|Tuesday, December 2nd, 2003|
i kinda fucked up last night and had more than i should totalling to a grand total of 900cals. today i WILL do better.
i've been slightly constipated for awhile so i downed two laxatives before bed. boy oh boy did it purge me clean this morning. it was so bad i almost threw up. But i feel empty and light now and i like that.
10.30am - happily sipping my diet coke :)
Current Mood: content
|Monday, December 1st, 2003|
5.32pm. i had an apple. 60cals. i'm hungry but not really. i feel that slight lighty feeling and i feel in control. i fear for dinner but i think i'll do ok.
its about time. i don't have a scale for now cos i'm not at home and won't be until dec 23rd BUT i really don't care much anymore. i know i've gained. i can see it/feel it in my body. i've also been eating way too much good food of late and sort of slacked off restricting.
i miss the feeling of being empty. on surviving on the bare minimal. on being on a caffeine high. i can't escape dinner but usually dinner is a light affair cos everyone here is on a low-carb diet so i'll have no food till dinner and a light dinner with NO CARBS. and that will be all. Hopefully stay below the 500 cal range.
It's 2.45pm and i haven't had anything but water and diet coke and i'm feeling floaty already. yay! i love it.
Current Mood: cold