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[21 Mar 2004|12:11pm] |
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greatestjournal owns. move there -> :D
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[30 Jan 2004|06:35am] |
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gr greatestjournal is down for some weird reason so i cant update in here but maybe itll work soon. yes im still sick coughing my ass off, but ill be okay i guess ;\
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[28 Jan 2004|04:58am] |
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Hey sweethearts. Eh good morning. Well last night was okay I stayed at my dads hospital til 8:00 PM since he had a meeting which was fine I just was coughing the whole time. Then when we came home I took a hot shower and I got online for awhile but only stayed til 9:15 PM. Then I got my self into bed and slowly fell asleep and slept okay til it was about 3:00 AM when I just kept coughing non stop so I got up since I couldnt go back to sleep and got dressed. Now I am online talking to Shawn because if I go back to my bed and I lay down I will start coughing more again and I dont want to do that anymore. Plus I want to stop coughing before the weekend comes since I have a date on Saturday and everything you know?. Gr this really sucks I dont need to be up til like 6:00 AM but since my fucking coughs got me up I cant go back to sleep because I am afraid of laying back down and coughing badly again. Someone help me please. Oh and my moms yelling at me while I am sick isnt that a nice mom?. I want my old mom fucking back not the one who yells all the time now I just hate it. I really do man. I cried myself to sleep after she called my cell and then I was up half the early morning coughing. Some night I had huh?. I miss Derek. I miss being on the phone with him -cries-. Ugh I cant wait til it is Saturday I really fucking cant. Eh okay I am gonna stop now. My chest is hurting me again and I am trying not to cough loud. Comment if you want. Bye bye.
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[26 Jan 2004|04:16pm] |
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new friends wanted. comment to be added.
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[23 Jan 2004|06:57pm] |
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Hey sweethearts. Erg well today was alright until this morning when I got to school and one of my teachers told me what I got on the MCAS test and it dropped to 204 so I cried like an idiot and I felt really down and shit. Then I went to work for the morning and came back then hung out with Matt, Nick, Julie, Joe, Chris, Kevin, and a few other people. After school was over I came back to the house and my teeth were hurting me bad and I dont know why the fuck their hurting me. So after my math tutor left we ate dinner then I came online and talked to Eddie for a few minutes then he left. Now I am talking to Kaitlyn, Lisa, and a few other people. Tonight I dont know whats gonna happen probably nothing but oh well I am really tired so I dont really want to do anything basically. Tomorrow I am going to stay at my friend Catie's house til Sunday late or early afternoon dont know yet, heh. So I'll be on sunday. Eh, thats it really. Comment or not. Your choice. :/
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[22 Jan 2004|06:36am] |
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Good morning. Well I might move over here to Greatestjournal instead of using Blurty since it likes to be slow and sometimes not show the page that I want to see or it just likes to be gay and not work lol. But I do like havin alot of journals but not too many you know?. I have a blurty, a greatestjournal, and a livejournal. But the two that I like to write in more are my blutry & greatestjournal. Yesterday I wasnt feeling so good so I didnt even up staying up late and I fell asleep around 9:40 PM. I talked to a few people that I knew who would be on before I went to sleep I talked to Drew, Kaitlyn, Kevin, Lisa, Emily, Shawn, and a few other people so that I wouldnt be bored before I went to sleep. I also talked to Ashlie for awhile but she wasnt feeling so great so I let her go to sleep and I hope she is okay today. Anyway today I got up at 5:40 AM and took a shower then got dressed then I got online to see who was on. today I dont know whats gonna happen at school but nothing exciting heh. I'll write more later. Comment.
