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shoooooo!!! [24 Jan 2005|06:43pm]
another busy weekend.
i still have a gammy ear so i went back to the doctor's today and she said the infection is gone but i still might not have my hearing back for 3 weeks! and there's nothing i can do about it apart from wait! though it does have its up side coz it means i don't have to go on the phone and talk to customer's at work. hehe.
so, i had the day off on friday and i spent most of it with laura. got the train to hook at midday and she picked me up and we drove into the centre of basingstoke. i bought some classic cds and she showed me the clothing range which is called 'STARK' (which is her surname). i pretended to be impressed! we went to see White Noise and...and it was bloody shit! it was the middle of the day and we were the only people in the whole cinema and they'd put it on the biggest screen. i'm not much of a film buff but laura is so i thought she actually knew whether this movie was good or not but it turns out she only wanted to see it because of the title! trust me, its not worth it! after that we went back to hers, picked up some crap and then drove to sam's, left laura's car at sam's and walked to mine in the freezing cold. it was all rather hectic.
sarah came over at about 8pm and the 3 of us sat in my room drinking. and i got to see sarah's new hair. hehe, it looks nice. i was a bit worried it was going to be a little awkward with the 3 of us but laura and sarah seemed to get on really well, especially when they were ganging up on me! oh yeh, me and laura are officially going out now. hehe. she's soooo cute. but yeh, we went to Q and so did praw, christy, dan, sam, liam and um thats about it really! it was a bit empty so it was a bit of a weird night. but not bad. fucking christy kept coming up to me and laura at the most inappropriate times and going 'TEAM CHRISTY' (it has hand movements too!) so yeh, me and laura are part of team christy. and we have no fucking idea why, or what it is. i fucking love that girl! sarah was dancing with us all night and rather drunk which made me happy because it reminded me of ye olden times!
at the end i paid for sarah to get a taxi home and then went back to sam's for like the 4th week in a row and snuggled up with laura on the sofa. i think sam's rents are getting a bit suss though so i might stop doing that! laura and i had to leave really early in the morning, like 8am, so we drove to mcdonalds and she bought a breakfast which actually made me want to be sick! then we went back to mine and she basically fell in and out of sleep whilst i annoyed her til about 3pm! then she drove me to the the train station and i went to southampton baby!
got there at about 4.30 and my friend alex met me and took me back to his halls. he cooked me dinner and we watched Queer As Folk and got drunk on Reef. could he get any gayer? i think not! then we went and got even more drunk on cheap shots in the student bar before going into town to go to The Edge which is like the only gay club in southampton. it was a well good night, my knees were actually burning from me dancing so much. and there were loads of cute girls which i wasn't allowed to touch! lol! and this crazy dutch bloke who was the funniest dancer, i loved him! we got back to alex's at about 2.30, watched more Queer As Folk and then i fell asleep until midday!
which brings us up to yesterday! after we got up and relatively clean alex took me back to the train station and i came home. i went to the pub last night with laura, sam, rich and natalie and we were all really tired and boring but we played the 'i have never...' game for about 3 hours which was a laugh! and later on, when laura dropped me off home we were probably sitting outside my house in her car for about an hour. i think my parent's must be getting a bit suss now. but as long as they don't stop me seeing her i don't really care what they say.
the worst bit of this weekend? laura scored a hat trick in her ice hockey game on saturday night and i wasn't there to see it :-(
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[19 Jan 2005|10:31pm]
So it is Wednesday night and I am a little tipsy as I’ve been at Hardy’s with some girls from work as Susan is off to Central America in a few weeks. They were trying to persuade me to go to Pantiles with them afterwards and if I could of got home I might well have done!
One more day at work and then I have my 3 day weekend. Woo! I’m getting up bright and early on Friday because me and Laura are going to see an early showing of White Noise seeing as we couldn’t get in a couple of weeks ago. And then we’re going to somehow get back to mine and drink for the rest of the day. Sounds perfect to me! Ooh, and I’m going down to Southampton on Saturday to go to a gay club with Alex. He came out to his parent’s a few weeks ago and I don’t think it went too well, plus his boyfriend just moved up to Manchester, so I am going to cheer him up.
I am not going on the pull though. I don’t want to kiss anyone else apart from Laura *blush* She came over mine after she finished work on Monday and was here til like 2.15am but the tiredness was so worth it. And it was so much fun going up to Cardiff with her on Sunday and watching her play ice hockey. She looks so cute all geared up and its so great to watch someone do something they are so passionate about. Sunday was lots of fun. I might be going up to Solihull with her in a couple of weeks to watch another game which would be coolios. Sadly the cool shop which had a beautiful mushroom bong in it which Christine found when we were in Wales last August was closed so I couldn’t get it. Ho hum. Anyways, I’m off to bed, as soon as I do this quiz!

