| Fuck you faggots.. |
[28th May 2003, 2:31am] |
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i'm tired of the crappy stuffs surrounding me!! go and rot in hell you faggots! for god's sake man! stop repeating the same shit again and again! get over it! no point crying over spilt milk! ya..ya..people would say, "ko pon sama pe..nak cakap orang..", but i don't go around bragging about my problems every single day of the week! i'm not emotionally unstable for every passing second! wake up kids! be real! get this in your head! open your mind and accept the fact!! if you can't..i'd suggest you jump off a building! i tend not to bother others if i got problems. even if they're trying to be nice..i'll try to settle it myself. nampak sah problem timbol pasal diri sendiri. even if another person is at fault, mesti ade a bit sendiri peh sala jugak. tak kan satu titis air haram pon tak sala! pala but! jangan step perfectionist kat sini ar eh..jalan with your nose high up in the air! fuck you! and i don't care if they give a shit about me or not! it doesn't matter..it makes no difference! i don't expect to get any returned favors or whatsoever. i'm just so sick of people coming to me and made me listen to their dilemmas and stuffs! chibai! why me sia!? argh!! let me out of this nonsense!! isap ar citot!!!
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| Story of a lonely guy.. |
[26th May 2003, 12:50am] |
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Blink 182 - Story of a Lonely Guy |
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here i am going emo again
i'm going through the same shit again
i'm feeling this loneliness again
how i wished this would end
i can't take this any more
living life is becoming a bore
i'm not looking forward for a new day
i guess this feeling is here to stay
is it just so hard to get a simple girl
maybe there ain't any simple girl left
all i want is a girl who wants and love me for who i am
a girl who will be by my side through the ups and downs
and i'll be by hers
we'll spend every single moment together
everyday will be about her
there'll be more laughter than tears
i'll love her with every single beat of my heart
i'll make it known to her that she's my dearest one
err..okay, that's what i'm feeling right now. i'm all alone. thoughts of getting a girl came right through my mind. but then i wonder, who will ever wants a boy like me. neither do i have the looks nor the cash. i don't even know how to dress! i think this line from the movie "Waterboy" suits me well; "I am not what you would call a handsome boy. God did not choose to bless me with good looks, charms or a fully functional brain." -- there you go, what more can i say? the line says it all...
p/s : credits to dee for the icons. thank you the very much..
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| Relationships and heartaches.. |
[23rd May 2003, 10:56pm] |
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okay..yesterday i met mas and spent a day with her. nice girl..fun to be with. yeah..her boyfriend broke up with her. pity her. she's a sweet gerl man. i'm wondering why the heck did her guy left her? he told her whatever crappy reasons and it didn't make any sense. i don't think the guy realised that he's lucky to have her. no wonder girls always say that guys can't be trusted and are all the same. but same goes to the girls. banyak yang bitchy! mane yang step jambu..mane yang step banyak ex, scandals and stuffs..mane nak step princess besar negeri mane je, pikir the world revolves around them! kiwek!! aku takmo carry on topic ni ar..nanti leh jadi debate between boys and girls, or rather boy and girls, since the one reading my blog are mostly girls. nak tau asal? pasal aku belom inform kawan² aku pasal blog aku ni..and i'm not intending to tell them! *grinss*
anyways, these few days macam abit strange ar. relationships problems everywhere. everyone seems to be breaking down. hey..what's happening man?? aku sendiri stress! "Relationships and heartaches.. These two things are one and the same.." , betol? what can a relationship brings? for me..nothing but heartaches! a few will survive and most will crumble and break down. kadang..nak lepas that 1 year barrier macam a burden! ade yang last a couple of months je. ahh..lecey ar relationships² ni sume! kena go through lots of ups and downs along the way. ya ya..there's no such thing as a clean and smooth relationship. tapi kalo the ride is too bumpy, might as well catch another ride. senang cakap? yes..senang cakap, easier said than done. but nothing is impossible..there's a solution to every problem. semangat mau ade babe! chey..aku mane punye councellor je! padahal diri sendiri tak tau urus! abeh bual nak mane punye champion! uhauhuahuahaua~~
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[22nd May 2003, 2:42am] |
please give me one more chance girl
to prove my love for you to the world
please believe in me girl
when i say you made my mind twirl
from the first day we're together
i thought we were meant for each other
but we couldn't last to the test of time
from spring to summer, autumn to winter
you feelings changed through the weather
you found someone new in him
and left me to ponder
what can i say
i can't explain this emotions
i have inside
i wished you could stay
i can't hide this emotions
i'm tearing up inside
please give me one more chance babe
and say that you want us to be together
please give me a hope babe
and say that we'll be together forever
if i could ever turn back the time
i'll change every single bit of history
so you could still be mine
but you've gone so far away
since you left me behind
and there's nothing i could do
to make you stay
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| Ehem.. |
[21st May 2003, 2:12am] |
hey! aku wolverine arr!! aku punye favorite character dari first time aku tengok xmen! see that?? i'm a sensitive and caring guy deep down!! it's true..it's true! hehe! but wait..where's my claws??
Which X2 Character Are You?
You are Wolverine. You know nothing of your past, how you got your shiny claws, your super fast healing factor or even your name. This bugs you, not surprisingly. You're often described as more animal than human, but you're a sensitive and caring guy deep down. Really.