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[20 Jan 2004|04:15pm] |
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Hey sweethearts. I know lately that I have been writing short entries in here and I am sorry about that. Alot of shit has been going down in my life outside of AOL and inside of AOL but hey whos life doesnt deal with AOL right?. Well I left Jeff last night even though I didnt talk to him I just left him since he hadnt been on since the day we got together and its been a few weeks and I was like what the fuck?. So I had it and one of my friends said do what you think is right and I did because I didnt want to be hurt again so I was like fuck it and I left him, for good. But before I broke up with Jeff I fought with my mother all fucking weekend. Then I went out with her on monday and we went to the mall and ate lunch and went to Hot Topics and we also went to Rave and I bought some nice shirts and some jewelry so that was okay I guess. So today was a little bit better I went to school and saw my friends David, Jenna, Matt, Julie, Nick, Brian, Ruby, and a few other of my friends and then I came to my dads hospital and now I am hanging out in the office til he is ready to go home which I hope is soon because I am really tired and just not in a mood to do anything but oh well. Anyway I hope the rest of the week will be good or whatever. Comment, bye.
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[19 Jan 2004|08:31am] |
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Another short entry. Deal with it. Love sucks whent he person you love isnt around. It hurts.
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[18 Jan 2004|10:05am] |
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I hate court rooms. I hate divorces. I just hate everything right now. Its my fault for wanting to live at my dads house. I'M FUCKING SORRY MOM, I CANT DO SHIT RIGHT. Just kill me now slowly so you can feel my pain. Peace.
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[17 Jan 2004|09:54am] |
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Ahem. Before I write my entry today. I'd just like to say a few words to my mom. I have a good reason for these words too. Here they are FUCK YOU BITCH. Now I'll tell all you blurty girls and guys why I've said that to my mom. One reason she keeps fucking fighting with me because I've decided to live at my fathers house for good when I am 18 and I am known as a young adult and legal to decide on where I can live and where I don't want to live. So my dad and my mom are fighting about this and money issues with their lawyers and I get drawn into the middle and its been going on since September and I am about go insane over this fucking shit. They've been divorced since I've been 10 years old and its sucked ever since since my dad is remarried and I like my step mom and now my mom is remarried again for her third time and it just fucking sucks for real. Ahem anyway on to last night well I had my math tutor for an hour and hes a cool guy so I like him alot which is weird since I hate math and everyone that teaches it rofl since the schools I went to before my new school that I like they never helped me in the subjects that I needed help in like math. But I think this guy is gonna be alright for now heh. I wish my baby Jeff would get on sometime soon I miss him and I need him as I go through this stupid fucking deal with my parents. Yesterday I talked to Kary, Shawn (My new friend), Casey, Ian, Tyler, Teejay (I'm sorry for thinking you yelled at me. I've had a rough week.), Heather, and a few other people. Then I went to bed at 10:00 PM since I had a fucking mingraine that sucked ass all night and decided to stay til 9:30 AM and I figured a shower would help but it didnt so I'm fucking mad at myself right now and I am repeating over and over Complicated by Avril Lavigne since its my song to my mom basically. Not my dad just my mom. Anyway, comment or whatever. Bye.
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[16 Jan 2004|01:42pm] |
Baby do you know
Baby do you hear me calling out your name
in the middle of the late night hours
Baby do you hear me scream out your name
while i sleep in my bed late at night
Baby do you hear me cry out your name
when im all alone in my room at night
All I want to do is be with you
baby can't you see its real
All I want to do is make love to you
baby can't you see its true
All I want to do is love you forever
baby can't you see it was ment to be
Baby when I see your face all I do is smile
in the middle of the late night hours
Baby when I hear your voice in my ear I shiver
while i sleep in my bed late at night
Baby when I feel your touch I get all warm inside
when im all alone in my room at night
All I want to do is be with you
baby can't you see its real
All I want to do is make love to you
baby can't you see its true
All I want to do is love you forever
baby can't you see it was ment to be
Baby when they ask me about you I say "Yes. That's Him"
in the middle of the late night hours
Baby when they ask me if I'm in love I say "Yes. I am"
while i sleep in my bed late at night
Baby when they ask me if I am alone I say "No. I'm not"
when im all alone in my room at night
All I want to do is be with you
baby can't you see its real
All I want to do is make love to you
baby can't you see its true
All I want to do is love you forever
baby can't you see it was ment to be
All I want to do is be with you
baby can't you see its real
All I want to do is make love to you
baby can't you see its true
All I want to do is love you forever
baby can't you see it was ment to be
Everywhere
Everywhere I go I see your face
Everywhere I go I call your name
Everywhere I go I want you there
Everywhere I go I need you here
This is where I stand now
This is where I am found
This is where I belong
This is where I am alone
Everytime I cry its because of you
Everytime I shed a tear its another thought of you
Everytime I see your picture I cry just for you
Everytime I stay up another night its because of you
This is where I stand now
This is where I am found
This is where I belong
This is where I am alone
Everynight I see your face in the sky
Everynight the stars light up for you
Everynight the clouds seem to disappear for you
Everynight I cry out your name but you never come
This is where I stand now
This is where I am found
This is where I belong
This is where I am alone
This is where I stand now
This is where I am found
This is where I belong
This is where I am alone
Songs written by me. Dont steal or copy. Thanks.
