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    Monday, November 29th, 2004
    11:56 am
    Why are things the way they are?
    Why are Things that Way?

    Every once in a while when I sit down, walk to my car, or even standing in line to get something to eat, my mind starts to pay attention to the things around me and I wander, why? Why are things the way they are? I think about things like, why do people dress the way they do?, why does it seem to be the more body you show the better the look?, why is music so influential in our society?, and where are we going next? One might be thinking to themselves, “Get a life.” Although I do this quite often, its something that I can’t help.
    I guess that I am trying to sort of just be aware of what is going on and if there is a problem, fix it. Even if the problem is within me I will do the necessary things to see that I am changing I really want to make myself better. I have come to the conclusion that no one is perfect and neither will I be, but it helps you as a person to be the closest to perfection as you can. I want to be the best husband I can be, but how could I be better for someone else if I am not making myself better for myself. If I want a great looking, super intellectual, nice smelling, long her, not to short, not to tall, but just right kind of girl, I have to bring something to the table. Now I know that the chances of me finding that perfect girl are very slim, but it’s okay to dream. I can’t expect her to be qualified for me if I’m not qualified for her. It goes both ways. For some one to feel that they don’t have to do anything and they will find a husband/wife is ludicrous.
    Another thing that seems to make me laugh is that some people want to move out of their parent’s house as soon as they gradate. I few people that I know of can’t even stand their parents It really doesn’t make sense to me because their parents are really good parents. I think it’s just the fact that they are ready to move away and become a responsible “adult”. I don’t know about anyone else but I have two awesome parents and I am blessed. To be able to have wonderful parents is really a blessing these days. I also know that I am not moving out of my house until I have to. It is just too much money and stress trying to live on my own. I can still be a responsible “adult” at home until I graduate. Now some may think that I am a “scrub”. A scrub is a person who lives with their parents and they are a grown man. I am not at all saying that I am about to stay with my parents forever, but I am going to stay as long as I can. I realized how much living really costs when I made my next semester schedule. I would pay about two-thousand dollars more than what I am paying now in order to live on campus. That’s just some unnecessary expenses. It is different if you are from out of town, but to have your house fifteen minuets away and the only reason you left is because you want to get away from your parents is crazy.
    Life is full of surprises and sometimes you won’t be prepared. I still love life and the people in my life. I realize that I am blessed. I am grateful for all these things, but the worst thing that anyone could do is continue to make bad decisions. Your life in the end is made up of the decisions you made earlier in your life. If you want to change your life your choices have to change, they are what got you there I the first place. I believe that life was not designed for people to live horrible lives. Everyone has the potential to be great, but it is up to you to use the potential energy and apply it to life. I have had some people tell me that I think too much. I don’t argue with them now because it’s true. I do think a lot, but thought is the beginning of the process by which we as humans work everyday. It is what separations us from the animals and other organisms. It’s a privilege to think so why not take advantage of it. One thing that I will say about that as long as the thought is done within context.
    School is fun. Especially when you reach the end. You feel like you’ve concerned the world. It is so funny to me how fast time flies. The last thing knew I was in high school trying to decide what I was going to do as a major in college. Then I had my graduation party before radiation. When I was walking across the stage I was thinking about how the time had finally come to make the transition. It was so good to be able to tell people that I had graduated. I was on cloud nine. Just about everything was going my way. I wish that I would have maximized my time there so I could have had more memories. I still had fun. I hope that everyone else has memories to share with their children. My parents had a lot of stories to tell. I enjoyed them for the most part. Now that I have started another chapter of my life I am looking forward to what will happen. I found have been taught that I have to participate in my own destiny. That is so very true. I have been waiting for my destiny to come to me for years. I have always envisioned myself being very successful and having a great life. I knew that it was promised unto me, but I didn’t take the necessary precautions to see that I would have a smooth transition through life I have heard people say that you live and you learn. I have done a little bit of both and I still have a long way to go. I desire to be able to do what I desire to do at a very young age. I want to do so many things that it is going to take a lot of planning just to be able to see how I would do it. I know that it is possible because I learned from the scripture Philippians 4:13, I can do all things through Christ that strengthen me. I believe that with my whole heart and I seek to fulfill that scripture in my life. There are so many things that I think about that it would be impossible to fill you in on everything that I think about. It would take time and patience to listen just like it took you those same things to read this. I guess that I will always be like this I can’t help it.
    Monday, November 8th, 2004
    12:01 pm
    The Music of Life
    The Music of Life

    This Week Jen asked us to do a journal entry that she chose. It was entitled, “A Voice for the Lonely.” Overall I enjoyed the essay. It talked about how music plays a bigger role in our life than we give credit to. He uses himself for an example and talks about one of his favorite most memorable songs ever, Pretty Woman by Roy Orbison. It was played for him one night in the car as he was driving to get a newspaper. It was four o’clock in the morning and no one was out. It was very quiet and still. He turned on the radio and “Pretty Woman” came on the station. The song took him back to when he was in high school. He talked about the life of the lyricist Roy Orbison and why he wrote the song. He spends a lot of time talking about the lyrist and I think that he even had an impact on the author, Stephen Corey. As he continues to talk about the song, he seems to go down memory lane and remember things that were not so long ago so it seemed. Music evidently played a huge roll in his life. He remembers the majority of his accounts in high school because of music.
    I love music! I guess that I can’t help it because both of my parents sing and my father is a musician. Music almost seems to run in my veins. It’s such a big part of my life. I was involved in music all throughout my elementary, middle school, and high school years. I just can’t seem to get away from it!
    A lot of the songs that I recall are gospel songs. I am not complaining or anything but Ii grow up in the church so a lot of the things that I know and participate in are from church. Although this fact still remains true, I will try not to lose you through this blurty journal assignment.
