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[24 Jan 2003|06:07am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Getting up early...is hell. *she nodded quickly* Yes. If anyone ever said differently...they were crazy.

I'm updating to prove that I'm all alive and stuff. *she shivered lightly, rubbing her hands over her arms* Its so damn cold.

Cordy got a journal. *she laughed a bit* Never thought she'd want to hang around with us ever again.

*she made a face* Where is everyone?

::Stake A Vamp!

[11 Jan 2003|10:05pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | Just A Girl - No Doubt ]

*she stifles a yawn, placing her hand in front of her mouth and then rubs her eyes, proceeding to run her fingers through her hair*...god. How bored am I right now? *she sighs a bit and flips channels on the tv* Nothing..is..on. *she then rolls her eyes and shuts the tv off* I give up. I'm going to go patrolling now. And be even more bored out of my mind. *she frowns a bit and then grabs her jacket and some stakes, yelling upstairs to Dawn that she was going out and then goes out the door, closing it quickly and starts to walk toward the cemetery, humming to herself and thinking "...god, I'm so bored. Maybe I should go see if Faith or Spike, want to patrol. Or maybe I can go beat Willie up"*

1 Dusted :: | ::Stake A Vamp!

[10 Jan 2003|04:00pm]
[ mood | giddy ]

Woo-haa. *she raises her eyebrows slightly, an amused look is on her face* Did I really just say that? *makes a face and shrugs* Whatever. I'm giddy. Therefore I'm making a pointless post.

Oh and Faith is at-the-moment...my favorite ;) yeah, she's going to fix my background up all nice and pretty...or something like that.

Giles! Where are you? You never told me what it was you wanted to see me about *she makes a confused/worried face* Anyway...I'm off. To go and train. *she nods a bit* Yeah I'm going to do that.

[god..I.update.too.much. Dr.Pepper.and.me.don't.mix.all.that.well. makes.me.hyper.and.stuff. woo.i.love.the.period.key. Ok done now :D]

::Stake A Vamp!

[10 Jan 2003|06:15am]
[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | Walk Away - Christina Aguilera ]

Its me...again. I really should get some NyQuil or something. That'd put me to sleep. Or...get me drunk/tipsy? *remembers that cough/sleep medicene has a small percentage of alcohol in it*...

Sleeping is so hard now. I don't know why either. I'm slowly getting over the whole...having to claw my way out of my grave *feels bad that she's lying through her teeth* Maybe I'll go and "cuddle up" to my insomnia and succumb to what little sleep I can get *she shrugs lightly* Worth a shot.

::Stake A Vamp!

[09 Jan 2003|09:57pm]
[ mood | cynical ]
[ music | Too Late - No Doubt ]

*she yawns slightly, as if she were bored and a little mixture of being tired* So...boring. So very boring. This is the Hellmouth and I'm bored. *she rolls her eyes a bit, making a face*

Last night was a bust pretty much. Staked about 2 vamps. They were dusted in seconds. I bumped into Spike. We talked...for a little while and then I bailed. I seem to be doing that...a lot lately. Bailing on people *she gets a saddened look on her face*...

..Anyway, I see a "Slayer-in-Training" got a journal. Its alright...I guess. Being trained by Giles and..I? that'd probably do her some good. Seeing as I've out-lived most Slayers. *she thinks: "Even though I did die twice.."* ..*she sighs and then begins to chew on the inside of her cheek for a moment and then stops and bites her lip for a bit and then looks around* I need..something to do. Might as well go ahead and patrol again. *she thinks: "No use doing it though. Even though I might run int--", she then shakes her head slightly, as if to get the thought out of her head* I'll probably see if Faith...or Spike...someone, wants to come with. Patrolling alone is so boring. *she mumbles to herself* That and it beats talking to yourself.. So I'm going to go ahead and do that...

*she gets up from the computer, grabbing her jacket with stakes already in the pockets and places one in the back of her jeans, she quickly goes upstairs and tells Dawn she's going on patrol again and that if something happens that Tara and Will are downstairs, she then proceeds to wave a 'bye' to Tara and Willow and then heads on out the door, walking somewhat fastly-- to the cemetery near-by keeping an eye out for either Faith or Spike...*

::Stake A Vamp!

[09 Jan 2003|06:20am]
[ mood | cold ]

I have some of the most disturbing dreams...or nightmares, whatever you want to call it. They would probably scare even the toughest demon. Bring them to hiding in the dark.

