||[03 May 2003|01:55pm]
ramen noodles are God ;D
|the best song ever?
||[25 Apr 2003|06:35pm]
Chevelle - The Red
They say freak
When you're singled out
Well it filters through.
So lay down
The threat is real
When his sign goes red again.
Seeing red again
Seeing red again.
This change he won't contain
Slip away to clear your mind
When asked who made it show
The truth he gives into most.
So lay down
The threat is real
When his sign goes red again.
So lay down
The threat is real
When his sign goes red again
So lay down
The threat is real
When his sign goes red again.
Seeing red again
Seeing red again
Seeing red again
Seeing red again
Seeing red again
Seeing red again
Seeing red again
They say freak
When you're singled out
It filters through.
||[15 Feb 2003|09:05pm]
When was the last time you.....
Smiled: today with my mom
Cried: a month ago
Bought something: today, i bought a cd
Were sarcastic: a minute ago
Kissed Someone: yesturday marty<3
Talked to an ex: friday i talked to dustin
Watched your favorite movie: i watched hackers and virgin suicides last week
Had a nightmare: not for awhile
Were lulled to sleep by the thought of someone: last night
Last book you read: some book by amelia atwater rhodes
Last movie you saw: darkness falls
Last song you heard: cky - chink song
Last thing you had to drink: sprite
Last time you showered: a few hours ago
Last thing you ate: grilled cheese and soup
1. What do you most like about your body: my eyes
2. And least: i dunno
3. How many fillings do you have: 2
4. Do you think you're good looking: in some ways
5. Do other people often tell you that you're good looking: yep
6. Do you look like any celebrities: lucas thinks i look somewhat like courtney love..nobody else thinks so though
[ Fashion ]
1. Do you wear a watch: yup
2. How many coats and jackets do you own: 3
4. Most expensive item of clothing: maybe my bondage pants i dunno..
5. What kind of shoes do you wear: adidas sneakers
6. Describe your style in one word: dark unique..sometimes it scares people ;\
[ Friends ]
1. Do your friends 'know' you: a few
2. What do they tend to be like: somewhat like me
3. Are there traits in you that are universally liked: yea
4. How many people do you tell everything to: 3
[ Other ]
1. Favorite band ever: afi and korn
2. Most listened to bands: korn
3. Do you find any musicians good-looking: yep
4. Can you play an instrument: i can somewhat play guitar
5. Type of music listened to: metal punk and goth rock
6. Type never listened to: i've listened everything
7. Favorite book: to many to name
[ General Questions ]
1. Whom do you believe is the smartest man alive at the moment: fuck if i know
2. What do you prefer, a sunny or rainy day: rainy
3. Do you consider yourself lucky: yea
4. Do you feel pity for people who commit suicide: no
5. Choose one word to describe how you feel most often: bored
[ Stuff ]
1. Do you own any plaid clothing : yea
2. Do you own Converse shoes : no
3. Do you own Saucony shoes : no
4. Do you own old school Nikes : no
5. Do you wear tight pants : no
6. Is there more than one zipper in your pants: one 2 pairs yea
7. Do you know what a squatter flap is: no
8. Do you own a messenger bag: yes
9. Do you wear your messenger bag across your chest: yes
10. Do you own braces: no
11. Are braces worn anywhere besides the mouth : legs
12. Do you have short, shaggy hair: no..marty does its so cute ;p
13. Does your hairstyle exceed a height of 3 inches: yes
14. Would you classify your hair as a deadly weapon: no
15. Do you think mohawks are "neat": uh huh my friend beth has one..im jealous
16. Is your hair black or red: no
17. Do you have a favorite brand of hair dye: no
18. Do you own a bandana: yea i lost it though
19. Do you wear plugs in your ears: no
20. Are you amused by safety pins: yep
21. Have you ever used duct tape as a sewing substitute: yep
22. Do you own one or more objects with studs or spikes in them: yep
23. Do you own one or more articles of clothing from Dogpile, Lip Service, or Tiger of London: no
24. Do you enjoy leopard print: its cool looking i guess
[ Habits/Beliefs ]