    The first song that I am going to talk about is “Worthy is the Lamb.” It is a song written by my father ten or more years ago. It speaks about Jesus and how he died for mankind to be free from sin. When I think about this song it brings back a lot of memories. Most of the memories are of long choir and band rehearsals and the church Sometimes I wouldn’t get home until four o’clock in the morning. Try explaining why your sleep to the teacher when your only in the second grade. Though the tie seemed bad no one can take those memories away from me. Some of them were joyful as well. I can remember one of the times that one of the choir members took me and my brothers out for ice cream. I was so grateful that someone took us into account. Sometimes people think that it’s easy being a kid, but there are many instances that I can bring up that would prove them wrong.
    This next song is from another genre. It’s entitled “Changes” by Tu Pac. The song is so deep. It talks about how things really need to change in the world, our country, our community, and ourselves, though we need these changes at the end of each verse the hook says, “That’s just the way it is. Things will never be the same. That just the way it is, ahh yeah.” It makes me think of life and how we take things for granted. It is so sad that these things happen in life. It makes me think of how I need to change and how I wish that I could change the world. I wish that I could just help everyone I the world as corny as that sounds. I am really serious about that to. Tu Pac seemed to be a very influential person when he was alive and even now that he is dead. He continues to release albums that make tons of money. When I think of that song it takes me back to nineteen ninety eight. I think that’s when I first heard the track. I remember it like it was yesterday. I was in my parent’s room lying on their water bed. I was flipping through the channels and stopped at BET. I normally don’t like real hard core rap music and that is normally the time that it came on, but this time it was something different. The song almost seemed to call me and hold my attention. The first time I heard it I almost fell in love with it. A couple years ago I told my father about his song. I suggested that he listen to it because of the songs message. The first time he heard it he fell in love with it to. Even to this day every once in a while he will put the cd in to listen to it. The song is so deep and moving. Some people think, at one time including myself that rap music was bad for people to listen to. And if you were a rapper you were a bad person. This song will almost change your whole outlook o Tu Pac. It shows you another side of him besides all of the cursing and profane inferences. He was really a very intelligent person, and that song will almost forever be etched in my memory.
    Another song that brings back memories is Boys II Mens song, “It’s so hard to say go bye too yesterday” That song almost had me crying one day. It makes me think about high school and all the fun that I use to have. No one could take those memories away from me. I enjoyed most of my time in high school but as with everything in life, I wish that I could redo so many things. I messed up so many times in high school it doesn’t make any sense. Of course you are supposed to move on and not think about those things but its hard when it alters your life for the worse and you know it. One of the many good memories that come to mind when I think about high School is the Youngstown Connection. I absolutely loved being in that group. It was an experience to say the least. Another memory that it brings back to memory is my senior year at Woodrow Wilson High. A lot of people think that it is bad and nothing good comes from there or any other Youngstown City School, but I beg to differ. Wilson has one of the best musical vocal departments in Ohio. That’s not just my opinion but its fact. The ensemble has won tons of awards in the past and continue to do so every year at vocal completions. We do among the best and we compete at the competition with other schools like Poland, Boardman, Fitch, etc. etc.
    It’s funny to me how one song can bring back so many memories. Some of the memories are pleasant and some are not, but whets important is in the end that you learn from your mistakes and keep on moving toward the perfection of living. Though I didn’t name a lot of songs I still have a lot of songs that bring back tons of memories. If I were to try to tell you about all the songs that bring back memories I would be here all day long typing this paper. I love music and it is truly one of the most influential things in the world today. I love music and would hate to thing of the world without it.
    12:01 pm
    The Music of Life
    The Music of Life

    This Week Jen asked us to do a journal entry that she chose. It was entitled, “A Voice for the Lonely.” Overall I enjoyed the essay. It talked about how music plays a bigger role in our life than we give credit to. He uses himself for an example and talks about one of his favorite most memorable songs ever, Pretty Woman by Roy Orbison. It was played for him one night in the car as he was driving to get a newspaper. It was four o’clock in the morning and no one was out. It was very quiet and still. He turned on the radio and “Pretty Woman” came on the station. The song took him back to when he was in high school. He talked about the life of the lyricist Roy Orbison and why he wrote the song. He spends a lot of time talking about the lyrist and I think that he even had an impact on the author, Stephen Corey. As he continues to talk about the song, he seems to go down memory lane and remember things that were not so long ago so it seemed. Music evidently played a huge roll in his life. He remembers the majority of his accounts in high school because of music.
    I love music! I guess that I can’t help it because both of my parents sing and my father is a musician. Music almost seems to run in my veins. It’s such a big part of my life. I was involved in music all throughout my elementary, middle school, and high school years. I just can’t seem to get away from it!
    A lot of the songs that I recall are gospel songs. I am not complaining or anything but Ii grow up in the church so a lot of the things that I know and participate in are from church. Although this fact still remains true, I will try not to lose you through this blurty journal assignment.
    The first song that I am going to talk about is “Worthy is the Lamb.” It is a song written by my father ten or more years ago. It speaks about Jesus and how he died for mankind to be free from sin. When I think about this song it brings back a lot of memories. Most of the memories are of long choir and band rehearsals and the church Sometimes I wouldn’t get home until four o’clock in the morning. Try explaining why your sleep to the teacher when your only in the second grade. Though the tie seemed bad no one can take those memories away from me. Some of them were joyful as well. I can remember one of the times that one of the choir members took me and my brothers out for ice cream. I was so grateful that someone took us into account. Sometimes people think that it’s easy being a kid, but there are many instances that I can bring up that would prove them wrong.