I am: tired and tipsy
My hair is: too long. It gets in the way of stuff
Makeup: smudged black eyeliner and mascara
I’m wearing: holey black socks, girl boxers, black bra, little white top from bay, tight jeans
I’m eating: nothing, just stuffed myself on a big steak burger!
I’m drinking: apple juice, of course!
I’m listening to: nothing at the moment
I’m feeling: a little lost and icky but alright
I’m thinking: about getting through tomorrow at work
I see: computer, my purse, a tissue, a mug and my cat
I need: sleep, a long holiday and hugs
I find: I’m happy to let others make decisions
I want: to wrap up with someone on the sofa
I have: a lovely girly :-) for like the first time, ever
I wish: I knew what I wanted
I love: my pussy cat. teehe
I miss: Sarah. I miss how we used to be
I hate: annoying managers who aren’t your manager butting their nose in at work
I fear: not being good enough
I smell: Mexican food!
I think: I should go to bed
I crave: another carton of apple juice
I wonder: if I ever will be good enough
I regret: kissing boys
I know: opinions
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[13 Jan 2005|06:22pm]
i am feeling very sorry for myself. lizie has gone off to america, matt has gone off to thailand, i have a hacking cough and it looks like i have an ear infection. it hurtssss lotssssss. but hopefully i can get a doctor's appointment tomorrow morning. well, i have to really otherwise i'm screwed and will spend the whole weekend in agony. my work is so ghey though that if you are off ill more than twice in your 6 month probabtion period (i've been on permanent staff for only 2 and a half months) they can sack you. my ear feels like its about to fall off and i might get sacked. great!
and why do i feel so shitty at the end of the week? i haven't seen laura all week and now i'm going to be a moany arse all weekend. we're going on a road trip to cardiff on sunday coz she's got a hockey match there. well, i'm not going to miss it, even if i am half deaf!
good news- i have an interview (they only let people into the course i want to do via interview) for my uni course at brighton on february 16th. woo! woo! so hopefully i won't fuck that up :) they are at least thinking about letting me go there!
and now for the rest of the night i am going to have a bath and go to bed. and feel very sorry for myself. but hooray for the weekend. extra hooray as reed (the agency i used to work for) have randomly given me £90 and i don't know why! so i'm going to go to the rock box on saturday and get lots of cds! :-D
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you are purple girl, purple people aren't allowed opinions! [02 Jan 2005|01:14pm]
[ mood | confused ]

bleurgh, i am tired!
i had a really nice random night last night. i was in my pyjamas all of yesterday after lizie and giles left at about 2ish and just not doing much and texting laura at about 11.30pm. and i basically ended up with her round sam's house with jenny and liam. the latter 2 were there til about 1.30 and then the 3 of us just sat and watched tele and drank and talked crap all night! sam passed out at about 3.30 and me and laura spent hours talking about loads of crap and taking the piss out of each other and i had loads of fun. I told her loads of embarrassing stuff like having to get rid of my dreads coz of nits and my sleepwalking. She’s keeping a tally sheet of all the stupid things I say and all I have to use against her is she said ‘sho’ instead of ‘so’ and something else about an apple composing. It doesn’t really make any sense unless you were there! On Friday I am going to dress up like the blonde woman from abba and be ready to hand her a drink as soon as she gets in to Q and then she’s going to pretend she doesn’t know me for the rest of the night and shout things at me. Its all planned. This is what happens when you watch the Magic music channel for about 6 hours non stop.
you know how you pull someone when you're drunk and then you see them again and wonder what the hell you were thinking? well that's what usually happens with me but i really like laura. she's really cute and funny and doesn't seem shy at all. i'm not really sure what's going on though. she was kind of talking like us pulling each other was all it was, not that she said that, thats just the feeling i got. but she's really cool and i like her loads so hopefully i am wrong. i don't know, these things confuse and scare me. *AAAAAAHHHHH*
and now i am very very tired.

i am also paranoid and a bit confused. people are going to the pub and not inviting me! and i feel very sad and unsocialable. and people have seen fi and i'm really confused as to what i'm supposed to be doing. i thought she didn't want to see anyone. now i'm thinking she just doesn't want to see me. and i don't know why. i didn't even send her my new number (i did text j though) coz i thought she really, really didn't want any contact at all. did i get that totally wrong?

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[22 Dec 2004|05:54pm]
my sister has all her annoying friends over. and my stereo is broken. and my phone. so i can't amuse myself or ring anyone to try and get out of here!
when i was 15 i was staying over praw's all the time so we could go to parties and random places to get drunk. i was getting stoned in the school toilets. i was taking random trips up to london with babs and praw. i found poppers highly amusing (and is it so wrong that i wanted some on saturday at the ag! haha!). and i was a good kid. i'm normal, normal to the point of tears. i got my A stars and had a job, etc. but my sister!? that's just crazy good. well, she's got to rebel some day. i bet she'll be the one that ends up a crack addict living in totland with her 5 kids. and no one would have ever seen it coming.
there's my rant about annoying 15 year olds over.
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[13 Dec 2004|07:07pm]
Body: THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Jenzo
2. Jennog
3. Eggnog

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Spiders
2. My face
3. Not having someone

THREE THINGS THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY:
1. Friends
2. Photographs
3. Music

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Apple juice
2. Internet
3. Sunlight

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. My suave work cardi
2. Jeans
3. 3 pairs of socks

THREE THINGS ABOUT THE SAME }CHANGED{ SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Their smile
2. Their laugh
3. Their huggability

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Singing along badly to songs
2. Getting fucked
3. Dancing like an idiot

THREE THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW:
1. A pretty girl
2. A career plan
3. A place of my own

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Hobo
2. Shop owner (books and music)
3. Academic/writer

THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION:
1. Amsterdam
2. Caribbean
3. Japan

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Travel and live in other countries
2. Make something I am proud of
3. Write a book
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bored of life [11 Dec 2004|11:41am]
i am only wirting this because i am bored.
and i look too shite to leave the house.
so nowadays i seem to try and waste my weekend as much as possible.
in other news i got unconditional offers from anglia (like fuck am i going there) and essex. woot-fucking-woot.

i don't know how to get excited anymore. where's my enthusiasm? i know i put it down here somewhere...}search{
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bleurgh [06 Dec 2004|04:14am]
great, i'm still up and its 4.15am. and this has to happen on a sunday night why!?
i have that really annoying first night of a cold. when you don't even realise you have one until you try to get to sleep. and i have work in under 5 hours. oh joy.
so my only semi-big news is that my ucas application has been sent off, terri willcox did my reference on friday. i should be relieved but all weekend i've felt really 'empty' i think is the only way to describe it. like i can't be arsed to do anything or with anything. when surely i should be excited that i may know what i'm going to be doing for the next 3 years of my life soon.
fucking chemical reactions in my brain.
ok, i feel too poo to write. I HATE COLDS.
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[01 Dec 2004|11:40pm]
1.PICK ONE OF YOUR SCARS OUT, NOW HOW DID YOU GET IT?
a big, long one on the top of my right arm. Me and ellie were drunk, horny and riled up on the way to the ag, talking to lucy about blood play and stuff. We then got lucy to scratch us lots and it was highly enjoyable. Though I did go round the whole night looking like a lion had mauled me!

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
not much, a few random posters dotted round which I’ve never got round to taking down.

3. WOULD YOU RATHER PLAY FOOTBALL OR WATCH IT?
play it, but I’m not very good.

4. WHAT SPORT WOULD YOU SAY YOU ARE BEST AT?
I used to be good at netball, especially as wing attack or goal attack. Netball gets a bad rep but I enjoyed it!

5. WHAT WAS YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE?
I had one really recently where I was in the Warsaw ghetto when the Nazis were liquidising it. That was fucking scary. The only ‘unreal’ aspect of it was they tried to entice me out of me hiding place with packets of quavers. But I seriously thought I was going to die.

6. HOW DO YOU EXERCISE?
um, I walk to and from work. I dance. Hmm, that’s not very good is it!

7. APPLES OR ORANGES?
apples, and the juice they make!

8. GRAPES OR WATERMELON?
grapes, though they are stupidly expensive.

9. WOLVES OR TIGERS?
tigers, I love big cats.

10. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
whatever I’m in the mood for.

11. HAVE YOU EVER WRITTEN POETRY?
yes, but don’t tell anyone. I don’t want to get sent to ea (emo anonymous)

13. DO YOU REMEMBER BIRTHDAYS?
I’m not too bad.

14. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
I think it was something like 4.12 am

15. DO YOU HAVE A BIRTHMARK, WHERE?
I don’t think so. I have a little bloodspot (I don’t actually know if that’s what its called) on one of my cheeks but I don’t think its really noticeable.

16. WOULD YOU CALL YOURSELF A ROMANTIC PERSON?
I don’t know, I think if I really liked someone I could be.

17. WHAT IS THE WEIRDEST THING YOU HAVE EVER DONE?
um where to start!? Ok, the first thing that springs to mind is having sex in woods with army training going on all around us. In the rain. With ben wainhouse. Oh dear.

18. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU STARTED FILLING THIS IN?
watching the season finale of the l word. God it was good! Ok, but now I do need to go and get a real life girl.

19. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE GUM?
just normal mint. Or strawberry. But it makes me worry my teeth are going to fall out.

20. FAVORITE CHOCOLATE?
white chocolate. Or galaxy.

21. FAVORITE CANDY (NON CHOCOLATE)?
skittles.

22. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA ICE-CREAM?
hmm, probably vanilla. On mince pies. Mmm.

23. DO YOU OWN ANYTHING LEATHER?
um, a couple of pairs of boots.

24. FAVOURITE MATERIAL?
um, I wouldn’t really know!

25. FAVORITE PERFUME?
I don’t really notice perfume. Well, I certainly don’t ask people what they’re wearing anyways!

26. DO YOU OWN AN INSTRUMENT?
I may still have a couple of recorders hidden away. I sold my clarinet a couple of months ago for £40. which is a bit depressing really.

27. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ON SOMEONE (OPPOSITE SEX)?
their height. Men come in weird sizes.

28. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
playdough, fires, curry.

29. FAVORITE SOUND THAT YOU HEAR OFTEN?
my cat purring.

30. WHAT ARE YOU THINKING ABOUT RIGHT NOW?
my eyes hurting, work tomorrow.

31. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
not really, unless the people doing the crowding are ones I feel uncomfortable with anyways.

32. COULD YOU EVER SEE YOURSELF MOVING FROM WHERE YOU ARE?
yes, definitely.

33. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DISNEY MOVIE OF ALL TIME?
robin hood. Or finding nemo. One old skool , one nu!

34. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SONG OF ALL TIME?
don’t be silly, that’s impossible to pick.

35. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR WHEN YOU WERE TEN?
don’t remember! Probably red or blue.

36. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?
blue/grey.