I wish I could tell myself "Monsters aren't real" and just hide under my bed. But I've seen too much. I've faced too much. So that simple lie doesn't work.

I feel so cold. So alone. So empty. I have this feeling in my stomach. Its the lonliness. I am surrounded by people that love and care about me, and I feel alone. *she laughs a bit, a pained now on her face*...I don't even laugh anymore. Or, not so much as I did before.

This is Buffy when she hasn't had much sleep and when she finally gets to sleep is woken up by a horrible nightmare. Yeah, even the Slayer can have nightmares. Anyway...I'll stop now.

2 Dusted :: | ::Stake A Vamp!

[08 Jan 2003|07:43pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]
[ music | Ex-girlfriend - No Doubt ]

I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend. I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them. Whoa. I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend. I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list, but I should have thought about that before we kissed.

...That is stuck in my head. damn sublemminal messages Stupid catchy pop music ><. Anyway. Faith and I were talking earlier about patrol. She said she was going to come with tonight. But she suggested that we bring Spike along *she shrugs a bit and raises her eyebrows a bit* Sounds like an alright idea I guess. At least we'll have company y'know? *chews on her gum a bit and sighs to herself, hearing a knock on the door*..That's probably Faith. So I'm going to go and get that...*gets up from the computer, opens the door seeing Faith and she says "Hey B, you ready", she answers back with "Sure, wait" and grabs her jacket and stakes and after Faith leaves out the door she follows behind closing it*

[Yeah, I'll be a little late. But I'll be on :D]

::Stake A Vamp!

[07 Jan 2003|07:53pm]
[ mood | energetic ]
[ music | Paint it Black - Vanessa Carlton ]

Oh how it must be so good to be me right now *laughs quietly, rolling her eyes a bit*...I mean with there being 3 of me running around and all. I mean, there's me, then the bot and then my vampire self. Which the bot is the ditz and the vamp is...the slutty? *raises a brow quickly and shrugs* versions of me. And I'm the...*thinks for a moment, looking down a bit and makes a face*...normal? *scoffs lightly* Wait, I'm not normal. I'm the uh...*makes air-quotes with her fingers* "original". *nods a bit* That's it.

*shifts her eyes from the left to the right and sighs a bit* I'm bored. I should go on patrol or something. I was going to go with Faith but I guess she's not going to show. Maybe I'll go by Spike's and ask if he wants to come *shrugs a bit and moves her head slightly* At least someone'll be with me, keep me a little company...*thinks: "Heh, this might be a little interesting? Just as long as I don't decide to get drunk again.."*..So yeah, I'm going to go and uh..do that.

*she leaves the computer, grabbing her jacket and puts a few stakes in the pockets of it and one in the back of her jeans and opens the door, walking out, closes it and starts to walk almost briskly to Spike's crypt to see if he wants to patrol with her, since no one else is around*

1 Dusted :: | ::Stake A Vamp!

[07 Jan 2003|05:53am]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | Pretty Baby - Vanessa Carlton ]

Insomnia is...evil. *groans a bit and goes to the kitchen and looks for something to eat*

*comes back with cereal bars and a pint of ice cream* Mmm, I'm in heaven. *rolls her eyes and laughs quietly to herself*

*decides to go outside on the porch and wait for sunrise to watch the sun come up and smiles to herself*

[Like wow, getting up early...blows. >< *curses school*]

::Stake A Vamp!

[06 Jan 2003|10:22pm]

Hi. Faith and I went patrolling. Staked two vamps. Blah blah blah, you know the story. We went by Willie's Place. to see if we coule get any information or anything. No luck. *shrugs slightly and rolls her eyes a bit* Anyway. She wanted to get a drink, so I'm going to join her.
3 Dusted :: | ::Stake A Vamp!

[06 Jan 2003|06:11am]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | Girls & Boys - Good Charlotte ]

*taps her foot lightly on the floor as if she's either impatiently waiting on something or just is nervous* Insomnia...gotta love it *rolls her eyes and tries to keep from laughing*

Surprisingly, I have nothing to say. So this is my update. *pops her neck slightly and yawns*

[Oh yeah, gotta love the school system >< its too freakin' early! >< grr]

::Stake A Vamp!