    This next song is from another genre. It’s entitled “Changes” by Tu Pac. The song is so deep. It talks about how things really need to change in the world, our country, our community, and ourselves, though we need these changes at the end of each verse the hook says, “That’s just the way it is. Things will never be the same. That just the way it is, ahh yeah.” It makes me think of life and how we take things for granted. It is so sad that these things happen in life. It makes me think of how I need to change and how I wish that I could change the world. I wish that I could just help everyone I the world as corny as that sounds. I am really serious about that to. Tu Pac seemed to be a very influential person when he was alive and even now that he is dead. He continues to release albums that make tons of money. When I think of that song it takes me back to nineteen ninety eight. I think that’s when I first heard the track. I remember it like it was yesterday. I was in my parent’s room lying on their water bed. I was flipping through the channels and stopped at BET. I normally don’t like real hard core rap music and that is normally the time that it came on, but this time it was something different. The song almost seemed to call me and hold my attention. The first time I heard it I almost fell in love with it. A couple years ago I told my father about his song. I suggested that he listen to it because of the songs message. The first time he heard it he fell in love with it to. Even to this day every once in a while he will put the cd in to listen to it. The song is so deep and moving. Some people think, at one time including myself that rap music was bad for people to listen to. And if you were a rapper you were a bad person. This song will almost change your whole outlook o Tu Pac. It shows you another side of him besides all of the cursing and profane inferences. He was really a very intelligent person, and that song will almost forever be etched in my memory.
    Another song that brings back memories is Boys II Mens song, “It’s so hard to say go bye too yesterday” That song almost had me crying one day. It makes me think about high school and all the fun that I use to have. No one could take those memories away from me. I enjoyed most of my time in high school but as with everything in life, I wish that I could redo so many things. I messed up so many times in high school it doesn’t make any sense. Of course you are supposed to move on and not think about those things but its hard when it alters your life for the worse and you know it. One of the many good memories that come to mind when I think about high School is the Youngstown Connection. I absolutely loved being in that group. It was an experience to say the least. Another memory that it brings back to memory is my senior year at Woodrow Wilson High. A lot of people think that it is bad and nothing good comes from there or any other Youngstown City School, but I beg to differ. Wilson has one of the best musical vocal departments in Ohio. That’s not just my opinion but its fact. The ensemble has won tons of awards in the past and continue to do so every year at vocal completions. We do among the best and we compete at the competition with other schools like Poland, Boardman, Fitch, etc. etc.
    It’s funny to me how one song can bring back so many memories. Some of the memories are pleasant and some are not, but whets important is in the end that you learn from your mistakes and keep on moving toward the perfection of living. Though I didn’t name a lot of songs I still have a lot of songs that bring back tons of memories. If I were to try to tell you about all the songs that bring back memories I would be here all day long typing this paper. I love music and it is truly one of the most influential things in the world today. I love music and would hate to thing of the world without it.
    12:01 pm
    The Music of Life
    The Music of Life

    This Week Jen asked us to do a journal entry that she chose. It was entitled, “A Voice for the Lonely.” Overall I enjoyed the essay. It talked about how music plays a bigger role in our life than we give credit to. He uses himself for an example and talks about one of his favorite most memorable songs ever, Pretty Woman by Roy Orbison. It was played for him one night in the car as he was driving to get a newspaper. It was four o’clock in the morning and no one was out. It was very quiet and still. He turned on the radio and “Pretty Woman” came on the station. The song took him back to when he was in high school. He talked about the life of the lyricist Roy Orbison and why he wrote the song. He spends a lot of time talking about the lyrist and I think that he even had an impact on the author, Stephen Corey. As he continues to talk about the song, he seems to go down memory lane and remember things that were not so long ago so it seemed. Music evidently played a huge roll in his life. He remembers the majority of his accounts in high school because of music.
    I love music! I guess that I can’t help it because both of my parents sing and my father is a musician. Music almost seems to run in my veins. It’s such a big part of my life. I was involved in music all throughout my elementary, middle school, and high school years. I just can’t seem to get away from it!
    A lot of the songs that I recall are gospel songs. I am not complaining or anything but Ii grow up in the church so a lot of the things that I know and participate in are from church. Although this fact still remains true, I will try not to lose you through this blurty journal assignment.
    The first song that I am going to talk about is “Worthy is the Lamb.” It is a song written by my father ten or more years ago. It speaks about Jesus and how he died for mankind to be free from sin. When I think about this song it brings back a lot of memories. Most of the memories are of long choir and band rehearsals and the church Sometimes I wouldn’t get home until four o’clock in the morning. Try explaining why your sleep to the teacher when your only in the second grade. Though the tie seemed bad no one can take those memories away from me. Some of them were joyful as well. I can remember one of the times that one of the choir members took me and my brothers out for ice cream. I was so grateful that someone took us into account. Sometimes people think that it’s easy being a kid, but there are many instances that I can bring up that would prove them wrong.
    This next song is from another genre. It’s entitled “Changes” by Tu Pac. The song is so deep. It talks about how things really need to change in the world, our country, our community, and ourselves, though we need these changes at the end of each verse the hook says, “That’s just the way it is. Things will never be the same. That just the way it is, ahh yeah.” It makes me think of life and how we take things for granted. It is so sad that these things happen in life. It makes me think of how I need to change and how I wish that I could change the world. I wish that I could just help everyone I the world as corny as that sounds. I am really serious about that to. Tu Pac seemed to be a very influential person when he was alive and even now that he is dead. He continues to release albums that make tons of money. When I think of that song it takes me back to nineteen ninety eight. I think that’s when I first heard the track. I remember it like it was yesterday. I was in my parent’s room lying on their water bed. I was flipping through the channels and stopped at BET. I normally don’t like real hard core rap music and that is normally the time that it came on, but this time it was something different. The song almost seemed to call me and hold my attention. The first time I heard it I almost fell in love with it. A couple years ago I told my father about his song. I suggested that he listen to it because of the songs message. The first time he heard it he fell in love with it to. Even to this day every once in a while he will put the cd in to listen to it. The song is so deep and moving. Some people think, at one time including myself that rap music was bad for people to listen to. And if you were a rapper you were a bad person. This song will almost change your whole outlook o Tu Pac. It shows you another side of him besides all of the cursing and profane inferences. He was really a very intelligent person, and that song will almost forever be etched in my memory.