37. HAVE YOU EVER SLEPT WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?
I used to have animals in my bed, not just one. No intimate relations though.

38. IF SO WHAT WAS/IS IT'S NAME?
I don’t remember all their names!

39. WHO WAS YOUR FIRST CRUSH WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE?
I don’t remember real life. I really liked cody on neighbours though! And Jason from take that! Haha!

40. MOST EMBARRASSING CHILDHOOD MOMENT?
being at someone’s party and going to the loo, forgetting to pull my knickers down and weeing in them. I think pretty much everyone knew!

41. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Ok, lets just do same sex. I like punky hair styles. Like amy’s mullet, or an undercut, or a little Mohawk or something. Punk girls are cute, as long as they aren’t drifting into emo!


42. WHO OUT OF YOUR FRIENDS (SAME SEX) HAVE YOU KNOWN THE LONGEST?
praw

43. NOW THE OPPOSITE?
alex

44. WHAT IS THEIR MIDDLE NAME?
praw’s is anne. I don’t know is alex has one.

45. SUNRISE OR SUNSET?
either, I love them both. Sunset when you’re with loads of mates and you know you’re going to have a great night. Sunrise after that great night!

46. WHERE AT?
someone’s back garden or a music festival.

47. (FOR THE LADIES, BE TRUTHFUL) WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT?
well, if it ever happened I would want it to be somewhere private. Just our house would be fine.

48. (NOW THE GENTLEMEN, BE TRUTHFUL) WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING?

49. WHAT ARE YOUR FIVE FAVORITE MOVIES?
1. city of god
2. to kill a mockingbird
3. girl, interrupted
4. visitor q. hehe!
5. robin hood.

50. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF GOING FOR YOUR HONEYMOON?
Somewhere hot.

51. CAN YOU PLAY AN INSTRUMENT?
clarinet, violin, recorder. All very badly.

52. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?
i used to speak german.

53. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX ?)
haha, when we were going out alan gave me a tub of marshmallows and a dino stuffed toy. Oh my god!

54. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE SINGER?
male- david bowie. Female- ani difranco.

55. FAVORITE BAND(s)?
the clash, queen, spice girls, herbaliser, 2 many djs, pulp, etc etc etc.

56. WHAT KIND OF BOOKS DO YOU LIKE TO READ?
political, historical, gender studies, philosophical. On the whole anyways.

57. DO YOU LIKE POETRY?
I find most of it very hard to read. But some is breathtaking.

58. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR COFFEE?
I don’t know, I haven’t tried it since I was like 12!

59. WHAT's YOUR FAVORITE PHRASE TO USE?
’ghey’, ‘blatently’ ‘how about no’, etc etc etc

60. DRAGONS OR DINOSAURS?
dragons

61. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
well, you can’t really stop yourself falling in love.

62. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
get drunk!

63. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
67

64. BLONDES, REDHEADS OR BRUNETTES?:
all of the above.

65. WOULD YOU PREFER TO GO ICE SKATING OR ROLLER SKATING?
roller skating. Ooh, I’m going to relearn how! Woo! Mission!

66. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
sarah’s mobile. I know it off by heart now!

67. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
2 people talking to me at the same time, I get very confused and feel rude when i then choose which person to focus on first.

68. HAVE YOU EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
yeh, I’m crap at them though. I just laugh.

69. WHO IS YOUR CURRENT CRUSH?
um I don’t know, I haven’t actually been out in like 3 weeks!
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anarchist bookfair [27 Nov 2004|03:01pm]
i just got back from the anarchist bookfair in london and my hands are fucking killing me from carrying about 100 pamphlets and 13 books!
there were so many beautiful women there. i know i always go on about pretty girls but seriously! it was well good! loads of stalls and talks, etc. i only stayed for 4 hours but it was so good. i'm definately going to try and get more involved.

hmm, so lets see what books i got!

i got some absolute classics--->
'the ecology of freedom'- murray bookchin
'mutual aid-- kropotkin
'anarchism and other essays'- emma goldman
'living my life:volume 1'- emma goldman
'the sexual revolution- william reich

a few eco-anarchy books besides bookchin--->
'do or die: volume 9'
'do or die: volume 10'
'beyond bookchin: preface for a future social ecology'- david watson

and also got--->
'instead of education'- john holt
'legalise this: the case for decriminalising drugs'- douglas husak
'visions of poesy'- an anthology of 20th century anarchist poetry
'the student revolt'- colin crouch (about the revolts in the late 60s at the LSE)
'patients front/socialist patient's collective' booklet which was something so original and interesting the dutch man was talking to me about it for 15 minutes!
3 anarchy stars badges- 1 black/red (anarcho-communism/syndicalism), 1 black/green (eco-anarchist) and 1 black/purple (feminist/queer anarchist)

so all in all i am most pleased!

i must end on a sad note though- why oh-fucking-god-why have a hundred reasons done a cover of 'how soon is now?" it sounded bloody awful! i fear for hannah's sanity if she hears it!
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[25 Nov 2004|06:59pm]
20 Years Ago, I...
n/a. did not exist in any shape or form!