25. Are you disgruntled (having a general hate for everything): sometimes
26. Are you an anarchist: no but i know people who are
27. Does the American flag anger you: sometimes
28. Are you "working class": ?
29. Do you dislike "preps": i put up with them
30. Do you dislike Hot Topic: its neat
31. Do you smoke cigarettes: yes
32. Do you smoke cloves: no
33. Are you a thin waif: no
35. Do you think meat is murder: no
36. Do your nighttime activities usually involve drunken underage vomiting: not at the moment..but have before
37. Have you ever slept in an alley or park: no
38. Do you wash your hair less than once a week: no
39. Have you ever gone a week without a shower: almost
40. Have you ever been avoided due to your odor: no
41. Do you know who Jack Kerouac is: no
42. Do you like Mr. Kerouac: who is he?!
||[14 Feb 2003|09:09pm]
||green day - blood sex and booze
happy valentines day everyone..
it was a pretty good day for me i guess..some of my friends gave me valentines day card thingies..i got maybe 5 of them so i felt special ^-^ then after school i went to martys and gave him a card and some chocolate candie heart shaped thingies..he better eat them soon..afterwards we went to mcdonalds and then to US dollar..then we went to his treehouse aka the shack..lol we cuddled up in a blankey and made out ;D lol and talked and stuff then we made our way back to his house and his mom yelled at him for being gone so long..yeaah..it was fun and i dont get to talk to him though..for two days cause his going ice fishing boohoo im gunna go through withdrawls ;\ icky well i must go..updation later.
||[07 Feb 2003|05:35pm]
today: was supposed to go to chloes and get stoned but shes mad at me over something..dont want to talk about it
tomorrow: going over to marty's and chill out and watch movies..were probably going to walk to his friends house later in the day.
sunday: marty's going to come over here and meet the parentals..then we'll probably go to the mall or something. im planning on getting an AFI hoodie..cause i want it and i heart afi..there one of my favorite bands..if i cant get the hoodie then im getting a t-shirt but either way whatever i get will be AFI related..heh
im going to kick some girls ass (kassi) cause she bitched at my friend dawn yesturday and because shes tellin me what to do and shes not my fucking mother..hmm yup..i got in trouble in school today..got two days of in school suspension for skipping my classes. wow at least i didnt get in trouble at home..no big deal i guess. well im gunna go..listen to music and other things..write later buh bye
|here i am again with this shit
||[05 Feb 2003|07:22pm]
1) Single or Taken: taken
2) Sex: Female
3) Birthday:July 3rd
4) Sign: Cancer
5) Siblings: uh huh 7 of them
6) Hair color: blond with brown roots
7) Eye color: green-gray
8) Shoe size: 5 1/2 - 6
1) Who are your best friends? liz,marty,lucas,chloe,and beth
2) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: yep
3) any crushes? nope
1) Where is your favorite place to shop? wiccan store down the street from me,hot topic,and best buy (cds)
2) Any tattoos or piercings? ears both 14 gauges
1) Do you do drugs? once in awhile i do pot
2) What kind of shampoo do you use? herbal essence and V05 conditioner
3) What are you most scared of? spiders and being alone
4) What are you listening to right now: simple wisdom (alex quit being the guitarist..im sad?)
5) What vehicle do you wish to have? beetle bug =D
6) Who is the last person that called you? marty
7) Where do you want to get married? i dunno
8) How many messenger buddies do you have on right now? 8
9) If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be? my hair color
1) Color(s): red purple and black
2) Whats your fav. food? ramen noodles,ice cream and pizza oo and doritos..im a junk food junki
4) Boy's names? noah
5) Girls names? maeve
6) Subjects in school? art i guess..
