decisions   
02:33am 10/05/2009
  i want to meet her and possibly fall in love
she seems too good to be true
but then theres matt, who says im the best part of his life
even though he makes me sick sometimes
i know i love him
but wheres the for life potential?
i want someone i can have kids with
probably
when i wanna settle down
anyway
why does anyone like me?
ill wreck it
i wreck it with all people
even silent super , who was the last person i rreally connected with online to end up dating and then

cuz honestly as much as i liked nate, we didnt connect much online but as friends, i never thought of him as more
and the others arent even worth mention to be honest, except maybe scott who is also a friend

but what happened with silent and i to kill our blooming relationship?
was it matt?

with her will it just disappear into aquantance too?
 
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