15 Years Ago, I...
1. had an annoying baby sister
2. i had really, really blonde hair
3. i loved sesame street

10 Years Ago, I...
1. was in mrs mitchell's class
2. played violin
3. had take that stationary

5 Years Ago, I...
1. was deciding what subjects to do for gcse
2. was going out with daniel mcnaughton
3. loved the spice girls! hehe

3 Years Ago, I...
1. was having a laugh at school
2. getting drunk in woods and play areas!
3. doing a paper round

1 Year Ago, I...
1. still at college
2. in love and in horrible places because of it
3. loved going to the ag

So far this year, I...
1. didn't get into sussex uni
2. got a fulltime job
3. grown as an individual

Yesterday, I...
1. went to the dentist's
2. went xmas shopping in reading
3. took out my smiley and ear piercings

Today, I...
1. got trained by yvonne how to do the post and diary, which i'm going to be in charge of on my team. *authority!*
2. wore my cool grey sweater vest
3. tried to help helen prepare for her blind date!

Tomorrow, I...
1. will stay in to save money and get up early on saturday to go to london
2. do more training for the post and diary
3. wear my cool new coat
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[24 Nov 2004|01:01pm]
god dammit, i have to take my smiley piercing out before it starts rotting my gums and teeth. boo hoo hoo. i'm losing piercings quicker than i'm gaining them.
oh well, at least it gives me a real reason to go into reading for xmas presents. not just for the cute girls and the cute coat in rockaround!

i will never lose my septum or nipple piercings. *cross fingers*


****LATER****

this is a public message- beautiful red haired girl does still work at rockaround! she must just not work saturdays!
i am so ghey.
and lauren- those bloody coats weren't in the sale any more! silly me! but i still bought one because its beautiful and makes me feel like an old man/actually cool person.
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because i am bored [22 Nov 2004|06:21pm]
10 places I want to go to by the time I’m 30

1. Sydney, on New Year’s Eve
2. San Francisco
3. New York
4. Dublin, on St Patrick’s Day
5. Japan
6. The Caribbean, again
7. Anywhere in South America
8. Berlin, not on a college trip this time
9. Egypt, to see the pyramids
10. Jerusalem

10 things I want to learn by the time I’m 30

1. How to pierce people
2. Spanish
3. Drive a camper van
4. Ride a motorbike
5. How to make my own bread
6. How to grow my own vegetables
7. Drums
8. How to meditate, properly
9. How to live with myself
10. Lots more about history, philosophy, politics and sociology

10 things I want to do by the time I’m 30

1. Pierce people
2. Write a book
3. Get flesh tunnels god dammit!
4. Come out to my family
5. Work in a gay bar
6. Do lots of charity work
7. Be tattooed and pierced more
8. Not eat meat
9. Sleep with a girl from Eastern Europe/South America/Japan! Or all 3!
10. Teach people

i need more lists to do, i am a geek. woo woo!
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[20 Nov 2004|11:29pm]
i just had to write this, its making me laugh and cringe so much.
just got in from the cattleprod gig at the tumbley and my parents and gran are talking about lesbians, as my mum and dad went to prague a couple of weeks ago, arranged through some social thing at my dad's work, and another couple that went are lesbians. its just so funny.
my mum- "it was alright actually col wasn't it? as long as they weren't doing it in front of us" yes, lesbians often 'do it' in public, just to piss straight people off i hear. *roll eyes*
my gran- "oh yes, we have lesbians round our way" and "you know there was this girl at school and i always felt there was something weird about her because she ran like a boy"

sigh
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[16 Nov 2004|06:37pm]
i love books, i'm such a geek. i have only just started reading this amazingly insightful book called 'sexing the body'. its so interesting. and so great when you find someone who not only thinks the same as you but also adds to your understanding of things. how sex, gender, sexual orientation, race etc, none of them are either or. its all one massive continuum. just look at how different a person's shade of skin from iceland is to that of somone from say italy. yet they're both supposedly white. it just shows how empty and meaningles all these labels are. and how much choice we have in defining ourselves. ok, yeh, i'm obviously not going to come out and say i'm black but the fact that i identify as white really doesn't mean much. just as the facts that i would also identify myself as a woman. sure, in my case to look at me that makes sense but not for everyone.
i'm just rambling now. its just a really interesting book and it really got me thinking.
and i'm going to the anarchist bookfair in london the saturday after next so i get to buy lots more interesting books. woo! :-D
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[16 Nov 2004|08:35am]
o1.Your name spelled backwards?: esahc refinnej

o2. Where were your parents born? My mum was born in kent and my dad in Clapham, london

o3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer? Some photos from Q

o4. What's your favorite restaurant? The crab and anchor in south wood. Mmm, massive meals and sexy foreign student waiteresses

o5. Last time you swam in a pool? Sophie’s house party in like august!

o6. Have you ever been in a school play? Yeh, I was one of Tallulah’s dancers in Bugsy Malone in year 6 and I played Mary once in a nativity at play school

o7. How many kids do you want? None really, what will be will be

o8. Type of music you dislike most? Crappy little dancey poppy songs about nothing

o9. Are you registered to vote? I presume so, I got a voting card for the local and European elections back in may

10. Do you have a car? Um, kinda, I drive it around!

11. Have you ever ridden on a moped? Don’t think I have actually

12. Ever prank call anybody? Yeah, not since I was like 12 though

13. Ever get a parking ticket? No thank god, I get really scared of getting them though!

14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? Probably sky diving, I think you can enjoy it more

15. Furthest places you ever traveled? St lucia

16. Do you have a garden? yessum

17. What's the size of your bed? single

18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? Only the first verse, its fucking easy to remember. And shit.