7) Animals? squirels
8) Sports? skateboarding..its a sport motherfucker
[have you ever]
1) Given anyone a bath: a baby
2) Smoked: yep
3) Bungee jumped: i want to
4) Broken the law: yes of course
5) Made yourself throw-up: yep..but it was for a good reason
6) Went skinny dipping? yep
7) Ever been in love: yep
8) Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: haha many times
[What Comes To Mind]
1)Red: my hoodie
2)Cow tipping: poor cows
4)Greenland: i heard its not really GREEN
1) Do you like filling these out: its ok
2) Gold or Silver: Silver
3) What is the last film you saw at the movies?: Darkness Falls
4) Favorite cartoon character: gir,zim,gaz,and patrick star
5) What do you have for breakfast in the morning: choco. milk
6) Who would you love being locked in a room with: marty ^-^
|another lost love
||[21 Jan 2003|06:37pm]
me and dustin broke up..and im at the point were im dead on the inside but still alive on the outside..i dunno everything i look at reminds me of him and its just horribly depressing..i dont even want to think about getting over him and starting a new relationship with someone
im even going to break up with my girlfriend becaue i really really dont want to be in a relationship for a long time. i feel so lost and i feel like cutting myself..worse i feel like fuckin dying
grrr he wants to be friends and i want to be so much more then that and i bet he has no clue what i feel right now and it fucking sucks
im going to see him during school now
he goes to start now..fuck
he has my fucking lunch hour tomorrow great huh?
no not really..im gunna burst out in tears when i see him tomorrow..god im so fucking pathetic im making myself sick.
||[20 Jan 2003|01:30am]
hmm my mom is stressing me out and making me hella nervous. she keeps callin up my dad on his cell phone and expects him to pick up the phone..excuse me hes probably sleeping..its 1:30am and my dad usually goes to sleep by 9 cause hes old ! lol..then i ask her if shes ok and she goes IM FINE DONT WORRY ABOUT ME!!! yells at me cause i care. grr i dunno i know she hates me shes told me before. i dont see why i cant fully hate her back. she treats me like shit yet i still always ask her if shes okay and what not. i guess im just to nice. all i have left to say is dustin is like the only thing that makes me truely happy in this fucked up world and also
i need a cigarette
||[17 Jan 2003|12:06pm]
2.fav brand of garbage bags? dont be mad get glad ;D
3.fav number? 16
4.fav time- 420 lol not really..i dont have a fav time
5.fav color? black purple and red
6.fav band? korn kittie orgy and afi ^-^
7.sex? is important but not as important as communcation (relationship wise)
8.fav color of m&m? purple =D
9.hair color? blond w/ brown roots..
10.fav clothing brand? hex if i know
11.fav type of tree? weeping willow
12.color of yer house? white and black
13.fav grade? 9th..the grade im in now..
14.fav animal? real animal: dog and squirells mystical animal: dragon unicorn
15.do you like hoovervilles? no they uh..give me nightmares =x
16.fav food? Italian or Chinese
17.fav drink? pepsi sprite and choco. milk
18.fav disney movie? newest:lilo and stitch oldest: the lion king ^-^
19.fav holiday? samhain
20.fav street name? eastbrook..hey wait thats my street
21.fav school mascot? the puma..last year.
22.what came first-the chicken er the egg? the chicken because i said so.
23.fav soda? pepsi and sprite
24.fav magazine? revoler, metal edge, circus, hit parader..basically any rock or metal related magizine
25.fav guy/girl? girl/s: chloe beth and heather guys: dustin <3
26.paint or wallpaper? paint
27.fav pancake mix? i dont eat pancakes
28.fav cologne? i dont know..the kind dustin wears i guess ? it smells yum yum
29.fav perfume? Dream(the Gap) and Tommy Girl
30.fav word? spiffy
31.fav sport? baseball
32.fav coin? pennies ..cause they give you good luck ;D
33.fav football team? uh..i dont have one cause i dont watch football
34.fav nickname? quee
35.camel or llama? llama ! "dude..its a llama..no its a ostrich !" lol..
36.do you like the proud family? no i dont watch disney
37.fav guy name? noah
38.fav girl name? maeve
39.fav flavor of gum? apple
40.what makes you bored the most? staring at this god damn screen for 10 hours..-did that today- ;\
41.eye color? gray green
42.how often are yah online? EVERYDAY! for like hours on end..
43.fav type of weather? cloudy and cool.
44.fav park? the one i live by ?
45.fav dance? head banging
46.fav brand of fabric softener sheets? the one with cuddles the bear on it..even though cuddles needs to die..im gunna stab him with a spork.. lol
47.do you prefer a knife, fork, or spoon? sporks please
48.which is better-Mr Pibb, Dr Pepper, or a&w? dr pepper
49.how do you make things look old? um i dont
50.mary kate or ashley? ew i think they have herpes
51.is corey and tapenga married or jus engaged, or neither? married..