    Another song that brings back memories is Boys II Mens song, “It’s so hard to say go bye too yesterday” That song almost had me crying one day. It makes me think about high school and all the fun that I use to have. No one could take those memories away from me. I enjoyed most of my time in high school but as with everything in life, I wish that I could redo so many things. I messed up so many times in high school it doesn’t make any sense. Of course you are supposed to move on and not think about those things but its hard when it alters your life for the worse and you know it. One of the many good memories that come to mind when I think about high School is the Youngstown Connection. I absolutely loved being in that group. It was an experience to say the least. Another memory that it brings back to memory is my senior year at Woodrow Wilson High. A lot of people think that it is bad and nothing good comes from there or any other Youngstown City School, but I beg to differ. Wilson has one of the best musical vocal departments in Ohio. That’s not just my opinion but its fact. The ensemble has won tons of awards in the past and continue to do so every year at vocal completions. We do among the best and we compete at the competition with other schools like Poland, Boardman, Fitch, etc. etc.
    It’s funny to me how one song can bring back so many memories. Some of the memories are pleasant and some are not, but whets important is in the end that you learn from your mistakes and keep on moving toward the perfection of living. Though I didn’t name a lot of songs I still have a lot of songs that bring back tons of memories. If I were to try to tell you about all the songs that bring back memories I would be here all day long typing this paper. I love music and it is truly one of the most influential things in the world today. I love music and would hate to thing of the world without it.
    Monday, November 1st, 2004
    12:34 pm
    The Price for greatness
    The Price for Greatness

    It was the middle of February. The ground was still covered with snow, the air was still breezy, and the ice was just melting away. It was time for the Ohio State Vocal competition. In the competition there are three categories that I would participate in, the Chamber ensemble, Mixed ensemble, and the Men’s ensemble. I was accustom to the other categories, but this year I would embark upon a task never done before in our school, and known to knowledge in the history of the competition.
    I wanted to be different from everyone else. I wanted to be among the best. To be recognized for something positive in my school that would have a positive impact on our school. I wanted to stand out amongst the crowd of alumni and travel down a road never traveled before. I wanted to have more superior medals than anyone has ever had in our school. The record to beat was fifteen and I had nine. I would have to do a total of three solo’s to achieve my goal. It took a lot of hard work and continuous practice, but only time would tell if it was all worth it.
    I can recall the day rather easily. I woke up, rolled over to pray, got myself prepared, and immediately began to warm up. I have a history of taking a long time to warm up so I wasted no time. It sometimes scares me how long it takes. I really like to take my time doing it as well so I won’t damage my voice. I can remember getting a cup of tea and sipping it little by little waiting for my father to come down stairs. Time was passing by and I continued to warm up. I felt rather good that morning. Then my father comes down stairs from out of no where and tells me that he is ready to go. We piled in the truck and were on our way. I really don’t get nerves that often, but this time was an exception.
    I arrived at the school on time and waited for the rest of my fellow ensemble members to arrive. Time seemed to pass extraordinarily slow. I was still trying to warm up and stay limber for the competition. I was now more focused than ever. I didn’t really want to laugh and joke at all. I really just wanted to practice, wait for our turn, get our results, and go home. As time passes by one by one they show up. Time began to expire rather quickly then finally everyone was there. We shared a classroom with a band from another school. Imagine how difficult it was to stay on pitch with a French Horn blowing you let ear drum out. Despite the continuous noise we continued to practice. Time seems to fly by when you are under the gun then the next thing I knew, I was next!
    Everyone from my school including my father and other people from other schools begin to pile in the classroom where I would perform my solo. I stood outside of the classroom and waited to come in. As I walked in I felt everyone looking at me as I walked to the center of the room. The judge asked what song I would sing I responded, “O Del Mio do char dor”. It’s an Italian song. Although others told me that I had nothing to worry about I was now more nerves than I had ever been before. You think after doing this for two years already I would be accustom to it. It seems as though there is nothing you can do to become accustom to being in front of a classroom full people and a judge staring down your throat. Then the music began. I was doing relatively well, but I have a really bad habit. Well I don’t know that it is a bad habit but it can sometimes get on your nerves. I blessed to be able to do it but I can do two things at the sometime. I know that people don’t count this as a great ability but it has its flaws. I can normally think while talking or singing. It can become annoying sometimes. While I was singing I was looking around at people. I noticed a few things like why is the judge looking like that? I wander does this sound good to the judge? I am so hungry? Maybe I could have eaten something this morning? These are just a few of the questions that were running through my mind. Before I send myself insane I have to re-gather my thoughts and focus on the task at hand.
    The song was going relatively well. I was still nerves but it didn’t have a negative affect on my performance. I was happy to finally be getting it over with so I could calm down. Then the music stops and everyone is applauding. The next place to go is to the gym. On the wall would be your score posted for everyone to see. I stood with anticipation waiting for the scoring assistant to write out my score. As time elapsed she finally came and wrote down my score. I was so happy to see her write down next to Brandon Thomas the number one. I was so excited that I began to hug those around me. I could tell that my father was really proud. We began to get on our cell phones to call all of our family members and friends to tell the about how well we did. Almost everyone got a superior rating. I was so excited to be done. I was really excited because I could finally eat. I really didn’t eat anything all day. I was scared that I would eat something that morning and it would make me sick to my stomach because of how nerves I was. I try to use my nerves to make me perform better.