19. Bath or Shower, morning or night? Showers in the morning, baths at night

20. Best movie you've seen in the past 4 months? City of god

21. What's the next movie you want to see? I dunno, I’m shit with keeping up with movies

22. Chips or popcorn? Chips, English or American version!

23. Have you ever broken any hearts? I doubt it highly

24. Premarital sex? Yes, marriage is arse. To put it simpley and vaguely!

25. Are you a good cook? no, but I want to be

26. Orange or Apple juice? Apple juice all the way!

27. Who was the last person you went out to dinner with and where did you dine? Hehe, Hannah and I went to bella Italia because we had time to kill before a gig

28. Favorite type of mixed drink? Vodka and red bull

29. Best thing(s) in the world? A really good night out with all your friends, staying up all night and talking to someone you love and setting the world to rights, getting someone to sit on your lap so you can hug them lots, your favourite song coming on when you’re at your drunkest, waking up in a room full of your friends after a party, etc.

30. Have you ever broken a bone? Not my own. I did contribute to my sister breaking her collarbone.

31. Have you ever won a trophy? I won 2 trophies when I used to play football, but only shitty ’23 feel sorry for you’ ones!

32. What is your favorite board game? monopoly.

33. What is your dream car? a mini or beetle babay. If I see a woman driving a beetle I tend to fall in love with her! Unless its praw clone and her ugly orange one! Haha! Ooh ooh, or a camper van *drool*

34. Ever order an article from an infomercial? nope

35. Coke or Pepsi? whatever

36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work? Yep, lime green polo neck to asda. And I feel like I’m wearing school uniform when I go to work in an office now

37. Last thing you bought at a pharmacy? Hair dye me thinks

38. Who are you going to marry? How the hell do I know!? No one!

39. Who would you like to meet? Lots of people, mostly dead!

40. Do you believe in love at first sight? No, lust definately

41. What features do you find most attractive in the opposite sex? Ummmm…nope, don’t know, men aren’t attractive!

42. Where would you go for a romantic evening? venice

43. How many pairs of shoes do you own? About 5!

44. Last song stuck in your head? Baby got back!

45. What's your all time favorite Saturday Night Live Character? What?

46. What is one thing you would like to learn to do? Speak fluent spanish

47. What do you do when you are bored? this

48. What is one thing you would want someone to appreciate about you? That I try and do the right thing by my friends, I often have good intentions

49. What is one thing you are grateful for today? Not much, it’s a Tuesday!



AFI or Ensign? Haven’t heard ensign so afi
Brand New or Dashboard Confessional? Haven’t heard enough of either
Circle Takes the Square or Underoath? Don’t know them
Misfits or Tiger Army? Umm, maybe misfits
The Used or The Ataris? neither
Poison the Well or Finch? Poison the well
Thrice or Thursday? thursday
Taking Back Sunday or Saves the Day? Saves the day
Silverstein or A Static Lullaby? Don’t know them
Further Seems Forever or At The Drive-In? at the drive in
Dimmu Borgir or Children of Bodom? dimmu
Eighteen Visions or Hatebreed? Um, maybe hatebreed
Blindside or Die Trying? Don’t know them
Zao or As I Lay Dying? Don’t know them
Ramones or The Clash? the clash
The Agony Scene or Dead Poetic? Dead poetic maybe
NOFX or The Vandals? the vandals
Anti-flag or Bad Religion? anti flag
Something Corporate or Yellowcard? neither
Weezer or The Strokes? The strokes
The Vines or The Hives? the hives
Early November or Matchbook Romance? Don’t know them
Coheed & Cambria or Mae? coheed and cambria
Jack Off Jill or Otep? neither
Placebo or HIM? placebo
A Perfect Circle or Tool? tool
Marilyn Manson of Nine Inch Nails? nine inch nails
Deftones or Staind? deftones
Korn or Godsmack? korn
CKY or Blink 182? neither
Silverchair or Goldfinger? Goldfinger maybe
Chevelle or Taproot? neither
Kenna or The Yeah Yeah Yeahs? yeah yeah yeahs
Fuel or Our Lady Peace? Don’t know theml
Pantera or Slayer? pantera
Nickelback or Puddle of Mudd? neither
Son of Sam or AFI? Afi, I guess
Rufio or The Starting Line? Don’t know them
Midtown or Homegrown? Don’t know them
Less Than Jake or Slick Shoes? less than jake
Bowling For Soup or Boxcar Racer? boxcar racer
The Suicide Machines or Down? down
Avenged Sevenfold or Killswitch Engage? Killswitch maybe
Minor Threat or Social Distortion? Don’t know
Green Day or Sublime? green day
Bleeding Through or Throwndown? Don’t know
Norma Jean or Remembering Never? I guess u dnt mean marlin Monroe so, um, neither
From Autumn to Ashes or Further Seems Forever? *yawn*