52.should kenny's neighbors put christmas lights on their dirt mound in front of their house? - kenny is dead mother fucker ='[
53.plastic or paper bags? plastic
54.fav disney show? i dont watch disney so i dont know.
55.do you like to bowl? no
56.grand canyon, or guy bending over? neither..
57.whats yer middle name? Elizabeth
58.is cheerleading a sport? no
59.carpeted or wood floors? wood..cause than you can put hair spray on it and light it on fire and it doesnt make burn parks lol -pyro-
60.paint or wall paper? ..u already asked this and my answer remains the same
61.does duct tape fix everything? yess..you can lick it to get high too..its great lol duct tape rules over all !
62.email or regular mail? both is nice
63.sunrise or sunset? sunset
64.lake or ocean? ocean
65.waterskiing, or regular skiing? water
66.golf, or mini golf? none
67.fav song? taproot - poem, nin- closer, korn- shoots and ladders,kittie- brackish, afi - god called in sick today..way more
68.phone or computer? i couldnt live if i didnt have both to use.
69.black and white, or colored? black n white
70.fav vegetable? peas
71.do you have a b/f or g/f? both
72.who do you like? i like dustin alot more than heather (my gf) but heather is great too.
73.fav kind of flower? roses and daisies
74.fav year? year of the dragon roar.
75.fav shoe brand? adidas ^-^
76.fav type of music? metal,goth rock, some punk
77.know any new words i could start using? no go away
78.fav gemstone? rudy ? i duno
79.fav dwarf? grumpy >.<
80.do you have any piercings? my ears
81.do you have any tattoos? no
82.whats yer fav color of socks? white i guess..white is all i have
83.whats yer fav outfit? korn shirt, dragon hoodie, baggy silver pants,lots of bracelets, 2 necklaces etc etc
85.do you like when the doorbell rings? sometimes it scares me
86.who put the bop in the bop shoe bop shoe bop? i did.
87.is a tomatoe a veggie or a fruit? fruit cause it has seeds
88.who are social service people? people who help you..when you need help..
89.fav insect? lady bug or those cool rolly polly bugs. ^-^
90.fav class? lunch ! or art !
91.fav shape? circle
92.fav laundry detergent? i dont care
93.fav barbie? um..the blond one ?
94.how many people do you have on yer list? buddy list: 57 friends list: like 5..lol
95.fav flavor of chapstick? strawberry
96.fav game? spyro
97.fav mouse? i dont know
98.fav hair style? spikey and colored a weird color
99.fav actor? ben stiller
100.fav actress? angelina jolie
101.fav car? beetle bug =D
102.fav ice cream flavor? chocolate of course
103.fav place to go on vacation? canada ?
104.fav kind of candy? chocolate..mostly twix and m&m's
105.fav computer game? the sims i guess..though i havent played it in forever
106.fav board game? yahtzee
107.fav street sign? the stop sign..you see alot of those
108.have you ever jacked a street sign? i wrote dont stop on a stop sign..with permanent marker lol..wow
109.fav person to talk to? dustin =D
110.fav hero? GIR from invader zim..if not him than um Jhonen Vasquez
111.fav cartoon? Invader Zim, Sailor Moon,Rainbow Brite, Care Bears
112.fav christmas character? heat miser !
113.fav fruit? appo
114.chocolate or vanilla? chocolate <3
115.fav language? English cause its the only one i can speak
116.fav athlete? none
117.fav island? hawii
118.fav season? fall
119.fav cereal? lucky charms mmmm
120.fav article of clothing? dragon hoodie
121.fav bird? crow..cause of the movie..and a raven cause there cool looking.
122.what do you like best: reading writing music dustin..other things
123.whos yer closest friend? shelle chloe monica beth dustin and heather
124.do you have any bro's or sis's? 5 sisters 2 brothers..all older and moved out..wee hee hee
125.motorcycle or crotch rocket? Motorcycle
126.fav kind of tooth paste? Crest
127.fav christmas song? jingle bell rock !
