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freezie chicken [26 Aug 2014|02:52pm]
[ mood | amused ]

I'll figure it out later;
Right now I have to decide which book to read next.

Also, chicken doesn't thaw when it's in a freezer. I should take that out now..


Briuh [26 Aug 2014|02:50pm]
[ mood | creative ]

Think I wana make a new journal, ditch this one, & start fresh✨


Indian captive [26 Aug 2014|02:15pm]
[ mood | grateful ]

It's funny how when things aren't exactly how you'd like them to be, the stress can build & overflow into other parts of your life where it doesn't belong.
Not working for 3 months seems like a nice vacation, but what's it worth when you have no money to enjoy yourself and even worse, you watch the one you love bust their ass, just to have no money to enjoy themselves too.
I'm not saying you need money to be happy (at all) but when I say "enjoy myself" I mean being able to enjoy gas in the car, food on the table, and fresh clean clothes without worrying about not having money for emergencies.
Plus, it would be nice to actually take an actual vacation

But worrying about a job has lead me to dislike where I live, wonder if I even want to bother finishing school, and stress about the unknown future, what steps to take next, if they're the right steps...."oh! what am I doing?" "why is everything so expensive?" "So bored.."

But now that I may have a job opportunity, all of a sudden I like our apartment & am even thankful that we found it. I'm already making plans in my head for when and how I can go back to school, even starting a workout routine seems easier now.

I'd rather have a job that I hate instead of having no job and hating everything else. Not just for money, but for purpose.

Thank You God


chicken fried rice [18 Aug 2014|05:13pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

It was a good day.
Stretched, dry.brushed, showered, tackled all the dishes, walked to the grocery store, made dinner, mailed my shirts that girl bought off me, talked to my mom n dad,
I even wore make.up today ^.^
under-eye concealer by teamine, Naked BB cream by Urban Decay, lip.stick by VS in melon out and black mascara by Maybelline

I have an interview tomorrow πŸ’–

My love is finally home from work. Bout to top off this good day with an even better night now that he's home ;)


squeeeeeezie* [17 Aug 2014|08:37pm]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | air.conditioner ]

my squeezie.toy [a.k.a. Andrew] is napping & I just wanna squeeze him but I don't wana wake him.. Oh the struggle.

Have a 🚬, read some more of my book "Indian Captive", stay off the internet, call my dad ...

May be if I kiss him he'll wake up ...



if i stumble, they're guna eat me alive [15 Aug 2014|02:16pm]
[ mood | determined ]
[ music | Metric ]

help, I'm alive
my heart keeps beating like a hammer
hard to be soft
tough to be tender


argh [15 Aug 2014|02:12pm]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | Hang me up to dry - Cold.War.Kids ]

i fucked up & walked to the store & bought 2 loosies . 😩


🚬 [15 Aug 2014|12:56pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | cars go by ]


i need a job.. it's been 3 months. This is very unlike me.😐
& i do not like our landlord. or neighborhood. i wanna leave.
so, now's the time i decide to quit smoking (again) may be i just enjoy torturing myself..
"Oh, you couldn't be anymore stressed. Between a job, $$$issues, school, the crappy place you live, let's top it off with nicotine withdrawal, just to start smoking again once things start going good." Insane? lol no i'm sure we'll end up buying a pack of smokes tonight...

then we'll try to make things right.
till then, just gotta fight..

 comment. [16 Oct 2013|03:17am]
[ mood | blah ]
[ music | futurama ]

go.fucking.figure, baby. you're up & it's passed 3 a.m. ;but look on the bright side: you have a piece of nicorette in your mouth. [that means something, you know..]
set.backs.. set backs...
seems to be the trend lately for me but it's no biggie - I jump.ahead sometimes''cha.know.?
n it seems that's about to happen. cuz shit's getting boring.
i'm bored.?
it may be part of it but it's just the tip
g'night ♥ xo*


summer don't go.! fall are you here yet.? [16 Sep 2013|06:06pm]
[ mood | recumbent ]
[ music | sponge.Bob ]

fall is officially 6 days away, & the weather lately has been a great reminder of that.
i'm still holding on to the last days of summer with my sandals & refusing to wear a coat. [ long sleeves are starting to not be good enough, tho ]
UGH but I can't totally embrace fall until it's actually here. so I guess i'm sad that I only have a week left to wear my sandals..but at the same time 1 week can't go by fast enough so I could wear my boots ;]


check.mate [11 Sep 2013|02:34pm]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | air.conditioning ]

I dno really why he was standing on the table to play the game of chess, but he said he knew how to play & that he'd show me how too. After about 7 minutes or so he won, but I don't think he knew exactly how to play..
I told him good job anyway.
then he told me I had to give him ten dollars but I didn't have $10 so we watched cartoons instead until his mom got home.
I always love spending time with my Godson


The Perks of Being a Wallflower [10 Sep 2013|04:00pm]
[ mood | blah ]
[ music | my.thoughts ]

"So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be."


tequilla [09 Sep 2013|05:52pm]
[ mood | excited ]
[ music | South.Park ♥ ]

i left this morning to find out what classes i needed to take this spring & came home not too long ago with a schedule for mon. & wed. this fall..
this fall like, the 23rd
how the hell did that happen
oh well YAY.
now if i can just make some money.


