy me
hate your yells your anger at others
i want to take you in a waterfall, on a waterfall, over, under, behnd, everywhere, everything, i love you, i want you, you are awesome to my needs, you are the perfect size for my body, i love it, i love you, i shouldnt, youre about to leave, you shall break my heart very soon and i shouldnt let myself care
but all i think is
I LOVE YOU |
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