128.why do you like yer crush? cuz hes great and treats me soo good you just gotta love em back ^-^
129.whos yer sweetest/most caring friend? shelle and monica
130.whos yer loudest friend? Chloe
131.whos yer funniest friend? Beth
132.do you like cheese..lol? no it smells funny.
133.whatta bout nacho cheese: yum on nachos blah plain
134.fav kitty? dustins cat Bizzarre
135.fav color ink? black
136.do fire hydrants have their own lil world? yes and there planning on taking ours over
137.fav mall? Franklin Park
138.fav ride at amusement park? raptor and millenium force <3 @ cedar point
139.fav symbol on periodic table? H2o lol..
140.do you think it would be cool if mail boxes shot lasers at eachother? yes! ..but i would get scared and be like "whooa am i high??"
141.fav game system(playstation, etc.)? ps2
142.fav month? november
143.fav kind of nuts? cashews
144.fav cheer? like totally for sure i just got a manicure the sun i swear is bleaching out my gorgeous hair 1234 i dont know the stupid score..lmao girls used to sing that 2 me in grade school..ick
145.pc's or mac's? pc's
146.fav song lyric? "my soul brings tears to angelic eyes" AFI - God Called in Sick ..also "God is in the Tv" Rock is Dead - Marilyn Manson
147.person most like you? noone
148.fav shaped pen? my oh-so-spiffy pokemon pen lol..
149.crayons/colored pencils/markers? markers..permanent ones
150.fav kind of light? black lights..so fun
151.fav room in yer house? my room and comp room and kitchen mm food
152.if you could go anywhere in the world, where would it be? Ireland
153.fav good luck charm? four leaf clovers ? lol i duno
154.fav toy when you were little? glo wormie
155.did you ever have an imaginary friend? yep ..two..names were nick and amy..i blamed them when i got in trouble lol..
156.do you hunt? no
157.why did the monkey fall outta the tree? because i pushed him 0.0
158.fav symbol on msn? umm..i dunno
159.are girls better with no/little/a lot of make on? little or none
160.fav monster? boogie woogie man
161.do you sleep with anything? my self
162.fav deoderant? smelly goody kind
163.which is cooler-skateboarding or rollerblading? skateboarding is cool..but i can rollarblade alot better.
164.fav thing to do when bored? write read and listen to music
165.have you ever been arrested? nope
166.have you ever been ticketed? nope
167.have you ever got kicked out of a store? yep =D
168.what is most annoying bout yer best friend? she talks crap about alot of people..
169.fans or central air? central air please.
170.do you wanna eventually get married? eventually yes..
171.fav glue brand? the super kind
172.fav teacher? i dont have one
173.have you ever toilet papered/egged a house? egged yes
174.has yers ever gotten that done to it? yup both awhile ago
175.have you ever broken a bone? nope
176.did you have yer tonsels taken out? nope
177.are yer christmas lights up yet? nope
178.whatcha gonna get me fer christmas? christmas is over so nothing.
179.what could i change my email address to? email@example.com
180.fav little rascals character? alfalfa
181.fav boy band? o yah nsync ! lmao..riiight..
182.fav concert you've been to? Kittie ^-^
183.what does nikkis chair look like that she claimed at my house? its furry and purple and has gum stuck on it.
184.how many days till christmas? alot
185.have you ever stolen anything? yes
186.fav spanish word? hola
187.whos the coolest geek? you are
188.do you wanna have kids? 1 or2
189.do you do drugs? sometimes
190.do you drink? sometimes
191.what makes everything all better? dustin
192.are you right handed, left handed, or ambidextrous? right handed
193.what side of yer computer is tha mouse on? right..duur..
194.how long do you think this took me to think up n type? um a long time.
195.do you have a job? nope im to young
196.what time do you usually wake up at? 10,11,12 around there
197.are you bored yet? no im tired though
198.pep rallies-cool or lame? lame..but i like to make fun of people there lol
199.fav kind of popcicle? cherry ones
200.fav color of nail polish? black and blood red
||[16 Jan 2003|08:42pm]
||afi - midnight sun
i got to go over to dustins house yesturday. it was great.hes gunna start going to Start on tuesday so thrilled about that its gunna be great he has lunch with me on "gold" days lol. wee =DD ..we were home alone most of the time we were there. so we got high together and than fooled around..uh yeah =x lol hes so perfect and its gunna be our month this sunday..were gunna hang out together probably at my house this time since i usually am at his house...but his house is better i think cause his parents leave us alone. but my parents? no..there overprotective cause im there little girl ..blaah stupid over protective parents making me leave my door open and such..grrarr. well anyways..
you know what?