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[16 Jan 2004|09:58am] |
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Good morning sweethearts !!. Well yesterday was Kurt's funeral but I didnt go to it since half of my teachers went and I would of felt weird going to a friends funeral even though I havent known them that long you know?. Anyway I went to school and did my regular classes and we watched that uh movie called October Sky and it was pretty good actually since I never saw it before but I have heared of that name so atleast I was familiar with it and everything else. So then for the rest of the day was alright I just felt naucious with a bad headache and then when my dad drove me and him home after we ate dinner I found out that I had no school because of the cold weather so I got to stay up as late as I wanted but I didnt feel so good so I went to bed around 10:30 PM. I talked to a few people before I went to bed though I talked to Linds, Kyla, Danni, Matt, Drew, Ricky, Joey, Todd, Jessica and a few other people. Then today I got up around 9:19 and my step mom had already left to go get her hair done and go into Boston to get somethings for my dad so then my my step mom reminded me that the house cleaner was gonna be here til 2:00 PM so I wasnt gonna be alone all day but oh well atleast my parents arent home so technically I am sort of home alone because if my parents were here then I wouldnt be since theyd want to talk to me and everything else. Hm anyway right now I am talking to Sally, Drew, Matt ( ex - boyfriend ), Sean and some other people since alot of people either are asleep or at school like my baby Jeff. Oh my god I swear I am gonna get sick from this cold weather I feel it in my throat right now ugh its gonna suck if I get sick. Blahs I dont know what to write in this thing now I am like half awake. It feels weird talking to Matt since we dont talk alot now since we arent together and everything. Okay well I think thats enough for now I will write more later. Comment. Bye bye.
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[15 Jan 2004|04:04pm] |
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Good afternoon my little sweethearts !!. Well today was the day of our class mate Kurt's funeral so my teacher Ms. Clark and our teachers aide Ms. Hartkins went to the funeral and some of our other teachers went as well so we got to go to our first period then we watched October Sky during second period which was a good movie since I never saw it before. Then our teachers came back and we had the rest of our classes and went to lunch then had our last two classes. Finally we went home and on my bus I talked to my bus driver and she said we may not have school tomorrow because of the cold weather and how fast the temp is dropping and everything. Then I got to the hospital and my dad told me I have to see a doctor since my mother is pushing him to get me to see all these fucking doctors other wise he wont win the case in court because he isnt taking me to all the doctors I need to see or some shit. So I am dealing with my parents fighting over about the money and where I am living at and its just really pissing me off. I miss my baby Jeff he hasnt been online but I know hes busy so thats understandable since I got alot of homework this week and things going on in real life besides my aol life. Right now I am in the main office and using one of the secretarys computer. Anyway right now I'm talking to Yari and shes half asleep. Its so cold outside and its like sort cold in the office. Comment. Bye.