    After the competition was finally over I was awarded six superior ratings in all of my categories. I was happy to accomplish my goal so be counted among the best. And as I heard growing up my attire life, “To be the best, you have to bet the best!”
    Monday, October 25th, 2004
    12:47 pm
    The Best Time of the Year
    Brandon Thomas
    Blurty #7
    Jen Kagarise
    English 1540



    The Best Time of the Year

    I love this time of year! It is so beautiful outside. The leaves are turning colors and it is just so beautiful and it seems like everyone is in a good mood. Some might think that I love this time of year because my birthday is in November, but even if it wasn’t I still believe that I would love this time of year. The weather is just right and it’s not to hot and not to cold, its just right.
    Some people think that I am crazy but I love snow! I absolutely love snow. It is so beautiful to look outside and see nothing but snow. It seems to cover everything in sight. From the trees to the street is covered with snow, don’t you love it! The only problem is I don’t like to be cold. I know it’s kind of contradictory but it’s true. I love snow but hate to be cold. If it could be 75 degrees outside, and still snow, now that would be a great Christmas. Talk about a winter wonder land!
    I love to be around family and friends during the Christmas time. The world seems to be at peace at that time. Nothing but love, joy, and happiness fill the air. I realize that I am extremely blessed to have a family to celebrate Christmas with. I thank God so much that I am not homeless. I don’t want to take my family and all of the things that God has given me for granted I have a few friends who don’t have the privilege to have my father and my entire family with me. I think it is sad when people don’t have their family to celebrate Christmas with.
    On every Christmas morning I get up to go to Sunrise service at six o’clock. I love it because it gives us a collective chance to celebrate Christmas for the real meaning, Jesus Christ. I love the message given in service and I also love the people of my church. After church everyone passes out presents to everyone. One year I succeeded in buying presents for all of my friends. I really love my friends. I wouldn’t trade them for the world. They have helped and blessed me so much that I hope that I can be a great friend to them as well. Thought the gifts that I bought were not the most expensive things in the world, they all appreciated it. I guess it really is the thought that counts.
    On Christmas I go to my pastor’s house to fellowship with other saints of the church. I really enjoy myself at his house because it like everyone its there. We watch television, laugh, and joke most of the time. A lot of the other time may be used for eating.
    I really love this time of year it is grand. Everything about it from the leaves to the snow make the season great and enjoyable. I love this time of year and I wouldn’t trade it for the world. It is funny I know that my dad hates this time of year. He hates the weather at least. Now my mom on the other hand is like me accept she doesn’t like a lot of snow accept on Christmas Day. Almost all of the people that I have talked to have said that they hate snow and I think that they think that I am crazy. Whatever the case may be I love snow and the time of the year. The air is nice and the people are nice as well, well most of them. The day is fastly approaching and I am filled with joy. Not just for Christmas but for Thanksgiving as well. I love Thanksgiving Day it is so fun. To have a day that you are able to give thanks for what God has done and celebrated it with your family is awesome. I go to church on that day as well. It gives kind of an over view of what you should be thankful for and what God has designed the day for. I use to think of it as a day to eat till you drop. After getting a different look at it I am so grateful for everything that God has given to me. I will end this essay how I started this is the Best Time of the Year.
    Monday, October 18th, 2004
    12:25 pm
    The Coming Election
    The Coming Election

    Everyone knows that the election is in a few weeks. It will be held on November 2nd, 2004. Some have called this the most important election in the last sixty years. The stakes are so high and so many things hang in the balance. With so much at so much at stake it kind of makes it hard to vote. Who should I vote for? Will I make the right decision? Will America pay for their decision later? Who should I trust and will they keep their end of the bargain. Should I believe they hype or should I vote for who’s right?
    This will be my first time voting. I have waited for this time and yet I am nerves. Nerves about who I should vote for. I want to make the right decision. I don’t want to just vote for a name or vote for one person just because e everyone else is. I want to do the right thing so when I look back at many decision it want come to haunt me later. I also don’t want the next President to put us into another predicament that we can’t get out of and I am responsible for him being in office.
    There is so much at stake this time. This next President will have the power to do so much. He will have the power to decide if partial birth abortion will continue to kill unborn babies, if homosexuals will be granted the right to marry, and he will appoint and elect three new Supreme Court Justices to lifetime terms. Wow that is a lot of important decisions to place on one man. That’s why it is so important that we as America make the best decision possible. We can’t just pick the person who guarantees that he will make the economy to rise or he will make the most tax cuts. Even if he does all these things what will it profit us if America losses its salvation?
    Our Pastor helped me in this dilemma. He explains to the church that we must vote the man into office that aligns closest to righteousness. For the Bible say in Proverbs 14:34 that, “Righteousness exalteth a nation: but sin is a reproach to any people.” So we must go on the internet, read news paper articles, and watch the Presidential debates to see who aligns closest to righteousness. It makes the decision a whole lot easier. I am so glad that I know that now. I wish that I could tell more people about this, but I am not worried I will try to find a way to.