GIR from invader zim rocks hardcore. hes the bestest and hes soo cute i could watch him all day.. im such a dorko..well i gotta go. leave me comments people or i'll stab you with a plastic butter knife.
<3 meghan aka quee
||[12 Jan 2003|12:01pm]
here i am again to update this thing..my weekend has been going pretty well..friday i spent the night with chloe and beth..we got drunk and high together and fucked with each others minds for mostly the hole night. we also played video game and watched kung fu enter the first..that movie is the greatest...went home around 3 or 4 in the afternoon and rented men in black 2 and lilo and stitch..im such a baby that i cried during lilo and stitch =x lol. and today..i'm hopefully gunna see dustin. havent seen him in a week because of school. i get out of school early for all of next week because of exams. hooray. but not really..cause i doubt im even going to do well. i studied though like a mad person..so who knows i may do ok..blaah well heres a survey..enjoy
8 songs that get stuck in your head frequently]
1. Garbage - Im Only Happy When It Rains
2. Jack off Jill - Strawberry Gashes
3. Murderdolls - Slit my Wrists
4. Korn - Shoots and Ladders
5. Taproot - Mirrors Reflection
6. Taproot - Poem
7. Snake River Conspiracy - Somebody Hates You
8. Kittie - Brackish
[4 beverages you drink frequently]
[4 places to go in your area]
1. Tea Shop
3. Barnes and Noble
[4 things to do when you're bored]
[4 things that never fail to cheer you up]
3. a good book
[4 things you can't live without]
[about 10 years ago *list three things*]
1. watched barney and roger rabbit ;\
2. was shy as hell
3. was more annoying ?
[about 2 years ago *list three things*]
3. had no friends what-so-ever
[about 1 year ago *list three things*]
1. was still anti-social
2. found out who i really am
3. made REAL friends
1. woke up at 1030
2. washed clothes
3. watched boring info comercials
[10 things you love]
2. Computers etc
6. Nail Polish
7. Eye Liner
8. Amelia Atwater Rhodes
[7 things you hate]
1. Shallow people
3. Avril fucking Lavigne
4. Kelly Osbourne..
5. The sun
6. Country music
7. no answer
[7 things on your desk]
1. KiTTiE beanie
2. beaded bracelet
5. guitar piks
7. safety pins
[7 facts about you]
1. Low self esteem
2. Highly Sensitive
3. I dont easily trust people
4. Dreams of being a successful writer
5. Obsessed with the band KoRn
6. Daylight hurts my eyes
7. Feels calm when looking at the moon
[8 artists/bands people should give a listen to]
3. Jack off Jill
4. My Ruin
5. Snake River Conspiracy
6. Queen Adreena
7. Switchblade Symphony
[5 things you like about the opposite sex]
2. Taste In music
[4 things you would eat on the last day of your life]
2. Root Beer
3. Mushrooms..i've never had them because they look gross..
4. ALL the chocolate i can get my hands on
[4 CD's from your collection that you will never get tired of]
1. KiTTiE - Spit
2. Taproot - Welcome
3. Korn - Korn
4. Korn - Issues
[6 celebrities you would have sex with]
2. Jonathan Davis
3. Little Jimmy Urine
4. Marilyn Manson
5. Twiggy Ramarez
6. Joey Jordison
kkk love peace and chicken grease.
|new years started out with a BANG
||[02 Jan 2003|08:34pm]
well my new years eve was hell..my friend got sick cause she has diabetes (sp?) and i overdosed on asprin so yes. i was sick as all hell yesturday. dustin was worried about me..that made me feel a little better to know that people really care. i was supposed to hang out with him today but -sigh- he never called me..i think he was at a friends house but i dont know..i hope he gets online tonight..or maybe i can see him tomorrow. i hope so i miss him like whoa..i do not want school to start up again. i dread that..the 6th is when i go back.stupid fucking school..only good thing is at the start of the second semester dustin is probably going to go my school with me hooray ^-^...