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[14 Jan 2004|04:49pm] |
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Good afternoon my little sweethearts !!. Today was alright I suppose I got up around 5:50 AM and got dressed and got my medicine before I had to go let my dog out and get the paper for my dad. Then I went online and I talked to Heather and Ricky before I went downstairs to wait for my bus to come get me. School was alright just really boring then I got home around 2:40 PM and went to my personal trainers house and worked out for an hour. Then went back home and got online. Now I`m talking to Anna and some other people and listening to Nellyville for awhile to wake me up since I am half asleep and fucking bored. Tonight I dunno whats gonna happen probably gonna eat dinner, do my homework and talk online to whoevers online. Bleh it`s so boring today I don`t know why for real. All I seem to do is think about sleeping and not doing anything else. I don`t feel like doing my homework even though I will anyway later on tonight. I just don`t feel like doing anything today you know?. I love my journal now since it`s got Britney Spears up in hurr. You know she`s all that besides the wedding issue. She`s still a good person and everything. Anywho I`ma stop writing in here for now. Comment. I`ll write more later. Peace.
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[13 Jan 2004|04:12pm] |
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Good afternoon my little sweethearts !!. Well today was alright I got up at 5:50 AM to take a shower but the shower switch on my wall to make my bath go from filling up the tub up to the shower came apart so I was like `` fuck. `` so I went to wake up my dad to tell him and he said to take one in his bathroom so I took a shower in his room and it was so fucking cold. The water felt like ice but I didn't have time to wait for the water to get warm because after I had to take a shower I had to let the dog out and get all my things downstairs before my bus came so I would be already when they did come. So that wasnt a good start of the day. I got to school around 8:14 AM and I saw my friends Matt, Nick, Julie, Joe and a few other people then I went to homeroom and my teacher was making a poster on our classmate Kurt who died this past weekend. She's going to his funeral on Thursday with our teachers aide and everything and some other teachers are going to be attending as well. Anyway last night sucked because my fucking internet wasnt working right well the connection at least so my dad had to fix it for me since I thought I knew how to do it but I guess I didn't know how too. Now it's all better and I talked to my friends Heather, Ricky, Drew, and a few other people before I went to bed. That's all I got to write in here for now. I'll write more later. Bye.
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[12 Jan 2004|06:09am] |
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Good morning sweethearts. Well yesterday was alright until last night when my dad came in to the office to tell me that one of the guys in my homeroom who was 18 and in a wheelchair died over the week end and his name was Kurt and I didnt know him that much but it still hurt since we lost another kid last year and he was only 13 with bad heart problems. So during the early part of the day I had my voice lesson and then I basically just relaxed and did my make up work that I didnt get to do last week because of what my friend Brian did to me. I talked to Heather, Drew, Ian, Ricky, Amanda, Kate, Kary, Nel, Chris and a few other people during the late afternoon. But anyway then I went to bed around 10:30 PM and I actually fell right to sleep which surprised me since I am usually on the phone but I didnt feel like being on the phone that night so I just fell right to sleep. Then today I got up at 5:50 AM and theres more fucking snow on the ground but I still have school I betcha. So I took a shower and got dressed in my black bell bottoms and my long sleeved white shirt that says Outrageous Trojans 72 with the trojan guys head in the middle and its a v-neck shirt and I have on my black boots for the snow. I am still waiting for Stop and Shop to call me to see if I can get a job there and its making me nervous on waiting so I am gonna try calling them today to see if the manager is there or not and if he is there I am gonna talk to him. Right now I am just updating and talking to Joey and Heather before I have to go and get my meds and wait for my bus to come get me. I will write more later when I get to my dads hospital after school. Check out the song that I wrote yesterday some people said its really good but I hope they like it. I wrote it from scratch so I didnt use any famous singers writing or anything. So comment or whatever. Bye.
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[11 Jan 2004|02:52pm] |
Everywhere I go I see your face
Everywhere I go I call your name
Everywhere I go I want you there
Everywhere I go I need you here
This is where I stand now
This is where I am found
This is where I belong
This is where I am alone
Everytime I cry its because of you
Everytime I shed a tear its another thought of you
Everytime I see your picture I cry just for you
Everytime I stay up another night its because of you
This is where I stand now
This is where I am found
This is where I belong
This is where I am alone
Everynight I see your face in the sky
Everynight the stars light up for you
Everynight the clouds seem to disappear for you
Everynight I cry out your name but you never come
This is where I stand now
This is where I am found
This is where I belong
This is where I am alone
This is where I stand now
This is where I am found
This is where I belong
This is where I am alone
I wrote this song just a few minutes ago.