    This election is more than just who is President, it is spiritual. It will decide whether our children will live in a land filled with confusion and corruption or in the Will of God. I know I sound like a preacher and I sometimes seem super spiritual, but I want America to go in the right direction. There have been so many things going on in the last year. In Canada the government has banned preachers from reading certain scriptures from being read in the Bible against homosexuality because they classified it as “hate speech”. Others are trying to take “one nation under God” and “In God We Trust” out/off of everything that we have. The adversary is trying to wipe out everything that we know about God. How can you ban and get rid of the very foundation on which our country was founded. It worked for them and you see that America became one of the strongest countries in the world. So why wouldn’t it work now? Why do we try to make these adjustments to try to please everyone yet we have gotten no where?
    After I looked at the credentials between President Bush and Senator Kerry I believe that I have made my decision. I am going to vote for President George W. Bush. I know that a lot of people don’t agree with me, but I have good reason. He is against the marriage of homosexuals and he is against abortion. Though I have only named a couple of reasons, the two are reasons I mentioned enough to make the decision I am making.
    Monday, October 11th, 2004
    3:56 pm
    My Weekend!
    My Weekend

    I had a great week end. I had the privilege to go with my family to Indianapolis, Indiana to visit my uncle. He was installed as pastor of “Emmanuel Temple C.M.E.” church. This was my second time visiting the church and I always have fun. This time when I went I got to see some of my cousins that I haven’t seen for a long time. It was nice to see them. It was also a surprise to see them. I didn’t even know they were coming.
    It was also my first time driving out of state. I drove all the way there. It was fun yet tiring. I had my grandparents and my aunt to keep me awake. We talked about a lot of thing like God, our churches, the books we read, and we even went down memory lane. I really enjoyed talking to my grandparents and I cherish the time that I have with them. I realize that I am blessed to have all of my grandparents on both sides of my family to be living. I try to get their wisdom and knowledge so I can apply it to life and excel into greatness. I also want to one day buy them a house and new cars. They have done and continue to do some much for me and my family I can’t begin to repay them.
    While in Indiana I also got to play with my two younger cousins Nora and Nyla. Nora is three and Nyla is about three or four months. I have so much fun with them. We play, laugh, joke, and may even watch Dora the Explorer every once in a while. I always wondered how life would be if I had a little sister. Every time I go over their house I get a dose of it.
    On Sunday I went to church with my uncle. I had to play for him and sing as well. I really love doing things and being at church. That is where I learned the things that I know today. I try to help as much as I can to make things easier for my uncle and his wife. I can’t even come close to repaying them back either, but anyway back on the subject I played for my uncle in service. He is doing an excellent job as pastor over their church. I wish that we lived closer together so I could help a whole lot more than I do.
    We spent the whole weekend together in one house. Things were so tight that it was irritating. Sometimes I wanted to go somewhere else for a while to get some personal time but it was impossible. People were constantly running into each other in the kitchen, you could barely eat.
    Though I was very irritated and I was sometimes mad, I always remembered that some people don’t have their family to go to in time of trouble. Or even just to say hello. I don’t want to think of what life would be like without my parents, brothers, grandparents, uncles, aunts, and cousins. I love them all so much I don’t know if they rally know. I would go out my way to do whatever I could to see that there happy. I would do whatever I could to make sure that they are enjoying life. I say that because they have been doing that for me all my life. I love them for that and I wouldn’t trade them for the world. They are the reason I am hear today. I will never forget them as long as I live. When I get blessed with everything I want I will buy them everything they want. I just want to se them happy. Nothing can beat family. They are always there for you when you need help with anything and they will also correct you when you’re wrong. That is what makes you into a better person later down the road.
    Monday, October 4th, 2004
    12:24 pm
    One of the Best Weeks of my Life
    One of he Best Weeks of my life


    The week of September 26, 2004 through October 3rd, 2004 was one of the best weeks of my life. Well it all starts on Sunday September 26th. I went to church like I do every Sunday. I was really tired that day because I stayed up on Saturday night to go see my friends new born baby girl. While I was at church I took down notes in my journal like I always do because I want to apply this wisdom and revelation to my life to be a better person. I was battling sleep for the most part of the service, but I over came it and I stayed awake. The next thing I know we are having altar call and church is being dismissed. I went back by my pastor’s office to wait for him to come out then I went home. I know that this sounds pretty boring to you but wait it gets better.
    I came back to church that evening for six o’clock service. We walked my pastor in the sanctuary and took our seats. After a song sung by the Gospel Choir we began to worship. The worship I the building came so thick in the room that our pastor could hardly preach. It was like God was preparing us for the things that we had to do in the up coming week, but one of the events that took place none of us expected it.
    It was the week of our church conference Pentecost In Perspective. We all were excited about the conference. It was held it Stambaugh Auditorium September 29th, 30th, and October 1st. Unfortunately I had to work the first night so I could hear any of the speakers. Though I didn’t make it I was told that God was there.
    The next day of the conference September 30th was the first day that I was able to make it. I heard two of the speakers that day and I was blessed. The day was going great but nothing could prepare us for what would happen that day.
    I came to evening service that night and God was there. We began to worship, praise, and bless God. I had so much fun because I got to sing with the praise team and we were having a great time in the Lord. There was one thing that I noticed. Our pastor was not out here with us he normally comes out later but this time it was late. Then I look in the back and I see people running in the hall way. I didn’t pay much attention to this, but it was for a reason. Then about a half hour later our pastor came out and told us that one of the delegates on their way to the conference had been hit by a car and was rush to the hospital. Immediately we did as we have been taught to do and we prayed and worshiped before God asking him to have mercy on her. We prayed and prayed then we continued on with the evening service and preaching. When I came out of service that evening I found out that the lady went to our church and I knew her. It was really devastating to hear that, but we knew that God was in control of the situation.