i fucking love orgy..there an awesome ass band..havent listened to them in a while though..i reallyyy should listend to them more often well im gunna go..bye bye
||[28 Dec 2002|12:10pm]
i no longer have a girlfriend. she cheated on me with some loose whore named suzie..yes i know who suzie is..i used to be friends with her but now i dispise hearing her name..anyways yes i got cheated on and me and my girlfriend broke up yesturday. tears were shed a little bit but im okay for i had a boyfriend to support me anyways. so much to write about..yes i was asked out by a boy named dustin on sunday and since i liked him i said yes and were doing pretty good and taking things nice and slow so were not to mess up our relationship. we've both made the same mistakes in the past and were trying to avoid them this time. which is great. yesturday we went to the mall together along with our friend josh. dustin insisted he buy me some x-mas gifts and i argued about it..cause i HATE when my boyfriends/girlfriends buy me things for some reason..i start to feel bad..but i gave in a let him buy me a koRn poster than..he bought me a Gir messenger bag behind my bback and i felt bad cause he used up most of his gift card to buy it for me. i tried to make it up to him by buying all of us Vamp and buying him 10 gauge earrings. he loved the earrings and tried to put them in in the mall but they only got half way through and his ear was bleeding everywhere lol. we all got pretty hyper off of the vamp. its pretty good stuff. but yeah..it was alot of fun. hes a cool guy to be around.. well i gotta go for now. cya later..
|jingle balls..jingle balls..
||[22 Dec 2002|02:30pm]
well well well. im really not looking forward to x-mas this year. cant recieve any presents cause there arent any. and cant give presents cause theres no money. poverty sucks ass i can tell you that much. my and my sister were going to go buy my mom a candle for x-mas but she wont go with us to pick it out cause shes a fucking lazy ass bitch. i hate her with a passion expessially around the holidays. anyways..my girlfriend chloe ruined my boots on friday with our friends. they put shit piss lotion beer ciggaratte buds and probably alot of other things i cant name inside the boots..i had dustin put them out back to be thrown away. i was so pissed off that i cried. it sucked..but i forgive them i guess..if they keep doing shit like that than i dont know what im going to do..
well about dustin. i like him alot..i called him not to long ago but he wasnt home. to bad for him cause if he were home i'd be asking him out ^-^ and no having a boyfriend and girlfriend is not cheating. on my terms its not and chloe says its ok.fuck she has a boyfriend and fucks around with other guys. so oh well..well i got to go..later
||[18 Dec 2002|06:43pm]
hullo im back i suppose i keep forgetting about this thing =[ i feel bad now. so yes school has been going well i suppose. i like a guy named keith but unfortunetly hes going out with my ex-girlfriend and best friend beth. it sucks my cock i swear.. i started crying after school over him n shit and i wouldnt or couldnt tell beth what was wrong with me. grrr. fucking guys ..yea anyway..i got a math test horray just another stupid test for me to FAIL at. im so retarded at everything i wish i could just drop out of school but i have to get my education and get a job and make my family proud. blah im depressed. im going to go to sleep. night for now..
||[09 Dec 2002|07:44pm]
sorry that i havent written in awhile been caught up in school and things. went to a concert on friday night..than saturday morning i drank and puked my brains out..3 times..lol oh what fun..might be getting my belly button pierced with chloe and beth this weekend. hmm i guess thats about all to update about..ta ta
||[27 Nov 2002|11:44pm]
mom is made at me
cause i do bad things to my body..hello mom its my body not yours..
i wished she'd disapear and let me live my own life
now shes upset cause im bi and happen to have a girlfriend
who im in love with
why cant she just be fucking happy for me ?
christ on a cracker..lol
||[20 Nov 2002|08:25pm]
well changed the color of my journal and got my comment thingy up..and my spiffy user picture..i think my work here is done..man i dont know how much im going to be using this journal..i rarely update on any of mine except for deadjournal...i use that one everyday cause it was my very first one..so yeaah.. i'll be going must go take a shower..
||[18 Nov 2002|07:58pm]
oh yea im so fucking cool i created my 4 journal.. fuckin computer freak me..gunna go fix it up now