| can you read my mind? |
[05 Nov 2002|12:14pm] |
some lady made me take this test. its one of the Enneagram tests. theyre suppose to tell you about you. well heres what it tell me:
"Around most people and even friends I feel alone. While I like to follow otheres and I dont like the take charge of others either. I will go the extra mile to make others around me feel at ease."
-- thats all true.
i guess i do have a lot of emotions but i do hide them.. just figures no one cares and i dont want to burden them with my probs when i should be helping them with theirs. and i guess because i dont tell them my probs i also dont tell them much about whats going on in my life... therefore i feel alone.
back to the test:
"There is no point in dwelling on what you cant change. I like helping others, but I forget about myself. I belive you have to go along to get along. I am content with my lot in life."
-- yet again true.
a friend of mine died.. i cant change it. cant go back. why dwell on it? why not look forward and try and cheer up and live how they wouldve wanted me to? i wasnt the top notch student in school. i was smart (yeah im humble) but i just didnt see the point in doing homework to prove it. well now im living with the consequences. i cant change it, but theres no point in quiting or despare cause of what i did. just work with what i got now and progress. deal with now and the future, not then and the past. and refer to above.. i do forget about myself and help others more. and despite everything... im alive. ive got a roof and clothes and a car and soon a decent job... im content with where i am now. sure it could be better but what i got is good too.
to sum up the rest basically it says:
"You desire peace, for everyone to get along...
You desire reason, to make sense of things...
You desire fun, to not be over come with unhappiness...
You desire control, for people to respect your strength...
You desire loyalty, for people to stand by you..."
we analyzed it further and stuff. basically she figures i dont think much of myself. either self conscience or just dont think im worth much, or worth all the effort.
id reather others be happy... which is true.
ive been too hard on myself. and put myself down too much, which isnt healthy.
i learned alot about me from this test. i suggest if your up for it you go see a shrink. i dont think they all give you a test but this one felt like i needed to see what kind of person i am so she made me take it. i felt a lot better after i took it. doesnt fix everything... just a better understanding on where im comeing from.
not too shabby
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