    When I came back to service for the last day of the conference I found out that she had passed early Friday morning. We went through the rest of the day sad and thinking about how sad the situation was. But we were all glad to know that she was saved and that she would be in paradise with the lord. Though this was on our minds we had to continue to worship God and continue on with the rest of the conference. By the last service everyone felt better and we went home a little happier. I know that someone might ask how was it one of the best weeks of your life? It was the fact that I was in church and God was showing us how he is going to use us. Though it is sad to say I have to sing at the funeral on Wednesday I know that in the end God will get the glory.
    Monday, September 27th, 2004
    12:38 pm
    Everyday Thoughts
    Everyday Thoughts

    It is sad to me that people who fought to gain freedom like Malcolm X and Martin Luther King ,Jr. just to name a few, never lived to see the day they dreamed of. They fought for things like racial equality and the right to vote, yet they never got a chance to vote for who they desired to be President or go to Denny’s for a Grand Slam and coffee. They dreamed of a well educated, always aware, and always involved society, yet the voting rate continues to drop and other liberties that were being fought to gain are freely given and taken for granted. Where did we go wrong? How do we fix it? Some believe that it is a lack of Education. How could that be if the number of people who attend collage has increased? Is it that this generation is not educated, or are we being educated in other things? Why is it that things that were once valued seemed to decline in there value?
    It has after been said that the eyes are the entrance to the soul. The average person watches at least four hours of television a day. Often times their television diet includes television channels like MTV, HBO, BET, Showtime, Cinemax, etc. Some of the television shows include Comic View, The Real World, Road Rules, TRL ,WWE wrestling, ESPN, ESPN news, etc. Constantly watching these television stations will cause you to become more educated in the shows you watch. People like Brittany Spears Cristaina Aguilera, and Usher are the role models of today’s generation. We look to celebrities for to keep on the lateist fashion, to sing like to them, to learn from them, and whether or not we admit it we want to be like them. Although we rely much on our vision to assist us in everyday life, it’s not the only way in which we learn.
    Hear is another way that we take information and retain it. Music pays a big role in society. Everyday from the music to the lyrics have become louder and more ecplict than ever before. Lyrics filled with violence, cursing, and sexually explicit words continue to play and pollute a generation. It is more likely for a young person to memorize a verse rapped by rap legend 2 Pac, than it is to memorize material for an exam. We can tell you who’s in and who’s not, and what band is up and coming, but for what the sake of conversation? What good has all this knowledge given us?
    In society there has defiantly been moral decay. It seems as though the more we loose our morals, the more our values and the things we value go down. Or morality leads to value. The more we teach morals the more we will learn to value the things we are granted in life. The Bible says in the book of Amos, “My people are destroyed because of the lack of knowledge.” God told Amos this because the people lost their sight of what was valued because of their lack of knowledge. I’m sure that there are other things that disqualified them but you have to be educated in everything you do. You have to go to Medical school in order to become a certified doctor. You have to go to law school in order to become a licensed lawyer. Education is authority. Authority must come from above you. You can not be self educated and expect to be successful in life. Everyone learns from someone higher than they. Authority has to come form above you and so does education. As long as we continue to seek to be educated we will always advance in life and the things that we seek to accomplish. We must always learn to value where we are today and the advancements that we made. The generation before us set the way for us. We must do as they did and set the way not only for the next generation but our generation. As long as we keep our focus on where we are going we will always be successful in our endeavors and fulfill the dreams that our father never lived to see.
    Monday, September 20th, 2004
    12:26 pm
    Never living the dream
    Never living the dream

    Everyone in life has dreams or goals. It’s our nature to dream big and live large. Have a nice yacht in port in Miami, jet skies in the West Keys, and multimillion dollar houses in five locations. Having a beautiful husband/wife and family to come home to .Dreaming is something that makes us an individual I our society. Though dreaming is our nature, why do a lot of the dreams or visions that we had when we were younger never come to pass? Where did we go wrong in life? Did we lose the desire to be great? Or was there a lack of discipline to support the dream?
    We live in a generation of speed. We want to lose one hundred pounds in three days, our computers to move faster and run for longer, and sit back watch television all day. Day by day man discovers different ways to make life faster and easier. There is nothing wrong with making advancements I life we just have to learn not to be lazy. We all would like for everything to come to us but the laws of the land tell us other wise.
    My mother is a work-a-holic. If we were given ten million dollars I still believe to this day that she would still try to have two jobs. There is no way that you are raised in her house and not have work ethic by the time you are ready to move out. Though I hated waking up early on Saturday morning and having to clean the house with my brothers, it taught me not to be lazy. She all ways stressed to me that nothing in this will be given to you and nothing is free. I learned that my mother is like that because of the generation she grew up in. She has been working since she was around twelve years old. I have taken the principles of her generation and the principles of my generation to form a better person in myself. I still have a lot of fixing to do but I’m learning.
    A man once told me to work smart not hard. It is a principle that needs to be applied to everyone’s life. In listening to people in conversation and watching celebrities on television there is one common tie between them all. They all had to work to get were they are today. There was no easy way to get there. Some have it easier than others but in the end they had to work. When you talk to most people they don’t want to work but they want to be rich. They don’t want to go to college but they want top be successful in starting their own business in computer graphic or engineering. Success takes a match of sight of the dream/vision, the passion or desire to pursue it, and discipline to match. To often do we settle for mediocrity instead of doing our best. As long as we make it by with a passing grade it’s okay. To be all that you can be doesn’t take you being in the Army. It takes discipline to stay at home and study instead of going out with friends. Study an extra half hour to instead of talking on the phone for six everyday. I was told by my grandmother upon entering collage, “You study now and stay in you books. Let other people party and have their fun because when you graduate you can have all the fun you want.” I still remember that till this day. Thought it’s funny it is true and I will continue to live by it. I’m not the parting type so she has nothing to worry about but I will follow her advice and apply it to other aspects of my life.