It's called "Everywhere".
Comment if you like it.
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[11 Jan 2004|09:24am] |
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Sup !!. Yesterday went alright I got up around 9:30 AM and went online. I talked to Heather, Jeff, Ian, Anna, and a few other people before I had to go eat lunch. After I ate lunch I took a hot shower and got dressed because I had a hair appointment to get my hair cut and blow dried since that night my dad was having a dance party for his lab. So once I got my hair done I went back home and got ready for the party and after I was done getting ready I was able to go online before we had to go. So I got online and I talked to Brandon, Jessica, and a few other people then I had to sign off and go to my dads party. I had a fun time and I didnt sit down after the dj had played music only when he played the slow songs since I didnt have Jeff there to dance with but I wish I did. Then we got home around 11:41 PM and I got online and I talked to pete and I called him since I wanted to go lay down and go to sleep soon so we only talked for a few minutes. Then I fell asleep around 1:00 AM and I had an okay night just felt really cold since it was 0 degrees outside or lower I dont remember. Then today I got up again at 9:30 AM even though I was suppose to call Heather so I hope she wont be mad at me for not calling. Today I got my voice lesson at 3:30 PM then I have to make up all of my homework that I didnt do for Thursday night that was all due on Friday. So least I got more days to do my homework. Anyway right now I am just updating in here since everyone whos online and thats on my buddy list is afk. I think I'ma stop for now. Comment. Bye.
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[10 Jan 2004|09:21am] |
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Sup !!. Hm lets see well school went alright and my teacher wasnt mad at me for not doing my homework but she was mad at Brian for hitting me over the head with a book just for being funny which it wasnt funny at all. So the rest of the school day went alright then on the way up to my dads I took a nap on the bus since I had a headache and everything. Then when the bus got to the hospital I woke up and I called the office so that the secretary could come up and get me so that the bus can go. That night I was online pretty much the whole night. I talked to Anna, Jessica, Jeff [ My baby ], and a few other people then I got offline to call Jeff but we didnt end up talking all night because I was just so wiped out and really tired so he let me go to sleep. I actually had a good night sleep since I woke up around 9:16 AM. Tonight I am going to my dads lab party and during the day I hope I can go get my hair cut or I will just have to wait til I go during the week or something. Eh I am really not wide awake yet to write a long entry. So comment and I will write more later. Eh well I just put up a Britney Spears picture to make my journal look hotter. Even though some people may hate Britney the fact is that I dont hate her. I love her music. I have all of her CDs. So yes I will admit it that I am a Britney Spears fan. And I am a Christina Aguilera fan too. Dont hate, lol. I just love their music. Their songs always cheer me up if I dont have my friends around or if I just want to listen to my music to make me feel better about anything. Anywho right now I am talking to Anna and maybe a few other people. I have a mingraine so I dont feel up to talking to alot of people right away but later on if my mingraine goes away then I will be able to talk to more than just two or three people. So comment again and tell me if you like how my journal looks now with the Britney Spears picture. K thnx bye bye.
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[09 Jan 2004|10:00pm] |
I ____ Kimmy.
Kimmy is ____.
If I were alone in a room with Kimmy, I would _______.
Kimmy needs ______.
I want to ____________ Kimmy.
Kimmy reminds me of _______.
Without Kimmy, _______.
Memories of Kimmy are ________.
Kimmy can be __________.
__________ is how I describe meeting Kimmy.
Worst thing about Kimmy is _________.
Best thing about Kimmy is _________.
I am ________ with Kimmy.
I think Kimmy should ________.
Kimmy will never _________.
Kimmy can________ my _______ .
When I think about Kimmy, I_______.
fill it out copy and paste it into a comment you know you want too :-*
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