[05 Jan 2003|11:36am]
[ mood | aggravated ]
[ music | Lucky Ones - Bif Naked ]

I want to say something, I want everyone to get this straight. STOP asking me if I'm 'okay'. Stop feeling sorry for me...for everything. It just makes me even more confused and that makes my head hurt. Next time someone asks me that, I'm charging them money. Because everytime someone asks me that, I feel I have to be okay so they don't worry and it makes them worry even more *she sighs to herself and bites on the inside of her mouth for a moment or so*

I'm waiting for someone to just slap me, to tell me to get it together or something. Which, is what I'm trying to do. Faith and I aren't going to spend...so much time at the Bronze now, I guess. Spend more time on the actual...slaying. Train, do research, something just to keep us busy and maybe figure out how the hell and why...all these faces from the past are showing up. *she thinks to herself: Just as long as Glory doesn't come back...*

Anyway, *she stops and looks at the clock and glances upstairs* I'm taking Dawn ice skating so...I should go and check if she's read to go now. *she leaves the computer and goes upstairs to Dawn's room, tapping on the door lightly*

5 Dusted :: | ::Stake A Vamp!

[04 Jan 2003|11:20pm]
[ mood | bored ]

My god Saturday's are so boring. *she yawns slightly and sighs to herself looking for something to do*

I haven't seen...anyone around...all day *a worried look appears on her face as if she is somewhat stunned by this* Its kind of unusual.

*she rolls her eyes slightly and taps her nails a bit* Forget this. *gets up from the computer, grabs her jacket and heads on over to Faith's to go to the Bronze*

::Stake A Vamp!

[03 Jan 2003|11:44pm]
[ mood | drained ]
[ music | Sugar High - Coyote Shivers ]

*she yawns slightly and tucks her stake into the pocket of her jacket and places her crossbow on the strap over her shoulder*

Last update from me for the night, I swear. *she thinks to herself: I really need to get a life* I went on patrol with Faith earlier, we found a nest of vamps. She was all gung-ho about taking care of it the moment we found it but I told her we should wait and get more weapons. So that's what I'm doing. If...you happen to need us or might want to help us out or anything...we'll be out...and cheese guy, stay out of my dreams tonight.

*she closes her laptop up and turns off the light, heading out the door and starts to walk briskly over to Faith's to meet her up to go to the vamp nest they found near UC Sunnydale*

::Stake A Vamp!

[03 Jan 2003|12:04am]
[ mood | distressed ]
[ music | Wanted - Vanessa Carlton ]

I finally got on AIM today. Talked to Oz and Faith a little bit. Will and Xand were on, but I didn't talk so much with them *a small frown develops on her features as if she's somewhat saddened by this* But, its no big...nothing on my mind right now is anything I'd like to share...with them. It was nice to get to talk to them again, after so long. But it was cut short because I had to go and pick Dawn up from the movies. She and some friends had went to see a movie and she didn't have a ride home. So, it was big sister Buffy to the rescue *rolls her eyes a bit, trying to force a smile*

Later on, Faith and I went patrolling. We got in 2 good slays tonight. Vampires that actually put up a fight. Which was a change from what's been around lately. *sighs slightly, biting on her lip a bit, almost as if she were nervous* We decided to go onto the Bronze. Oz was there with the Dingoes. We watched them for a while. it was alright until Faith decided to drink and wanted me to join her. I wasn't in the mood, so I decided to bail.

So here I am, *laughs quietly to herself and brushes some of her hair out of her face,taking a sip of water* typing on..*gestures to the computer and keyboard* this thing. I have so much on my mind right now *rubs her forehead slightly and pops her neck a bit* So much confusion. *looks at the clock,biting her lip again* ...I'm going to go now.

*gets up from the computer,grabs her jacket opening the front door of her house and leaves,walks down the steps of the porch and sits for a moment sighing to herself buring her face into her hands, pushing her hair away from her face with her fingers*

6 Dusted :: | ::Stake A Vamp!

[02 Jan 2003|11:18am]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | Haunting Me - Stabbing Westward ]

*blinks in disbelief;a confused look on her face* ...This is what happens when I suddenly decide to go for a walk? The Master just decides to *makes hand gestures as she says this* pop on back? And what's the deal with the Cheeseman? *a disgusted/amused look creeps up on her face* I only remember seeing that guy in my dream after Will,Xander,Giles,and I did that spell to invoke the power of the slayer and even then I don't know where the hell that came from. *sighs to self;an almost worried look has replaced the amused look on her face now* Someone explain to me what the hell is going on?