    As I go on in life I understand things more and more. I thought everything would be picture perfect in life once you graduated from college and started your life. I am taught by my pastor and mentor Bishop Norman L. Wagner that, “things very seldom go according to plan.” No matter how much you try to plan things very seldom work out exactly like you planned it.
    I like many of the people that I associate with am a perfectionist. I like for things to go according to plan. I try to map out how things are going to go, how my day will begin and end, and how I will dress for the day. I believe that everyone should continue to map out there dreams and destinies so they can become clearer to you. My whole reasoning for planning ahead was to avoid error. I do not like to fail at anything at all. As life goes on I learn that life is full of disappointments, but it’s all in how you deal with them. My pastor also said that, “Failure never becomes defeat until you fail to get back up.” I have applied this to my life. If I can’t avoid error I’m surly going to prepare for it.
    I have a dream of being highly used of God and being all He has called me to be. I also have dreams of being very rich and wealthy, having a huge multimillion dollar home, writing and producing music, writing a book, and maybe even opening my own restaurant. To one person this may seem impossible, but to me it’s attainable. It’s bigger than the material things. I don’t want a huge house just to brag. I want to be a testimony that you can fulfill your dreams in God and in college and never have to sell drugs or try to be someone you aren’t. I have high dreams just like the next person has dreams. Though we’ll take different paths and have different endings we will have a few things in common. To become all that we can be and to do all that we can do. Bill Gates would have never gotten to where he is today if he never would have had a dream and pursued it. Money, fame, and fortune were an added bonus to his dream. Money wasn’t his main focus in his pursuit. If that was the case he could have done something else to make money. He pursued his passion and his dream.
    In writing this journal I admonish everyone that reads this to be encouraged. Pursue your dreams and fulfill your vision. Map it out and go for it. Don’t only shoot for the stars because you will have no destination, but shoot for a purpose. Very few people live out their purpose in life. Live out your purpose in life and what you love to do. Someone once told me that, “What you were going to do in life is something that you’ve done all your life and never noticed it.” It made a lot of sense when I thought about it. So if you can’t find what it is you like to do find what it is that you love to do and do it. I not saying if you love to shoot guns become a police man/woman. I’m saying what really makes you happy and fulfills your purpose in life. Finish college and get all the degrees you want and put them to use. One last quote I will leave you with taught once again by my pastor is, “Life is a gift, but living is an art form.” So master your dreams and the art of living.
    Monday, September 13th, 2004
    12:58 pm
    Is college really worth the expense?

    A question I’m sure everyone in America wants to ask is, why does college cost so much? Where does all that money go? Will I ever pay off my tuition? Is it worth it? If these are some of your questions than join the club you’re in good company.
    For this semester alone my bill was a little over $3,000. In a time span of four years I would have paid over $24,000 to graduate with my bachelors degree. Then to complete my masters and doctrine degree, I would spend another four years in college. My college bill doesn’t include don’t include my gas, food, books, etc. Then after all of these worries about how you’re going to make it even through the first year you have people and teachers who tell you to enjoy college, join a fraternity, and go to sporting events. Between going to school, working five days a week, and staying involved at my church, that’s the last thing on my mind. The sad part about it is all of these bills are with me living off campus. I can’t even imagine what I would be thinking if I lived on campus.
    Buying books is another expense in college that we all dread. I was warned by people that already went through college, but nothing could prepare me for what was about to happen. This semester I have four classes. Each of the classes required that I buy the book. After buying three of my books from Campus Book Store it came to a little over $200. My fourth book I bought off of the internet for somewhere around $47.00.
    I spent close to $300 for books. The infuriating part is I will sell the books back for half of that price. I heard that it would be this way and I’m finding it to be exactly the way they described.
    Everything about college is big. Big bills, big books, big students, big classes, big tests, big worries, big heartbreaks, big success, but I think the thing that grows the most is you. College seems to be the biggest transition in your life. You learn so much in the four or five years in school. .After it all is said and done when you walk across that stage, smiling ear to ear, ready to receive your degree. On that last day when your friends and family cheering your name, ready to begin the next chapter of your life and start your career. You can look back on the things you learn while being in college. All the time spent studying cramming the night before. All the times you were starving because you didn’t have anything to eat but oodoles and noodles. The endless party invites and dates on Friday nights. The football games and sporting events you can’t help but to grow. You can ask yourself in the end question we all encounter in college, “Was it all worth it?” It’s a question only you can answer. Hopefully the answer to the question will be yes. Whether you switch your major four times you still grow because in the end you know what you don’t want to do. It’s ultimately up to you how much you grow. No more of your parents telling you what to do in life (well most of the time). Now you have to find a job, place of your own, and begin to become the intelligent person you dreamed of being. I’m I implying that college needs to cost thousands of dollars in order for you to be successful in life? Not at all, but I am implying that you have to make the most of it. Stop every once in a while and smell the roses. Go to a few football games and meet people. Schedule a few dates and enjoy life before the bills, wife, kids, and the worries in life that we all wish we could avoid. Like my mom always told me growing up, “Welcome to the real world!” You don’t have to have fun, but you should. I feel you deserve it. You never want to go through life with any regrets on what you should have done in school. After all your only in college once, or you should try to be. Become a success story to tell to your children when you get older. Have something to be proud about when you reach the old age of eighty. Then you can sit back with your children and grand children and tell them all of the wonderful things you did in college and the great friends you made. All the teachers you had and all the work you were assigned to do.Of course you can’t tell them everything that you did (lol), make the story fun and interesting for them to hear. After all you paid for it!
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