Smokkaaayyy [06 Sep 2013|03:53am]
[ mood | high ]
[ music | Ridiculousness ]

I know it's almost 4 a.m., I know this.
but i'm guna stay up anyway.
cuz it's Friday,
& I ain't got shit to do.


Dark.Paradise* [05 Sep 2013|03:29pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

There's no remedy for memory.
Your face is like a melody
it won't leave my head.
Your soul is haunting me & telling me that
everything is fine.
But I wish I was Dead.


Rilakkuma where you at yo* [12 Jun 2013|06:05pm]
[ mood | sore ]
[ music | Diners.Drive-ins.&Dives ]

*sigh* the past 5 days kicked my ass for some reason. my muscles hurt all over. oh right .. that's the reason ---> i'm outta shape. ugh what a tragedy ...
really though, today i'm a lump. Rilakkuma should be here chillin' .w. me, cuz we'd both be into doing the same thing: layin' around, listening to music, snacking, sitting on the swing under the grapevines .. may be even read a book.? honestly, I wana do nothing.
if it wasn't so hott out i'd take a bubble.bath*
but i'll take a shower instead, soon enough, a cool one.

later bytches xo


Are you living up to your potential.? [28 May 2013|09:11pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]
[ music |* ]

When you imagine yourself in 5 years, you feel:
C.-> A little confused, to be honest. You still haven't figured out what you want to be yet.

Your work offers to transfer you to a new city with a hefty bonus. You:
C.-> Jump at the chance. You're ready to start the next phase of your life!

When you wake up most mornings, you tend to feel:
C. -> Like you have so much to offer the world but you don't know how to make that happen.

You think the guy you're dating may not be THE ONE. You:
C. -> Coast along and hope you'll get a sign as to whether to stay or go. You find it so hard to cut things off.

When you hear about a promotion opportunity at work, you:
A. -> Jump at the chance to apply for the job. This is the moment you've been waiting for!

Your career goals are covered, so-so guys won't cut it for you, and you've tapped into the powerful relationship between passion and achievement.
HA.! Passion.? yes. Achievement .. well I know i'm capable but i havn't seen it yet.! was NOT expecting that result ... makes me feel a little better though, cause i can really relate to my answer for question #3.
{Cosmo quiz btw, June.13 issue}
i reactivated my facebook and it's just as dumb as ever. i like keeping in touch with all the people i know on there tho.
this rain is making me think may be i should wait till Monday to start my work.out routine. i really don't mind running in the rain tho if it's warm ...


shatter. [27 May 2013|12:35am]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music |* ]

i just spent all fucking night cleaning broken glass.
first in my from days ago that i'm still finding pieces of in the carpeting, then just now when I was getting a glass of milk., everywhere, for days ..


cat*shit. [22 May 2013|01:21pm]
[ mood | hot ]
[ music | birds.chirping ]

never in my life did I ever think I would be knee deep in used kitty*litter in the hot 80 degree afternoon sun.

Amber finally got a house.

it's a nice house, in a nice neighborhood, with other nice houses.

her backyard has a little 5 by 5 garden fenced off that no one has obviously planted in a long time because it was filled with dead straw-like weeds and a pile of concrete rocks in the middle. so we decided to tackle it and grow some stuff.

about a minute into shoveling this "crumbled concrete and rocks" I discovered something,
something terrible.
it was not rocks. it was a pile of used cat litter, soaked with piss and shit, the smell of the contaminated chemicals wafting in the hot breeze. and right into my face and mouth.
we didn't have gloves or a mask... so we kept going ...
then it got worse.
because there was no dirt underneath, but a giant felt tarp, soaked with nastiness.
as much as we shoveled, it was still too heavy to lift off the dirt. so we got a knife and slowly sliced it into sections, with shit under our fingernails and bugs and spiders crawling up our legs, while the sweat on our faces combined with the fine layer of cat litter dust that had collected around our eyes and mouth.
"fuck this, fuck whoever the scumbag who did this, and fuck everyone who is not helping us right now"
that's all I could keep saying to keep me going.
we're planting tomatoes today.


[12 May 2013|11:14pm]
[ mood | crushed ]



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