4 Dusted :: | ::Stake A Vamp!

[01 Jan 2003|11:42pm]
[ mood | cold ]
[ music | Lucky Ones - Bif Naked ]

*cracks her neck slightly;rolling her shoulders a bit and sighs to self*

So bored. So very very bored. Faith and I went patrolling for a while. It was a bust. Not many vamps decided to come out. *makes a face;shrugging slightly* No big though, even though I was in the mood for at least one good slay. *looks at Faith for a moment;raising a brow* and I said SLAY..not that..other word.

*runs her fingers through her hair for a moment;brushing it away from her face* So, how was everyone's New Years? *trying her damnedest to be social for a moment* ...Mine was uneventful. I took Dawnie shopping though. I swear she practically wanted to buy everything in every store. *looks at Dawn with a sympathetic look for a moment* Sorry Dawnie, I've still got lots of bills to pay. Seeing as I didn't get that loan from the bank and all, that money from Giles didn't pay for everything. My journal looks so lonely, it has no comments on it whatsoever *frowns slightly for a moment* Whatever *taps her nails lightly for a second and quickly stops* I'm going to go for a walk and see if maybe I can do a quick sweep again before I try to go to sleep.

[heh,this means...Buffy's gonna lurk in comments for a while lmfao. AIM is a dick and I don't want to deal with it right now :D]

10 Dusted :: | ::Stake A Vamp!

[01 Jan 2003|12:29am]
[ mood | alone/sad/emo/etc ]

Yeah yeah, Happy New Year everyone *throws ripped up bits of paper around*

Anyway, hope everyone had fun. I didn't. Faith and I were bored out of our minds. And decided to pick up some alcohol. We ran out before Midnight. So she headed on home. Leaving me all alone with nothing to do.

So I watched the MTV thing. Mhm. Ball dropped, very fun. *shrugs a bit* Hm, I'm going to go for a walk. Yeah, at 12 something at night.

*grabs her jacket and heads out the door;walking semi-fastly...not really knowing where she wants to go but keeps on a-walkin'*

[basically Buffy is going to go and visit Spike. seeing as thats who she was seen around with most during this point of Season 6 *nod* but this pre-dates the sexual part of their relationship, so its just for talking and booze]

::Stake A Vamp!

[31 Dec 2002|07:24pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]
[ music | My Bloody Valentine - Good Charlotte ]

*glances at what her music is* ..good charlotte. I should really learn how to change the cd ;x

So, its New Years Eve. *sarcasm* Yippee *end sarcasm* Where most people my age are out partying or something, I'm here. About to go out to patrol. With Faith. I decided to bring Faith along seeing as she's just barely out of jail and is adjusting to that and I'm adjusting with the whole being back so we'll be like two peas in a pod. Bonded peas.

Dawnie is spending the night at one of her friends houses. I think her name is Janice? *shrugs slightly* I'm not sure. Seeing as she didn't ask me. Said something about I hadn't been around much so she had to ask Will and Tara.

*yawns slightly* Patrol has been kind of lacking lately. I probably staked 2 vamps last night. *makes a face* Did you guys like get rid of all the vampires and demons over the summer when I was dead? *glances at the clock* Hm, I'm going to go by Faith's now to go on patrol. If you need me, or Faith...or both of us, you'll know where to find us.

::Stake A Vamp!

[30 Dec 2002|12:54am]
[ mood | restless ]
[ music | The Anthem - Good Charlotte ]

..why am I writing in this? Oh yeah, I remember. So I can let my "feelings" out. *shrugs slightly* Like anyone is going to read it anyway. or like they really even care. didn't care that they...*stops* anyway,

*rubs eyes slightly* Why can't I sleep? *groans to self* I want to go to sleep, but I can't. I keep having this dream. About me jumping in the portal to close it and save the world. It was so clear then, where I fit. What my place in life was. Now I'm back and everything is different. Different from what it was before I di--left. And it always ends the same, with me waking up in my coffin. Having to claw my way out of my grave *shudders a bit;looks down at her hands for a moment;the wounds on her hands have healed* Its so vivid. Like I'm reliving it again. *yawns* ...and I've probably put whoever is actually reading this to sleep, so I'm going to see if I can do the same.

::Stake A Vamp!

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