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[10th May 2003, 12:58am] |
my current music..JIWANGZ!! haha! lama betol tak dengar lagu jiwang² ni. tadi tengah browse through aku punye mp3 melayu (i got loads of them! dulu boy jiwang pe! haha!), aku ternampak this song! jiwang betol dier punye liriks! tapi meaningful jugak. i used to let her listen to this song and she's touched by the lyrics! haha! pada yang jiwang² tu, can try download the song..kalo tak dapat, find me..i'll send you the song! hehe..
dalam hati kecil ku
terpahat ku oh nama mu
ku harap engkau tahu
aku cinta pada mu
jangan kau pula jadi kan
gerimis mengundang kesudahan
ku bimbang pada diri ini
suatu hari akan ditinggal kan
mungkin kau juga tahu
derita nya seorang insan
yang mana sebelum ini
cukop sengsara
moga cinta mu pasti
lahir dari hati suci
bukan rekaan manisan
sebalik ucapan
ku harap biar berkekalan
cuma itu yang ku ingin kan
kuncilah pintu hati mu
dengan kuat jangan kau lepas kan
setialah
andai bulan bisa ngomong pada mu
pasti kau pun tahu aku sungguh sungguh
memang banyak benar yang menghimpit ku
mujurlah aku fikir kan oh nama mu
aku juga tahu engkau banyak dihimpit
oleh insan yang menagih cinta dari mu
terserah pada mu kalau itu yang terbaik
diri ku ini siapalah
kalau kau tak ingat
biarlah tuguh cinta yang selama ini sama sama kita bina
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| My girlfriend's dead.. |
[6th May 2003, 5:04pm] |
i once had a girlfriend
but then one day she dumped me
and everywhere i'd go
people would ask me where she was
i don't want to talk about her
someone always ask about her
so i tell them all my girlfriend's dead
i say it's leukemia
or sometimes bulimia
or a great big truck ran her over
and chopped off her head
i don't want to talk about her
someone always ask about her
so i tell them all she's dead
i guess there's a part of me
that likes the sympathy
or the look on their faces when i tell them
how she passed away
i don't want to talk about her
someone always ask about her
so i tell them all she's dead
my girlfriend's dead you see
it's a total but it's easier on me
than having to admit that she likes someone else
my girlfriend's dead you know
please change the subject or i'm going to go
jump off a building and join her in heaven
i dont' want to talk about her
someone always ask about her
so i tell them all she's dead
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| Another quizilla.. |
[29th April 2003, 9:56pm] |
this quizilla thing is quite true eh?? entah dari mane dia orang tau aku favor bagi a peck on the cheeks out of nowhere!! ergh! haha! tapi super markets and work places?? hahaha, yang tu maybe not lar. but on the buses is the best places! wakakakaka~
You have a surprise kiss! Your partner is always
pleasantly pleased to have you jump outta no
where to dote them with a fun peck on the cheek
or more passionate embrace. super markets and
work places are your favorite places to attack
your loved one with all your love =p
What kind of kiss are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
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| Quizilla.. |
[27th April 2003, 5:52am] |
i got this from my friend's blog! i'm not the cutest thing, i'm the little sneaky brat!! haha! aku a brat? a spoilt and ill mannered child? kau! rabak! tapi maybe la..just a little, hehe. erm..appearance is very deceiving? let's see eh, some people say..i don't look like 19, they say i'm like 16-17 year olds. and some say..i have a decent looking face tapi perangai is a totally different thing! haha! syida used to say this, "harap kan muke je decent, tapi perangai..", entah lar..pade aku, aku tak naughty or wild or ape..just cheeky and mischevious! hehehe..pandai² la korang judge eh..
Brown Eyes
What Color Eyes Should You Have?
brought to you by Quizilla
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| Nice song.. |
[24th April 2003, 12:58am] |
fucking bored right now! still got a long way to go!! i want to watch man u and real game, hopefully man u win 2-0..then can go to semis!!! *pray hard*
anyways, just feel like posting this song here. i find it cool..this song is about me! except for the "moving on" part, because i can't move on and leave her behind..i'm still stucked in these broken dreams of mine. ok ok..getting emo again! will somebody whacked me on the head?? hehe..
there's something that's been on my mind
that's why i've wasted all my time
being with a selfish girl like you
there's something that i got to say
that's why i can't go on this way
being hung up over you
cause i don't want to be the one
you come to when you're crying on the phone
cause i don't want to be the one
you come to when you're crying all alone
because i don't think that you realize
that what we have is gone and
it will take too long for us to get it back
i don't think that you understand
we won't get back together cause
our timing could have never been so bad
been so bad
there's something that's been on my mind
that's why i've wasted all my time
staying up all night thinking of you
there's something that i got to say
that's why i can't go on this way
wondering what happened to our love
cause i don't want to be the one
you come to when you've found another guy
cause i don't want to be the one
you come to when you want to say goodbye
because i don't think that you realize
that what we have is gone and
it will take too long for us to get it back
i don't think that you understand
we won't get back together cause
our timing could have never been so bad
been so bad
now it's time for me to get on with my life
because our timing could have never been so bad
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| My song.. |
[11th April 2003, 3:47am] |
Broken Promises
More of these cold lonely nights
All alone by myself
With no one by my side
I lost my hope and will to fight
Pushing all the possibilities aside
Looking back to days
When we’re together as one
There’s nothing left for me to say
All I could is just pray
Hoping for the one
To come back to me and stay
Why must you go girl
Where’s all the promises you made
Why must you go girl
Voices of you kept ringing in my head
Am I just wasting my time
Wasting my time waiting for a girl
Who could never be mine
Maybe I should just move on
But I can’t leave her behind
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