I got bored and deleted the rest!
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hello again [13 Nov 2004|06:21pm]
sooo, what have i been up to?
went to reading today with lauren as she stayed over mine after Q last night. i bought christy's xmas present which isn't what i was going to get her but i still think its funny. i also got a couple of books from oxfam (one of them signed by naomi wolff *ooh, aah*) and talked to some palestinian protest people who were very lovely. and they were selling a dead wasp on a fake flower in a glass dome in t k maxx. very random. i finally got my septum pierced again, and it hardly hurt at all! i was a bit scared because not only is the septum thick cartilage but this time it would be going through a slight scar. aldershot just suck me thinks. and talking about that, i found a book in fopp about the 100 worst towns in the country and aldershot was in it, and rightly so!
Q was good last night as giles and lizie were there which was lovely. and it was irish's birthday. woo!
i've been put on permanant contract at work which is cool and i'm still enjoying it though evil fake flirty jenny bint seems to have a tendency for sacking people, especially girls, so i still don't feel very secure. saving is going alrightish so that is cool.
bought loads of new clothes recently, nice and cheap. lalala. um, i have purple hair again which i love. i have new glasses which cost a fuckload but look much nicer than my old ones and i needed them because my eyes are getting even worse. i had my hair cut which means its all the same length now and kind of under control at last!
my cat has diabetes :-( i don't want to talk about that because it makes me sad. we have to inject him twice a day and it might not make him better anyways. he seems alright in himself though. my poor booboo. he's not as poodgey as he used to be either *sniff*
got the dentists wednesday after next and going xmas shopping with sarah and to check out the tattoo studio in basingstoke as i took the day off.
um, my uni stuff is slowly getting sorted out, i just have to get back in touch with the right people at college to see if my reference has been done and then find out about paying. then sit back and hope i get into brighton.
i'm on a diet and its going ok. i'm not very good at exercise though, especially as its all dark and cold and stuff now.
um, might be going to a strip club, then the candy bar on rickshaws for this random girl sophia's 21st next weekend as christy met her at havoc. very, very random!
praw is pissed off at me and random people i don't even know are commenting on our friendship saying i 'stabbed her in the back' which infact i never have. and i'm not entirely sure how i can fix it so i'm just leaving it for a bit to see if she becomes less pissed off with me. it was really getting me down at the beginning of last night so i'd rather not talk about it really. because apart from being a shitty friend and too tired to do anything most of the time i'm sorting out lots of little things in my life which are making me feel better.
oh, and having a girlfriend to stop me being so bloody lonely would be nice too, but i suppose you can't have everything.
ho hum. xxx
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...about to go to bed [06 Nov 2004|11:43pm]
.X. Starting time: 23.43
.X. you can call me: jenzo.
.X. Nicknames: jennog, eggy, etc etc etc.
.X. School: north farnborough infants, st peter juniors, cove secondary and farnboroguh 6th form!
.X. Hair: got cut today. wanted it all choppy and messy but didn't really have enough hair to play with! *must grow some of undercut out!* blonde but will be going a lot darker tomorrow.
.X. Eyes: blue/grey.
.X. Height: i think about 5ft5. i don't really know.
.X. Siblings: 1 15 year old sister called hanah.

------HAVE YOU EVER...------
.X. Helped somebody cheat?: yep. for example a certain pool game between me and christy versus praw and rory!
.X. Missed school b/c it was raining? maybe college yeh.
.X. Set any body part on fire for amusement?: i don't think so...!
.X. Kept a secret from everyone?: yes
.X. Had an imaginary friend?: nope.
.X. Wanted to hook up with a friend? not really no.
.X. Cried during a Flick?: yep.
.X. Had a crush on a teacher?: not overly no. maybe miss lovett when i was like 13!
.X. Ever thought an animated character was hot?: i agree with lizie, jessica rabbit and betty boop are hot.
.X. Ever at anytime owned a New Kids on the Block tape?: no, i think i was a little too young.
.X. Prank called someone?: we used to go to the phone box at lunch time to ring sexline and laugh down the phone. and at praw's we'd ring random people and try to make out their partner was having an affair with us! i was always really crap though because i just laugh.
.X. Been on stage?: yeh. i met sooty and sweep baby!

------FAVORITE------
.X. Shampoo: wouldn't know.
.X. Colors: any really. i even like grey and brown now!
.X. Day/Night: day at the moment, i just fall asleep when it gets dark. but when i'm not so lazy night time.
.X. Summer/Winter: summer. always seems to be more going on.
.X. Online Smiley: the embarrassed one.

------PEOPLE------
.X. Do you like anyone?: um, i like lots of people! but if you mean 'like' like then sadly i have no one.
.X. Who have you known the longest of your friends?: praw.
.X. Name your best friend(s): sigh, i can't be arsed to write a list yet again!
.X. Who's the loudest?: babs.
.X. Who's the shyest?: adrian/sarah. though not the latter when she's drunk.
.X. Who do you go to for advice?: usually whoever i see or talk to first, they're all great.
.X. Who do you cry with?: unless i'm blind drunk i tend not to cry with people.

------IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS, HAVE YOU...------
.X. Cried?: yes
.X. Cut your hair?: yes. shock horror.
.X. Worn a skirt?: um, no, i don't think so.
.X. Been mean?: nt overly, but i guess i must have been at some point.
.X. Been sarcastic?: yep.
.X. Missed someone?: yes :-(
.X. Hugged someone?: yes.
.X. Fought with your parents?: no.
.X. Wished upon a star?: no.
.X. Laughed until you cried?: yes.
.X. Played Truth or Dare?: no.
.X. Watched a sunrise/sunset?: no. i'm sitting in an office when the sun goes down now its winter.
.X. Went to the beach at night?: nope.
.X. Read a book for fun?: yep.
.X. Ate a meal?: um, if i hadn't had a meal in 2 weeks i'd be fucking starving!

------MISCELLANEOUS------
.X. Are you lonely?: yes.
.X. Are you happy?: mostly yes, i seem to go through depressvie stages which i can't control though.
.X. Are you talking to someone online?: nope, only lizie and hannah around but they're both away and if i start talking to them i'll be here a while and will have to rudely leave and go to bed!

------DO YOU BELIEVE IN...-----
.X. God/Devil: i don't know.
.X. Love?: yes.
.X. The Closet Monster?: no.
.X. The Big Bang Theory?: i can't understand it.
.X. Heaven/Hell?: i don't know.
.X. Superstitions?: i don't know.

------MORE MISCELLANEOUS------
.X. What is your full name?: jennifer rachel chase.
.X. Who named you?: my mum and dad.
.X. Backstreet Boys or N Sync?: backstreet boys.
.X. When was the last time you showered?: this morning.
.X. What was the last thing that you said online?: probbaly 'good night'
.X. What is right next to you?: apple juice, hole punch and a feeder cd (not mine i hasten to add!)
.X. What is your computer desk made of?: i don't know. which isn't a good sign!
.X. What was the last thing that you ate?: a microwaved curry and i'm not sure if it was completely cooked.
.X. What is your favorite state?: california or new york. not ohio that is for sure. or anywhee in the bible belt. those places strike the fear of god into me! please note though- i have never actually been to america!
.X. Where do you want to go on your honeymoon?: i don't want a honeymoon. i'd like to go lots of places in my lifetime though.
.X. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with?: someone who loves me. obviously!
.X. How many buddies do you have on your list: about 37 i think.
.X. How's the weather right now?: cold and wet.
.X. What did you do last night?: got really drunk at home. got to Q about 10, was sick a lot, went home and was in bed by 11. fucking genius.
.X. What's the best thing that you find about the opposite sex?: they make me feel glad i was born a woman and not one of them.
.X. Favorite hair color in the opposite sex: i don't care!
.X. Pizza or ice cream?: ooh, you can't make me decide that!
.X. How do YOU eat an Oreo?: i don't remember. the only time i've eaten them is in year 9 when my design tech teacher mr palmer used to bring them in for us!
.X. Dream car?: a mini or beetle.
.X. What do you want to be when you grow up?: an intellectual with grey scraggly hair, lots of troubled foster kids and a little homely house.
.X. What are your future goals?: in the short run to save money for uni, actually get into uni (d'oh) and be less self-centred.
.X. Favorite music?: lots of different kinds.
.X. Least favorite time of the year: i don't mind any time really.
.X. Fast or slow?: a good mixture.
.X. Did you notice that number 90 was missing?: there aren't any numbers, so no, not really.
.X. If you could change your name, what would it be?: meh, i'll just stick with the boring one i have.
.X. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: uh, no. i sleep with people.
.X. Have you ever been in love?: yes
.X. What will your first son's name be?: um, i'll decide if i ever have to after he's born!
.X. Favorite drink?: apple juice.
.X. Do you like scary or happy movies better?: as long as they're actually any good i don't care.
.X. Lust or Love? love.
.X. Do you consider cheerleading a sport?: no.
.X. Do you want your friends to do this survey?: nah, its all very pointless!
.X. When's your birthday?: 22nd may.
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another four fucking years [03 Nov 2004|08:08am]
i actually had a little cry this morning about the state of the world, one that looks like its going to have bush cavorting all over it for another 4 years. what the hell is wrong with americans?
see, i get torn here because i don't believe in the validity in any of these so called democracies but god, at a time like this you'd just have to go out and vote for the lesser of 2 evils.
govermental democracy is not freedom. it is not democracy. don't ever be fooled.
out of a nation of hundreds of millions it boils down to 2 grey-haired white men having any chance of becoming the most powerful man on earth? it boils down to a few hundred thousand voters in a few 'swing states'. it boils down to 2 political parties that are always going to be right of centre. and this is the same all over the western world. where i live there is no point even thinking about voting labour because they just won't get in. you either vote conservertive because you're a tory or lib dem because you're not a tory. what a load of shit.
its days like this that make my views so much stronger. but sadly also days like this seem to show how hard it will be to ever see my dreams come true.
sigh, political rant over. hell knows what the world is going to look like in 4 years time. i'm scared. i'm angry. and i don't understand americans. well. maybe i do, and that is what scares me. the most liberal country in the world!? hmm, try looking at holland. the most democratic country in the world!? um, switzerland anyones?
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rome baby! [25 Oct 2004|07:54am]
woo, i'm going to rome in april. how cheeky is this-my mum just eased it into conversation that i'd have a free house for a week because my parents would be taking my sister and her friend to rome, and they didn't even bother inviting me! so i invited myself. mmm, rome-lots of culture, history and museums (i'm sad-i like that sort of thing), italian food and wine, italian women-watching!
woo! i'm well looking forward to it!
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